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    High school was never supposed to be complicated.

    Then Ilya transfered to Canada and saw cute boy with freckles.

    He was supposed to be in Canada to learn how to act correct, Shane was everything but correct.

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    09 May 2026

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    “Food poisoning doesn’t last a month, nor does the flu. And I love you Shane, but I don’t need you dying because you’re too stubborn to talk to your team doctor. Who knows, maybe you’ve become intolerant to salmon.”

    Or: Shane visits Rose while he's in town for a game and she makes him visit the clinic because he's been 'off' for a month. Finds out something unexpected through bloodwork.

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    07 May 2026

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    The summer before his second season with the Centaurs, Shane Hollander is supposed to have his body and his life under control. He’s married, training hard, doing everything right.

    So the nausea, the bone-deep exhaustion, the aching chest and low back, the way his body feels wrong in all the old ways he thought he’d outrun?

    He blames stress. He blames the season. He blames anything but himself.

    Shane knows his body. He has spent years fighting for it.

    But one rushed doctor’s visit turns into an ultrasound, and suddenly he’s thirty-plus weeks pregnant with a baby he didn’t plan, didn’t want, and doesn’t know how to make peace with.

    Now he can’t outrun anything anymore.
    Not the dysphoria. Not the fear of the league finding out.
    Not the family he’s already carrying.

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    hi i need more trans!shane hollander. and as a trans man who wants to get pregnant someday obviously i had to make shane pregnant. without him knowing though. sorry bb

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    06 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 51

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    “I like it,” he says weakly. “I like it, I like you holding me like this.”

    “Like what?”

    “Like you own me.”
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    or; They're falling in love. They can't have it, even if they can have each other, just for a little while.

    PODFIC COMPLETE! 💯

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    20 Apr 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 34

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    A reading of The Pride of McGill....David Hollander by everythingsflux

    The NHL keeps a Central Registry of every team’s Emergency Backup Goaltender, or EBUG, an individual who must be prepared to play for either the home or visiting team should both goalies be taken out of commission. When the Registry was digitized in the mid 90’s a clerical error was made, and David Hollander has remained on file as Montreal’s EBUG. When Boston plays a preseason game in Montreal at the beginning of the 2017/2018 season, both of their goalies are taken out and David Hollander suddenly finds himself in the net in Boston black and yellow.

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    20 Apr 2026

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    The NHL keeps a Central Registry of every team’s Emergency Backup Goaltender, or EBUG, an individual who must be prepared to play for either the home or visiting team should both goalies be taken out of commission. When the Registry was digitized in the mid 90’s a clerical error was made, and David Hollander has remained on file as Montreal’s EBUG. When Boston plays a preseason game in Montreal at the beginning of the 2017/2018 season, both of their goalies are taken out and David Hollander suddenly finds himself in the net in Boston black and yellow.

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    20 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is 18 years old and a beta when he first competes at World Juniors in Saskatchewan. Shane's only expectation is to bring home gold. Instead, Shane unexpectedly presents as an omega during the gold medal game against Russia. Luckily, his rival Ilya Rozanov is there to help Shane, which is a good thing because Shane knows nothing about being an omega. Rozanov kindly offers to extend his stay to help Shane through his first heat.

    Only months later, Shane discovers that he came home with a whole lot more than a silver medal and an unwanted new designation. Somehow he's carrying the baby of a man who lives on the other side of the world. A man who never offered his phone number and doesn't have any social media to speak of.

    Somehow Shane is going to have to find a way to explain why he's suddenly pulling out of the 2009 draft, come to terms with giving up hockey and caring for a baby completely alone. All while desperately wishing he could share the joys of first smiles and the stress of sleepless nights with the alpha he's never quite been able to forget.

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    Shane gets pregnant the first time they meet, but doesn't find out until Ilya is back in Russia with no way to contact him.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    The NHL gives Ilya Rozanov one final responsibility before retirement: choose a rookie, train him for a year, and prepare him to inherit everything Ilya built in Ottawa.

    Shane Hollander is twenty-one, gifted, unnervingly observant, and quietly obsessed with Ilya’s career down to the smallest detail.

    Ilya has spent his whole life protecting his privacy, his body, and his control. Shane makes him want to lose all three.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Ch18

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    They then ask Shane to move his fingers and lift his arms. He does both no problem and the medics tell him good job. The medic takes off Shane’s skates. They ask him to wiggle his toes.

    Nothing happens.

     

    A play on a line from Heated Rivalry following Shane's injury “Oh god what if I’m not ok? What if I never walk again." A story of loss, growth, and love.

    (Disclaimer: This is my first fic, I'm not a doctor, I don't speak Russian, and I don't know anything about hockey. Don't think too hard.)

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    10 Mar 2026

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    "If you’d taken ten seconds longer, I’d have been gone.”
    Shane shot a dark look into the rearview mirror.

    “You were supposed to be gone seventy-five seconds ago,” Ilya replied mockingly. “Or did your watch stop working?”

    Damn it.

    Caught, Shane answered as calmly as he could. “Setting your car on fire took longer than expected. I miscalculated.” He figured it would be better to lie, than to admit he did in fact hesitate.

    Ilya’s grin was unmistakable. Shane could practically feel it. What he couldn’t tell was why it was there. Did Ilya believe him—and find his miscalculation amusing? Or did he not believe him at all?

    Ilya didn’t need to know that Shane hadn’t just hesitated to leave him behind—but had seriously considered running back into the woods and risk his own ass for this bastard.

    Yakuza x Bratva AU

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    03 Mar 2026

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    Raised as the Yakuza's Wakagashira, Shane Hollander only knows discipline. The Bratva Pakhan's son, Ilya Rozanov, has only ever been feared.

    When their worlds converge, what begins as a rivalry becomes something far more dangerous: a secret, forbidden relationship forged in violence, restraint, and yearning neither of them should be allowed. In the criminal underworld, love is leverage, and survival means knowing when to hide the truth and when to pull the trigger.

    A mafia AU about their forbidden romance, rivalry, violence, and what it means to choose each other in spite of it all. Enemies by design. Lovers by choice.

    -prev. titled “The Yakuza Enforcer and the Bratva Prince”-

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    03 Mar 2026

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Shane releases what feels like his first exhale in forever—Ilya Rozanov, taken out by the common flu. Not ignoring him. Not ending anything. Still, the knot in his chest doesn’t ease completely with the vision of Ilya unwell and alone in Shane’s head.

    JANE

    Are you at your house?

    LILY

    Where else, Jane?

    JANE

    Don’t fall asleep. I’ll be there soon. 

    LILY

    No, am sick. I told you. 

    JANE

    I heard you. I’ll be there soon.

    Or, Ilya’s sick and Shane wants, and wants, and wants. 

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    18 Feb 2026

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    When he was seven years old, Shane Hollander was briefly lost at an airport. Luckily, the kindness of a stranger ensured he made it back to his parents safely, putting an end to a terrifying three hours for the Hollanders. It takes twenty years (and one heated rivalry) for Shane to learn the name of his rescuer. It takes twenty years for Ilya to learn his wish had already come true.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

    +++

    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    Shane loves yoga. It has always been an escape for him—an escape from his body and his mind. When a bunch of other NHL players interrupt him in a hotel gym during a conference, he is not surprised when they make fun of him, but he is surprised when Ilya asks him to teach them a few poses and they all go along with it. He gets to show off his flexibility, and it seems harmless enough to show off a little extra for Ilya, until-

    “Holy shit, Hollander, wait—can you suck your own cock?”

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    16 Feb 2026

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    “I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”

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    or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.

    Ilya has open hands.

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    415,729

    16 Feb 2026

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    Five times someone asked who Lily was, and one time Shane told the truth.

    Or, “A Lesson in the Art of Subtlety,” presented by Shane Hollander, and witnessed by the Montreal Voyageurs.

    (Inspired by the scene where Shane gets the dickpick and slams his phone down on the bed, and in ep4 when he aggressively tells Hayden he is going to visit a “friend”)

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
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    Comments:
    417
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    23,991
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    2,207
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    179,991

    14 Feb 2026

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    Five times Ilya lied (but not really) to his teammates about Shane, and one time he didn’t have to.

    Inspired by two Cliff Marlow lines: In the airport, when their game with Montreal gets cancelled and he tells Ilya, “Whoever she is, she’s gonna get over it,” and the scene in the locker room when he says, “Wow, this Montreal girl works you up, brother—you’re straight up blushing, Roz.”

    Or, the Boston Bears’ perspective of Ilya and Shane’s “secret” relationship over the years

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    37,241
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    5,445
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    290,601

    14 Feb 2026

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    “Do you want to fuck Svetlana?

    Shane dropped his phone. “What? No. Are you fucking crazy?”

    “I am not crazy,” Ilya said. “But I would like to be fucking. Maybe both of you. At once.”

    “Too bad you only have one dick then,” Shane said, incredulous.

    “My innocent sweet boy, Hollander. Never had a threesome before?”

    “I could barely handle one girl at a time,” Shane confessed. “Much less two. Because, Rozanov, I am gay.”

    +++

    Ilya and Svetlana propose a threesome for old time's sake. Shane learns that sometimes, experimentation can be very, very rewarding. An exploration of identity and desire and, ultimately, being true to yourself.

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    2,012
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    98,875

    14 Feb 2026

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