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My Dearest Wanyin,
It would be nearly impossible for me to fully express my gratitude towards you and the past four years that we’ve been together in a few words. I began courting you five years ago and when you finally said yes, I never felt such bliss. I was a joyful alpha with a wonderful omega who I believed wholeheartedly, at the time, was my soulmate. It pains me to write this letter to you, especially since our anniversary is coming up but I have to do it now rather than later.
I am nothing but a coward Wanyin. Me writing this to you instead of saying it to your face only proves that point. Simply put, I have been having an affair. I didn’t intend for this to happen, but in a moment of loneliness I fell into temptation and sought the comfort of another who wasn’t you. I wish I could say this was the first and only time I slept with this specific person but I can’t because it would be a lie and I have lied to you enough. For the past three months, when I told you I will be working late or have to attend to business out of the city, I’ve been meeting with my lover. We both became busy with our respective duties to our companies, date nights kept pushing back, we will travel to places for weeks on end and all of this slowly progressed to us barely spending some time together. I don’t know when it became normal for us to barely see each other and the times we did we were both exhausted. I can’t recall what was the breaking point, it all became a blur. One thing just lead to another.
Because of my infidelity, Wanyin, it’s best for us to no longer be together. I never imagined us having to end our relationship and nor did I intend to end our relationship like this Wanyin. Something about this other person made me feel alive again and I desire to be with them everyday and not under the pretense of a business trip.
None of this is your fault. You have been amazing to me, my dearest. But I have found another who I wish to spend my time with. I’ve tried to break things off with you in a better manner but I couldn’t, not with the way you have been sick for the past two weeks, so instead I wrote this letter in hopes that it would ease the news.
Please don’t come looking for me Wanyin. I can’t bear to see your expression if I told you this in person or even to see your anger. By the time you read this, I have already left the city with A-Yao. Neither uncle or Wangji know where I’m going, so please don’t ask where I am.
I sincerely do hope you feel better and that you properly take care of yourself now. I know from first hand experience how you will forgo sleeping and eating when there is work to be done. I’m sincerely sorry for the way things ended but perhaps this is the best. Maybe we weren’t meant to be together, you have, at some point, told me to stop my advances to you in our early courting stage and became cold to me multiple times and even rejected several of my gifts to you. Maybe after acknowledging all of this, we weren’t meant to be together for long, but even in the short time we spent together, I don’t regret it one bit.
I hope all the best for you and your future Wanyin.
From,
Lan XiChen
A piece of paper fluttered its way down to the floor as the whole apartment sat in silence, empty with the exception of someone who came tired from working with high hopes of seeing their partner there but instead trying to stifle their cries. The atmosphere completely changed within seconds, it no longer felt like home.
This place that was once filled with love and care, now filled with the cruel bitterness that is infidelity.
Jiang Cheng didn’t want to believe that this was happening to him. Not to him. He must admit that at several points in their relationship, he did doubt A-Huan’s love for him. He wasn’t the easiest omega to get along with but he assumed that was a feature of his that made his A-Huan love him even more. Multiple times of asking his alpha why he is with him, a sharp-tongue, bitter omega with the only thing likable about him being his money and looks.
“Because A-Cheng, everything about you makes you more beautiful.”
But it seems that all of that was false. Instead his mother’s cruel words started to ring in his head.
“It would be a shame, A-Cheng, if you can’t keep an alpha around. Only proves that you didn’t work hard enough to make them stick around.”
“But I did work hard, mother. This time I did.” Jiang Cheng knew he was cold and pushed his boyfriend away at times, but in his defense, he didn’t want A-Huan to see all his flaws and see the imperfect omega he was repeatedly told he was. And he has changed much since then, A-Huan destroyed the walls he had set up to protect him from embarrassment and pain, he can freely be himself around the man. While he still struggles with his insecurities from time to time, he wasn’t the same person as he was years ago. His A-Huan was his peace and his heart that cared for him for the years they’ve known each other.
He is not your A-Huan anymore.
Bastard even finished with his courtesy name.
“I even had some good news to tell him, mother. Something that would have made you proud.”
With shaky hands, Jiang Cheng takes out a small photo from his bag, it holds his joyful secret. A secret he was hoping that both he and Lan Xichen would have been excited for. At first thought, what kind of photo will hold such a secret that will cause two people to be filled with excitement and elation, but at a closer look, anybody can tell why it would stir such emotions.
It was a sonogram. More specifically it was a sonogram of a seven week old baby.
“I guess it’s just you and me now.”