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Chapter One
Monday, September 8, 2014
Lukas
"You called Bastian Schweinsteiger. Sorry, I can't answer right now. Please leave a message and I'll return as soon as possible."
"Are you really going to ignore all my texts and calls from now on? C'mon Basti... You have no reason to be mad at me. I'm trying ok? But you know that I can't just leave all behind, I have responsibilities. I want all of that too... Everything we talked about, but... I'm sorry. Please, talk to me."
It was the second voice message that Lukas left in Basti mailbox. He didn't know what else to do. They had the best time in Brazil and winning the cup was the highest point in their careers, but now everything was simply messed up. It wasn't nobody's fault - or maybe it was, he doesn't know - but anyway, Lukas knew this would happen sooner or later. He just hopes that they'll get through this too.
Bastian
Ten years. Ten fucking years. As it wasn't enough everything that it was happening now - injury, 30th birthday, the media talking about his break up - still had Lukas. Not that he was an issue, but their stupid argument it was. Actually it wasn't stupid, but he wish things were fine for him at least in this part of his life.
Maybe - just maybe - he was too pissed with everything else and ended up discounting on Lukas. But he had a reason. Bastian has always been tolerant and understand perfectly well Lukas' situation. He would never blame Louis for all this mess, he loved that little boy. And he hated it, absolutely hated it when Lukas spoke as if he weren't comprehensive. But at the same time, things weren't exactly easy for him. It has been ten years and at some point he needed to move on with his life. He wanted to. Before, he had never really stopped to think about those things like marriage and kids, but now that he was 30, he found himself thinking about it lately.
They've known each other for so long and get along so well. He didn't knew how it happened, they had never planned any of this, just happened. They met each other ten years ago and since then they've been best friends. Actually more than that. They had gone through so many moments together that now Basti didn't even remember how it was his life was before Lukas.
He listened to Lukas voice message again and sighed. He wasn't ignoring him - actually he was, but it wasn't like he was being stubborn and childish - he just needs some time for himself. Thinking about all the things he wanted to share with Lukas and couldn't frustrated him and the fact that they can't do anything about it just makes everything worse.
He closed his eyes lying in bed and wishing he could sleep for at least 3 months. He was alone and bored at home and in this moment of his life, not even football could give him some joy. He wanted so bad to play. He buries his face on the pillow screaming in frustration.
9 years ago
"They didn't won the Confederation Cup, but he was happy anyway. They had such a great time that Basti wished it didn't have to end. Stay around Poldi was so easy, they laugh all the time and do everything together. Even the most simple and stupid things, they like to enjoy each other's company.
Everyone was celebrating in the hotel lounge, including Lukas. And they were together, of course. At this point they knew each other only for a year, but it seemed much more than that. They joked, laughed, drank and did stupid stuff. Everyone was having a great time and enjoying their last night together with the team.
Around 2 a.m. coach Klinsmann started calling everyone to go back to their rooms. Schweini was a bit drunk and laughing all the time and Lukas couldn't help but laugh along. He put one of Basti's arms around his shoulders while he placed his own arm around the other waist and carry him to their room. Basti felt comfortable around Poldi's arms, as usual. He didn't know why or how this happened, but lately he couldn't stop himself from touching or thinking about Lukas. Throughout this year they chatted and joked and something started to grow inside Basti, despite the fact he made every effort to stop it. He was confused about all this and tried to get away from Lukas for a while, shamefully failing.
When they reached their room Lukas opened the door with some difficult because silly Schweini decided to start tickling Lukas' arms making him squirm and them burst into laughs. When Lukas finally managed to open the door he pushed Basti inside, making him hit the wall and the two fall to the floor laughing.
- You shouldn't drink, you know? - Lukas said between laughs - You already are very stupid sober!
- Shut up, asshole! - Basti replied sticking his tongue out - Maybe you should start drinking to stop being so boring.
- Yeah, yeah... At least I didn't need to be carried. - Lukas answered, lifting from the floor and grabbing Basti's arms to pull him up.
- But that's the fun! - Basti said and they laugh again.
Lukas walked toward Schweini's bed and laid him there. He took off Bastian's shoes and put the covers over him. Basti just stayed there watching him and smiling.
- Are you ok? - Lukas asked approaching the bed.
- Yeah... I'm fine.
They faced each other for a while. Bastian didn't know what to think, but he knew what he wanted. He was certain about it for sometime now. Without thinking too much, he closed the distance between them and put their lips together. It was quick, but enough for him to put a kiss on Lukas' lips and feel it. And it was amazing. Then he just rolled in bed, hiding his face and not daring to look at Lukas' expression.
He felt Lukas pulling away and heading toward his bed. They didn't said anything and Basti quickly fell asleep.
The next day Basti woke up feeling his head slightly heavier. He look around and notice that Lukas was already up. While he seats in bed he remembered last night and what he did. He felt all his body stiffen and he cursed himself. What he was going to do now? He heard Lukas finished showering and his heart stopped. 'I can pretend I don't remember anything, right? I was drunk - only a bit - but Lukas doesn't know that.' He didn't even had time to think about other option once he listened Lukas openning the bathroom door. He pretended to yawn and said:
- Good morning. - He kept his eyes closed.
- Morning Schweini. If I were you I'd hurry up, we're leaving in 30 minutes.
Basti jumped off the bed exclaiming 'Fuck!' and running toward the bathroom. Before he had closed the door he heard Lukas laughing and sighed in relief. Maybe he hadn't fucked everything up. Maybe they could pretend nothing happened and move on. Bastian just didn't knew if this was a good sign or not."