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-Hinaki is a disease where someone with one sided love begins the slow and agonizingly slow process of dying. Basic Symptoms: the white rose begins to grow in your heart, first sign of your love being one sided is the first white rose petal to be thrown up after realization, Slowly you will begin to throw up more white roses along with blood, no cure to this disease the only way to recover from it is if it surgically removed but you have a 20% chance of survival along with that you might become completely emotionless. And your feelings for that person as well will be gone.
Not everyone suffers from it, only through certain blood lines. The disease was almost completely extinct. But somehow it came back to Kookie through his bloodline 'the jeons'and now he has to hide the fact that he's dying along with his feelings towards his dark/silver haired favorite hyung.-
Chapter 1: The First Petal.
Author's POV
"Alright Boys you know the drill,you have off for the next 2 days! Don't forget the public meeting on monday"
The PD said to the seven tired looking boys infront him, as he fixed them with a firm look.
"Neeeeee (yes)" they all bowed showing they understood and respected their boss even if things seemed to be a blur at the moment, with tired sighs and fidgety feet.
Finally taking his leave the boys couldn't help but slouch with relief, as they trotted up the steps to their assigned dorm.
"Aish~ today was really tough" Suga said yawning into his arm as the all made their way through the dorm entrance.
They all hummed in agreement to suga's fact, too tired to form a response to it. Today they'd gone through literal military like training, soon they'd be touring in less than a month and half. Things needed to be finished and sorted out, hair needed to be dyed, recordings needed to be finished, choreography needed to be perfected, clothes needed to be bought and paired.
It was a new era, an era of literal blood, sweat and tears...
The oldest of the group known as Jin, sometimes Eomma already took his place in the kitchen preparing dinner for the others. Namjoon the second oldest writing lyrics with suga, while tae and hobie busy themselves with a card game..
Jungkook's POV
It has been a tough day on kookie,not just physically but mentally as well. The young one had been getting clumsier and drowsier as the day's would go on. Often causing some of his hyungs to get frustrated with him because he wasn't fixing his mistakes, he just kept repeating them.
To kookie it was more than just physical work that was taking a toll on him he was working his emotions mentally and it was draining him and he just wanted to rip the hair out of his head... The cause of his inner turmoil was ..
Park Jimin is beautiful hyung, since they debuted kookie knew from the start that he had a crush. He literally stole kookie's heart at first sight with his smile that could set his world on fire, his crescent like eyes that held so much warmth and emotion, just looking at them gave kookie a hard time processing things, and god those plump cherry shaded lips that kookie could only dream of kissing, jimin was sure as hell attractive he was able to look innocent yet sexy at the same time and that's what drove him insane. Kookie at first acted cold towards his hyung not knowing exactly how to treat him. He was also going through the faze of denial. All his life he's kept up a cold icy wall to keep out the warm, he didn't know when and how jimin managed to bring that wall down and invade his world.
The bedroom door creaked open snapping kookie out of his thoughts..
"oh..kookie were you going to shower first?" his crush spoke as he pointed towards the bathroom..
"uhh..no you can shower first hyung it's fine, i'll shower after dinner" kookie responded forcing his eyes away from his silver headed hyung..
From the corner of his eye he could see jimin grabbing a few things off his closet then tossing his phone on the bed but not before sending a 'last text' is what kookie assumed and he definetly did not miss the tiny smile and blush jimin had after texting whoever that person was and it broke kookie's heart knowing he might not have a chance to be the one jimin blushes to and smiles at.
This secretive behavior of his hyung had started nearly a month ago precisely after, they had a fan meeting featuring BLACKPINK a girl's group. Jungkook wasn't paired with jimin that day instead they mixed them up with the girl members and jimin just so ended up next to some girl jungkook didn't bother remembering the name of. After the meeting jungkook felt a change between his and his hyungs relationship, jimin became more occupied with his phone and more serious. Jungkook can't remember the last time they had a 5 minute conversation everytime he spoke to jimin he would say he's gotta go or he's busy. Jimin was glued to his phone like it was the best thing in his life. Kookie was slowly getting frustrated by it too, because the one person he let in, is now slowly making his way out.
Turning to his side, kookie heard the shower head turn on signaling him that jimin had began his shower.
ding
Kookie cocked a brow..'that's not my phone..' he thought to himself..
Sitting up in his bed, kookie eye's looked over to jimin's bed spotting his phone with it's screen lighten up showing a notification.. jungkook stood up inching a bit closer toward's his hyung's bed, squinting his eyes he spots the said notification it read...
'Jisoo❤❤❤'
Kookie felt the lump in his throat slowly forming, choosing to ignore it for now he needed to find out exactly who this 'Jisoo' is and why his hyung has a bunch of hearts next to their name. He didn't want to invade his hyung's privacy but the built up frustration spoke otherwise.
Having have watched his hyung put in his pass-code every minute this month, kookie had managed to memorize his pass-code easily. 'fuck it' kookie thought as he bit his lip, grabbing his hyung's phone the screen lit up at the immediate contact.
Typing in the code quick he clicked the notification leading him to the chat that would possibly answer all his questions..
Kookie's hands were shaking at this point...he didn't know what the hell to think anymore..his hyung was secretly dating..there was no room for kookie in jimin's heart.. he'd lost his chance before he even had it.
The bathroom door opened causing jungkook to freeze on the spot while he still clutched the phone in his hand, jimin came in towel wrapped around his waist chest and face flushed from the hot shower as some water dripped down onto his abs, now is definitely not the time kookie jimin must have felt the pair of eyes on him as he looked over at him questioningly his eyes snapped down to kook's hand spotting his phone..
"Kookie why do you have my phone?" jimin asked firmly as he walked over grabbing my wrist, taking his phone from my hands his eyes widened upon seeing what i was looking at..
"Jungkook why the hell are you reading my personal messages?! how the hell do you even know my password?" Kookie's own heart rate picked up at the tone of his hyung's voice..he'd never heard jimin use that kind of tone on him..he'd understand if jimin got upset with him..but this tone? this tone was new and it rubbed on kookie's heart the wrong way..
"I-I-....you're d-dating someone?" Jungkook managed to choke out through the rising tears..
Jimin sighed clearly not noticing the hurt in kookie's voice and tears threatening to fall, as he rubbed the bridge of his nose he typed something into his phone before tossing it back on the bed and turning back to jungkook with the most coldest look ever.
"yes, i have girlfriend kookie" kookie closed his fist trying to contain the disaster rising inside him from coming out, he felt his nails dig into his pulm. not even flinching once as he felt a bit of moisture in his hand, nothing could compare to the pain he felt in his heart in this moment..
" and i love her" those three words seemed to really do it..something within kookie unleashed. Kookie's heart throbbed he needed to leave, far away from here..kookie didn't know how but he managed to stay still as jimin continued..
"i wasn't planning on letting anyone know until tour began.." jimin said as he pulled a shirt on completely oblivious to the fact that jungkook was on the edge of having a panic attack..yet he still continued.."she's going to be touring as well..that's why i thought it would be the perfect time to announce our relationship.."
"that's until you decided to invade my privacy..which im really surprised you're the kind to do that kookie i'm disappointed." Jimin finally finshed turning back to face kookie who was now a quivering mess, yet jimin still managed to not notice that..
jungkook, who’s head was now hanging low with his brown bangs covering his tear filled eyes.."s-sorry h-h-hyung" he choked out and dashed out the room...before jimin could scold him much farther ...
~time skip to dinner-shower..~
Dinner was filled with tension that night, jimin had announced his relationship, the members congratulated him and wished him luck all except kookie. His hyung didn't even serve him his food today ,jimin went straight to his own plate leaving the young one to serve himself for the first time in a while. The members could definetly tell something was up especially jin who would pat kookie on the back here and then making sure he was okay..
In all honesty kookie felt like he was going to throw up any minute.. His so called "hyung"had crushed his heart and stomped on it multiple times and on top of that acted cold towards him.
Jungkook excused himself from the dinner table, straight to his room and into the shower..after locking himself in jungkook finally let out the tears and screams.. he'd been holding in for the past eternity .. after what seemed like hours jungkook finished his shower and didn't bother drying his hair completely.
wiping the mist from the bathroom mirror kookie stared at his own reflection, 'funny you thought you had a chance with a face like this you're disgusting' as another tear rolled down his cheek, kookie didn't bother wiping that one away..
He lazily made his way back into the room seeing jimin had yet not come back to the room. Which was great for jungkook as he pulled his sweatshirt on and some random gym shorts he made his way into his bed, and turned off the lights..he let the rest of his tears fall..
4 more hours of silent crying and a forming headache, jungkook was restless it was 12:37 a.m when all the members had finally made their way to bed including jimin who slipped into his own bed not even sparing a glance at jungkook.
'I guess he's still pissed at me'..jungkook thought one last one thought before darkness consumed him..
Somehow jungkook had managed to sleep for only 2 and half hours before he woke up at 3:47 a.m with a strong urge to puke. Jungkook quickly ripped the covers off his body and ran to the bathroom locking it and kneeling down near the toilet..
Kookie coughed a few times causing his food from dinner to come back out along with something kookie had feared would happen to him..
his first white rose petal...
END of Chapter 1.