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Someone take their phones away

Chapter 6: Promise

Summary:

No submissive rin yet sorry gang

Rin angst yay!
(First time writing angst shit)
Is this angst idk 🤷‍♀️

Warning : Rin makes an attempt so if you get triggered or something don’t read this chapter !

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

12:43pm

 

Aiku : Wait you guys said you went on a trip right?

 

Lorenzo : yess?

 

Aiku : Where’d you guys go?

 

Loki : We went to a beach rental house.

 

Bachira : Did you see any lobsters??

 

Isagi : lobsters?? 👀👀

 

Kaiser : I saw a crab!

 

Isagi : I don’t give a shit.

 

Kaiser : 😔

 

Kaiser : there were no lobsters 👉👈

 

Isagi : what the

 

Hugo : @Aiku why are you asking?

 

Aiku : just curious Yk

 

Bunny : wait omg wanna hear what happened on our trip?

 

Shidou : YES 🔥

 

Charles : was this the trip you guys didn’t take me and ness on 😡😡😡

 

Ness : 💔

 

Loki : Yeah, sorry Charles.

 

Charles : hmmp!

 

Loki : 😁

 

Charles : you’re such an unc

 

Bunny : ANYWAYSSSSS

 

Bunny : so we all met at the airport.. and we like totally didn’t get jumped by a bunch of fans hahahah 😬

 

Bunny : Oh! and Kaiser being the dumb fuck he is forgot about our trip

 

Bunny : so then we had to wait at a motel for a night since Kaiser’s the one who booked the villa and shit

 

Bunny : guess what Shidou

 

Shidou : whattttt?

 

Bunny : I got to share a bed with the huzz 😘

 

Shidou : LUCKYYY

 

Rin : wtf..

 

Sae : … that’s only because your ass snuck into my bed while I was sleeping

 

Lorenzo : we got some really fire pictures out of it tho 😭

 

Sae : I thought I told you to delete those.

 

Lorenzo : 🤪

 

Kaiser : Ok….

 

Kaiser : Anywayssss I arrived at the airport around noon, so they had to pick me up <3

 

Kaiser : then we made our way to the villaaaa!

 

Kaiser : And I obviously got the biggest room

 

Kaiser : but because we came a day late, we didn’t get the villa I booked… so we had to rent a different one that was wayyy smaller 😒

 

Isagi : you dumbass

 

Kaiser : YoU dUmBaSs!

 

Isagi : kys

 

Ness : shitty Yoichi (Isagi reacted ☹️)

 

Loki : Correction, Kaiser, you came a day late.

 

Loki : The rest of us were on time.

 

Hugo : mhm

 

Rin : who shared with who?

 

Hugo : Kaiser and Sae were together in the biggest room, Bunny and Lorenzo were stuck on the couch.

 

Hugo : Loki and I got separate rooms

 

Isagi : wait why didn’t you and Loki share a room?

 

Hugo : we won rock, paper, scissors

 

Bachira : fun :D

 

Bunny : still upset abt being stuck with Lorenzo on the couch…

 

Bunny : my back was killing me

 

Lorenzo : same 😖

 

Sae : imagine 😛

 

Sae : I got a nice sleep

 

Kaiser : I didn’t…

 

Bunny : LOL Sae pushed you off the bed right?

 

Sae : not my fault, you got too close

 

Kaiser : yeah, yeah whatever 😒

 

Rin : damn

 

Bunny : Rin did you have to deal with I-wantthewholebed-toshi?

 

Rin : Uh no

 

Rin : we had seperate rooms

 

Rin : the only time we’d sleep in the same bed was when… uh nvm

 

Sae : he’d sneak into my bed when there was thunder or rain

 

Rin : stfu

 

Rin : you shitty brother

 

Sae : woah there buddy, I think I’m a very good brother.

 

Sae : I’m super supportive of your dreams!

 

Rin : you cannot be so fr rn….

 

Rin : your ass BROKE OUR PROMISE

 

Rin : THEN YOU PRAISED ISAGI RIGHT IN FRONT ME

 

Sae : ok, And?

 

Rin : …

 

Isagi : 🫡

 

Kaiser : um… anyways….

 

Kaiser : the first day was planned by Sae!

 

Sae : we went to the beach and an aquarium

 

Sae : there was a lot of seagulls 😊

 

Sae : and in the aquarium there was a giant shark

 

Kurona : shark, shark?

 

Sae : yes

 

Kurona : I wanna go to the aquarium, aquarium

 

Kiyora : we can go together

 

Kurona : yes yes!

 

Kaiser : Bunny chose what we did on the second day..

 

Bunny : I’d say it was fun

 

Sae : fuck no

 

Lorenzo : 😬

 

Bunny : what?

 

Bunny : I found it fun

 

Rin POV

 

The fuck…? Did he really just say ok and?

 

Does he really not care about me?

 

He knows what he did to me and…. He just… doesn’t care???

 

Was I just that.. disposable..?

 

Am I just.. that useless?

 

To him and I just… nothing more than—

 

I’m gonna puke..

 

I hate these stupid feelings…

 

Everything hurts.. my chest feels tight… I feel like it’s going to collapse….

 

What did they say to do…?

 

Breathe?

 

Yeah..

 

Breathe Rin, breathe

 

It’s ok… it’s ok.. It’s ok. You’re ok! Everything’s ok! Nothings wrong!

 

Fuck it’s not working.. Why isn’t it working???

 

What’s wrong with me?

 

Sae I hate you..

 

I hate how you left me

 

I hate how you left for Madrid

 

I hate how you gave up on our dream

 

I hate how I can’t let you go 

 

I hate how I can’t move on…

 

I hate you

 

No..

 

I’m just lying to myself…

 

I just can’t hate you…

 

And I hate that…

 

I hate myself

 

I should just die

 

I hate my life

 

Can someone just kill me now…?

 

I can’t breathe, I can’t move on.. I can’t do anything…

 

Why am I alive?

 

What is my purpose in life?

 

No.. it’s ok.. I’m ok!

 

I’m ok

 

I’m ok

 

I’m ok

 

I’m ok

 

I’m ok

 

im ok

 

im ok.

 

im ok..

 

Everything is fine.

 

Fuck everything not fine

 

I hate this..

 

I need.. this pain to go away

 

If the pain goes away I’ll be okay..

 

Right..?

 

What can I do..?

 

What can I do to stop this pain?

 

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Drip!

 

What?

 

Why am I shaking? 

 

Stop shaking Rin..

 

Fuck my visions blurring.. Am I crying?

 

Great!

 

Ha…Ha!

 

I’m so shitty

 

Holy fuck

 

Stop crying Rin

 

You fucking baby

 

Dumbass

 

You shitty striker

 

You can’t do anything

 

STOP

 

I’m ok, I’m ok, I’m ok.

 

Everything’s fine

 

… I swear to god if I don’t stop crying… I’ll.. I’ll…

 

Shit I can’t even think

 

I’m so fucking stupid!

 

No.. it’s ok!

 

No… it’s not ok.. it’s never been ok

 

I need to.. die..

 

Nothings stopping me… nothing but.. my parents…

 

If they leave… no one can stop me and.. no one can save me either..

 

That’s… ok.. right? Yeah.. I’m ok with that..

 

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“Rin! Your father and I are going out now! There’s leftover curry in the fridge, just heat it up on the stove or microwave, ok?”

 

“Yes!”

 

“Okay”

 

Finally

 

They’re gone..

 

I can go die in peace now..

 

Where is it?

 

Where’s the bottle??

 

Where’d I leave it?

 

Found it!

 

Thank god I still have the bottle from last time..

 

Fuck why are my hands still shaking..

 

I can’t even open the damn bottle…

 

I’m so fucking useless…

 

Pop!

 

Finally..

 

One… two.. three.. fuck it

 

What if I just have the rest of the bottle?

 

I think that’s more than enough to kill me..? 

 

I sure hope so..

 

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Ha….ha..ha….ha……ha……ha……..ha….hugh

 

Oh god I forgot how painful this is.. my chest hurts… it’s so cold…

 

Everything’s spinning oh god

 

Holy shit I can’t breathe

 

My hearts beating so damn fast…

 

Nii-chan I.. hate… no I love you.. I’m sorry for being a useless piece of shit…

 

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“RIN?”

 

Who’s that…? Why are they yelling?

 

Can’t they tell I’m trying to die?

 

Please.. please stop yelling..

 

W..wait

 

Is that cyan hair….?

 

Specifically #5DCEE7 to #7ADAEB?

 

(A/n : That’s what Google said hiori’s hair colours hex code is 🤷‍♀️)

 

and… is that…? White hair…

 

Who’s here..?

 

Fuck.. I’m too tired for this…

 

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Hiori POV

 

“Holy shit”

 

“Rin? Rin? Are you ok stay with us!”

 

“Nagi… n..nagi call 119”

 

(A/n : apparently that’s the number they call in Japan idrk)

 

“What? What’s wrong???”

 

“JUST DO IT!”

 

“O.. oh ok!”

 

Beep, beep, beep

 

“Hello?”

 

“Hi, yeah.. I think our friend overdosed…”

 

“Where are you guys currently?”

 

“Is your friend still conscious?”

 

“He’s unconscious and we’re at beep boop bop, skibidi toilet, rizzler chud”

 

“Ok, keep me updated”

 

“The ambulance should be there in 3 minutes”

 

“Stay on the line until they get here”

 

“Ok”

 

Ok, ok.. it should be fine now, Nagi called the ambulance, they’ll be here soon

 

Rin, you’ll be ok, please don’t die on me

 

I’m so glad Nagi and I decided to come visit you holy shit

 

Ping!

 

… Now of all times?

 

Let me just— oh.. oh my god… oh shit

 

Private messages | Rin and Hiori | 12:49pm

 

Rin : Hiori, thank you for being there for me, you genuinely mean the world to me. I’m sorry if I was ever a bitch to you, I truly never meant to. Thank you for listening to me whenever I just needed to talk, it must’ve been a lot to dump on you, considering you have problems too, I’m truly sorry for that. Thanks for being there for me through thick and thin.

 

Rin : Please tell Ness, Nagi and Reo that despite how shitty I’ve been to them, I never hated them.

 

Rin : I love you guys.

 

Oh fuck… Why didn’t this damn device send me a notification?

 

What the fuck

 

You stupid shitty device

 

I could’ve been there… I could’ve stopped him

 

This is all my fault…

 

“Rin! C’mon please don’t die on us”

 

“Nagi, how much longer?”

 

“.. about a minute”

 

Ok.. that’s ok, not too long

 

They’re nearly here Rin, please stay here with… me

 

I’m so sorry…

 

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1:10pm

 

Lorenzo : yeah so then like I fell face first onto the footpath it was so bad, I nearly lost a tooth!

 

Bunny : Aren’t all your teeth.. like fake..?

 

Lorenzo : ☹️

 

Nagi : @Sae Rin’s being taken to the hospital rn

 

Nagi : Hiori and I are in the ambulance with him

 

Nagi : go to UwU princess unicorn hospital asap

 

Sae : what?

 

Sae : rin?

 

Sae : what happened?

 

Sae : I’m on my way now

 

Nagi : We’ll tell you when you get here

 

Reo : wait Nagi what? Rin’s going to the hospital??

 

Reo : nagi?

 

Ness : wait what??? What happened

 

Ness : is he ok????

 

Nagi : He’ll probably be fine

 

Nagi : not sure yet

 

Nagi : can’t talk anymore, we’ve made it to the hospital

 

Ness : can you update us later??? (Nagi reacted 👍)

 

Nagi POV

 

“Rin seems to have overdosed, luckily you two found him in time, any later and he likely would’ve died.”

 

“He should wake up in a few days.”

 

“You can go in now.”

 

“Thank yer so much sir”

 

“Mm”

 

“Ok Nagi, let’s go in”

 

“K”

 

.. I’d never actually admit this to anyone but… seeing Rin half dead like this..

 

I used to like Rin, I don’t know how or when… but it just happened.. 

 

It was strange, it felt weird.. uncomfortable even, but… I didn’t hate it..

 

Why did I feel that way?

 

Do I still feel that way?

 

No… I can’t.. He wouldn’t feel the same way anyways… he… no Rin, likes Hiori… and Hiori.. I can tell he likes him back..

 

I need to get rid of these… feelings…

 

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“Nagi? Are yer ok?”

 

“Yer look really out of it”

 

“..I’m ok”

 

“Ah ok good, let me know if anything’s wrong ok?”

 

“… Hiori—”

 

“RIN!”

 

oh.. I guess I can’t ask now, I’ll ask another time…

 

Hiori.. he just looks.. so scared, I’m worried..

 

I mean I get why he’s so scared but… it feels like something else..

 

“Is Rin ok?”

 

“What happened”

 

“Dammit tell me you—”

 

“He overdosed…”

 

“What?”

 

“Why?”

 

“Where were my parents?”

 

“Oh god.. Rin why are you such a dumbass!?”

 

What a glare..

 

“We don’t know why he overdosed, I swear!”

 

“… I’m calling my parents, stay here with… Rin..”

 

Hiori looks like he’s going to have a breakdown…. Should I comfort him..?

 

“Listen here Hiori”

 

Snap!

 

(A/n : idk how to make it sound like Nagi grabbed Hiori’s hair like he did to Isagi in the second selection, so uh imagine Nagi grabbing isagi by the hair but instead of isagi it’s Hiori 🥺)

 

“Ow!! Yer hurting me nagi”

 

“You’re thinking it’s your fault aren’t you?”

 

“… ha.. ha what are yer talking about Nagi?”

 

“Maybe, maybe not”

 

“…what?”

 

“He might die, he might not”

 

“W..what? The doctor said he’d wake up though!”

 

“You never know…”

 

“Nagi don’t say things like that!”

 

“You can hate yourself later.. Right now he needs you alive”

 

“… You can’t speak for him…”

 

“You don’t know him like I do!”

 

“He trusted me! He texted me before this! And I didn’t reply!”

 

“I didn’t see the messages.. I.. I couldn’t stop him!”

 

“… it’s not just that, you like him..”

 

“.. H… ho.. how… how’d you know?!”

 

“The look in your eyes… whenever you look at him, your eyes light up.. like… mine did…”

 

“What…?”

 

“You… you liked Rin..?”

 

Shit… I didn’t mean to say that..

 

“N… no it was someone else…”

 

Reo…

 

Wait what? Why’d I think of Reo?

 

We aren’t on talking terms.. he blocked me, I blocked him back… 

 

Why do I feel so… weird inside?

 

“WHAT?”

 

? Is that Sae?

 

“What do you mean you just left him??”

 

“Yeah I get that you told him that you’d be going out, but you shouldn’t just have left him.. like—”

 

“I know he’s not a little kid anymore! But you guys shouldn’t have just left him, you know this isn’t the first time! You know what the doctor told us last time!”

 

Last time…?

 

“Oh… I shouldn’t be telling you this but… I’m sure Rin would forgive me”

 

“You know how Sae and Rin aren’t on good terms?”

 

“.. yeah, he told me a bit about what happened”

 

“Oh ok.. Well after that day, Rin became very depressed and… well.. this wasn’t the first time he’s overdosed…”

 

Oh…

 

“…oh”

 

“Yeah..”

 

“Lazy bitch, blue femboy, you guys can go home now”

 

“Our parents will be coming soon and I’ll stay here, so go home.”

 

.. I.. I really don’t want to go..

 

“… Okay, take care of yerself, let us know when Rin wakes up.”

 

“Mhm..”

 

 

8:01pm

 

Reo : @Nagi @Hiori So?? Is Rin ok???

 

Hiori : He’s ok, should wake up but we’re not sure when yet, Sae told us to leave.

 

Reo : bitch…

 

Hiori : no it’s totally understandable, that’s his brother

 

Reo : still shitty… you’re Rin’s friend… and for all we know he could’ve been the one to cause this!

 

Hiori : let’s not make assumptions, plus I can tell.. well Nagi can tell Sae deeply cares for Rin

 

Reo : … is nagi with you?

 

Hiori : yeah, we just went to McDonalds

 

Reo : oh ok

 

Ness : So he’s 100% going to wake up right??

 

Hiori : well, we’re not sure, the doctor said he would but… uh nvm

 

Ness : what?

 

Hiori : it’s nothing, Rin’s fine

 

Ness : … K

 

Kaiser : what abt Sae???

 

Kaiser : is he ok????

 

Hiori : not sure, he looked pretty calm.. well uh calm enough, I think he was pretty pissed at their parents

 

Kaiser : dumbfuck…

 

Isagi : how are you and Nagi??

 

Isagi : are you guys ok?

 

Karasu : yeah, how are both of you?

 

Hiori : we’re ok dwwww

 

Hiori : just worried for Rin

 

Bachira : :((

 

Shidou : 💔

 

Shidou : I hope rinrin’s ok

 

Hiori : yeah

 

Sae POV

 

“YOU DUMBASSES”

 

“s..sae sweetie! Don’t say that to us, we’re your parents! Have some respect”

 

“Parents my ass, you know what they recommended last time he overdosed!”

 

“They said and I quote ‘I don’t recommend leaving him alone anymore, just as a precaution’”

 

“So why’d you leave him all alone?!”

 

“Sae.. calm down, you heard what the doctor said, Rin will be fine, we only left him once and we weren’t even going to be gone long”

 

“Once.. once!? You don’t understand! The reason he’s so dependent on me is because of your neglect! Because of you two I had to take care of him all the time! I was a child.. We were both young children and you two just—”

 

“… Sae.. p..please calm down! It’s late and… there’s other patients”

 

“You two are fucking cowards… Go home, I’ll stay here.”

 

“.. Fine, let’s go honey.”

 

“B..but”

 

“Let’s go.”

 

“… Let us know when Rin wakes up ok…?”

 

“Yeah yeah whatever…”

 

Stupid lukewarm parents.. because of them… Rin nearly died… again…

 

I can’t lose him.. If I lost him… what would I do with myself….?

 

Get it together Sae, what if Rin was to wake up right now? You’d lose all your aura… hahahaha.. god why am I laughing

 

 I shouldn’t make jokes right now.

 

Fuck off! Pew pew dududu

 

 

Fuck off! Pew pew dududu

 

 

Fuck off! Pew pew dududu, Fuck off! Pew pew dududu

 

… 

 

Ugh I forgot I set Bunny’s text tone to that… I should change it when I get home..

 

Private messages | Bunny and Sae | 8:07pm

 

Bunny : @Sae

 

Bunny : hellooo?

 

Bunny : I know you’re ignoring me ☺️

 

Bunny : just wanted to know how Rin is and how you are

 

Sae : I’m ok.

 

Sae : Rin’ll be fine

 

Sae : go do whatever you do

 

Bunny : do you need anything?

 

Bunny : I can quickly come over to the hospital and drop like food? Or whatever you need

 

Sae : no food, I’m ok.

 

Sae : Can you grab Rin’s phone from his house?

 

Bunny : like his house as in the one he lives in with your parents?

 

Sae : yeah.

 

Bunny : kk

 

Bunny : how will I get in tho?

 

Sae : Go in through his window duh

 

Bunny : bro I am not a burglar

 

Sae : just ring the doorbell, my.. parents will let you in.

 

Bunny : okie dokie

 

Sae : stop trying to be cute.

 

Bunny : sToP tRYinG tO Be CuTe!

 

Bunny : shut up pink bitch

 

Sae : it’s actually burgundy get it right

 

Bunny : whateverrr

 

holy fuck why do I feel all fuzzy inside…

 

No. Sae stop.

 

Focus on Rin.

 

Plus you two broke up ages ago.

 

Focus on Rin.

 

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“Yo yo yo Pinky”

 

“It’s burgundy.”

 

“Whateverrrrr”

 

Why’s he literally Bunny 2.0 this bitch pmo…

 

“Why are you here?”

 

“Wanted to check up on you~”

 

“Oh and I guess to check on little itoshi”

 

“I wonder which one of you is the better looking one”

 

That’s random but it’s gotta be me, I won’t say that though.. Wouldn’t want to hurt Rin’s feelings!

 

“… if that’s all you’re here to do, I’m fine, he’s fine, so leave already”

 

“Sae, you wound me”

 

“I thought I’d be nice and come check on you.. I guess you just don’t appreciate me!”

 

“I really don’t appreciate you.”

 

“.. you—”

 

“N..nii-chan? uwu!?

 

“RIN? MY LITTLE UWU OMEGA!”

 

“Rin!? How are you!? How do you feel? Are you ok?”

 

“… where am I?”

 

“.. the hospital”

 

“… I survived?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“Why’s that blue rat tail bitch here?”

 

“Hey!”

 

“Kaiser go home”

 

“Yeah, yeah whatever, little Itoshi, get better soon, Sae was reallyyyy worried about you”

This bitch…

 

.

 

“… Why’d you do it?”

 

“Do what…”

 

“Why’d you overdose?”

 

“I thought we made a promise to never do that ever again..”

 

“… you wanna know why I did it again..?”

 

“Yes Rin, yes I do..”

 

“It’s because of you.”

 

… Me? What..? What’d I do? I’m the reason he tried to kill himself? Why?

 

“..why?”

 

“You.. you hate me”

 

What?

 

… Rin you dummy

 

“I could never hate you my sweet little uwu skibidi toilet omega!”

 

“R..really ceo alpha?!”

 

“Yes really my honey bun!”

 

“I.. but.. but you..”

 

“I didn’t mean any of it baby”

 

“I’m sorry”

 

“Let’s hug and make up omega!”

 

“O…ok! But only if you tell me I’ve been a good boy! Uwu!”

 

(A/n : sorry gang 😬😬 I just got really bored)

 

“Rin… I could never hate you..”

 

“b….but… you’ve been calling me useless.. stupid… and—”

 

“Oomph!”

 

(A/n : Sae bear hugged Rin, idk how to write it)

 

“Rin, I’m so sorry, I didn’t think you’d take it seriously, I don’t hate you and I never will, you’re my little brother and I love you”

 

“…n..nii-chan”

 

“Yes?”

 

“You’re crushing my bones!”

 

“Oh.. oh sorry”

 

Oops.. 

 

“Rin? why are you crying?”

 

“Did my hug hurt you that bad..? Sorry…”

 

“N… no it’s just that.. I thought you hated physical touch…”

 

“…”

 

“I do.. but… If it’s for you I can overcome it..?”

God damn it my nonchalant aura..

 

I was so worried I completely forgot I hated physical touch

 

I’ve been getting too soft.. I gotta get my aura back

 

“Nii—”

 

Ring! Ring! Ring!!

 

“.. sorry Rin.. let me get this”

 

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“What?”

 

This better be important.. I was having a heartfelt conversation with Rin.

 

“Oh sorry mr grumptoshi, I just wanted to let you know I’m now being arrested”

 

“… what??”

 

“Yeah, turns out trying to go through the window was a terrible idea”

 

“.. I thought I said you could just ring the doorbell”

 

“Yeah but like.. your parents weren’t home so I went through the window but thennn like ig some neighbours saw me and called the police on me.. those bitches”

 

“… get Lorenzo to bail you out or something, I’m busy”

 

“I would but he’s not answering.. no one would answer meugh”

 

“.. I’ll call Kaiser to get you”

 

“Thanks baby~”

 

“… no”

 

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Sae stop blushing holy fuck..

 

Calm down

 

Oh god

 

C’mon I thought I got over this

 

“N… Nii-chan? Why are you all red..?”

 

Fuckkkkkk

 

This is so embarrassing…

 

“… It’s nothing Rin”

 

“Why’d you leave your room, go back— you need rest..”

 

“… okay”

 

Ok Sae, calm down, it’s no biggie, Bunny’s always been like that…

 

But why’s this affecting me now?

 

Stop it Sae, don’t look too deep into this

 

Oh shit I have to call Kaiser

 

Ring! Ring! Ring!

 

“Hellooo?”

 

“Hi, hello, uh can you go to Bsd Wan is coming out soon!! police station?”

 

“Bunny got himself arrested”

 

“.. what a dumbass”

 

“I’ll go get him now”

 

“Thanks”

 

“You owe me though~”

 

“… sure whatever”

 

“Love you byeee”

 

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… shit

 

It really is just Bunny.. I didn’t feel any fuzzy feelings when Kaiser said it.. why was it only Bunny..

 

Calm down Sae, get it together, you can’t fall back in love with a dick like him..

 

Move on.


Focus on Rin

 

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Rin POV

 

I.. I don’t know how I feel anymore…

 

On one hand I feel disappointed my attempt didn’t work, on the other hand I feel sorry for whoever found me and I feel happy because nii-chan said he doesn’t hate me…. 

 

But…


What if that was a lie?


What if he actually does hate me..

 

Did he only say that because I nearly died? People tend to.. care more? If someone’s nearly gone..

 

Wait does that mean he actually does care?

 

Stop it Rin

 

He did say that he didn’t need me in his life..

 

This is probably all an act..


He.. doesn’t really care does he?

 

I mean.. the media probably already knows I’m in the hospital…

 

That’s why.. Sae cares.. He knows there are people everywhere just waiting to crush him

 

that’s why he’s being so nice to.. me

 

Shitty older brother…

 

Stop it Rin

 

Stop clinging to something that’s not even there…

 

Sae doesn’t actually care about you

 

(A/n : god that was cringy)

 

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5:19pm

 

Lorenzo : Bunny got himself arrested 😭😭😭

 

Charles : gng what 😬😬

 

Niko : how..?

 

Kaiser : tried to get little Itoshi’s phone from his house

 

Isagi : ok..? How’d he get arrested then

 

Kaiser : he broke in through the window

 

Charles : lowk that’s giving break in story

 

Nagi : wait yes

 

Kaiser : Now I have to pay a bunch of money to bail him out 😒😒

 

Ness : oh no :(

 

Kaiser : he didn’t even get the phone 😭

 

Lorenzo : he’s so stupid 😭😭

 

Hugo : Loki’s laughing

 

Hugo sent a video

 

Bachira : why’s he laughing like that

 

Shidou : bro why’s Loki’s laugh so fucking dry 😭😭😭

 

Charles : HES LAUGHING IN LOWERCASE 😬😬😬

 

Loki : I’m not.

 

Loki : that’s how people laugh.

 

Shidou : if people laugh like that then I’m not human 🔥🔥🔥

 

Loki : you’re no longer human.

 

Aiku : is that a reference..?

 

Nagi : Osamu Dazai reference 🔥

 

Loki : you’ve read some of his books?

 

Nagi : no

 

Loki : ?

 

Nagi : well I’ve heard of it but I only know Dazai from Bsd..

 

(A/n : should I make a bsd fic ? 🤔🤔🤔)

 

Loki : bsd?

 

Nagi : Bungo stray dogs

 

Ness : Bsd mentionedddd

 

Ness : who’s ur favourite character nagi? Mines Higuchi

 

Nagi : oh cool I like Ranpo

 

(A/n : Ranpos my favourite bsd character :3)

 

Ness : He’s so cutie

 

Isagi : highkey, you and ranpo are pretty similar

 

Ness : you… like bsd?

 

Isagi : yeah, Nagi made me watch it with him

 

Ness : .. cool

 

Nagi : mmm

 

Isagi : you’re both lazy and geniuses!

 

Nagi : :x

 

Bachira : cake…

 

Isagi : what?

 

Bachira : I want cake..

 

Kiyora : go buy some then???

 

Kurona : cake, cake!

 

Bachira : Kurona we should go buy cake!!!

 

Kurona : yes, yes

 

Rin : ???

 

Nagi : Rin!

 

Ness : RINNN HOW ARE YOU???

 

Reo : ARE YOU OK??? DO YOU NEED ANYTHING?

 

Rin : I’m ok dw, just got my phone

 

Bunny : you better be grateful.. I got arrested trying to get that for you 😡😡😡

 

Rin : yeah yeah

 

Rin : wait you got arrested?

 

Rin : sae didn’t tell me that..

 

Bunny : ofc he didn’t 😒

 

Bunny : not my fault some of your nosy neighbours saw me trying to go in through the window

 

Rin : what…?

 

Rin : the window…?

 

Bunny : yep :p

 

Rin : honestly.. I’m not surprised

 

Shidou : 🔥🔥🔥

 

Shidou : yo rinrin you good now right?

 

Rin : yes

 

Shidou : cool cool

 

Shidou : Oh if you’re up to it wanna come with Hiori and me to the park tomorrow??

 

Rin : Hiori and… you?

 

Shidou : yeahhhh

 

Rin : ok

 

Shidou : 😋

 

Reo : Rin are you home yet

 

Rin : not yet, Sae’s driving me home now

 

Reo : k

 

Rin : why?

 

Reo : nothingggg

 

Ness : 👀👀

 

Nagi : ?

 

Reo : get home safely

 

Rin : I will

 

Rin : holy shit

 

Rin : why tf is there like 20 bouquets of flowers???

 

Reo : I sent them!

 

Reo : I also ordered ochazuke for you, it should arrive soon!

 

Aiku : what the fuck..

 

Aiku : @Sendou why can’t you spoil me like this

 

Sendou : ???

 

Aiku : 🥹

 

Rin : you really didn’t need to do this for me..

 

Reo : you’re my friend so ofc I would!

 

Rin : .. thanks Reo

 

Reo : :D

 

Shidou : feeling real jealous rn..

 

Nagi : jealous of what?

 

Shidou : can you not read..?

 

Kiyora : I think Nagi has Reo blocked so he can’t see

 

Reo : wait what?

 

Reo : really?

 

Reo : ask him why for me

 

Kiyora : ..k

 

Kiyora : nagi why did you block Reo?

 

Nagi : no comment

 

Kiyora : … you aren’t a celebrity

 

Nagi : 🤷

 

Kiyora : whatever

 

Rin : nagi?

 

Nagi : hm?

 

Rin : why’d you block him???

 

Rin : also have you heard from Hiori? He hasn’t replied to any of my texts

 

Nagi : as I said no comment

 

Nagi : Really? He’s replied to mine, we just finished playing Genshin together maybe that’s why idk

 

Nagi : try texting him again?

 

Rin : k, thanks

 

Private Messages | Rin and Hiori | 5:43pm

 

Rin : Hiori?

 

Rin : hioriiiii?

 

Rin : hioriiiiiiii

 

Rin : @Hiori

 

Rin : hioriiii

 

Rin : …

 

Rin : please answer…

 

Rin : please…

 

Hiori : oh Rin!

 

Hiori : how are you feeling

 

Hiori : are you ok now?

 

Hiori : I’m so sorry I wasn’t there for you earlier

 

Hiori : my stupid fucking phone didn’t give me a notification

 

Hiori : and like Nagi and I were coming over

 

Hiori : I’m so sorry

 

Rin : it’s ok dw

 

Rin : I was kinda hoping you wouldn’t reply fast anyways..

 

Hiori : don’t say that

 

Hiori : it’s my fault

 

Hiori : I should’ve been there for you

 

Rin : it’s not your fault

 

Rin : please don’t blame yourself..

 

Hiori : how are you feeling?

 

(A/n : holy subject change)

 

Rin : I’m ok

 

Rin : just resting

 

Rin : wbu

 

Hiori : I’m fine, just playing games as usual

 

Rin : What are you playing?

 

Hiori : oh uh

 

Hiori : dress to impress…

 

Rin : can I join…?

 

Hiori : sure!

 

Hiori : you have to give me 5 stars everytime tho <3

 

Rin : ok :)

 

8:26pm

 

Bunny : ok my goodie gang

 

Bunny : it’s been a WHOLE WEEK

 

Bunny : why’s everyone dead 💔

 

Isagi : It’s awkward

 

Kaiser : let’s make it not awkward!!

 

Kaiser : Does anyone wanna hear about the sleepover us new gens, Ness and Charles had?

 

Charles : YES

 

Kaiser : you already know what happened tho..

 

Kaiser : but ok

 

Kaiser : so like we started our sleepover with binge watching fruits basket !

 

Charles : Momiji’s backstory made me cry 🥺🥺🥺

 

Ness : ugh same

 

Ness : I cried so hard I fell asleep

 

Isagi : No way fruits basket is that sad with a name like that

 

Isagi : it’s in comedy too

 

Ness : ITS LYINGG

 

Ness : FRUITS BASKET IS NOT A COMEDY I SWEAR

 

Hugo : It was so sad

 

Hugo : I shed a tear or two

 

Loki : I’ll never forgive Akito 

 

(Replied to Isagi) Kaiser : Ok then, I bet 1000 yen you’ll cry

 

Isagi : sure

 

Isagi : I can’t watch it tho

 

Isagi : my pirating site got banned

 

Kaiser : ofc you’d pirate

 

Kaiser : come over to my room

 

Isagi : wtf

 

Isagi : no

 

Kaiser : I didn’t mean it in a sexual way 

 

Kaiser : it’s cute you thought that tho

 

Kaiser : I have a Crunchyroll acc, we can watch it on there

 

Isagi : ofc you pay like what $100 for an account

 

Kaiser : 🙄 Erm actually the account is free it’s the subscription! (Isagi reacted 🖕)

 

Kaiser : you coming or not

 

Isagi : yeah yeah

 

Ness : WAIT

 

Ness : CAN I COME TOO?

 

Ness : @Bachira @Chigiri should come too!!

 

Chigiri : why me

 

Ness : idk you were the first person to come to mind

 

Bachira : OOHH YESS PLEASEEE I WANNNA WATCH FRUITS BASKET!!!

 

Kaiser : .. yeah sure whatever

 

Charles : so… we’re just not gonna continue the story of our sleepover..?

 

Loki : Go to bed Charles.

 

Loki : we have a game tomorrow.

 

Charles : why do I have to have a bedtime >:(

 

Charles : I’m 15, I’m only ONE year younger than Rin and only TWO years younger than everyone else >:(((

 

Loki : They don’t have a game tomorrow do they?

 

Charles : >:(

 

Charles : fine but you gotta keep telling the sleepover story!

 

Loki : okay.

 

Niko : goodnight Charles!

 

Charles : goodnight!!! 

 

Loki : After watching fruits basket, we played truth or dare, made TikToks and then slept

 

Loki : nothing special happened

 

Sae : uh correction

 

Sae : Bunny brought alcohol then Lorenzo and him got drunk

 

Bunny : oh i remember that

 

Bunny : that was funnyyy

 

Sae : no it wasn’t

 

Sae : you tried to kiss me

 

Rin : what

 

Bunny : oopsies

 

Lorenzo : WAIT I REMEMBER THAT

 

Lorenzo : then Sae kicked Bunny in the balls

 

Bunny : oh yeah

 

Bunny : that hurt so fucking bad

 

Bunny : I might never reproduce 💔

 

Sae : good

 

Bunny : 😔

 

4:53am

 

Isagi : holy shit I understand why everyone cried now

 

Ness : exactly

 

Hiori : have you been binge watching fruits basket..?

 

Isagi : yeah

 

Isagi : I need to sleep now holy shit

 

Isagi : night

 

Hiori : rest well

 

Bachira : KISA AND HIRO ARE SO CUTE AHHHHH

 

Bachira : I love them smmmm

 

Rin : is kisa the tiger girl?

 

Bachira : YES

 

Rin : I like her

 

Aiku : PEDO PEDO PEDO

 

Rin : ….

 

Rin : wtf

 

Niko : the only pedo here is you

 

Aiku : OH OK

 

Aiku : double standard I see

 

Niko : no you threatened to fuck me

 

Niko : Rin’s just saying she’s cute

 

Niko : also you’re old old

 

Aiku : IM ONLY 19

 

Aiku : Barou and Kaiser are 19 too

 

Aiku : why am I the only one being hated on 💔💔💔

 

Niko : they don’t look 30

 

Barou : you look really old.

 

Aiku : I hate you all

 

Rin : I bet you were about to type fuck you all

 

Aiku : …

 

Niko : pedo…

 

Aiku : 😭😭😭

 

Aiku : that’s it I’m talking in emojis from now on.

 

Shidou : ✂️✂️✂️

 

Shidou : @Hiori and Rin don’t forget to meet me at uwu kawaii kitten park later

 

Hiori : Oki :D

 

Rin : k

 

Sae : what are you guys doing?

 

Hiori : oh yk hanging out

 

Sae : ok

 

Sae : make sure Rin gets home safe

 

Rin : I’m not a baby..

 

Sae : mhm

 

Rin : lukewarm older brother..

 

Sae : ✨💖🦄

 

Aryu : ✨✨✨✨

 

Sae : ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

 

Tokimitsu : ✨

Notes:

I don’t normally write angst so this is new

Also if I were to make a bsd fic would any of you guy read it?
I’m thinking of a mha x bsd one or maybe something else idk yet, tho if I do make one it’d have very slow updates bc I’m working on this fic (my pride and joy btw)

If there’s any mistakes it bc my beta reader hasn’t read it yet, but I don’t want to keep you guys waiting for too long :3

Also Nagirin is highkey growing on me… 😋