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I continue to pace still trying to sort out what to say when we meet. I tried to read to calm my nerves but I can’t focus all I think about is Helena. So caught up in my thoughts I jump about 10ft in the air when my phone goes off it’s a text from Helena she is at the park. My heart drops here we go it’s now or never. I text back I’m on my way. I head down stairs and Pete’s in the kitchen as usual he just gives me a reassuring smile.
I get in my car I’m only a few minutes away from the park. As I pull up I see Helena standing there pacing just as much as I was in my room earlier. I get out and take a deep a breath, I think to myself come on Myka you can do this, you have to do this.
“Hey”
“Hi”
It’s awkward at first neither one of us know how to act right now but we find our way to a park bench close by. We sit in silence for a moment when Helena starts.
“Myka, I feel I need to explain some things to you.”
I just look at her I can tell she is just as nervous and anxious as I am.
“Ok”
“Myka, I’m sorry I didn’t contact you during these last six months. I just needed some time away from the warehouse, I needed to figure some things out.”
“I wanted to call you so many times just to hear your voice but I.........wasn’t ready. So I continued to stay away finding things to take my mind off the warehouse off..........you.”
“Me, Helena do you know that all I wanted was to hear from you just once to know that you were ok, that you were safe. But you never called so I didn’t know if you were hurt, in danger or something worse and that scared the hell out of me”
She shakes her head in shame.
“I know Myka I am so sorry. It’s just.......it’s just........I felt lost and I needed to figure out what I wanted and where I belong.”
“And you decided that was with Nate?” I say through gritted teeth.
I can feel my jealousy and anger taking over I have to stop, I need to allow her to explain. As much as I dislike this man I need to give her a chance.
She takes a deep breath, I can see on her face she knows I am struggling with the Nate and Adelaide situation.
“Myka, I thought that was the life I wanted. I grew to love Adelaide and I cared for Nate, but it never felt right. Something was always missing.”
“And now?”
“Myka I need you to know that the only reason I stayed was because you asked me too but when you told me to make this my home. It felt like you were letting me go, like I would never see you again and I realized..........” My voice fades off
“You realized what?”
She looks at me as tears start to fall down her face. She takes a deep breath
“I realized that..........I want you, I want to be with you. I have loved you from the moment we met. In all of my years I have never felt such a deep connection with anyone.”
“You are in every part of me, heart, body, mind and soul. You have my heart Myka, it has always been yours..........Always”
“You are the life I want, the future I want. I love you Myka.........I’m in love with you”
I pause for a minute to process what Helena just told me and I take a deep breath to collect myself.
“Helena, I have a confession to make.”
“What is it?”
“When I told you to make your home with.........Nate. I only said those things because I thought that was what you needed to hear. To be honest I didn’t mean any of it. I knew that was not who you were but I wanted you to be happy and if that was where you were happy I was not going to stand in the way no matter how much I wanted you to come with us.............with me.”
“It was hard not to tell you how I really felt” she cuts in
“How do you feel?”
I can tell she needs to hear this so I push through my fear
“I feel..........Helena I’m in love with you too. You are my one.”
“There is a connection between us that runs deeper than anything I have ever felt in my life. You are all I think about, you are all I want. I love you with every part of my soul. I love you so much Helena that is scares me.”
“It scares me too Myka, I have never in my 147 years loved someone as deep as I love you.”
I reach out to touch her face, she leans into the touch as her eyes slowly close and then open. We stare at each other, in that moment I realize that there is no one else in this world that I will love or want more than this beautiful, intelligent, remarkable women in front of me.
I find my courage and I lean in to kiss her. It’s a soft gentle kiss at first but soon our passion takes over it’s as if we are trying to make up for all of the lost time in that one kiss.
We pull back a little from each other to catch our breath, we lean our foreheads together.
“I love you, Helena. You have had my heart from the beginning, it is yours for as long as you want.”
She smiles “I love you too, Myka. How does forever sound? Wells and Bering.”
I laugh “Forever sounds good. Bering and Wells.”
I lean in to kiss her again, this is how it’s supposed to be and will be forever Bering and Wells. Solving puzzles saving the day.