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The sky cried, that night. The lightning contrasted with the darkness of the night. The sudden booming noise of the thunder was in synced with Steve's heartbeat, like it wanted to escape from his chest. The heavy rain poured down, it was as if someone was pouring a bucket full of water on them.
Steve's beautiful night abruptly changed; the mood had suddenly darkened, as if obeying the laws of pathetic fallacy.
Steve froze there. He must've heard that wrong. It had to be. There was no way Tony would say that to him.
Steve gripped his shoulders. His hands were shaking. "Tony, tell me you're joking?" It had to be, Tony must've be playing a prank on him.
Tony remained silent, he averted his eyes from Steve, while looking at the wet ground instead.
Steve slightly shook Tony's shoulders, trying to get his attention on him and to make Tony look at him. "Tony, please I beg you say something." He pleaded desperately in hope to find the answers.
Tony bit the edge of his lips and took a deep breath. He finally looked at Steve in the eyes and spoke. "Let's break up" Tony repeated, in a serious tone.
Steve couldn't breathe properly. It felt like his heart just stopped for a few seconds. He clenched his shirt tight, his chest ached so much. It was almost as if his heart was ripped open from his chest. It hurt so bad, the pain was unbearable.
As a single tear ran down Steve's cheek, in contrasting with the rain drops that dripped down his face.
Tony's eyes widened, he never thought someone like Steve would cry 'cause of him. Tony felt gutted, all he wanted was pull Steve into a hug and comfort him.
Steve should never shed tears for anyone, especially not him.
Everyone was right all along, Tony was far too broken. He can never belong to Steve. He can never be his. Steve deserved someone more better; someone who'll give him everything he needs and cherish him with all their hearts.
Tony loved Steve far too much, to make Steve stay by his side and let him suffer. Steve deserved happiness and he can't have that if he was with Tony. No, Tony was too broken. Tony's happiness lies in Steve. He would literally do anything for him. Even if it meant letting him go.
Tony stood there not knowing what to do. His eyes never once left Steve. "S-Steve I-" Tony stuttered, he was loss of words. He didn't have a clue to how he was going to explain this to Steve.
Steve placed his arms around Tony's waist and pulled him into a tight hug. He buried his face into junction of shoulder and neck.
Tony could feel Steve's body trembling against his. Fuck! What do I do? Steve, please don't do this yourself because of me.
After a few seconds, Steve firmly held a his head with one hand, while the other hand was on his waist. He pressed his lips against Tony's. Steve licked Tony's bottom lips. Just when Steve was about pit his tongue inside his mouth, Tony jerked his face away.
Tony tried pushing Steve away. "Steve, stop!" Tony shouted.
Steve didn't budge an inch. He was way too strong for Tony. His hand still remained on his waist. "Why, why are you doing this to me, Tony?" He asked, his voice sounded so broken. "I thought you loved me?" He whispered.
"I-I'm so s-sorry Steve, I..." Tony stuttered. He didn't know what else to say other then how sorry he was.
Tony hated seeing Steve like this, he couldn't even look at Steve properly. Tony had to make this choice, there was no other way. Even if meant it would kill Tony inside.
This can't be real, I must dreaming. Please wake me up from this nightmare. Steve thought.
Steve was fuming with rage. He couldn't just let their relationship end like this, not after all the things they've been through. No, never!
Steve pressed his body against Tony really tight. "Are fucking kidding me?" Steve shouted, his eyes were full of anger and betrayal.
"Did you actually think I'd allow you to play with my feelings, Stark?" He asked with booming tone of voice, as an evil smirk appeared on his face.
Tony gulped, his eyes were shaking in fear. He had never seen Steve this angry before, it was simply petrifying. It was almost as if he was a completely different person.
Steve ripped Tony's shirt open, exposing his bare skin. Steve pulled his shirt collar down. Tony immediately felt a rush of panic. Something was off about Steve; he was different. Why wasn’t he listening to a word Tony was saying? "Steve, what the fuck are you doing?" He shouted, he held Steve's hand to stop him.
But, Steve gripped him by the wrist and twisted it behind his back. It was impossible for Tony to break from Steve's iron grip. Steve got his face closer to Tony and gripped his jaws. He licked his lips and slowly went down to his neck.
Tony struggled to break free, even though he knew it was pointless. "Please, stop Steve." Tony pleaded, he was scared.
Steve sucked his neck hard and bit it, leaving a huge mark on his neck. Steve's blue eyes pierced through Tony's. "Say you love me!" Steve demanded, growling into his ear.
"Fuck you!" Tony spat back.
Steve tightened the grip on his wrist even more. He was so close to losing his temper. This time he gripped Tony by the neck and smashed their lips together. He slipped his tongue inside Tony's warm mouth and playfully explored every inch of it. He sucked his tongue aggressively and constantly licked Tony's bottom lips again and again.
Tony was struggling so much. But Steve didn't care. After a few seconds, He slowly parted his lips away from Tony.
Steve felt like a stab in the heart, when he saw Tony. His body was shaking in fear. He had a terrified look on his face.
No, no, no.
Steve immediately let go of his wrist. He couldn't stand the sight of Tony crying. He had never seen Tony cry before. He hated seeing Tony like this and Steve solely responsible for making Tony like this. It was too painful to watch him in that state.
He'd seen this look before, years ago. He knew that look. Oh God! Tony was afraid of him. Steve's eyes widened in shock. No, this was not the time to be panicking, Steve. He pushed his thoughts to the side and focused on Tony.
Steve gently cupped Tony's face. "Tony" He whispered.
The moment Steve touched him, Tony pushed him with all his strength, causing Steve stumble back. He looked at Steve with disgust. "Don't fucking touch me, hate you fucking bastard." Tony shouted and ran away from Steve.
The thunder echoed in the sky with a big BOOM!
Steve's tears streamed down his cheeks. He had never once cried like this before. The gulits were drowning Steve, he felt suffocated. "What have I done, Tony hates me now." Steve muttered to himself. He couldn't even process what just happened. One moment everything was going perfectly, the next moment this happened. Life was full of shits, you can never expect when something might occur and change the whole fucking situation in a blink of an eye.
Steve clenched his fist. He was frustrated. But, not at Tony, never. He was angry with himself for losing control and hurting Tony.
Steve bit his lips hard, until blood drew out of his mouth. Tears streamed down his face. "I love you so much, Tony!" Steve shouted, he sank onto his knee, sobbing into his hands. His tears dripped down his fingers into the cold concrete wet floor.
Steve was breathing raggedly, gasping for air. It was as if he was drowning. His heart ached nonstop. Steve cried in the rain for hours, not moving an inch. Like his body was glued to that place.
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A week has past since that dreadful night. Steve could still remember, like it happened yesterday. The memories were awfully painful.
Ever since that night, Steve had locked himself in his room. He didn't want to see anyone, he needed time alone with just himself. There no way in hell he could get over his break with Tony. He loved Tony far too much. He couldn't bare the thought of losing Tony. Everyone one knew Tony Stark was solely his weakness.
Steve could never live without Tony. He didn't want waste more time, then he already has. He needed to speak with Tony and fix everything. He can't give up just yet, not after what he and Tony had went through together.
With that in mind, Steve got his act together and quickly took a shower. He freshened up and went to Tony.
Steve pressed the elevator button amd waited for it. "It's good to see you, Captain." The British A.I said.
"Hi, J.A.R.V.I.S." Steve greeted back with a smile. "Is Tony in his floor?" He asked.
"I'm afraid that at the moment sir is not in the building, Captain." J.A.R.V.I.S responded.
Steve's smile turned into a frown. "Then where is he, J.A.R.V.I.S?" He asked.
"My deepest apologizes, Captain but that I cannot answer. I can reassure you that, sir is safe and sound, there is no need for you to worry about him. " J.A.R.V.I.S explained.
Steve let out a deep sigh, there no point in asking J.A.R.V.I.S. Tony had obviously programmed the A.I not to tell Steve about his whereabouts. Not that he blames Tony for that.
"Thank you for informing me, J.A.R.V.I.S" Steve thanked the A.I with a smile and walked inside the elevator. He really liked J.A.R.V.I.S, after all Tony was the A.I's creator. From day one, Tony has programmed J.A.R.V.I.S to help Steve in any way that he can to make everything easier. Especially, with technologies 'cause Steve literally sucked at that. Steve had always felt so welcomed by Tony since day one. He absolutely loved that feeling.
Instead, Steve decided to go out and freshen his mind. He wanted lighten his mood up, so he can then apologize to Tony with a cool headed mind, that way he won't lose control in front Tony again.
I love you, Tony!