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    “Rozanov, Ilya-- can you hear me? Fuck! Are you okay?” He asked, frantic. There was so much blood, people were running towards them. He could hear phones being dialled, could feel the presence of others around them.

    Ilya’s eyes were open, but it was as if he were looking past him, up towards the sky above. He coughed once and blood sputtered out, dribbling down his face "Mama." He said softly.

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    Since Shane was a young boy he has been able to rewind time. He had never done it for anything huge, just small things here and there.

    Then Ilya Rozanov died in front of him.

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    27 May 2026

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    The morning after opening up to Shane about his mother’s death for the first time, Ilya wakes up with his hair smelling strongly of last night’s campfire.

    For years, the smell of cigarette smoke reminded him of Irina. After last night, the smoke begins to take on a new meaning.

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    26 May 2026

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    Shane stares down the medic, “Get a tourniquet on his leg and Cliff will leave but not a fucking second sooner.”  
    The other medic, a woman, starts going through their medical equipment bags and kneels next to Cliff. The loud one, a man, nods at Shane. 

    “That’s fair. And other than holding his hand, what are you doing to help, Mr. Hollander?” Shane glances down at Ilya’s pale and frightened face. He briefly takes stock of what just happened. He’s on the ice holding Ilya Rozanov’s hand. He's in his regular clothes at a game he’s not playing in. He steels himself and meets the medic's eyes again. Fuck it. 

    “I’m his boyfriend. I guess I’m here for moral support. Give me something useful to do and I’ll do it. But I’m not going anywhere.” 

    Shane looks down at Ilya. He shrugs his shoulders and smiles tightly. He watches as Ilya goes from shocked to awed to joyous and finally to overwhelmed. His eyes are glassy and he swallows roughly. “Have I lost too much blood, or did you just tell someone you are my boyfriend?” Shane scoffs and smiles down at him, “A little bit of both. Just stay awake, ok?”  

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    17 May 2026

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    He doesn’t remember how long he drove for. All he knew was that the further he drove, the more his eyes would swell with tears.

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    Or: What if the infamous Long Game fight ended differently? Wherein Ilya storms out of his house after Shane leaves and gets into a car accident.

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    11 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, Captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, has never sat still a day in his life. But a plane crash has left him with a broken body and a fractured mind. Shane Hollander is prepared to give up everything to take care of Ilya and get him back on the ice where he belongs. But with Ilya facing life changing injuries, can love be enough to help him heal?

    Or

    The Centaurs plane actually crashed leaving Ilya seriously injured.

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    08 May 2026

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    He’s standing across from Ilya in his kitchen. Their feet are almost touching, Ilya’s in black socks that Shane also has multiple pairs of, Shane’s in his favourite soft striped ones. The rain is getting louder outside, moving from a drizzle to a downpour. And Ilya is looking at him like he loves him.

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    05 May 2026

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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    28 Apr 2026

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    Shane sighed with relief as the doors of the elevator closed. Whoever was in the hall probably didn’t see him. He would figure out how to move past the humiliation of sending that text message to Ilya. But first, he needed to get back to the safety of his hotel room. 

    “That was close,” Shane murmured to himself and slumped against the wall. 

    The doors of the elevator opened again. 

    Shane straightened at the sight of Ilya Rozanov, wearing nothing but an unbuttoned pair of slacks, his golden chain, and a phone in his hand. 

    [OR Ilya realized he made a mistake letting Shane go after their hookup in Vegas. As he's rushing to find Shane, he receives a text message from Shane that reads: We didn’t even kiss.]

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    20 Apr 2026

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    Ilya rounded the desk, and his heart didn’t stutter but simply stopped. For an endless second everything stilled around him. Shane had found them, his letters and his journals. And the world turned sideways slowly slipping away from Ilya’s grasp. Like someone had taken away the solid ground underneath his feet, leaving him falling indefinitely. His entire focus narrowed on the pages Shane was clasping in his hands and the shoe carton next to him.

    He had always promised himself that one day he would show Shane, he would tell him about all of it. But he had never wanted it to happen like this. For Shane to just stumble across the pages that carried his darkest thoughts and simple truths of his life. Never wanted him to read those alone or ever. Because Ilya wasn’t sure he was strong enough to revisit all the open wounds he had spilled on those pages.

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    Or Shane and Ilya spend some time at the cottage between Christmas and New Year’s and unravel their past once and for all.

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    18 Apr 2026

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    Shane is drunk, concussed, and hiding in a phone booth when he calls the only number he knows by heart.

    The man who answers is not Hayden Pike.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    “Is it your wedding day?”
    Shane sputters. “Sorry?”
    “The tuxedo,” she points out. “You look like you just got married.”
    “Oh,” Shane says dumbly, glancing down at his rumpled suit. “No,” he adds.
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    Or the one where that one night in Vegas gets a little out of hand for Ilya and Shane and a marriage by accident could turn into one of convenience. And maybe, something more.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    Shane’s been acting distant lately. Not so much cold and aloof as closed off and introspective. Usually, thats not a good sign. Usually, it means Shane is overthinking again. Something bad is coming, Ilya can tell. He’s just waiting for the other shoe to drop.

     

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    Shane tries breaking up with Ilya. It doesn't really go as planned.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    The first time it happens is an accident.

    Every other time after that is not.

    or: Shane’s nails dig into Ilya’s back and leave eight perfect marks. It starts a dangerous game of leaving each other's bodies marked, and it only escalates over time.

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    11 Apr 2026

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    Ilya wanted to get up, shake it off, keep playing, score his fucking hat trick. But it felt like his body wasn't his own. Like he was a marionette with its strings caught off. Gravity increased by tenfold it seemed and Ilya was too tired to resist it.

    The sword was still in his chest and Ilya could vividly imagine in his head the blood pulling beneath him. But as he looked down there was nothing but white ice all around him.

    In his last moments of consciousness, just like every night before falling asleep, Ilya thought of Shane. His lovely shane with his beautiful freckles.
    As ilya’s world succumbed to darkness he had just enough time to think “I would take a sword to the chest for him” ,then everything went black and Ilya could no longer feel.

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    Or, Ilya should have known one day his body wont be able to bear Ilya's awful habits and sad life, he just didnt expect to have a fucking heart attack on the ice.

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    10 Apr 2026

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    He doesn’t mean for it to happen that way. He sees the asphalt before he reaches it.

    He thinks, Ilya.

    He doesn’t remember much after that.

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    SHANE HOLLANDER, CAPTAIN OF MONTREAL METROS, FOUND UNRESPONSIVE AFTER FALLING FROM APARTMENT BALCONY
    The incident occurred mere hours after rumors of the hockey star’s sexuality started circulating, stemming from an online video of a private conversation between the young captain and actress Rose Landry. There is no update on his current status after being moved to…

    Or, Shane gets outed and accidentally hurts himself, the world thinks he's tried to end his life, and Ilya struggles to come to terms with mortality in more than one sense of the word.

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    10 Apr 2026

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    Mystery Work

    Part of AZRAELRIEGO
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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    09 Apr 2026

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    05 Apr 2026

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    While at the top of his game, professional porn star Ilya Rozanov is approached by the famous yet boringly untalented OnlyFans creator Shane Hollander who wants to collaborate. What starts as a transactional partnership quickly turns into a war of egos, blurred boundaries, and incredible on-camera chemistry.

    As their views climb and the sexual tension thickens they're left to confront the reality that maybe their mutual hatred might be the spark for some thing far more intimate then just sex.

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    01 Apr 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

    ***

    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    Chapters:
    18/?
    Comments:
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    01 Apr 2026

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    Shane finds out on Twitter.

    Not from a lawyer or a teammate or even one of the journalists who've been calling nonstop since the FanMail video went viral. He finds out at 6:47 am, still in bed, that Russia is coming for Ilya. Propaganda charges. Passport revocation. Return to the Russian Federation required.

    What follows is weeks of watching everything fall apart. Ilya's career. Their safety. The system that was supposed to protect them. Shane keeps playing while Ilya can't. The lawyers file paperwork and say to wait. Montreal demands silence.

    Shane faces a choice: keep his head down and trust the process, or burn down his career and force the world to pay attention.

    He chooses fire.

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    69,889

    29 Mar 2026

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