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“TIME IS UP BEAOCHES!!!! Lets do this!!” vj yelled, causing some to jump, others to groan, ad some to sigh tiredly.
“What shall we be reacting to this time dear?” lilia smiled, “your son actually!! Siillvveeerrrrr” a few chocked on there spit having not known, those who did though snorted at others reactions.
Lilia chuckled at the others reaction, especially silvers embarrassed face. “My my! Well i Cant wait!!” “good good, so! Lets get started.” vj snapped his fingers causing those who were standing to appear in theyre seats.
Leona and silver sat together near the back, ortho and the firsties at the front.
The screen faded out, showing a fast asleep silver who was slowly came to consciousness, hes thoughts rang out loud and clear.
Fuck, not again; i know i cant control this but oms it gets annoying.
Silver was annyed with himself, he wouldnt be able to tell you why, it was just a long day of mistake’s after mistake’s, yet if you asked others they would say he did great, but all he could see were the mistakes he had done.
Silver slowly sat up, dizziness hitting him.
Gyah, my head
“Why was your head hurting?” Riddle asked, “ah, probably from having fallen down when i passed out.” ut wasnt unknown that silver may sometiesm fall if no one's there to catch him, but he must have fallen hard if his head was dizzy like that
“What time is it?” silver yawned while talking, slugishly pulling hes phone out from hes pocket to check the time, only to be faced with a galring time of 6:00pm “shit” silver said under hes breath.
Silver carefully moved up, gathering the stuff he had dropped, the night sky shineying down on him. Ashe walked silver’s thoughts were flooded with many negative ones.
“Why cant i be good enough?
What am i even hear for if i cant even stay up long enough for a full leson
Why do people bother with hanging out with me
Im just a burden and a leech
Im just a stupid human
I cant do anything right.
Im not strong like malleus
Im not smart like lilia
Im not able to stay up and do my job like sebek
So why do people even bother?
…the silence was deafening in the room, almost noone knew silver thought like this, and why would they? Silver was a rather quiet person and one to keep to himself. “Do- do youreall think that..?” lilia asked turning to where his son sat with leona.
Lilia was rather shocked when he first saw the two together, and even more shocked when he saw leona holding silver. Even if he wanted to ask questions about it he had waited for silver to tell him himself…which hasnt happened yet.
Silver sat in silence, head turned in shame for hes family and friend witnessing hes thoughts he had kept close to himself.
The silence was so thik you could practically cut it in two with a knife, it wrang loud withen silvers ear ignoring lilias question, he could feel leonas grip tighten on his waist bringing him slightly closer.
With all the thoughts going through silvers head he hadnt noticed that he reached the mirrors, causing himself to run into a wall. “Gah!!” silver fell back on his ass.
He felt something drip down from his nose, moving hes hadn to wipe at it looking he saw blood on hes skin. Slowly flowing down, ¨shit…¨ silver sighed getting up from the floor.
Silver walked into the mirror the dark atmosphere sorounding him, it was a familiarity he welcomed with open arms. He took a deep breath walking past the weaving thorns, the moon causing hes hair to shimmer.
“Wow, diacomnia is rather stunning in its dark way.” vil said taking the scenery the tv displayed. Rook who sat next to vil started on a rant about the beauty in even dark places, causing others to roll theyre eyes at him, he finally stopped when chechnya had had enough and deliberately used hes magic and snuck behind him.
Pouncing onto the huntsman to get him to shut up, the room filled with laughter. Those more acquainted with chechnya being loudest. The modd around seemed to lift with the antiques, till theyre focus was bak on the screen.
Silver slinked back into the dorm, sneaking up the stairs to hes room. Due to being trained for years to guard he was as quiet as a mouse. Yet unlucky for him lilia still heard him.
As he walked up the stairs he wasnt aware of lilia floating behind him waiting for the silver haired boy to notice him. “What are you doin comin back in so late dear?” lilia asked, causing silver to jump.
“Father!! I uh wasnt aware you were still up…” he said “mm, well iw as reading and hear someone come in, so i just came to check it out, but its jsut you!” thinkings he had dodged lilias question he was bout to turn around and continue on, “although, why were you out so late hm?”
“Oh uhm…well i had fallen asleep some time ago and had woken up now.” silver muttered out.
“Why do you sound so scared about that? Its not like its your fault for passing out a lot.” ruggie said, glancing to hes boss and friend. “Eh, i dont know its kind of just an uncausious thing i guess…” lilis and malleus glanced to eachother, sharing a glance to silver.
Leona grabbed silver slightly, nearly bringing him into hes lap, “its not your fautl yaknow.” leona muttered under hes breath, barely loud enough for anyone else to hear unless with advanced hearing. Silver nodded at hes lovers words.
“Well, make sure you eat something if you havent yet!!”lilia said, heading the other way to hes room. Silver sighed long, countinuing hes track up to hes room. As he reached hes door he carefully opened it.
He did hes nightly routine, barely being able to stay up long enought to do it all, but he was able to push through and get in bed.
Carefully, the silver haired boy moved hes sleeves up, revealing bandaged arms that had a hint of red to them.
Multiple breaths hitched at the sight, mainly lilia, sebek, malleus, and leona. Leona knew silver was struggling and had smelt the blood before, but he didnt thinkg much about it since silver had been roughed up from trainging those days.
Leona and malleus both growled slightly letting it slip past them, silver slid down in hes seat, trying to avert the eyes that stared. “How lo-” lilia started just to be interrupted “-please…just..later.” he said, burning holes into the screen. Not sparring a glance to anyone.
Lilia was filled with shame that he hadnt noticed it earlier. Sebek starred on, he knew silver had been acting strange recently, but he hadnt even noticed this.
Silver undid the bandages, pulling a razor from under hes bed, he knoes this isnt healthy and that he should stop…but he couldnt, no matter how many times he tries he always comes back to it.
One cut for each thought that pulled its way to hes mind. Im just a stupid human
“I cant do anything right
I just make mistakes
I am a mistake
I cant even get good grades
I dont have great hearing like lilia
Or great talent at fighting like sebek
Or even the strong will to fight and protect hes liege
…im so tired…”
Silver hissed, he had overdone it again.
“Again…” lilia said in horror.
Silver grabbed some hidden badnages, using a cleaning spell to rid hes arm and any thign that got blood on it to dissapear, carefully he bandages his arm, carefully he pulled the sleeve back down, laying down to sleep.
Ill rebandage them tomorrow morning…
Would anyone even miss me… if i just…ended it...
Everythign was dead silent as vj showed up on screen, “heeey, so uh, well be countinuing laattteerrr, ill give you guys a day or 2 to rest and talkit all out…byyeee!!” they said fading off.
“Silver.” lilia started, causing the boy to stand the diasomnia boys moved to a room that had appeared near malleus and lilia, one for them to talk privately. Even though leona wanted to follow after he walked off, dragging idia with him to play chess.