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" I couldn't believe the fact that we ended up like this, Mika "
The raven-haired male said, still putting on the unbelievable looks on his face while looking at the path in front of him that has flower petals on it. Meanwhile, Mikaela smiled softly and his heart is overloaded with happiness as well as the warm feelings from either Yuuichirou or himself.
" I couldn't believe it too... Yuu-Chan. "
With Yuuichirou being amazed over what lay ahead of them, Mikaela used his chance to intertwine their fingers together gently and carefully as if Yuuichirou is fragile like glass. The raven-haired male jerked back off slightly when he could feel the touch on his hand, only to find out that Mikaela is being sly like how he has been from their first meeting until now.
“ Asshole… “
Yuuichirou cursed under his breath and his face started blushing until it changed into the deep red color like an apple. Mikaela adores it so much to the point that he could kill anyone to satisfy his beloved. ( But still, Mikaela doesn't need to do it since Yuuichirou would have done it instead of him if he is truly mad or angry )
Even though they wear almost the same attire except for Yuuichirou’s necktie has green color while Mikaela’s has a blue color, Mikaela’s appearance seems to be radiant and Yuuichirou almost covered his eyes every time he glanced at his beloved.
From looking forward, Yuuichirou looked at his feet instead and that made some weird black aura emitting from himself.
I still feel like I don't deserve him… Even on our big day…
The raven-haired male thought to himself, still staring at his feet and that couldn't escape Mikaela’s gaze. ( Well… Every detail about Yuuichirou couldn't escape from him since he’s the former stalker )
“ Yuu-Chan. Don't look down on yourself. You’re precious and you’re worth it for me. You’re the most important thing in my life. “
Mikaela said it normally because those words could cheer his beloved up from stressful situations for the raven-haired male.
“ I know… But I still couldn't believe the fact that I am going to be married to you, Mika “
Yuuichirou holds Mikaela’s hand tightly as if it is his lifeline. It’s the truth that he is going to marry Mika and they are going to be family .
Mikaela heard that and it made his heart softened, he feels so happy over the fact that Yuuichirou is nervous about their marriage while their wedding ceremony is going to start in the next few minutes.
“ Darling, everything we have been through and everything we have encountered made us here. I’m grateful that you love me back after everything I had done for your sake. “
Before Yuuchirou could reply to the blond-haired male, the time for the ceremony to start has come.
“ Yuu-Chan. Let’s go, Shall we? “
The blue diamond ring on Yuuichirou’s hand that matches Mikaela's beautiful eyes is reflecting because of the light in this room beautifully, while Mikaela has an emerald with a white gold ring on his left hand. He chuckled softly when he recalled those nostalgic memories.
It’s been a long time from that moment, isn’t it? It is really funny when our true relationship started because of a motherfucking cockroach...
Clank
Somebody threw an empty can of soda at him and it hit his body violently. The raven-haired male knows that the bruise is going to form on that area again but it’s fine for him since he needs to endure it every day.
Luckily, today he wears his favorite black hoodie so the stain could be hardly seen on it. Yuuichirou ignored every voice around him and walked to his usual place in the cafeteria. Somebody almost intentionally knocked him over while he was on his way but he still has enough strength to stand straight after what he had experienced for half a year now.
The raven-haired male placed his lunch tray on the table tiredly and sat on the chair as if he doesn't have any energy left in him anymore. After what had happened to him, every color in his vision becomes monochrome… Only black and white could be seen.
Everyone always talks about him...not in a good way. Well, he isn't surprised about it anymore since his reputation is fucked up for a very long time. At first, he cried about it for a very long time until he realized that he couldn't do anything to fix it anymore.
Nothing could be repaired and that included his heart too.
“ Whore! “
Yes, somebody was calling him from afar but he acts as if he didn't hear at all, keep eating his lunch slowly and weakly. Yuuichirou knows that somebody is walking to where he is but he doesn't give a fuck about it anymore. It would be the same group of people as always.
Purple-haired midget, Golden-haired bitch, Fucking Telephone Pole, and a normal person that always acts like Yuuichirou doesn't exist in this place...no… He acts like the raven-haired male doesn't belong to this place.
And those people that he had been thinking about came to where he is again, almost fifth times in a row for today.
“ Yuu-San? Why you didn't reply to me? “
Shinoa or the princess of this college chirped innocently but Yuuichirou knows that voice tone is an act to everyone in this place. She doesn't show her true nature yet…
“ … “
Yuuichirou went quiet and kept eating his lunch slowly and slowly… He knows what he is currently doing and what will come after it but he wants to annoy the shit out of Hiiragi Shinoa.
He wants to destroy her mask of deceit and lies.
“ It seems like the whore can't speak. Huh? “
Mitsuba mocked him but he still acts as if he doesn't care about it at all. His blood is boiling with rage from being called Whore and he wished that he could punch all of them but his body is such a mess right now. So he couldn't do anything about it at all.
The moment of silence between Yuuichiro and the people around him made him feel slightly comfortable and peaceful with it. But it didn't last long.
Kimizuki picked his lunch tray up immediately and dumped it on his face, the food fell upon him as well as the soup dripping from his dark-colored hair. Almost everybody who was looking at him snorted and started laughing hysterically, intending to mock him.
Their laughter as well as their ignorance made Yuuichirou want to puke and destroy everything but he couldn’t do anything about it. He doesn’t even have a family since he’s an orphan and currently living alone.
No powers supporting him from behind, unlike those bunches of annoying people.
Yuuichirou, why wait?
The voice inside his head started ringing again after he had been trying to block it out of his mind with his concentration.
Shut up
By his instinct, he covered his ears with his hand and almost curled into the ball subconsciously. He doesn't want to hear it again, he doesn't want to know it anymore.
Their wicked laughter still ringing in his head and Yuuichirou could feel started breaking down into the never-ending abyss. Everything almost went black and his vision was painted into red color that came from the raging wrath.
He glared at Kimizuki and cursed under his breath… Well… It's not under his breath but his voice is raspy and low…
“ Fucking Fucktard… I wish that you could rot in hell… You motherfucking piece of shit ”
His vision moved in a blur but all he knows is Kimizuki grabbed his collar violently and threw him to the floor loudly. Everybody started snickering again and some of them threw trash at him precisely. It does hurt but he won’t whine at it.
He is going to stay strong and piss these fucktard off.
“ ahahaha You couldn’t do anything about ya grades huh? so is that the reasons why you pick on me? You stupid fucking telephone pole, titties monster, and fucking purple midget “
Yuuichirou has really good grades and he is in the top 10 in his classes, which Shinoa’s squad attend with him by coincidence. Yes, Coincidence. After he is raped by Shinoa’s brother’s fiance, yes yes. As if he had done something so fucking wrong. As if it is his fucking fault for being drugged and being blackmailed for almost half a year.
“ Stay quiet, Yuuichirou… You don’t want your teammates to see you like this, are you? “
The raven-haired male couldn’t say anything since clothes are currently shoving into his mouth and almost reached his throat. His clothes scattered on the floor and his wrists are bound to the chair, making his pose into an almost doggy pose.
His hands curled into fists and nails dug into his flesh, he tried to protest but he couldn’t do anything. Not anymore. For Fuck’s Sake.
“ Oh, Your hole is loose now, finally haha “
Yuuichirou couldn’t do anything except for glaring at the black-haired male and thrashing his legs, struggling from his position right now. He could feel something touching and jabbing on his hole and he fucking knows what it fucking is.
“ Ready? Bitch? “
“ Awwww Don’t be shy and just reply to me YOU JACKASS HAHA “
Yuuichirou shouted and kept putting on his shit-eating grin, Aw, They are pissed off right now and that Shinoa bitch stopped putting on her mask. He could see that Shinoa is fucking angry with his words since his deception is her weakness or her trauma.
“ Yuu-San, Can you shut the fuck up? “
She said with a cold voice tone and it would have made him in the past shiver with fright. But Nope, It doesn’t have any effect on him now. He doesn’t give a shit about it anymore after what they had done to him.
He shrugged and mocked at him with his cruelest words that he could think at that moment.
“ Maybe you should go see that rapist in the jail and ask him if he would fuck you, bitch, and go eat some shit over the toilet. Oh, And I won’t shut up for fuck’s sake “
Even though he’s still sitting on the floor with some soup dripping from his hair, he’s still being cocky and provocative. And Shinoa’s last straw of endurance ended up there. She raised her hand up and slapped Yuuichirou violently, ignoring the looks that her friends are currently giving to her right now.
Yuuichirou doesn’t know how many times she had slapped his face until she got pulled off him and dragged to the teacher’s office. He still feels so goddamn happy that he could piss that bitch off and he might be crazy for feeling good about it.
“ Come back again! Bitch! “
He made sure to yell and watched Shinoa’s glaring at him before she went out of his sight. The cafeteria went silent. Some of them were watching Yuuichirou from afar and laughing at how he pissed the violet-haired girl off.
The raven-haired male knows that some group doesn’t like Shinoa's group picking on him and they didn’t even lay a glance or try to help him when he suffered in that goddamn hell.
Yuuichirou raised his middle finger and left the cafeteria with his pitiful state, hairs still wet from the soup and his clothes stained by food. He couldn’t stay in his campus in this state right now and he needs to clean himself up, so he went back to his crappy apartment immediately.
It didn’t take that long for him to reach his home… not a perfect home in his ideal but he could afford only this place near the downtown with his low salary from a part-time job. His neighbor still making a loud sound of shouting at each other and hitting their child as always, the room next to him still empty, and nobody’s stay in that room with the sign ‘ Rent / Sell ‘ still hanging on the door for almost a month now.
He sighed heavily when the neighbor’s trash was placed at the front of his goddamn room again. Maybe they couldn’t learn about the manner to stop leaving their trash in front of the other’s room. Yuuichirou took it and placed it at the front of the neighbor’s room again, he doesn’t want to throw it for them and he knows that he shouldn’t intervene in anyone's business from his experience.
After he did it, he went back to his room and straight to the bathroom. He couldn’t stay in these stink clothes after Kimizuki had fucking dumped his lunch tray on him. Yuuichirou knows that his professor is going to spam him again and ask for the reason why he skips school today but he doesn’t give a fuck about it.
He knows that his professor cares about him pretty much, like how normal parents do to their child but he still feels like he doesn’t deserve it. A low-life like him doesn’t deserve love or sympathy at all.
The cold water’s running on his skin and it makes him feel really good, probably out of this world and he could feel the peace from it. He wishes he could cherish this moment forever and maybe he should drown in it so he could stay in that blissful state forever. Forever and Ever. Maybe he could dream about the knights in the shining armor saving himself from this miserable truth, just like in the tale that his mother told him before she left him.
Touching the cold surface of the wall, he feels really good about it when he touches it gently and closes his emerald eyes, ah, it feels so goddamn good when he couldn’t feel anything come from it such as the pain from being pushed to the hard surface until his head bleeding.
After Yuuichirou finished his bath, he laid on the bed that’s kinda torn-off and needs to be replaced. The comforting and soft feeling embraced him so well to the point that he feels like he’s drugged and addicted to this feeling...well… he’s currently addicted to drugs but he tried to stop using it since he’s kinda broke this month.
Not long enough until he could feel a creepy and disgusting feeling after he was zoning out. He wishes that he could erase his memories so he couldn’t remember those shitty memories anymore and live a happy life out there.
Yuuichirou, Stop being delusional and accept me in. Yuuichirou, Yuuichirou.
The voice in his heart started ringing again and telling him to do that shit again. It has been staying with him since when his mother abandoned him to the new male or her new husband. He could say that it’s his friend and the demon in his heart.
Shut the fuck up. Shut the fuck up.
Covering his ears and still laying on his bed, he tried to block those voices out of his head once again and it seemed to be quiet for a minute until it started talking again.
Yuuichirou. One day, You will accept me. You couldn’t escape from me…. I am a part of you…
Today is the day of the most important thing in his life... No… He should say that it is the most important thing in his love life and maybe the rest of his ‘ perfect life ‘
Some of his classmates or he should rephrase it as ‘ Leech ‘ could see that he is goddamn happy and he couldn’t stop humming or grinning when he’s in his free time.
“ Mikaela? Something good happened? “
The blond-haired male cocked his head while grabbing his books and shoving them into his bag. He chimed happily before putting on his phone and turning on his favorite song.
“ Yep! And I couldn’t wait for it haha “
Some of them wondered and were going to ask him but Mikaela left the classroom immediately in a blink of their eyes. They haven’t seen Mikaela being this happy in ages and they want to know it… Maybe they could ask him when they see him again.
Meanwhile, Mikaela went to his car quickly, unlocking it, and threw his stuff into the backseat which’s filled with his belongings such as clothes, utensils, laptop, and his camera.
Today he is going to move into the same apartment where his beloved stays…
Krul seems to be so goddamn happy that he moved out so she could stop hearing his squealing in the middle of the night. Well, everyone would squeal when they saw their beloved undressing or being cute? Aren’t they?
“ Cause if we sleep in our feelings. We’ll never start healing. “
Mikaela sang along with the song while riding to his new apartment. It is far from his campus and he doesn’t have anything to do right now except for singing since his hobby is kinda… weird.
Normal people would phrase it like that but for Mikaela, it’s ordinary for him. At least it is better than Krul’s hobby which is dating random guys and ditching them every time to see their suffering. Sometimes he wonders if his sister is sadistic or not…
He couldn’t wait to see his beloved’s emerald eyes, his slender body, his pure white skin, and his silky raven-colored hair. Mikaela’s body was trembling with excitement and anticipation.
Oh god, I am going to live next to Yuu-chan now… I couldn’t believe it and thank you for your blessing…
He was so happy until he found out that he’s stuck in a traffic jam in the evening time. If somebody asks him who he wants to murder right now, it would be everyone who caused the fucking traffic jam.
Mikaela wants to yank his hair because of his frustration and impatience. He wants to see his beloved right fucking now and he’s just stuck in the traffic jam.
Maybe Mikaela needs to do some meditation to improve his endurance and stop himself from being impatient…
After 3 or maybe 4 hours of being stuck in the traffic jam, he finally reached his destination at 11 pm. Yes, at 11 pm. He noted that he shouldn’t leave his campus at 7 pm or else he is going to take so much time to reach his new home.
The first thing that he noted in his mind is he needs to tell his neighbor for being annoying and creating sound pollution such as screaming, yelling, etc.
The second thing is he doesn’t need to be polite in this place since everyone in this place seems to be horrible ( Except for his beloved )
Luckily, he managed to unpack his belongings fast enough to finish it in 30 minutes, he thanked himself for not buying a lot of things, or else it would take him forever to finish it. He must thank Krul for being a model for him about not buying a lot of things or else it would take you a whole day to unpack and arrange it.
And maybe he is not into females because of his sister. He learns from the past that women are so goddamn annoying and they would be pissed off over something so simple such as he talks to other girls without any bad intentions and they would think of it as the girl whom he talks to as the bitch.
After a while, he cherished this peaceful moment with a sip of beer, the loud music from the upstairs started playing loudly to the point that it sends the vibration to probably the entire building.
Mikaela didn’t even think ahead about his question since his mind is telling him to go to the corridor, open it and shout ‘ Shut the fuck up ‘
and yes, he did it.
“ SHUT THE FUCK UP! “
The blond-haired male doesn’t know that there was a ravennette who has the same feeling as him right now. Or he should rephrase it as ‘ Being-Pissed-Off ‘ just like him. When his eyes met the emerald ones, his heart almost stopped beating with surprise and it started beating loudly against his ribcage.
Yuuichirou is standing there with messy raven hair, emerald eyes still foggy with sleepiness.
Oh God, Mikaela could feel his heartthrob when Yuuichirou looked at him with those beautiful pair of emerald eyes.
Yuuichirou was sleeping on his bed comfortably and dreaming about embracing someone. It was so colorful in that dream and he wants to live there forever until his breath fades, even if it is the effect of his drug he would stay there.
His dream ended and he snapped back to the real world when he heard the rock music from the upstairs room, which is so goddamn loud and he swears that one day he will beat the shit out of whoever creating the fucking noise right now.
The raven-haired male groaned in annoyance when he tried to sleep again, only to be fully awake from that noise again. He got up from his bed and stomped to the corridor, evading the mess he had made maybe yesterday and a week ago… he doesn’t know when but he doesn’t give his attention to it right now. He needs to tell the person who lives upstairs to shut the fuck up now or else he couldn’t sleep for the whole night.
When he reached the corridor, he shouted with the air almost left his lungs completely when he felt the air being sucked from him when he did it.
“ SHUT THE FUCK UP! “
Yuuichirou heard somebody shouted along with him, at least there is someone who has the same thought as him so he isn’t feel bad about his action at all. He could sense somebody’s gaze on him so he turned his attention to the right side with his pissed-off thoughts floating in his mind.
Can you mind your fucking business?
Yuuichirou thought to himself and readied himself to shot a glare toward whoever’s looking at him right now, not until he found that person is drop-dead-gorgeous .
The blond-hair that fluttering along with the breeze and its color seems to be radiating in the midst of the night. Dark-blue cerulean orbs caught his attention and its color is beautiful as the color of the deep sea. Beautiful face that has a perfect structure which he could compare it to the greek statue.
He doesn’t have any words in his vocabulary to describe it, the word that he could say is ‘ Beautiful ‘ or maybe ‘ Gorgeous ‘
“ Uhm… Hi? “
The stranger said first and Yuuichirou snapped out of his train of thoughts, he could feel his heart started beating at a rapid pace as if he’s doing a marathon right now.
“ O-Oh! Hi! “
Yuuichirou said while scratching his head to relieve his nervousness, he hasn’t felt anything like this since everything went downfall and it’s his first time in a while for his heart to be beating at a frenzied pace after he couldn’t trust anyone in his life anymore or have affection or feeling to everyone anymore.
Meanwhile, Mikaela put on his normal mood face and acted as if his heart doesn’t feel anything toward the raven-haired male. In the deepest place of his heart, he started screaming and screeching about how cute Yuuichirou is.
Before they could stare at each other for any longer, the loud voice of the person who lives upstairs came and broke the silence.
“ Mind your own fucking business, Bitch! “
Yuuichirou could feel the anger creeping inside his guts and it’s ready to go all out on the person who lives upstairs. He didn't even hesitate when he shouted back aggressively.
“ YOU MOTHERFUCKING KIDDING ME?! YOU JUST PLAYED YOUR GODDAMN GUITAR OR WHATEVER IT IS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT?! AND IT’S SO FUCKING DAMN LOUDER THAN HOW YOU MAKE OUT WITH YOUR WIFE!! YOU JACKASS!!!! “
Mikaela was going to shout but he froze when he heard Yuuichirou’s cursing, well, that bastard deserved it but he didn't expect that to come out of the raven-haired male. ( To be honest, he snorted quietly at Yuuichirou’s words and suppressed himself from laughing )
Before the blond-haired male could say anything to the raven-haired male after someone who lives upstairs went quiet and the peace came back to them, Yuuichirou stormed back into his room and closed the glass window loudly to the point that Mikaela thought it might break one day.
At least, he managed to say hi to his beloved so today isn't that bad…? He doesn't know how to describe it but the words he should use to say it right now would be ‘ Happiness ’ or ‘ Possessive ’...
Talking about his possessiveness, he should do his hobby right now... He couldn't wait to do it today after he finally saw his beloved in reality… Opening the laptop which is placed on the table, he clicked on the surveillance camera program which is linked to the cameras that he has set in Yuuichirou’s room.
The first thing he saw is Yuuichirou curling into the ball and laying on the worn-out bed, God, he’s still adorable and cute to the point that Mikaela’s heart throbbed in pleasure.
The second thing is the bottle of pills that placed on the nightstand and he knows what it is. That logo and a faint instruction that he could see from the camera.
Sleeping Pills.
As Always.
The blond-haired male thought to himself sadly and closed the application. He doesn't want Yuuichirou to take it any longer but he doesn't have any role in Yuuichirou’s life that could butt in the raven-haired male’s business.
But this time, for living next door, he could have a special role in Yuuichirou’s life now. His body trembling with excitement and adrenaline flowing in his veins.
He is going to make Yuuichirou happy with his life, no matter what it takes him to do.
“ Come on Yuu… Just stop protesting and accept it already… That you’re my whore and you can’t live without drugs that I give you… “
His mind is hazy with a fog of lust covering his rational senses, his raw desires are going wild and he couldn't control himself from the assaulting pleasure on his nerves. Even though it is really painful, he still feels pleasure from either what’s currently inside his body or the soothing feeling of something flowing in his veins calmly and numbing his body slowly and slowly…
“ Oh...Finally...You stop resisting and you are so goddamn cute when you become obedient like this… “
The sharp thrust on his prostate made him cry in pleasure as the star shooting behind his eyelids and painting his vision in white color like a firework. The sweet moans have been escaping from his lips simultaneously when he feels the pleasure rushing toward his brain and he couldn't take it any longer.
“ Yuu… You couldn't escape from me until the day you die… Yuu. “
Yuuichirou woke up and snapped back to reality, himself still gasping for air to fill his lungs as if he was submerged in the deep sea. The beads of sweat fell from his face and dripped to the mattress beneath him. His gasping sound filled the room and he clenched his fists, nails digging into his flesh.
He is a fucking loser that still has twisted feeling to the person who abused him in the past.
Opening the lid of the bottle of pills in his hand, he poured the pills onto his hands and he didn't count how many in his hands. He ate it without thinking beforehand.
If he’s lucky this time, he could end his miserable life tonight.
No more suffering, No more pain, No more expectation… No more feelings for himself or the person around him anymore.
Goodbye, this fucked up world and now I can finally feel a fucking happiness.
And his consciousness slipped away into the darkness that he felt familiar with. At least, it accepts him, unlike how people in his campus treat him. The warm feeling blooms in his heart like how a flower blooms in the spring, he knows that this feeling is an illusion and fake but he wants to keep it with him forever and ever.
He prayed to God that tomorrow, he won't wake up to suffer from the pain anymore…
The loud sound from the room next to him woke the raven-haired man up from his peaceful sleep or he should rephrase it as ’ Hibernate ’ since he had been sleeping for 18 hours straight.
He knows that his professor is going to scold him again but he doesn't give a fuck about it. His room is dark without any lights coming from the lamp on his nightstand and the dimmed light comes from the window.
Curling himself into a ball and covering himself with a blanket, he wishes that he could have gone to sleep while listening to the newly moved neighbor’s ruckus, probably comes from unpacking stuff. He tried so goddamn hard to ignore it for 45 minutes until he couldn't handle it anymore when he heard his neighbor’s screaming and cussing such as ’ FUCK! ’ ’ GO AWAY YOU DEMONSPAWN ’ ’ AHHHHH ’
Yuuichirou got up from his bed and shouted with his raspy voice while his throat still hurt from the lack of water symptoms. He is so annoyed after being woke up from the peaceful rest suddenly.
“ CAN YA SHUT THE FUCK UP FOR GOD CHRIST SAKE?! “
And the only reply he got is the screeching and sound of something falling to the floor heavily. He thought that it was going to be fine, not until he heard the painful wince from the opposite walls.
( The apartment has a fucking really thin wall for unknown reasons and he could hear everything from his neighbors such as their making-out sound or their arguing sound. )
He grabbed his broom and walked to the front door with a defiance stance as if there was a serial killer in this area. He knows that there isn't a lunatic like that who lives around here but he has to make sure about his safety, isn't it?
Meanwhile, at Mikaela’s side, he was fighting with the cockroaches on the floor while standing on the top of his bed with trembling legs. He hates this creature so much to the point that he wants to invent something that could eradicate these nasty creatures and make them extinct from this world.
“ GO AWAY YOU FUCKING DEMONSPAWN!!! “
Mikaela could feel that this mother fucking cockroach was grinning and shooting him with a challenging look on its disgusting eyes. More time has passed and Mikaela could feel the tense atmosphere wrapping around him. The gross feeling was creeping into his guts and it was way too worse than Krul’s cooking.
He was concentrating on how to kill this satan-reincarnated creature and the yelling from the room next to him made him fell to the floor violently.
The blond-haired male heard faint footsteps from Yuuichirou’s room and he knows that the raven-haired male is heading to somewhere he doesn't know. But he didn't expect Yuuichirou is going to knock on his room’s door and ask him with a concerning voice tone.
“ Hello? Are you okay? “
He cursed himself and his for making Yuuichirou come to his room at this unholy moment. He doesn’t know what to do with this bad or the worst situation in his life. He has to choose between his beloved or himself.
What should he do now?!