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I still remember my first week with them. It was really hard to get them to accept me in the group in the first place, but the managers put pressure on then and Namjoon had a lot of talk with the members as a leader to convince them to let me in. Namjoon was the first one to agree to have a girl in the group. He as a leader saw the advantage to have a girl in the group and take the role to make the other members accept me as well.
When I moved in their dorms, I could feel the tension in the air and they always share uncomfortable looks between them I was around. They didn't even try to make contact with me! Jungkook was the worst one, because he had to share the room with me, and he didn't like it. He didn't like me. So after around two weeks with them, I learned to stay away from them, keeping my head down and never getting out of the room, I was even thinking about giving up my place in the group, but at the same time I didn't want come back as trainee. My trainee times were really hard and painful.
That night I was in my shared room with Jungkook, but I was by myself, they were all the kitchen eating and talking between then really loud. I was trying to sleep my I could ignore my stomach that claimed for food so much, and the smell of Jins food was a round. They night when Jungkook came back to the room, I pretended I was sleeping and I finally heard only the silent outside, I get out of the room in my tip toes and walking holding my breath to the kitchen. There was still some food left. I was trying to reach the plates on the top of the shelf I felt someone behind me, and I saw a large hand with weird fingers catch the plate and put the object in my hand. I turned around feeling my eyes burning, and I my eyes catch me most handsome man I ever saw before. Kim Seok Jin. He reddish hair was a little bit messy and he was wearing a blue pajamas and he was smiling at me.
- Are you hungry little girl? - He asked, still smiling at me. Something inside me melted. I just nodded being unable to say something. He grabbed the plate of my hand with the right hand and he passed the left arm over my shoulders pushing me gently in the direction o the table. I sit down and watching him. - I was excited to meet you, but you were always hiding. - He said playful putting a generous amount of food in my plate.
- I-I am sorry.- I said with my voice shaking a little bit. - I didn't want to cause discomfort. - I said lowing my head down. I know Seok Jin is around five years older than me.
- Oh baby, you would´t cause any discomfort, those boys are little brats for acting like that. - He said putting the at least five little plates of food in front of me. Where this came from?
- Can I eat all of this? - I asked and I punched myself inside for sounding so needy.
- Of course baby. - His hand reach my cheek and pinched really hard. - I want you to eat now, you are so skinny. I need to put some weight on you.
We laughed together.
It was one of the best meal I ever ate.
(...)
Namjoon was the next one to approach me. He wanted to hear my voice, and see if I could reach some high notes, so he asked to go the studio with me and I sang a song for me. I sang Video Games by Lana del Rey for him.
- Your voice is so good baby. - he told me smiling at me, those dimples make my hear beat faster. - But your English is not good as your voice. - I felt my cheeks burning. - I could teach you, if you want. I nodded my head smiling and after that we took a day in the week so he can teach me some English. I grew closer and closer and after out lessons he would ask me to sing for him. I love singing for him, he always makes an intense eye contact with me.
He said one day he would produce my own album for me.
(...)
The next were Jimin and Hoseok.
When I was a trainee I used to give my soul when I was dancing. I disconnect myself from the world and I always try to feel the beat in my muscles.
Hoseok and Jimin were mad at me because they had to fix and the choreography to put me in front and all the members had to rehearsal and practice a lot to make everything perfect again. So I was trying to always do my best and stay after-time to practice even more.
These days were me, Jimin and Hoseok left behind, but they were taking a break and I was by myself in front of the mirrors prating my lines. I was so focused in what I was doing that I didn't hear the two boys enter behind.
- You need to teach how to do that. - I heard Jimin´s unique voice behind. I was so surprised that I trip in my own feet and went down to the ground hitting my elbow on the ground. Hoseok came at me quickly and lift my body like my weight was nothing.
- Are you okay? - He asked me still holding my should. - Park Jimin I am gonna kill you! - He said turning to the boy behind him.
- B-but hyung. Did you see what she was doing? - I feel my cheeks burn. - She was singing and dancing at the same time, that's amazing! - He said happily, looking at me and smiling. I notice that his eyes become smaller and he smiles. I like it. -How can you do it? - He asked getting closer. I lowed my head and looked at the ground.
- When I was a trainee they put me to run and sing and the same time.
There was a silence when they looked at each other. The might now what I feel.
- They expect a lot of you right? - Jimin asked with a sad smile on his face. I nodded my head.
- Lets go baby. I am gonna pay a meal for you. - Hoseok said messing up with my hair a little bit.
They are my best friends now.
(...)
Taehyung came at me in a very weird way. I was by myself in my shared room with Jungkook, but the boy was playing a game with Jimin in his room and them out of nowhere Teahyung appeared in my bed. I was practing my English and he was there staring at me. It was making me a bit uncomfortable. I tried to ignore him and keep with my lesson, I kept getting all the sentences wrong and he laughed a little at me.
- You look like a baby. - He said, and open my mouth a little bit in shock. What does he meant? He slides coming closer to me and looked me in the eyes. He was really close. - I want you to call me Oppa. - I was shocked one more time. What kinda of request is that?
We stayed in silence for a few moments.
- C'mon baby, I'm waiting. - He said. His voice was so glorious.
- Tae-Oppa? - I said hesitantly. He smiled even wider and pinched me cheeks.
- You are my baby.
I'm his baby.
(...)
It took a little bit of time to Yoongi and Jungkook come at me. Yoongi was during a photo shoot and the photographer paired me up with him. It was for own coming comeback and my debut. The album called Young Forever and I loved this album with me whole heart.
Me and Yoongi were outside, and I was amazed with everything. The boys were stunning beautiful, and Jin told that me that we gonna take a ride in an air balloon. I could't hold so much happiness inside me.
I was wearing a little blue skirt (like Namjoon's hair) socks that came up my thighs, “doll shoes” with heels and the outfit closed with a white cropped with a lot of butterflies around and a short blue (like my skirt). My hair was up in two pig tails.
I was looking around and Yoongi was right behind me. He was waiting me to find a place that I felt fine with and we would take out pictures.
- I think here is nice. - He said looking at a couch that was wrapped in a rainbow blanked. He didn't want me for an answer and just sat down. He was tired.
- Go on and sit on his lap. - The guy that was taking out pictured said and I felt my heart beat faster.
- Where? - I said.
- In his lap.
I looked to Yoongi and he was just giving that bored look. I just stand there, hold the end of my skirt to avoid showing more than necessary.
- C'mon girl, we don't have all day! - he said, actually he almost yelled at me. Taking a deep breath I forced me legs to walk to him and sit down in his lap. He notices that I was holding my skirt down and put one of his hand on my legs avoiding that the wins lift it up. - You look cute by the way. - ha said making me smile.
He was always doing something to make me smile.
(...)
Jungkook. I felt like this boy didn't like me at all.
He was always avoiding me for one reason that I don't know. I felt like he didn't cheered for my debut like the others do now and always get a little bit moody when I'm around. Namjoon said he is jealous because I'm the youngest now, but he didn't even looked at my face.
That behavior of him was making me really sad. The other boys notice that, and Jin talked with the young boy, saying that I'm a member of the group and he should treat me well. Jungkook seemed hate me even more after that.
One night we were sleeping and was raining a lot outside. I hated when rained like that. It makes me feel anxious and scared. When a thunder was heard outside and the floor shook a little and a small scream left my mouth and I closed my eyes shut, trying to keep myself from crying.
- Are you okay? I heard Jungkook's voice in the other side of the room. I held really tight in my blanket.
- I don't like when it rains like that. - I said and my voice was shaking and weak.
He moved a little bit and he turned on the lamp we have between out beds. He looked at me and his eyes stayed on me for a while. He took a deep breath and stood up.
- Open space. - he simply said pushing me a little bit against the wall and laying beside me. My bed wasn't really that big and Jungkook had really big arms. - I will stay here until you sleep okay? - He looked me in the eyes and I smiled at him.
- Thank you so much Kookie- Oppa - I said smiling and he turns his face away to not look at me.
- Don't get used.
(...)
Things are a little bit different now.