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Breathing in and out, it is all I can do to lament to myself to what I have witnessed for far too long, “So much PAIN…”
I hover above the troposphere, arms wide, fingers splayed, as my luscious hair and angelic gown flutter in the brutal winds and eddies that would freeze most mere mortals in an instant.
But my wings are steady within this maelstrom.
I am truly life and hope incarnate.
I am the balm to counter the pain, to ease death into a new form.
But also I seek so much more.
Thousands of feet below me float massive gorgeous clouds that I normally would seek to slumber in, but cannot.
Their lure is starting to wane, and I have to fight the rage I feel, the pain I sense, and the regret that I could not have found him sooner.
My eyes are shut tight, I am fighting to keep my temper in check.
Trying not to lose control, trying to keep the universe from unraveling.
My body continues to gently bob and dip in the turbulent air, as I seek comfort within myself, but knowing, just knowing, I need to do it. I want to do it.
I need to see him, go to him. It is fate.
I emit a glow, a white hot and blue fire that makes me appear a star to guide any sailors below on the seas of blue-green, but slowly, ever so slowly, I change, I shift to instead emit a golden brown aura.
Now, I am ready to descend, seeking the form I’ve been watching for some time, a bright red dot moving within the sparkling landscape far below.
I am drawn to it like a moth to a flame, opposite poles of a magnet.
Forgetting the floating clouds, the seas of blue-green, I hone in on and target that spot of red, that flame calling to me, my fate, my love, my new life.
Just as I begin my final descent, I breathe in the chaos of the universe; I cannot help but mumble quietly, “So much DEATH….” but I’m the only one hearing the words, knowing it will all be changing.
For the better.