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Five Years Later
This is a Boston Legal fan fic post season five. I don't own the characters and am not profiting from this work. This is my first stab at writing fiction. Hope you enjoy.
Chapter 1
It had been five years. Five years since he had married Denny Crane. At first, he thought Denny had been joking when he proposed to him on their balcony. However it became clear as Denny's 'mad cow' had progressed, that marriage was a very smart option. Alan could see to it that Denny got the best possible treatment and care. He would guard Denny's quality of life as if it were his own. He loved Denny with all of his heart. He would make sure that Denny never lost his lust for life. That is the trait that Alan admired the most- Denny's ability to make the best of each and every moment.
Alan had always been too introspective. He often ruminated over past mistakes. Most of the time, his focus on the past had interfered with his ability to be happy in the present. Unfortunately, the majority of his mistakes came in relationships with women. Make no mistake-he loved women, all women. He admired them, respected them, honestly he very damn near worshipped them. He loved their smell, their taste, the softness of their skin. He longed for a woman in his life. The anticipation of a kiss, a dance, seduction. He delighted in giving women as much pleasure as they gave him. If he was honest, he prided himself on his skills as a lover. He had excellent teachers over the years, many of his lovers were older women who were not shy about sharing their needs and desires. Alan was an eager student, devouring any tip or technique that was offered. From a very young age he played doctor with the neighborhood children, he couldn't remember a time when he wasn't interested in all things sexual. He grew up in a very relaxed sexual environment and as a result had always been very comfortable with his own sexuality. That was a blessing--if he had grown up in an environment where sex was shameful--he shuddered to think how fucked up he would be now.
Alan's problems with relationships didn't stem from his sexuality, but from his inability to share himself emotionally with a woman. He found it ironic that with Denny he had achieved a level of emotional intimacy that he had never had with a woman. He could share his innermost fears, thoughts and desires without fear of judgement and humiliation. In that sense, he and Denny Crane were soul mates.
Still, it had been five long years since he had been intimate with a woman and he wasn't sure how much longer he could hold out.