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I can't take it anymore.
I can't live with everything like this.
The insults.
They hurt.
So much.
They come from everyone.
My "friends",
my "boyfriend",
even my own fucking family.
That saying that goes
"Your family will always be there for you"
Is a fucking lie.
Bullshit.
Everything I try to say is shut down.
"Berry B. Benson"
It was funny the first time.
Now it's just repetitive, unfunny, and straight up hurtful.
"Sangwoo"
It was never funny.
It hurts being compared to a
rapist,
serial killer,
a fucking horrible person.
I'm I really that despicable to them?
The insults have made me so insecure about myself that I try to avoid going outside as much as possible.
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I've been talking to Kuroo, Yamaguchi,Oikawa, and Lev more since they feel the same pains as I do.
It has really helped me to know I'm not alone and have people I can express my feelings with.
Lev and Kuroo are always being ignored by the people they love.
Yamaguchi's boyfriend is an asshole who can't treat his boyfriend right.
Oikawa's situation is the same as mine.
Life is shit.
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volleyball gc😎🏐
Bee🕴
Can I talk about something
for a minute please?
better twin❗
What Mr.Benson?☕🙄
simp🤢🕴
MR.BENSON BYE-😭😭😭😭
Noya😍
😭😭😭😭🤞
Fox🦊
SJSJJSJEHWUWHW NOT THE
MR.BENSON-😭😭😭
Milk😨
PLEASE😭🙏
wine?yes.🏋
This is uncalled-for stop and let atsumu talk
Ew.
He probably doesn't have
anything good to talk about
Dino🙏
probably just him whining🙄
"Iwa-chan"🤢
Like flattykawa he
has nothing important to say🤢
"Bee🕴" changed their name to "Atsumu"
Atsumu
This is what I wanted to
talk about to yall about
better twin🙄❗
stop being whiny
fox🦊
we have to find a way to put up with your bullshit everyday😷
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It saddened Atsumu that the thought of him as a nuisance.
A bother.
But it also started a fire of hidden anger in Atsumu.
He didn't hold back on his anger and unleashed it all on them.
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Atsumu
Do you actually care about me or do you just keep me around for some fucked up entertainment?
You don't ever stop to think about your actions or even if I'm ok with them, do you?
Imagine being compared to a serial killer and rapists because you have an undercut with fucking dyed blond hair.
You wouldn't be fucking happy right?
What if one day I walked up to you and told you that you looked like Ted Bundy because you have a similar hairstyle and I told you that every day as a fucking way to belittle and insult you.
I can barely look at myself because of all the belittlement and insults EVERY TIME I try to fucking speak.
Friends shouldn't act like this.
My "boyfriend" shouldn't go along with something so hurtful.
I can't believe we're together sometimes.
Why are we even still together if you don't love me?
I'll be fine if we break up because I feel like I'm stuck in a cage in this toxic and sad relationship.
Everything you do is against me.
I don't even know if I love you anymore.
I don't remember the last time I ever felt safe and happy around you.
We never talk or do anything together.
I understand you need space and time to get comfortable and feel safe enough to break down your walls, but you don't even try.
Am I just here, so you can say you're in a relationship?
Are we even friends?
You can't even treat me like a human.
Am I nothing?
What did I do to deserve this?
Why can't you just tell me you want to end our friendship?
Everything you do is to hurt me.
And you still expect me to be ok and fine with it.
better twin🙄❗
We never knew you felt like this
Atsumu
Of course, you didn't know because you never stop to think about your actions.
I miss how we used to be.
Sure we fought, but we would never hurt each other, and we still loved each other.
This used to be my home and safe space, but now it's the reason I can't be happy.
This was home.
I want this relationship over, Sakusa
I want you all of you to leave and live without me because it will make you happy and that's all I want for you.
It'll hurt at first, but I'll still have people who actually care about me.
"Your family will always be there for you"
fucking bullshit.
Try stopping and thinking before acting.
You'll never know what I have to go through because of you.
This place is NOT my home anymore.
Try looking through my eyes and maybe then we can be friends again.
"Atsumu" left the chat
"Flattykawa" changed his name to "Oikawa"
Oikawa
Nice fucking job.
kuroo👩🍸
Maybe try using your fucking head once in a while since you guys are so much "better" than him then maybe you won't lose another "friend"
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Everyone was speechless and felt guilty.
Very guilty.
Atsumu could fucking care less.
He finally felt relived and alive again.
He put his shoes on and walked to a small stream he and Osamu found when they were 9.
When he was happier.
He knew life wouldn't get easier in a snap of his fingers, but it would eventually get better.
He laid down and looked up at the dark blue sky.
The sky was dim, and you could only faintly see some stars due to light pollution. The moon was bright and beautiful.
Something Atsumu hasn't felt in a while.
He felt like a circus elephant that has just been rescued from the abusive and horrible circus (his "friends" and [ex-]"boyfriend").
He wondered how an amazing and sweet relationship like his and Sakusa's could end up so abusive and toxic.
It was sad.
That he lost almost everything he's ever loved.
He's free now.
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Sad bitches only gc😎🙁🕶👌
Prettykawa❤
You're so brave Atsumu💕
KuWOAH😍💕
I'm so proud of you and I hope you never forget that❤💕
Yama😊❤
You did amazing!😊💕💕💕
Cutest here😇🤗
You really are cool af😍💕
Atsu💞
Thank you
I don't know what I would've done without you guys💕💞
You've helped me through so much and I don't know how I'll ever repay you💞
Prettykawa❤ and 3+ are typing...
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Now this is-
This is home.