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Their Unveil: Track “B Me” Making off video had been posted on YouTube, Felix didn’t always monitored their videos but he was sleepless and Changbin was still going to take a while to come home so they could cuddle to sleep. He decided to watch it until his boyfriend arrived, the memories of that day immediately came to his head, the staff captured perfectly how much fun they had while shooting. He had enjoyed that day a lot it wasn’t always he and his members could be so carefree, play basketball and work at the same time. Felix remembered that day clearly so he went to pay attention to what his friends did instead… until he saw it.
Fuck, he thought, it was there clear as day for the whole world to see, he had his suspicions of course but it was none of his business the way his members acted around each other, but if you looked closely and really knew him it was there and it was undeniable.
“Hey baby what are you watching?” Changbin whispered while lying in his bed nudging Felix slightly so he could cuddle the younger properly. The aussie was so absorbed in the video on his phone he hadn’t noticed his boyfriend had arrived home.
“Binnie hyung have you watched the newest video in our youtube channel?” He asked the older
“No, I haven’t what’s the matter? Is that why you are frowning and so focused you haven’t given me my kiss yet? That phrase made him smile, his boyfriend was so cute he always asked for kisses when the other boys weren’t present or in this case asleep. They couldn’t show affection as much as they wanted because there were always cameras shoved in their faces or the members to make funny noises and faces every time they acted like a couple. Felix pecked him quickly and shared one of his earphones.
“Please watch this and tell me I’m not seeing what I think I’m seeing” The boy said worriedly. Changbin accepted the earphone without question and Felix rewind the video a couple of minutes and pressed play. They watched in silence until the end.
“Fuck” the older said and looked at his boyfriend. “Has anyone else seen this?”
“I don’t know, I don’t think so though” Felix whispered and saw the same concern in his boyfriend’s eyes. “You are thinking the same right? I’m not seeing things where there’s none right?
Changbin took a deep breath “No, I’m afraid not” He never thought he was going to have this conversation with the younger before coming home, he only wanted to sleep while embracing his boyfriend for fuck sake’s he had had a long day.
“What are we gonna do about it?” the aussie asked. The rapper frowned. “Lixie that’s really none of our business”
“But Binnie, it’s obvious! I can’t see my hyung suffer like this and do nothing about it, you know what happened to us. We ourselves needed Chan’s intervention so we could stop secretly pinning for each other and finally acknowledge our feelings, I think this is the same case.” He said pouting.
Changbin hugged Felix tight, he already knew it was no point discussing with him anymore. Lixie already had an opinion formed and no one would be able to change his mind. “Okay baby, we can talk with him together if you want”
“No, it’s okay, knowing Minho hyung if we both talk to him, he will feel cornered and he’s not going tells us anything”
“Yeah you’re right. We have to sleep now though, it’s already late and we have a schedule early in the morning” Changbin said and kissed the younger’s forehead.
Felix laid his head on his boyfriend chest and closed his eyes. They needed to sleep; it would not help anyone to drag this conversation anymore. He took a deep breath and slowly faded to sleep, thinking about how he had to confront his hyung who was obviously in love with one of his bestfriends.
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In the van on their way to a music show, Changbin held Felix’s hand brushing his thumb in the smaller hand, they were sitting in the back and Felix looked anxious. He knew his boyfriend couldn’t stop thinking about their conversation last night, he always cared so much about other people specially the ones close to him, of course confront Minho about such a important matter would be not be easy and he had no idea what could happen. Minho was a box full of surprises, he never gives you the reaction you expect. So, the conversation between him and Felix could go incredibly well or terribly wrong.
Changbin was proud of how brave his boyfriend is, he doesn’t think he would have the guts to do it alone. Felix had told him more or less his plan, he was going to ask Minho to talk privately with the excuse to show him a song he wanted to choreograph with the older for his first SKZ PLAYER video. After the two were alone he would be upfront and show him the B Me making off video, telling the older he just wanted to know the truth and that he could open up with him if Minho felt like it. Binnie thought it was a good plan and was honestly praying it would go as easily and smoothly as Felix made it sound. If he was being honest he was also preoccupied with his hyung and felt sorry for him, after all he knew exactly how much it hurt to be in love and think it was unrequired, when he thought it was unrequired of course.
Making him confront his feelings and confess to Felix was one of the many things Changbin was grateful to Chan for. If it wasn’t for him a couple of months ago, he doubts he would be dating the beautiful sunshine boy, he could never repay Chan and the universe for bringing them together and Felix for corresponding his feelings. He was happy like he never thought he would be, and he wanted for his friend to feel happy or at least free like he felt.
The day was long, going to music shows almost everyday for three weeks straight and practicing for their Japanese comeback was taking a toll on everyone. After the long hours of dancing when they were all splattered on the practice room Chan finally told them they could go home, they had done great today and as always he was going to the studio with Changbin to work on the new song they were producing but the rest of the group could go home and other dinner. The boys were pleased, rapidly standing up and screaming what each one wanted for dinner and whose phone they were going to place the other. Everybody was gathering their things and making a fuss while leaving the room, so Felix took it as a sign to talk to Minho.
“Hyung, are you too hungry? I was hopping to get your opinion on the choreo I’m making for my SKZ PLAYER, if you don’t mind”
“Sure, Bokie show me what you got” Minho said animatedly. He was proud his doeseng had decided to cover dance a song for his first SKZ PLAYER video.
Everybody had already left the room, so he went to take his phone and sit besides Minho on the couch. He put on the B Me making off video.
“Yongbok that’s not…”
“Please hyung just watch it”
Minho frowned but complied, the younger looked a bit nervous and he thought it must be serious. He hadn’t watched that video before and as it went on, he really didn’t understand why Felix was showing him that, until he saw the part where he was discussing something with Jisung in front of the camera. It hit him, what was happening why Felix was holding his phone so strongly and was showing him that video. Because it was obvious for anyone with eyes how much fondness he was looking at Jisung, how his eyes were soft and sparkling, how much love he had for the boy in front of him, it was practically undeniable how much his eyes screamed, I’m in love with his boy. Minho blinked but kept looking at the screen, he was aware of his crush for Jisung for a long time now, he had tried to suppress his feelings since he had figured it out what they meant and he honestly thought he was doing a good job, since he was hiding it for a while. Until well now, when his doeseng was showing him how a lousy and terrible job he was doing, so bad it had been caught on camera. The video ended, he and Felix sighed at the same time. The younger put his phone in his pocket at looked at him.
“Hyung… I- I want you to know tha-that if you want someone to talk to, I’m here for you” Felix said between breaths and a shaking voice, he was honestly scared of Minho’s reaction. The older heart ached, it ached because he had come to terms with his feelings and his sexuality but seeing his friend so nervous while trying to show him support at the same time, told him he once again how he wasn’t doing a good job as he thought he was. He took Felix’s hands.
“Thank you, Yongbokie. Thank you for showing this to me and being here for me” He wasn’t the most affectionate one in their group but in that moment he hugged Felix, he could feel the younger hug him back and shake a little.
“Hey, c’mon don’t cry, it’s okay I’m not mad at you” He said rubbing Felix’s back.
“Hyu-hyung I was so afraid you would hate me” The Australian said between sobs “I had no idea how you would react, I didn’t want you to feel like I was pressuring yo- you”
“It’s okay, I’m sorry for making you feel this nervous about talking to me. Please stop crying you know I don’t know how to deal with tears” He said smiling. “Thank you for being so considerate of my feelings you’re a great friend” He pated Felix’s hair.
Felix felt calmer now, his hyung didn’t hate him and didn’t think he was being nosy, great, he took a few deep breaths stopping his tears and raised his head. He could see fondness in Minho’s eyes he was also smiling now since he had stopped crying. He didn’t look worried or angry, just relived. It warmed Felix’s body.
“So hyung…” He was still testing the waters; Minho might not have thought of him as nosy yet, but his next sentence could change that quickly. “Are you going to tell him?”
Minho eyes wided for a fraction of a second. He was not expecting that question, he took a deep breath.
“Felix, just because you and Changbin are dating and are having a happy story, not everyone is as lucky as you both are” He sighed “I can’t tell Jisungie I do not think of him as a little brother, I can’t tell him I’m in love with him. He probably doesn’t like boys that way, and if he does, he would not be interested in me as he sees me as an older brother. It’s okay I’ve accepted my situation a long time ago”
Felix blinked perplexed. He couldn’t believe his hyung’s words, not the words per se, but how sadly and defeated Minho looked while saying them, like he had thought about them for far too long and hade come to terms with it. It was so sad; it broke his heart.
“Hey, don’t look at me like that, don’t give me this look of a puppy who has just been kicked. It is okay really, do not feel bad about it, it is what it is” He said the words with a fake smile on his face, he knew Felix knew it was fake, but there was nothing anyone could do to change his situation.
Felix opened and closed his mouth a couple of times looking for the right words to say. He wanted Minho to confess to Jisung, but the older was right not everybody had a happy story like the one he was having with Changbin, he was not delusional, life was not a fairy tale, even though he belived everyone deserved to love and be loved.
“Fine hyung, but let me tell you this, Jisungie is breaking your heart and I know is unbeknown to him what he’s doing, but now that I know I cannot tolerate his behavior. I don’t know exactly what I’m going to do but I promise I will protect you!”
Felix said that while holding Minho’s hands and looking deep in his eyes. Minho’s mouth fell open and he started laughing fondly, he could not believe Felix’s kindness. The younger was there telling him he was going to protect his heart with such an assertive voice and attitude. Minho felt his own heart warm, Yongbok was such a beautiful person and amazing friend who clearly had no idea yet how this doeseng thing in Korean culture worked. It was his job as the older to look after the youngers not the contrary, but there was Felix with a fire and stubbornness in his eyes pronouncing his promise. Minho smiled back at him because it was the only thing he could do.