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“I mean, you— you say I’m perfect. That it’s, that everything we do together is… is perfect.”
“Yes, perfect,” Ilya says adamantly.
“Okay. But. I mean. I like feedback, you know. If there are things you haven’t said because you don’t want to hurt my feelings, you could say. If there’s any judgement of my technique, like, that you’ve been doing silently in your head.”
“I never judge you silently,” Ilya says. He pulls back a bit, twisting his neck so he can look Shane in the eye, frowning. “I judge you loudly. Is no fun if I don’t see your reaction.”
“Ha, ha.”
“Shane,” Ilya says. “Is this real worry you are having? I must know. You think I have… criticism of you, of sex with you? You think it is not perfect for me?”
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Shane and Ilya navigate their sexual relationship, now that they're finally a couple.
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03 Jun 2026
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gorgeous prose, the kind to make your insides flutter.
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russianstallion messages hollabackgirl on Grindr for some fun, but then they keep showing up at the same places, conveniently right when Boston and Montreal have a game against each other.
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Shane and Ilya, unbeknownst to each other, are sexting on Grindr while still being rivals on the ice.*SMAU that was previously uploaded to twitter is now on ao3 for ease of reading*
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21 May 2026
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whew! I really felt Shane's fear of falling in love with Ilya throughout this.... this one really took my breath away!
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is it the same for you? by notwritinganovel
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Dec 2025
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Shane releases what feels like his first exhale in forever—Ilya Rozanov, taken out by the common flu. Not ignoring him. Not ending anything. Still, the knot in his chest doesn’t ease completely with the vision of Ilya unwell and alone in Shane’s head.
JANE
Are you at your house?
LILY
Where else, Jane?
JANE
Don’t fall asleep. I’ll be there soon.
LILY
No, am sick. I told you.
JANE
I heard you. I’ll be there soon.
Or, Ilya’s sick and Shane wants, and wants, and wants.
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19 Apr 2026
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Alligator Bites Never Heal by flawlessassholes
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Mar 2026
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His outstretched glove hangs there, frozen, as the noise of the arena mutates into a ringing buzz. Then he’s moving, pushed away by Marlow, and then Boston’s goalie. There’s a flurry of movement, a trainer with a towel, more blood dripping onto the ice, and he just. Stands there. Staring.
Ilya is helped off the ice. Shane doesn’t even tap his stick.
Remember when Sidney Crosby caught a puck with his jaw? That doesn't happen to Shane. That happens to Ilya.
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- Part 1 of Alligator Bites Never Heal
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15 Apr 2026
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so this made me have to pace the length of my apartment several times - the highest of compliments!
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"Sveta," he says, before she can greet him. "I think I'm about to do something very stupid."
"You're always doing something stupid," she laughs, her voice tinny over the speakerphone. "What is it this time?"
"I am in a staring contest with a bottle of pills," Ilya says. "And I think the pills might win."
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Or: An alternate take on Ilya's mental health after moving to Ottawa, featuring the reality of long distance relationships, Ilya learning to captain a new team, and a series of game tapes made by Ilya's dead father.
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- Part 10 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic