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Classes for today are cancelled. The school called to inform parents about an emergency meeting and Jeon Jungkook can't be any more satisfied when his parents told him of the news. He can go back to bed and forget about the impending doom he needs to face the next day for a mathematics quiz (he always hated the subject). That worry can be forgotten since he got hours of studying to do. How boring. He knows it very well. Jeon Jungkook is not the main character after all.
Jungkook considers life as a story. He knows he's not the main character because he knows someone who is the lead. A person whom when he thinks of, is the exact definition of an important figure in a story.
Park Jimin is the basic definition of a protagonist to him. All smiles and good looks. His heart is pure and never filled with hatred. He has a pretty mouth (literally speaking) and a beautiful mind. He is everyone's friend, a true one at that. He's filled with talent and someone whom the girls admire and boys look up to. The perfect protagonist of a story, of the life he's living. Jungkook thinks he doesn't have a flaw really.
He calls the others extra. He can say he's the same if he was not who he is because of Jimin. It's a privilege to be Jimin's best friend. So he calls himself the supporting character. A minor one. All cause Jimin took a liking to him more than the majority of boys who always stay by Jimin's side to look cooler. They use Jimin for popularity, Jungkook knows. Jimin doesn't use it against them though. Jimin is sweet and kind. He doesn't even think that way, Jungkook just knows.
So when said boy was suddenly calling at 7 o'clock in the morning on his phone, he can't help but answer him in a second.
"Hello? hyung?" Jungkook answers, voice all scratchy from the nap he took since the class cancellations announcement. Jimin answers on the other line with a light chuckle.
"Hey, Gukie. Do you want to go here today? I'm alone." Jungkook wants to ignore the uncomfortable feeling in his stomach. He thinks it's the sudden waking's fault that's why he's feeling jittery and really sweaty hearing Jimin's voice in the morning.
"Why? What's going on? Did your mom and dad go to work already?" He can hear a hum from Jimin. "Did you eat breakfast already?" Another hum. "Give me thirty minutes." He hears Jimin's protest. "Okay. Twenty minutes. I'm just going to change and sprint there." Jimin's cheering on the other line make him smile.
He ends the call and starts moving to his closet, grabbing a white shirt and some ripped jeans he always wear when going out. He considers just going to Jimin's house in just shorts but he knows Jimin likes going out suddenly on a whim. That's just how his best friend is.
He went downstairs to ask for permission to go to his best friend's house. Mrs. Jeon kiss him goodbye and asks his dad to at least let him ride all the way to Jimin's house. It isn't even that far from theirs. He gets going to the backseat of the car and talks with his dad all the way to Jimin's house. He thanks him and ask him to drive carefully to his workplace. He makes his way to Jimin's front door and knocks. He waits for Jimin to open the door for him.
"You're here already."
"Dad dropped me here."
Jimin just smiles and lets him inside. Jungkook knows this place like his home so he just casually place himself on the couch. Jimin is at the kitchen offering him drinks and Jungkook asks for banana milk, which Jimin just laughs at and brings to him. Jimin's family knows Jungkook likes banana milk so he gets the advantage of having a drink just for him stocked in their refrigerator. Perks, he knows.
"Here, you baby." Jimin teases and sit down next to him. The close proximity shouldn't bother Jungkook since it was normal. They've been in this position for years. It only starts to make him fidgety when Jimin starts attending high school as a junior and him as freshmen. Now, he's basically a senior himself and Jimin's in college.
"Hyung, why did you call me? Don't you have classes today?" He asks, putting a little distance to their bodies as he face him. Jimin seems to hate it so he scooches over and wraps himself around an awkward Jungkook. Jungkook can't breathe.
"Is it bad to call a dongsaeng who ditche-" Jungkook cuts him off with a cry of "no i do not." but Jimin hits his arm with his hand. "Stop cutting me off. You have no right to do that when you ignore me for weeks." Jungkook pouts and Jimin hits him again.
"I was studying!" And I still have to after going home from here, he thought. "Let me hug you atleast." Jimin hugs him closer and Jungkook feels dizzy. Is he sick? He's not running a fever though. But he feels hot. "You're red in the face, Gukie." Jimin points out. Maybe he's running a fever after all. Jimin removes his arms around him and checks his temperature. With his forehead touching the others. Jungkook feels like he's on fire.
"That's strange. You're not really hot outside." Jimin tilts his head in confusion and Jungkook just wants to go home. He really is not feeling well. He's starting to see Jimin as cute. Well, he is always cute. Just that today he seems even a hundred times cuter. "I'm going home." Jungkook says standing up but Jimin holds his wrist.
"No. I'll take care of you here. Don't leave me alone. Stay." Jimin whines every word and Jungkook is about to combust. What the fuck is wrong with me? he questions himself. He stays in the end.
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Jungkook, fortunately, doesn't have a fever. They both blame it on Jungkook's early shower when the class cancellations weren't announced yet.
It is already night time and Jimin's parents are home. Jungkook informs his parents about sleeping over today after Jimin's constant whining about missing him so much. Mathematics quiz be damned. He knows what he needs to anyway.
The dinner is pleasant. Jimin's parents catching up with Jungkook and joking about him cutting ties with Jimin and getting into a fight as their assumption every time Jimin answers them with a "he's busy." response when they ask where the best friend is. Jungkook denies of it and tells them how being a senior in high school is hard. Jimin's parents understand since Jimin went through the same thing. Once they were done eating, both boys wash the dishes as thanks for the meal. Jimin's parents couldn't be any more happy with the two.
They are playing a game in Jimin's room when someone calls Jimin on his phone. Jimin doesn't excuse himself so Jungkook thinks the person he is talking to is not that important. He continues the game on his phone.
It is when Jimin starts talking with all smiles that the receiver on the end of the line can't see when he notices it. The person on the other line might be Jimin's crush. He always have that look when he is inlove. Glowing and painfully beautiful. What?
He stops himself from thinking of crazy things. He contemplates on going home to grab some books and start some exercises while Jimin is talking to said crush. Jimin is giggling and Jungkook's heart is hurt and happy for him at the same time. What is he feeling right now? It is never like this. He excuses himself and goes to the bathroom to splash some water to his face. He needs to cool himself. Maybe walking outside might help.
He's about to go downstairs when Jimin sees him, asking him where he is going and Jungkook wants to say he's going out but settles with going down to drink some water. Jimin follows after him quietly and Jungkook hates the fact that he notices Jimin more than he should. Jimin just stays silent waiting for him to finish his glass of water and stands up when he's done downing it in one go. Jimin drags him upstairs to his room and let the two of them fall to his bed. Jimin wraps himself around Jungkook again. He fears his heart is beating so loud Jimin might hear it.
"Gukie." He calls out. Jungkook just hums. "I..." he starts and Jungkook waits for him to say the next words. Jimin let the words hang and sighs before continuing. Jungkook can feel his breath on his nape. "I have this guy I like." He confess. Jungkook feels a pang in his chest. "He's on my university and... we're really uhm... good."
"Good as in what? good as friends? or more?" Jungkook wonders where the voice come from but it leaves him unconsciously.
"I don't know. I'm confused. I'm like happy... with him." Jungkook notes it's a guy he's talking about. They are never judging towards each other though. It just stings that it's a guy and it's not him. Why?
"He... always manage to make me smile and we clicked so fast and easy. It just... I don't know... it scares me, Guk. He's... so beautiful... I don't think we match." Jungkook wants to scream at Jimin for thinking he's no better when everything about him believes he's the perfect lead. The perfect main character. Just how beautiful is the person he's talking about? Jimin is damn gorgeous.
"He called today and he wants to go out tomorrow. I... I think he's going to confess? My friend told me that he really likes me and I'm... overwhelmed. Really... for him to like me. Ahh... I don't know why I'm telling you this." The silent cry of his heart is breaking Jungkook. He does not know what it's mourning for. Why does it feel this painful to see Jimin liking someone? It never happened before.
"Go." He says as he turns around facing Jimin. Jimin is looking at him directly. Jungkook keeps his gaze on him. "You have to say you like him." He says and Jungkook wonders why Jimin's eyes is teary. Did he say something wrong? Jimin leans in closer to Jungkook's face. Eyes searching for something in Jungkook's eyes. He looks like disappointed but Jungkook doesn't know why. "I will." Jimin let their foreheads touch and Jungkook can feel at peace for this. Jimin is his best friend. He should do what a supporting role does.
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Jungkook doesn't care if he fails or pass this time. All that's in his mind is to go home, sleep, eat junk food, and play games. Whatever makes him so gloomy today, he doesn't dare point out.
He rides the bus home and watch as the rain falls on the window. He distracts himself of it when his mind wanders to thoughts like restaurants, cinemas, confessions, and Jimin. He cursed when he have his name on his mind again. Is this how he should think as his best friend? He should be congratulating him for a new relationship.
It's been years since Jimin dated anyone. The reason for the break up is Jungkook's fault. He's guilty but at the same time not. Jimin didn't have time for him before. Jungkook got used to it. Jimin said it wasn't fine so he called it off with the girl. Now that he thinks about it, he's so powerful when it comes to Jimin. Would he not go if he tells him to? He erased the thoughts and focused on the rain drops falling on the window again. He's tired.
He gets home and quickly locks himself up in his room. He wants to cry suddenly. He just wants the pain to subside.
The thoughts make him insane. He wants to sleep. But his heart and mind is too busy thinking about Jimin and his date.
He goes downstairs and looks for something. Something his parents won't be proud of when they know he drinks alone. He knows they have it at the cabinets so he searches for the only way to forget. He finds the bottle of wine his dad has saved for occasions. He'll get in trouble for sneaking this in his room and possibly throwing it somewhere when he already finished drinking the bottle alone. He make his way to his room and starts what he will regret in the morning. He knows this is a dumb decision. But he is always dumb anyway, what difference would it make?
When he feels like his world is spinning around, that's when he regrets. It's been thirty minutes of pity drinking and he's already dying. He checks his phone for any messages from his parents about being back soon but is surprised when he receives one from Jimin. It says "I'm here." and he knows that it means that he's already meeting up with his future boyfriend.
He let the tears fall on his face and he knows he's not stopping anymore. He wants to call Jimin, say his true thoughts, maybe confess his feelings if he have the courage to. He knows he's inlove with Jimin. He knows. And it fucking hurts to know he is going to say yes to another person's confession right now. He sobs as he types what he wants to say but never meant.
Good luck. I hope you are happy.
He taps send and sobs uncontrollably. Ah... so dumb. He's so dumb.
Jimin replies fast and he looks at it despite the tears that broke through his eyes, clouding his sight.
This is what I wanted too? haha thank you Jungkook.
He feels numb when Jimin calls him that. It was unfamiliar. It was not how his usual self would do. So he sucks it up and finally says the thing that he wants to say the most. He hopes Jimin wouldn't let it mean much. But he also hopes he would.
I love you so be happy hyung
He turns off his phone and cries the night away. He doesn't dare finish the bottle anymore. He's had enough. He just wants to rest. He closes his eyes and drifts off to sleep.
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Jungkook feels like his head is about to split in half. What the fuck did he do? (He knows what he did and grimaces at his stupid self.)
It's already morning and he's still in his uniform, looking like a mess and he smells of alcohol. His mom and dad will kill him. He starts to move despite the protest of his limbs from sleeping at such an uncomfortable position and make way to the bathroom. He feels like shit and looks like shit, he admits. He wash his face first and crawls back to bed. It's four in the morning. If he make his way to the kitchen, he can still put the bottle of wine back.
He stands up again and walks his way down. He puts it back in its place and looks for something to eat or something to cure the dizzying headache, whether from drinking or the crying, he doesn't know and care anymore. He just wants to feel fine now. He looks for some aspirin or ibuprofen in their medicine box and pops a pill to his mouth. He tries to put something in his stomach before going back to his room. He can no longer sleep so he considers taking a bath to remove the smell of alcohol in him. He needs to wash his clothes this week so he won't get scolded by his mom. Good thing it's Saturday today and there's no classes.
He lets the drops of water clear his mind and relaxes himself to it. He wants to stay longer but he couldn't risk getting sick this way. He'll only feel more sorry for himself, getting all this weak because of a heartbreak. He leaves the bathroom and settles for some pjs. He's gonna force himself to sleep again. Just when he's already in position on his bed, he sees stones hitting his window.
Jimin. He sighs.
He looks through his window and saw Jimin in his pjs outside the house. No jackets or coat to keep him warm from the early morning breeze. Jungkook curses him for that. He gets down fast and brings a thick jacket with him. He gets out of the house and run to him. Jimin is shivering but he's smiling at Jungkook.
"Gukie." He starts. "Get in. Wear this." He gives Jimin the jacket and rubs the sides of it when he is wearing it already. They get inside and Jimin sits on the couch. Jungkook runs for his room and grabs his blanket. He removes the jacket off Jimin and lets himself be near his best friend to give him the warm comfort he needs as the blankets engulfs their bodies. No one speaks for a while and Jungkook feels like he can fall asleep with Jimin by his side like this.
"I rejected him." Jimin decides to get to the point and Jungkook feels betrayed when his heart starts beating fast at his words. Please calm down, he pleads. "Why?" The only word he manages to answer back.
"Because... I'm happy with him but..." Jimin looks at him and Jungkook hates that he can't take it like this. "I'm... I'm inlove with... another." Jimin says, red coloring his cheeks.
"Didn't you say you like him?" Jungkook asks back, confuse with Jimin and how he handles his feelings. "I do. Just that, I love someone. And love is way even more better than like. Like I... really love him. I realized." Jimin looks down and Jungkook doesn't want his heart to break any more than this. He's already too hurt.
Jimin figures Jungkook is getting the wrong idea. Poor boy, not knowing he's the one he is talking about. So instead of words, he acts upon it. He touches his face with his hands lifting them up to level with him. He looks at his eyes that speak of a thousand words and he samples one peck on his lips. Jungkook is too shocked so he tries again. Pecking him on his lips and never going deep. When he stops after the fifth one, Jungkook is already as red as a tomato.
"I love you. I love you more, Gukie." He confess. Jungkook is crying so all he ever does is hug him tightly and peck him on the cheeks.
"Y-you idiot." Jungkook manages to speak and Jimin is laughing. Jungkook is still crying so Jimin wipes away the tears with his thumb and kisses his nose, temple, cheeks, jaw, and his hair. He's just so endeared by Jungkook, he wants to shower him with love. He looks at him again in the eyes and then on the lips. Jungkook is closing his eyes and Jimin finds it as a cue to do what he wants. He kisses him like how he wanted to that night he slept in their house. He's being gentle with him. Only wanting to taste and feel Jungkook's lips with his. He loves this. He loves Jungkook. He's okay with this. He's happy with Jungkook.
Jungkook responds to him shyly. The kiss is pure. Slow and just what he likes. Loves. Jimin loves him.
He realizes in the end, he is no supporting character after all. He is Jimin's partner. Another main lead. He smiles through the kiss and Jimin hugs him tighter. Feeling like Jimin is controlling himself from doing more, Jungkook wants to tease him for making him cry. He straddles his lap and Jimin moans. Jungkook thinks he's stupid for doing that and a genius at the same time. This was supposed to be him teasing and not him getting aroused. They stop kissing and both are breathless.
"Let's... let's slow down." Jimin says.
"Y-yeah. I... I'm sorry." Jungkook apologizes. Jimin just smiles and peck him on the lips again. Jungkook's frown turning into a smile.
"We got all the time in the world, Gukie." Jungkook nods and fits himself on Jimin's chest. He scents him and he finds home. He always smell so good. "Our position should be reversed. You're bigger than me." Jimin complains. Jungkook bites his neck and laughs. Jimin whining at him. "Hug me, hyung." He says close to his ear and Jimin complies.
"Hey, Gukie."
"Hmm?"
"Can we like uhm go to your bedroom?"
"Why?"
"We still have to tell our parents. This isn't a good surprise to their morning."
"Let it be. I'm comfortable here."
"Gukieeeee."
Jungkook smiles and bites his neck again. They stand up and make their way to his room. He knows he'll get good sleep with Jimin beside him. His very own main character.