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The Ship shuddered, your butt bout ring from the seat from the disturbance and waking you up, you eyes fluttered opened and your sight was blocked from a black screen that smelt of Sandlewood, "what the-" brushing the black screen you realise the texture of hair quickly shooting your back straight on the couch, sitting up to fast making your head pulse, your scolded your heart for racing as fast as it did at the scene of your body laying limp against Hanzo's, his eyes were shut tight and a blush spread across his face, your arm had been crossed around his as well while you slept, as you calmed yourself the fuck down from embarrassment you couldn't help but notice Hanzo had always seemed so serious and always wanting to depict himself as strong so a sight of his guard let down was ceratinly a rare sight you couldn't help but breathe out a laugh and shake your head.
You continued to observe him for awhile not even noticing the the dumb smile on your face, your eyes lingering on his jawline and his hair tussled over his forehead, "You okay? You're gripping me.. very tightly" the voice came out raspy and confused, you jolt your arm away from his you hadn't even removed your arm after waking up, you stuttered with your words trying to collect your thoughts "sorry" you squeak out with haste "s-sorry I, I was staring" you hated yourself for admitting it but you honestly couldn't find one excuse to run away from what you just did,
"trust me, I would not have noticed" he chuckled "but I did not mind" you look away from him raising your shoulder to hide the obvious red guilt on your face,
"Alright team we touch down in 30 minutes at Hanamura" Jack's voice came in through the intercoms on the ship, the voice starling Jesse- who was across the table, on the couch- to wake up in a rush- "Wha-" he rubbed his head from under his hat, you never really understood why he always wore that hat "if you always wear that hat Jesse you're gonna bald" you tried to hold in the shameful laughter to your own joke, he rolled his eyes and laughed sarcastically "guess you'll have no more hair ta pull then" he responded with a wink, Hanzo proceeding to choke on his water and kicking Jesse's shin under the table.
Genji come towards the table, now in a completely new look, such in a way to cover up his cybernetics, he dropped 2 large bags in front of the 3 of you "this is out camp out gear- we will all hike our own mountains to our stations"
"uhhh Genji I don't know if you noticed- but it is midnight in Japan right now" you motioned to the window, though the grin on his face said otherwise which made you die inside a little, your head dropping to the table "great" you mumbled weakly giving a sarcastic exciting wave with your hand,
the drop ship rumbled violently as it finally came to its landing- somewhere in the forest- and its large door ramp lowering down, you hold your hand to your chest tightly calming your nerves, your last mission was hard yes, but this was a bigger mission, you felt a little bit uneasy at the fact you were gonna be acting as a Clan groups servant for who knows how long, and being told what to do constantly, being reckless was your damn nature, you couldn't follow orders for shit- a large hand clasped your shoulder, "do not worry, I will be there with you, if anything goes wron-"
"Hanzo" you gave off such a tired voice and brushed his hand of your shoulder, "I'm not weak, I'm not vulnerable. I can take care of myself" you gave a sweet smile in a desperate attempt to wipe off that concerned look on his face, though your sentence mostly lost its value as you were visibly struggling to pick up one of the bags, He let a deep sigh that you could have sworn had a laugh behind it and stole the bag of your shoulder "We should make pace- work starts tomorrow, and we should get sleep" he motioned his head up the forest hill the two of you had to climb, did'nt help much that it was snowing either, your boots already sunk 20cm deep into the snow, jack's cough caught the attention of all of you,
"Alright team remember your mission, keep your eyes and ears peeled and don't blow your cover" you glanced over at you jokingly for one second making a clear reference to your first mission , you pouted at the glance, finally you gave one large clap to see us all off, and walked back into the ship so he could join the others in the city near by for backup.
Jesse called out your name, he seeming struggled to push his boots through the snow as he made his way towards you, "I want you ta call me everyday" "Ah-" he put his hand on your mouth stopping you from talking back to him, he gave a smirk, he had known you would fight back, and you hated how he knew you that well, he slowly removed his hand and cupped your chin tilting it up towards him "I jus wanna hear yer voice, that's all." he leaned down to your face putting both hi his hands around your jaw and giving your a kiss, his gentle caress making you want to kiss him longer before he pulled away, whining at the loss of his warm lips against your winter skin "love you baby" he whispered against your lips, his slightly brushing against yours as he spoke. he stood straight, looking over your head and giving Hanzo a nod "keep him alive fer me will ya?" he laughed, and Hanzo returned his with a mocking laugh "trust me, I will be the one keeping her, alive" he crossed his arms impatient to leave,
you hissed through your teeth "i'm not that, bad" you looked back at Jesse, his face unsure, "ya really are though Angel" he gave a low chuckle, giving you one last kiss to the cheek you saw Genji over his shoulder and he kissed you and saw Genji giving you a dirty look that just shouted 'look who finally made up with each other' you stuck his touch out at him, "OK OK! lets go!" Hanzo groaned impatiently.
Genji and Jesse finally parted from you and Hanzo and made way to the opposite direction of you to their stationed camp site, and giving one last wave, you and Hanzo finally able to leave and make way up the hill to make your camp and slowly picking up sticks on the way to make a fire-
[Hanzo's Point of view]
She bewitched him, and he hated it. Everything she did shook him to his core, every smile, laugh, sneer or argument just made him more and more confused about her character. Ever since she had come back to overwatch, his nights become more and more restless as he knew her, he would lay in bed and look at the celling for hours trying to piece together who she was, She treated him as if she did not know about the act of evil he did upon his brother and her friend, and it turned the gears in his head. He believes it's the fact he just so bewildered at the fact this girl chose a cowboy as a lover over his brother or even some other person, he wishes that was the reason.
Hanzo had known the Mcree for 2 years, he had heard every complaint, every argument, every partner he had sex with and tolerated it for 2 years however he was still his closest friend. on some occasions he would speak about a woman who he described as the love of his life, perfect, fierce and amazing, Jesse would always say "ya have ta meet her" or "that two of ya would get along so well" the more Jesse got comfortable about speaking about her the longer his conversations about her would get, and for the first time he would see something else other than pain in his eyes, it had seemed that the girl had the same affect on most of the crew- Genji would give his rare smiles when he talked about her and Angela would laugh- then others would join just to share their stories. For some time he felt jealous, that he could not interact or socialise as well as you seemed too, so when he finally you he had to know, he had to know how you did it, he would lose himself in his curiosity and stare and would often unknowingly just linger around you so he could learn.
But one day, he doesn't know specifically what day it was, or the words you said or the look you gave, but something changed inside him, some realisation, some fear, When Jesse gave him a warning ('back of my girl a bit') he took the threat to heart, but some other part in his heart fought it.
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Hanzo watched as Jesse leaned down kissing Y/N the sight making him cringe and put his arms over himself to somewhat calm himself- "keep him alive fer me will ya?" the cowboy laughed, he rolled his eyes at the offensive joke, "trust me, I will be the one keeping her, alive" he just wanted to leave, he tapped his foot on the snow, and irritation or annoyance picking at him as he continued to see the pair together, and watching them again painfully as Jesse kissed her on the Cheek, "OK OK! let's go!" he spat out, his subconscious taking over his voice for just a split second, the tension finally realased after Jesse turned away with Genji and Finally just being able to be with her and go to the camp site, she turned on her heel and gave her disappointed face at him, and as usual with a smile behind it, "don't look at me like that" he mumbled with his hand over his mouth, he shoved the camp bag around his shoulder and hiding the absolute pure guilty pink that striped along his cheeks and nose.
He watched her silhouette as she walked in-front of him up the hill, he smiled at the way her thin feet struggled to push through the snow and how she occasionally slipped her balance- Hanzo grit his teeth, it was a bit painful for him to watch, he sighed deeply catching her attention, "ok that's enough, come here" he climbed his way up to her and tripped her over as his Hand went under her legs, his arms caught her back, and shifted her body close to his chest, tightly- so she wouldn't squirm to get out "H-hanzo! I can take care of myself-"
"you are perfectly capable of taking care of yourself- however whether you do a good job at it is... questionable.- and I, for one, can not bare to watch you like this any longer " he chuckled, he was pleased to see her cold face tint red as his voice vibrated through her body, he pushed through the snow just as hard as he was trying to push down the thoughts that threatened his crouch. Her head fell against his chest, finally falling asleep, he stared at her as he walked to pass time trying to itch at the unknown frustrations that bothered him
"you can stare for an awfully long time with blinking Hanzo" the voice startled him "I did not know you were awake" he internally scolded himself for being some kind of creep, but to be fair, he thought to himself, she did do the same earlier, maybe it were possible she felt the sam- no, she woul'dnt. "we are here" he slowly placed her back down on her feet and strighting her with his hands, his soft touches on her shoulder making her skin prick up. "here" Hanzo took his jacket and placed it loosely on her shoulders, Hanzo had felt somewhat protective, seeing her seem so weak or vunrable made his heart go soft, it ached
the camp sight was on the edge of a cliff, and it overlooked the city, especially Mafia territory. She placed down the sticks she had picked up to make the fire and Hanzo opened the camp bag, his face immediately going pale, at the sight of a single tent in the bag, his mind unvoulentairuy being flooded with unwanted thoughts, "Genji," he spoke on the radio, "I think there has been a mistake, there is only one tent"
"yep that's right" Genji spoke cooly not seeming to understand the irritation in Hanzo's voice, "if it makes you feel any better, I have to sleep next to the smelly cowboy" the radio cut of and he heaved a deep frustrated sigh, "It's fine Hanzo" she spoke from across him, her trying to light the fire, but he swore he could hear some hesitation in her voice too, he crossed his bros and put his finger between the nose of his bridge mumbling to himself "should I have you in my bed I am not sure my morals would uphold" he whispered to himself for no one to hear
"hmm? what did you say?" she asked again- not hearing him at all, "its ok, I will set up the tent now" he pulled out all the metal told and pins, constructing the tent, which came out terribly small.
She already crawled in first to get changed into her sleep wear, as he went into the forest to go to the bathroom, he struggled to hold his member without coming undone, he braced himself against a tree scolding himself to stop, his hand slowly moving on its own and moving up and down his shaft, he groaned through his teeth as braced himself harder and began to moved his hand in more circular motions around his cock, and finally allowing the thoughts he pushed back rush through his mind, how she was in his room- utterly indecent, and he stared at those lips, if only he could have leaned further, oh how he knew he could make her moan from him with his hand around her throat and gasping only his name and sweet sounds, and all the things he would tell her if only he could have her be his. he pictured her naked body against his and how maybe- just maybe, she would give him a show as she rid on his cock.
he bit back a groan as he was close to coming undone, he remembered the feel of her butt and she pressed against his crouch during their first mission and the soft feeling of her Breast against the back of his palm. finally he spilled onto the snowy ground, and clenched the tree bark hard, as his cock kept pulsing with its hot liquids. just the sight of her smile enough to make him pulse once more.
he Cleaned himself off and zipped up his fly, finally going back to the tent, he breathed in for 4 and finally let his breathe out as he went inside the tent, her body laying limp and already sleeping, he lay next to her, his body shamefully taking up 2/3 of the tents space, he pulled up the shared blanket and fell asleep to the sight of her bare back facing away from him.