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We arrived a little later than planned to my brother´s apartment, as we stopped before to buy the cake for our little celebration and some other things that were missing. I tried to warn the little group I had with me about my older brother before ringing the bell, but Jyushimatsu was faster than me and pushed the button about a hundred times. We four stood in fear hearing my brother yell his stupid phrases from inside. Osomatsu hold Todomatsu closer to him as if a catastrophe where about to happen. Then a familiar thud, at least for me, silenced Karamatsu. The door opened slowly.
“Welcome.” Ichimatsu said, bend and tired as always.
“Did you hurt Karamatsu again?”
“Yup.”
I let Osomatsu and his brothers enter first, but Ichimatsu didn´t move from the door, he was facing Osomatsu straight in the eyes.
“Hello, boyfriend of my brother.” Ichimatsu said half smiling, and I wanted to kill him right there.
With a smirk Osomatsu answered: “Hello brother of my boyfriend.”
And both chuckle.
“Welcome. Come on in.”
Not containing enough my anger, I didn´t miss my chance to sneer down to Ichimatsu once we started to get inside “I´m going to fucking kill you.”
“Sure, this world won´t miss me.” He answered with his usually flat tone, half smiling in his self-pity, as if I can´t actually harm him.
I´ll deal with that later.
“Jyushimatsu!” I heard Osomatsu´s voice. When I turned around, the boy was praying kneeled next to Karamatsu, who´s still facing down on the floor. “Don´t kill him!”
I heard Ichimatsu blowing a laugh behind me “this is going to be fun.”
My head is hurting already and we´ve been here for a minute, only a minute. I´m in charge, as always, and I´m going to do my very best to not let these bunch of idiots kill each other, or in the most probably outcome, to kill Karamatsu.
Osomatsu slips his arms under Jyushimatsu´s armpits and pulls him up from the floor. “C´mon buddy don´t do that. Stay here.”
Jyushimatsu laughed shamelessly loud, irrepressible happy as he flapped his legs in all directions making it way more difficult for Osomatsu to carry him. Finally able to make Jyushimatsu sat on a couch Todomatsu followed and accommodate himself next to him.
Ichimatsu passed me by, not caring about the bags I was carrying, but Osomatsu did and he grabbed half of the things I had after making sure his brothers were fine, by logic we took everything to the kitchen; big mistake.
Karamatsu lifted himself from the floor, apparently unharmed by Ichimatsu´s assault and eagerly enough to follow him. Both of them wanted to meet the new kids, obviously we were going to introduce them, or at least that was what Osomatsu wanted to do after placing the cake and the bags away. But my stupid older brother moved faster than we did, approaching Todomatsu immediately.
“Oh man,” he said squatting at his height “aren´t you a cute little girl?”
Osomatsu gasped in fear after hearing Karamatsu, but was in vain as Todomatsu was really close to him. The little one´s face was contracting in an enraged expression. Jumping nimbly, Todomatsu had enough room to take his foot back, and Karamatsu in confusion stood up; another big mistake. Precise, hard enough for a boy his size, Todomatsu landed a kick straight on Karamatsu´s shin making him twist in pain.
“That´s sexism!” Yelled the small form.
“Wha…?” Karamatsu opened his eyes in confusion, he´s not used to Todomatsu´s way of speaking. Me neither, but I´ve heard some of his inappropriate ways of express himself, enough to at least have some defenses against that.
“Jyushi!” Yelled Osomatsu, which I found strange, the one that had hit Karamatsu was…
“Aaaaaghh!” My older brother screamed again as Jyushimatsu hit the other leg.
“Oh…” then I realize what should come next “Ichimatsu!” But I was too late also.
Ichimatsu was smiling widely and kicked Karamatsu in the floor.
“Brother…” complained Karamatsu looking at his sibling.
“It was rude of you calling a boy girl and I don´t think you had the proper punishment by him, look at those small legs, wasn´t fair.”
“Boy?” Muttered the poor man groaning in the floor.
“Totty is not a girl!” Jyushimatsu said loud “Totty gets angry every time people calls him girl and I will defend Totty´s hono…ah!”
Osomatsu pulled Jyushimatsu again “what the hell dude!? Don´t go kicking people like that! Todomatsu! You know that there´s no issue with you wearing pink, but if you´re going to dress that cutely then don´t complain if people calls you little girl you hear!? We already had this talk before, I don´t get you guys.”
The youngest of them pouted and lowered his head.
“Don´t… don´t scold him” mumbled my stupid, stupid older brother “It was my fault, I should´ve ask before assuming.” Wearing his normal pissed but happy smile he lifts up from the floor groping his damaged part.
He just try so hard sometimes.
“I´m sorry sir,” Osomatsu answered “I can´t let Todomatsu and Jyushimatsu do whatever they want, and you shouldn´t either.”
“Ah…”
Osomatsu doesn´t know, he just hit a sensitive spot in Karamatsu, he never, never reprimanded Ichimatsu or me when we were little. Something in him tells him he should be caring and comprehensive. Even if that means being mild, and not representing any type of authority figure.
“Ok, stop!” I interfere in what could become something deeper and more of a psychological session than a meeting, which is not correct. My immediate action is sitting all of them on the living room, Osomatsu´s family on a side and mine on the other. I stood in the middle, observing them. “We´re going to do this the best way possible for all of us,” I said crossing my arms “and first introductions…” grabbing Osomatsu´s hand I made him stand up. “This is Osomatsu Matsuno, my boyfriend.”
Bowing, not without a pair of cute blushing cheeks, Osomatsu assents “nice meeting you, I´m sorry for any problem my little brothers caused, and thank you for accepting me, I´ll be in your care.” Taking the boys Osomatsu introduce them “the older one is Jyushimatsu, and our youngest is Todomatsu.”
Both little guys bowed.
“Now,” Osomatsu continued frowning in disapproval “apologize.” He commanded to the other two.
They bowed again “We´re sorry.”
“It´s fine, really, it was my mistake,” repeated Karamatsu “it´s nice meeting you all three, especially you Osomatsu,” he stretched his hand and Osomatsu grabbed it “my name is Karamatsu, probably you heard of me from our dear mutual Choromatsu.”
“Ah… yeah…” Osomatsu said, he was thinking how to answer, I know, I haven´t told him really good nice things about Karamatsu in matters of personality.
“It is a delight to meet such a young boy skillful and stubborn enough to break down all Choromatsu´s hindrances and bring afloat all his inner lies and dubious sexuality.”
“Dub…!?”
Osomatsu broke in laughter. “Dubious sexuality,” he laughed harder, looking at my angry face “he´s killing me.”
“Yeah…” I follow vexed “really killing me too.”
“What´s dubious sexuality?” Todomatsu asked.
“Ah…” Karamatsu got surprised at his own choice of words, and was having a difficult time, because he made a mistake and the little one was curious about the concept. He wanted to explain, but at the same time it was a subject not suitable for children.
“It´s when you don´t know if you like girls or boys.” Osomatsu answered plainly. And there it is, that´s how Todomatsu has built his repertoire or words.
“Then I have a dubious sexuality right?” Todomatsu asked again, wearing a happy face like he had made the most exiting discovery.
We all panicked, except Osomatsu.
“Why buddy?”
“I don´t like either, not girls or boys, bwagh!” He did a grimace of disgust.
“Haha… somehow you´re correct but not quite.” Osomatsu patted his head, wearing a tender and comprehensive smile.
“Ok, ok, let´s continue.” I tried to take this to the correct path, that thing over there with those two could take hours, I know. “As you heard my older brother is Karamatsu, and my younger one is Ichimatsu.”
“Hello…” Ichimatsu said barely opening his mouth “I heard you were blond, where did that hair go?”
“Ah that,” Osomatsu fixing his hair answered “I promised Choromatsu-sensei that I was going to wear it black on the graduation ceremony, but I´m seriously thinking in bleach it again once university starts.”
Osomatsu didn´t notice, he doesn´t know my bothers, but they glare at me in a mocking way when he said Choromatsu-sensei… is “sudden death” a feasible case for a healthy man? Can I drop dead right here? Life´s not that easy I guess.
Ichimatsu seemed interested in Osomatsu´s University and asked for the name of it, and then I fell into realization before they worded it out, my mouth dried out, my hands started trembling as a cold sweat was coating my body.
“Wait, that´s the university I go.” Ichimatsu said, surprised once Osomatsu shared the name.
“Really?”
“Yeah… I´m starting my second year.”
“Second year? How old are you?” Osomatsu asked intrigued.
“19, I´m turning 20 in about a month.”
“Oh, I´m 18, so we are about the same age, that´s cool!”
Yup, I have just realized that information. I´m dating a boy that´s near my younger brother’s age and, what´s worst, he´s even younger. How deep have I sink? I don´t even know, but I´m pretty sure if I was a boat, I´ll be in the very bottom of the sea, my sins anchoring me heavily into the sand.
“Osomatsu, can you help me?” I said faking my best smile.
“Do you want help brother?” asked Karamatsu.
“You two take care of the kids, I only need Osomatsu.” I answered.
“I know he´s your new Angel of Hope but please, I will need to request to keep it down a little when there are kids near,” Karamatsu was touching his forehead with two fingers “please brother, refrain your passion!”
“On the kitchen you fu… idiot!” I yelled, but restraining myself in front of the kids. I don´t have the patience right now to deal with him, I have a swarming feeling in my stomach, and I need to calm my mind with Osomatsu´s words. And, in fact, if I could tell my brother how I really wanted to be with Osomatsu alone, away from this tiresome situation, I would be the happiest man in the planet. I love how he makes me feel, like we can be alone together, and he can calm me down in minutes, taking me away from the unyielding pressure I put on myself. He knows that I get tired when dealing with people, not caring if they´re my family or strangers. That´s when Osomatsu caress and strokes my head in a way that I´ve learned to love, it´s my new drug, something I can exploit to feel better. On his side, I know he´s enjoying this outgrowing attachment in us too.
“What´s up?” He asked when we were apart.
“You´re the same age as my younger brother…” I muttered grabbed with both hands to the counter´s edge.
“I had a feeling you will get bothered by that. Are you regretting this?” He didn’t ask as a way of challenge, it was more him deepening in what I was feeling.
“No, but.”
“But?” Osomatsu was taking that chance to sneak touches, and lovingly kissing my templates.
“I really keep wondering if you´re ok with someone so older than you.”
“I am, are you ok with someone younger?”
“What are you saying, being younger it´s always better right? I´m the one that has something to win in here.”
“You´re so wrong in that, that’s not my type, not everyone likes younger people, I know I don´t. Also, I feel so proud to be able to say I have this, handsome, competent, smart, perfect man as my boyfriend.”
“You´re always sugarcoating me. I don´t know with what eyes you see me but I almost look like an appealing person when you talk.”
“C´mon, you are an appealing person, you´re the best,” landing a light kiss on my lips he looked at me with such endearing eyes that I can´t help but melt “I love you.”
Ah, there is that, we´ve been dating for five months, and he keeps repeating those three words to me, over and over, and I see it in his eyes, he´s not waiting for an answer, he just wants to tell me he loves me in all opportunities presented, but I haven´t answered back. And it´s not because I don´t want to, or I don´t feel the same, I do, I love him, once I took the skeleton out the closet everything was clearer and I knew I spent the first part of our time together liking him, and by the end, when we could be together I was already in love. But again, not a single word has come out of my mouth in that matter, I´m just as always trying to find the perfect moment. I didn´t think it was appropriate when he was all stressed out by exams, or the little time we had to… satisfy his… our needs.
Finally I can just blush again and hold him tight against me making the kiss deeper, waiting for him to understand I love him too.
Our brothers are dealing with the kids but, fuck it, they can handle them for a while. Although we keep an eye on them, just in case. At the same time we keep getting the food out of the bags.
Karamatsu got closer to Todomatsu, he just doesn´t learn right? Probably was trying to fix his mistake.
“Hey little one, how old are…?”
“Aaaaaah!” Todomatu started to scream.
“What did you do?” Ichimatsu said.
“Nothing I was just going to ask…”
“He wants to kidnap me and sell my organs!” Todomatsu was hugging himself, with big fake tears “because I have much money in my kidney.”
“What!?” The confusion sound from Karamatsu filled the room followed by the most thunderous laugh I ever heard from Ichimatsu.
Osomatsu was trembling not wanting to burst in laughter as our little make out session has been interrupted.
“Get away from him!” Jyushimatsu pushed Karamatsu and Ichimatsu imitated him.
“Yes you pervert, get away from him!” My younger brother showed that characteristic smile on him, his sadistic side was performing without shame.
“We protected Totty!”
“We did…”
Ichimatsu and Jyushimatsu made a high five and Ichimatsu rustled the boy´s head.
“Jyushimatsu loves to be patted, look.” Osomatsu regaining his voice pointed out.
The boy was running around the couches, zigzagging between them, going around the coffee table, all with his arms high and doing big strides, at the same time he did something similar as a laugh, a loud and throaty expression.
“Jyushi, stop.” Said Osomatsu, kindly but firm.
“Yes Nii-san! I was patted!”
“I saw kid, great job.”
If I thought it wasn’t possible for Jyushimatsu´s smile to go wider, I was wrong, his cheeks were cutely red and his mouth was impressively open. So proud his older brother complimented him. Today seemed to be a good day for the middle son.
We were almost done, with the real and fake preparations, after shamelessly flirt in the kitchen with Osomatsu we started to bring things to the coffee table as we six surely won´t fit in the dinner table.
In our last trip, with the drinks in hands, we noticed that Karamatsu wasn´t around, and we joked about them killing him and hiding the body somewhere, but they were calmly on the couch; Ichimatsu was listening to Todomatsu who was showing him his pictures on Osomatsu´s cellphone of the places he has been, all the things his parents had bought him, and all type of possession he had. Ichimatsu was listening patiently enough, attentive if I may say, extremely calm, having in consideration that Jyushimatsu was clang to his back biting his head. Osomatsu and I looked at the scene confused and before we could say anything my little brother spoke.
“I think he likes me,” he said pointing at the boy that was still biting him “cool, right?” Then he pointed at Todomatsu, “I think he doesn´t have a soul, he´s dead on the inside and likes to show off … whatever this is.”
With the same laugh he made a while ago, Jyushimatsu answered “that´s Totty! Totty doesn´t have a soul! NO SOUL!”
“Ichimatsu!” I scolded him.
“See? Your dryness is showing, little demon.” Osomatsu followed the conversation as if no one had insulted his little brother.
“I don´t care.” With a pout Todomatsu turned his head to the side.
“Todomatsu?”
From seemingly nowhere Karamatsu appeared back, still alive.
“Did you return to appeal your sentence?” He was welcomed with a cold stare from Todomatsu as he crossed his arms at the front.
Karamatsu smirked “yeah, here” he had in his hand a small box of strawberry Pockys which he lent to Todomatsu.
Osomatsu blew a smile “those are Todo´s favorite” he whispered to me.
“Is this really for me?” For the first time I saw a childish look on the little one, his eyes wide opened and glossy, he was remarkably cute as a dainty hue was covering his cheeks.
“Of course, I´m sorry I offended you.”
Climbing the sofa Todomatsu reached a good height to cling into Karamatsu´s arms and he took the box of Pockys.
“Thank you.” Todomatsu said. That was cute, I was about to smile tenderized by the scene but Osomatsu was laughing behind his teeth. “He´s my pimp now!”
“What!?” It was the same shock from Karamatsu and me. While Osomatsu and Ichimatsu were laughing.
“I´m sorry, I´m sorry,” said Osomatsu between laughs “he thinks that a pimp is someone that gives you things.”
“But why the hell did he know the word in the first place!?” I said alarmed.
“He just hears words in shows… and he asks and I have to give him an answer.”
“Why don´t you just tell him is a word he can´t know!? And what type of shows did you two watch in the first place!?”
“I can´t,” Ichimatsu muttered “who would think Karamatsu, that you of all people?”
“What?”
“I´m so disappointed of you,” he continued with a dark smile “so that´s what calls your attention, I swear to God I thought you were gay, but no, is the sweet nectar of an unbloomed flower, a young and forbidden love what drags your desires? The excitement of the chase for the outlawed.”
It was impressive how accurate Ichimatsu was able to replicate Karamatsu´s past words.
“That´s not what I did here! Don´t make things worse!” Karamatsu yelled, frightened and highly offended.
“This is a mess, I can´t believe you let him heard those words! What kind of older brother you are?” I said, angry enough for the actual situation.
“Choro-sensei I had… it´s just…”
“Leave Onii-chan alone!” I heard the two boys.
Crap, I lost my composure again, I can´t excuse myself, it was an automatic response, at the end I´m a teacher and I need to guide young people to be better, and I know Todomatsu has this strange vocabulary, but I have never heard him say something so offensive.
“Onii-chan protects us,” said Todomatsu. “When the guy that threatened Jyushimatsu appeared, he didn´t hesitate to fight him despite he promised he wouldn´t fight anymore.”
“Eh?” What was the kid talking about? I´ve never heard anything of that.
“Oh boy…” Osomatsu mumbled.
“Osomatsu, would you care explain this to me?”
“I… dun wanna…”
“Don´t scold Onii-chan, he didn´t do anything wrong!” Todomatsu was still in defense of his brother.
“Totty, enough, thank you buddy.”
“But it´s not fair.” He had the eyes watered, his cheeks were redder as the force of crying was getting stronger.
“I´m not going to scold him, I´m sorry, Todo-kun, for yelling,” getting closer to the boy I patted his head “can I talk with your brother a little bit without you worrying about it? May I?”
Buried in Karamatsu´s neck and clang into the shirt as his life depended on it he nodded slowly, still sulking he said “you can´t get angry at Onii-chan, because you´re the person Onii-chan likes the most, you like Onii-chan the most too, and when people fight they get away from each other, and they get sad, and… and Onii-chan is not funny when he´s sad… and I don´t like the Onii-chan that´s not funny because that´s not my Onii-chan… and, he really likes you, and Totty can´t do anything to make him happy if he´s sad for sensei.”
My heart hurts, my chest was aching relentlessly. “I´m not going to make your brother sad, I promise,”
“You´re promising it!” Todomatsu reaffirmed my words.
“Yes, I am.” I made a pause. “Karamatsu-niisan can I borrow your bedroom for a while?”
“Of course brother, all yours, you don´t even need to ask.”
“Thank you, Osomatsu, can we talk please?”
He sighed in resignation, scratching the back of his head nervously.
“Remember this is a descent house, not a school library, or a classroom… or the teacher´s bathroom… or the showers…” Ichimatsu didn´t even look at us when saying all of that, but I can smell the smugness of his words.
A cold nervousness covered me in seconds, as I heard Ichimatsu speak, suddenly I was scared, angry and feeling highly betrayed. All those places where the specific locations Osomatsu and I had lost control in the past months, and the only person I have told all of them was Ichimatsu. I only shared with both the first time, and not with details, just as some way of cleansing my soul and find comfort in my brothers´ words. After that, I keep going back to Ichimatsu, he was the one that put me back on my feet when feeling like I was doing something really wrong whenever I decided to take Osomatsu in a public place. So his words were accurate, and I don´t even know why he´s bringing that right now, he´s just going to make this issue bigger.
I watched Osomatsu carefully, he stared at Ichimatsu with a blank expression and then at me. I was in trouble right? Osomatsu bent over the back of the couch with his arms as support. And he sniffed a few times at Ichimatsu´s hair.
“Oh, what is that smell? Does it… nah?” He said with a devilish tone, “no wait, it is, do I smell a jealousy virgin trying to ridicule his brother?”
“Eh!? I´m not…” Ichimatsu turned around angrily shy.
“Are you sure? Somehow I don´t picture you getting close to a girl or boy to ask them out.”
“I… you…” He was glaring to Osomatsu reaching a vivid point of rage.
“If you´re not ready for war then put the weapons away.” Osomatsu said proudly mischievous.
Ichimatsu blew the anger in a loudly pull “Shut up and go get your ass plunged, let sensei punish you for being a bad boy.”
“Oh, sounds like someone is craving.”
We were waiting the fits fly, but instead loud horse laughs filled the room.
“I´ll have my eyes on you kouhai.” Ichimatsu said with a malevolent smile.
“Of course senpai, I´ll be looking forward to it.”
Without another word I took Osomatsu to my brother´s bedroom not without hearing him in person ask in supposedly whispers about the places Ichimatsu mentioned. But they were away from us as I close the door behind me.
“Osomatsu.” I don´t even remember clearly why I was upset and worried, I mean, I do remember but the feeling is gone, part of that is because I know he could be angry too, somehow, and I can´t control my voice but to leave as a dainty whisper.
“Man we should´ve been more careful,” he said sitting on the bed´s edge “I don´t know if he didn´t say when we almost did it on the roof because you didn’t tell him or because he forgot.”
Then again I always forgot how Osomatsu is easy to forgive and he has no qualms in sharing his private life with others. I found out myself a week ago that all his friends knew about him being in love with me, what am I saying, his whole classroom found out that, and his friends knew about our little escapade on the library.
“And only because he didn´t say “classrooms” we repeated locations a couple of times.” I said a little regretful.
“Yeah…” he answered with a pensive stance.
“Wasn´t me the one who told you to be careful? And look at that, we took more risks than what we should.”
“True, but, you were always following my desires, I begged you a lot because I was having a lot of work and I couldn´t spare even thirty minutes to go to your apartment and go back to study at home, so, things happened.”
“Ah… right.”
I sat next to him, taking the chance to hold his hand. “Do you mind explain to me what was that Todomatsu said? About you fighting for them.”
He sighed. “Look, long story short, I was dating this girl, well no, we weren´t dating that´s what I wanted because I fell for her and she approached me and charmed me saying things like “you´re too funny” “you´re cute” and such. She was one year older than me, I was fourteen then, and I had just discovered that I was in love with you so, I tried to change my mind somehow by dating her, but it turns out she was just trying to provoke her boyfriend with the stupidest guy she could find, which was “me” by the way. Thing I discovered five months after I met her, she was the one that started my changes, and request for me to pierce my ears, and as I was loathing in my love for you I decided to follow her as much as I could, you know, I think I was going through a self-destructive phase, and she was really convincing, and I really liked her so everything merged together” he shook his head buffing “my parents were so scared of me liking her, she and a girl I met after that but, whatever. After her boyfriend found out about “us” he tried to beat me up, and he couldn´t, I kicked his ass instead. Obviously I wounded his pride, so he sent more guys and I gathered some on my side, and that´s how basically I started with fights. I was about to retire from that before you asked me, but he found out about my younger brothers and had threaten Jyushimatsu a couple of times already, and I decided to do a final blow against his gang, that was what I was doing the day I called you and promised you that I wouldn´t fight again. I thought it could be easy, you know? I had settle down things with them and I started to not show up where they usually hanged out, and most importantly I didn´t look for them anymore, I was busy studying and I didn´t have time for them. But he´s not the type of guy who just stays with his arms crossed waiting for something to happen. The day I fought with them, the day we fought and separate from each other… or I made you be away from me, he was outside the gate with Jyushimatsu´s jacket on his hand, I really thought he has done something to him, so I sent you off and followed them. It happen that they actually didn´t touch Jyushimatsu, he threw his jacket to them so he could run back to school when they went for him, still I was so disturbed already, picturing what they could have done to my little brother before they confessed the truth, so the fight happened, just as a reminder that he shouldn´t be playing with me. After that, you appeared stopping the fight. I was so upset because I couldn´t kick his ass the way he deserved it, and after you yelled at me I thought that everything was over between us so, at least, I had to finish things with him. And I did, I faced him one more time, one on one, a week after that. We didn´t fight, there were no need of that, I “politely” requested from him to let my brothers alone, because if he didn´t, I would haunt him down if possible. I don´t know what happened, maybe I was still dealing with my broken heart and the fear of losing Jyushi, and I wanted him to answer back, to retaliate so I could empty all my feelings on his face, but the only thing he said was a dry “yes”, I really wanted to let out my pain in that encounter and at the same time I wanted to honor my promise, so when he just walked away I was relieved and frustrated. A funny thing; that was the first time I saw him scared,” he scratched his nape again, a nervousness tic “I wonder how I looked back then… But well, that was what happened.”
“Osomatsu that´s… why you didn´t tell me anything?” I made a pause to rethink what I wanted to tell him “look I know that we barely talked about that matter, and we took it as settle after what happened that afternoon in school, but I was feeling guilty enough with how I treated you the day that I yelled at you that if you had told me anything about this I could have saved you some pain.”
“I don´t know Choromatsu-sensei, I made a promise and everything else felt as if it were excuses, and I really did disappoint you.”
Groping the sides of his face with my two hands I made him look at me straight in the eyes “those are not “excuses” you dummy boy, that was some serious matter, and I would had apologize for my behavior, I was wrong.”
He smiled, brave as if I had just dare him to do something. In a quick movement he pushed me flat on the bed and hovered over me with each knee at my sides.
“Still,” he said rubbing his round plump ass against me, my skin is relishing him sending a sudden potent shiver through my body that reached my cock immediately “I´m grateful for all that misunderstanding, it was what made you realize what you felt for me.”
“Osom…” I moaned. “Stop, we were talking, and besides, we can´t, not here.”
With an erotic chuckle he bent over to kiss me “why is it only your mouth that´s saying “no”?”
“Because,” applying force in his hips with my hands y turn him over to his back and fit myself between his legs “it´s only my awareness of the place and situation we are right now what´s actually saying no. If you leave it for me to choose I will do whatever you would want me to do.”
“Choromatsu-sensei.” He called me in a silent request never said but that I know very well.
“Can we drop the “sensei” thing? As much as I like it, you´re not my student anymore.”
“…that´s true, and depressing, and disturbing.” Furrowing he places a hand on his chin, thinking.
“What is?”
“You´re going to be surrounded by cute girls and handsome boys without me… I´m worried.”
“Osomatsu, please, I´m not unfaithful, besides, if I could find some other guy or girl as pushy and persistent and so,” I started tracing his cheek, jaw and neck “so perfect as you are, then God can strike me dead right now. And even if it happens,” I continue knowing him well enough to forestall a rain of ifs “I don´t need anything but you, they wouldn´t be you, I´ll die if someone takes you away from me. As I told you earlier, I should be the one worrying, you surrounded by people your age, sharing interests…”
“Let´s get married then.”
I don´t believe my ears, and at the same time I know they are correct because this is Osomatsu I´m listening to. “Excuse me?”
“Once I get into university, I´ll find a part time job and I´ll save up to buy you a ring.” His eyes are dead serious that is a little frightening. I blush nonetheless.
“No, you will concentrate in your studies,” I shush him with my lips interrupting what definitely would be an objection "why don´t you let me be the adult that I am for once? Let me buy the rings, let me surprise you when I decide it´s the perfect time."
Wrapping arms and legs around me he tilted his head and showed to me a cute flirty smile “ok Choro-san, I´ll wait.”
My heart flutters at the way he just called me. “Osomatsu?”
“Yes?”
“I love you.”
His expression wasn´t what I expected, I thought he will jump and smile, maybe scream and blush. But no, he just froze where he was, locking his eyes on mine as if he was searching deep within them, scrutinizing every inch on my face. Then his hand reached it, touching my lips, my eyebrows, my nose and eyes with such a fragile demeanor, as If I was something breakable.
“I love you.” he said in a whisper, as if the avalanche of feelings had just been trapped in his chest.
“I love you too.”
Osomatsu has a pleased look and then he gave me a sweet, flimsy smile.
“Why I was going to scold you again?” I expose my forgetful mind, and the zero resistance I have against him after this ordeal, trying to change the subject as I´m getting shy about this.
“Ah… because I told Totty words he shouldn´t know.” Catching up immediately my intentions, he answered.
“Thank you, that was really honest of you.”
“Hey look, I know it looks bad, and I know Totty says those words as if they were cartoon characters´ names, but you have to indulge a little here… I had to take care of him since he was three months, and when he turned two he won´t shut up for anything until I put the TV on.” He made a gesture with the hand asking for time “I know what you´re going to say “why didn´t you watch normal programs? Or shows for kids?” Well, I was thirteen then, I couldn´t think of anything better, the idea of enjoying a show with my brothers was everything that crossed my head, and now it´s like a tradition.” He snorted covering his mouth “he´s a one party man on family reunions.”
I laughed loud.
“I´ll try to fix it ok?” He continued “I´ll counterattack somehow.”
He´s being serious and trying to find a solution to this problem, but I can´t help to drown in his gestures as he speaks. So I make my way into his lips to kiss him as deep and forcefully as I allow myself. No questioning from his side, just a complete relaxation and submission to me.
“We really, should, go.” I said trying to speak between kisses.
“Mmhmm.” Not convincing at all an enamored sigh runs free from his nose.
I still can´t believe I can keep up a pace with a teenager in matter of sex, we are craving for each other all the time and I see no end to this whirlwind of desire. Unbuttoning his belt and pants I pull them down stopping in his knees to repeat the same motion with his underwear.
“Are we doing it here?” He giggled the question.
“No…at least not all the way, now be quiet.”
“Ok, ok, but you too.” He reached for my pants and he nudes me from my lower part too, he grips me without warning and starts stroking me.
“Ah… hey!” I tried to scold him but is in vain.
I hold him too, feeling the softness in the skin, the velvet touch I love so much.
“Say that you love me.” He grumbled the words containing his moans.
“I love you,” I pour the words directly on his mouth “I love you.” Tasting his mouth with mine we brazenly continue this sudden heated activity, I try not to separate myself much from his mouth to prevent him crying out loud.
Twenty minutes passed by, and we decided to leave the room after desecrate my brother´s immaculate sheets. As what I know and what he told me, this new covers haven´t seen any type of action like this until now. Guilty? Yes I feel that, and at the same time I don´t, because things with Osomatsu are great now, we only used our hands but that didn´t dwindle the pleasure and the excitement of the danger. I started to consider this side of myself, the one that like to have risky sex.
Returning at were our family was the mood was completely different, all four were talking so harmoniously that was scary. But that allowed us to have a really nice celebration. As for the other four, Todomatsu didn´t let Karamatsu go, he even called him “Nii-chan”, by mistake obviously, but the idiot almost died in the spot as no one had ever called him that way. On the other side were Ichimatsu and Jyushimatsu, apparently they found a strange connection with the other, in a silently but steady way, Ichimatsu was eternally lenient with Jyushimatsu, which was weird by itself as my little brother has no patience with kids, or anything in general.
I was so happy with the outcome, and now I can´t stop but to wish I have the opportunity to introduce Osomatsu in a near future to my parents, I know it´s going to be a shock, and another bump to endure, but it was fine, I want to have our families as closer as it can be, and Osomatsu will win their hearts, I know.
We played, sang, fought, ate, and enjoyed our whole afternoon. Osomatsu cut the cake and we were delighted as he was narrating this one time Todomatsu picked up his phone when I called him, and the little one kept me on the line telling me that I should stop calling his husband, I was the affair and I should know my place, when Osomatsu finally snatched the phone away I heard Todomatsu yelled things like “You would never see the children, cheater, I´ll request a full custody when we get the divorce”. So of course we were laughing our lungs out. Then the topic of Todomatsu´s age came out again, and dignified of himself he said “six”. I was surprised, Karamatsu and Ichimatsu were too, I thought the boy had four or something, he was… he is really small and cute for a six year old boy.
Before we could knew it the day had passed, and just Osomatsu and I were awake, Karamatsu was in the single couch with Todomatsu in his arms both hugging the comfiest cushion in the house, and Ichimatsu was flat on his chest with Jyushimatsu on top of him in a really weird position. Osomatsu and I were in the small balcony that the Livingroom has watching our brothers become a family connected by him and me.
I tried to search for a confirmation in Osomatsu about Karamatsu and Todomatsu but when I looked at him he was asleep too…
“We will protect you and your brothers for the rest of our lives,” I cooed into his ear, wishing he could hear me in a world of dreams “I will be with you forever.”
It was a perfect time, the harmony couldn´t be more chaotic, but this is what I need, all our life my brothers and me needed these three extra people our routine. All this time I´ve been craving for someone like Osomatsu, and watching him next to me, peacefully sleeping and entwining his fingers with mine I feel that I can finally and completely move on.