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“I’ll fix it.” Merlin croaks. “I’ll fix everything. We’ll switch places. You’ll be back in Camelot in no time. You’ll see Gwen again. I promise.”
Arthur makes a noise of protest but Merlin shushes him. “I know you don’t trust me anymore but I will make everything right.” Merlin vows.
The sorcerer truly means this, Arthur knows. Sincerity is practically dripping from every word. It’s such a Merlin thing to promise, with that earnest and determined tone. It only scares Arthur more.
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- Part 1 of We're back bitches!
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15 Nov 2025
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Arthur heaves a sigh. “All right. Show me where it is.” They tie their horses to a scraggly willow that seems to look melancholically back at them while the horses snort and stamp their feet, eager to be moving again, and Arthur and Merlin begin to trudge through the thick wood.
It’s only a few minutes of shallow ice cracking under their feet and watching Merlin trip and clutch at nearby trees before they reach a thin brook that is indeed frozen solid. It threads lithely through the forest, caught in its last rush and swell of current before the cold turned a greedy eye on it, and Arthur finds it oddly hypnotizing in its inertia.
“Pretty, huh?” Merlin sits down on the bank, drawing his knees up to his and resting his chin on his arms. He stares out at the water.
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23 Sep 2025
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“…Do you think I’m hard to love?”
Arthur doesn’t breathe.
Because he knows. He knows that Merlin means it, knows this isn’t a question for reassurance. It’s a confession of fear. And it breaks something in him to know why Merlin is asking.
Arthur turns his whole body to face him. Looks him in the eye.
“No,” he says, with the certainty of the sun rising — not questioned, not earned, just as a fact.
Merlin swallows.
Arthur continues, softer now, “I think you’re hard to read. But never hard to love.”Bookmarked by ificouldwrite
23 Sep 2025
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“You told the hotel it’s our honeymoon.”
Alex shrugs, in that carefree and charming way he does, as if certain no reasonable person could ever be mad at him.
Henry couldn’t.
The thought of spending a week sleeping alongside Alex and not being able to reach out and touch him — to caress his skin or to run his fingers through Alex’s hair while he sleeps, admiring the way his unruly curls will fall over the pillow – is a tragedy.
This will be torture.
Slow, painful, torture. Like someone had peeked inside Henry’s brain and picked the most painful possible way to torment him, tailored and customised specifically for him.
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While on vacation together in Hawaii, Alex tells the resort it's their honeymoon so they can get a free upgrade. Pretending to be married is fine, until it's not, and Henry has to confront his feelings for his best friend of 20 years.
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31 Aug 2025
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The Last Rejection by staergirly
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
30 Aug 2025
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“There are… certain forms of affection I can’t express in public,” Henry said finally, quieter now, his eyes not quite meeting Alex’s. “It’s just the way things are.”
Alex held his gaze, heart pounding, pulse hot in his ears. He wanted to understand. He really did. But all he could feel in that moment was utter humiliation, and betrayal—of being held at arm’s length yet again.
He downed the rest of his champagne in one sharp swallow and set the glass aside.
“Yeah,” he said softly. “I’m starting to realise that.”
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5 times Henry rejected PDA, and the one time he initiated it.
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31 Aug 2025
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Red on White (and its not so blue) by avalanchrts
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
24 Apr 2025
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“Sure, I care.” Alex winced as he shifted, grimacing at the stabbing pain in his gut. “But you think anyone can do a better job than me? I’m literally the most relatable first son.”
Ellen gave him a look. “Relatable? You got shot in the abdomen, Alex, the only thing you’re relatable to is a punching bag.”
“Oh, come on, it wasn’t that bad. I looked great in my hospital pics. You saw the photoshoot—they’re already circulating on the fan pages.” Alex grinned, his lips curling up like a mischievous kid caught raiding the cookie jar. “So yeah, I’m practically #FSOTUSMaterial.”aka, a GWS agcd fic bcos im a whore for whump<3
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24 Aug 2025
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Arthur looked nervous, and Merlin wanted to reassure him, thank him, drop to his knees and pledge an oath of loyalty as if Arthur hadn’t had one from him all along, but he couldn’t even move.
“Merlin?” Arthur asked, suddenly much closer to him. He said something else, but Merlin couldn’t hear it. He was untethered, unable to find himself.
Arthur’s hands landed on his shoulders, and Merlin inhaled sharply, suddenly feeling his feet on the ground, his sleeves on his wrists, the tears on his cheeks.
“You with me?” Arthur asked.
“Always,” Merlin said.
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Camelot has rules about touch. Merlin struggles with them until he realizes he doesn't have to.
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22 Aug 2025
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Don't Hide Your Flaws (I'll Cause Them All Again) by livinginthetheater
Fandoms: Merlin (TV)
17 Aug 2025
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No servant should have so many scars. When a visiting knight sees Merlin's, he can only come to one conclusion: King Arthur is a violent abuser, and Merlin must be protected at all costs.
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- Part 7 of Living's Standalone Merthur Fics
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22 Aug 2025
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the leaving part by avalanchrts
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
14 Aug 2025
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It’s stupid. He knows it’s stupid. But his hands are already trembling. Because he remembers. That summer morning at the lake house, Henry slipping away like a ghost, the door clicking shut behind him.
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20 Aug 2025
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No More First Son by Jenjentheboscostick
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
12 Aug 2025
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Post-Canon Alex realizes that he can no longer represent his mom after everything, this 5 times he lies about why plus 1 time he finally tells the truth.
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20 Aug 2025
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Nora found out in the living room of her apartment in Columbia Heights. Zahra found out in the Beekman Hotel. Ellen found out in a small conference room in the West Wing. The world found out on social media. But what about everyone in between?
Pez? On his private plane.
Amy? In a hallway of the Residence.
Bea? In Kensington Palace.
Shaan? In Paris.
Cash? In New York City.
Liam? In his apartment with Spencer.
Leo? Along with the rest of the world.or,
Missing scenes showing how Henry and Alex's closest friends and family discovered their situationship.Bookmarked by ificouldwrite
19 Aug 2025
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Merlin is magic, and iron hurts magical creatures.
How did Arthur not catch that before!A study in the lengths Arthur will go to confess in every way but with words.
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10 Aug 2025
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Everyone insisted that Arthur needed time to process, to accept that Merlin was gone. The only problem was that Merlin wasn’t.
Arthur didn’t know how to explain it without sounding like Uther when he’d seen Ygraine in the well, like he was losing his mind and looking for ghosts. He didn’t know how to look at his court and make them understand that Merlin had once told him about nature, about the sacred connectedness of the earth, and asked Arthur if he felt it. He didn’t know how to say that he hadn’t felt it back then, but that he did now. He felt it all. He felt Merlin in it.
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Merlin saves Arthur's life at Camlann at the cost of his own. Merlin can't die, so it's not that simple.
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10 Aug 2025
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"'I'd feared you'd kill me, but much, significantly, more so, sire, I'd feared you'd hate- leave me.'"
"And, will you?"
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10 Aug 2025
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Merlin is Camelot's court sorcerer, and in the few months since the change, he's earned everyone's respect. The time of peace in Camelot is now—but Arthur knows something is still off.
When Merlin arrives in his chambers one evening, tired and a bit lost, Arthur knows exactly what he could say to make them both feel better.
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- Part 3 of Living's Standalone Merthur Fics
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27 Jul 2025
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The sob that escaped him was a tiny thread of sound, little more than an embellishment upon the air. He did not wail. It was too big for that, too much, all the more painful for being unexpected. Not Arthur's betrothal, but his own reaction to it. It was as if all the nebulous uncertainty of the day had crystallised into a blade.
Worse, he had no one to blame but himself. He had never told Arthur how he felt. It had always seemed like a step too far, and now it was too late.
Tomorrow, he would pick up the pieces of himself and find the strength to bear the scars of it. He would be the friend Arthur needed, and he would pretend that was enough.
Tonight, he mourned.
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When Arthur announces his courtship to Lady Aveline of Spirehold, Merlin resigns himself to never speaking of his love. Yet the universe has other ideas. Stuck in the same, repeating day, can Merlin find his courage and break free, or will he lose his last chance to speak of what lingers in his heart?
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22 Jul 2025
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The memory of Merlin haunts him day and night.
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12 Jul 2025
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Everything That Was Once Hidden (Becomes Something Held) by maeven_k
Fandoms: Merlin (TV)
28 Jun 2025
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“It’s my job to protect you,” Merlin whispers.
Arthur’s brow creases. “At the cost of yourself?”
Merlin gives a crooked, painful smile. “That’s what protection is, isn’t it?”
Arthur doesn’t speak; he doesn’t know how to respond to that, how to even begin to unravel the lifetime of sacrifice tangled in those few words. Instead, he reaches out. Slowly. Gently. Fingers brushing Merlin’s forearm. Merlin flinches, not because he’s afraid, but because the touch is kind.
“Let me help,” Arthur says, voice raw. “Just this once. Let me take care of you.”
It's time for someone to hold what was once hidden.
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07 Jul 2025
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Modern royal AU. When Arthur, the Prince of Wales, was seventeen, he made a mistake that is still haunting him. Eight years later, can he finally make it right?
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06 Jul 2025
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When Merlin begins sketching in Arthur’s chambers, a simple pastime turns into a series of intimate revelations. Arthur discovers Merlin’s hidden drawings - tender portraits of the two of them together - and realises the depth of Merlin’s feelings. To Merlin’s surprise, Arthur begins drawing too, slowly and clumsily at first, but always with sincerity.
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10 Jun 2025