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It wasn’t just today. He could feel his control slipping the longer he spent time in the tower. Was it something in the air? Perhaps. The longer he spent around Aoba— no Shiroba, he knew something had changed. Not outside, but it was something inside. Some form of eternal change that he couldn’t seem to pinpoint. How could he describe it? It was similar to a piece of twine slowly pulling apart and unraveling due to having too much tension on it. He tried his hardest to keep up a façade that would keep Shiroba happy, a mere act to keep everything in place. He didn’t want anything to change but there was something between them that had changed. It was as if their bond was breaking. Is that what he was feeling? Thoughts like this often plagued his mind as he wandered the halls of the tower, often on Shiroba’s coal tail to remain close.
However, one particular night of rough sex, he felt it. Something had snapped, and that something drove Ren to do something he’d never dreamed of doing. Trailing his hands up over Shiroba’s taut abdomen and over the expanse of Shiorba’s chest, Ren brought his hands up to rest his palms along the side of Shiroba’s neck, relishing in what warmth he gave off. Ren made a low humming sound as he bent down over Shiroba for a kiss, sealing their lips together, just like every other time. There wasn’t much thinking after that. The light in Ren’s eyes had changed as he wrapped both of his hands around Shiroba’s neck and squeezed. Shiroba wasn’t stupid, it didn’t take him long to catch on to what Ren was doing. Maybe he should’ve grabbed onto Shiroba’s hands and pinned him down better? There was no point in stopping now. Ren pulled back, gritting his teeth as Shiroba pounded his fists on Ren and pulled at Ren's hands in an attempt to get him to let go.It only encouraged Ren to squeeze harder, closing up the only source of air the other man had. Oh would you look at that, his lips are blue. Funny, that’s the first real color Ren had seen in a long time.