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Jin walked out of the large doors of the Seoul hospital, with a piece of paper in his hand and a devastated expression on his face.
I can't tell them, Jin thought, remembering his members, his beloved little brothers.
They had told him to go to the doctor as he had been feeling very bad the last few days, they all wanted to come with him but his tight schedule prevented them, so they told him to go with the promise that he would tell them absolutely all the details of what the doctor told him.
But he couldn't do that, it would tear them apart.
So he went to a nearby dumpster, took out his lighter and burned the document with the diagnosis the doctor had given him.
He would tell them that he had just been attacked by a flu virus.
He sat on the bed, looking at the wall, he had to go to the doctor again to know about the treatment, but he had to manage not to make them suspect anything, he already knew what he was going to do, but he couldn't do that now, they would be suspicious.
-I'm so sorry guys," was the last thing he said to his surprised and tearful members who looked at him as he walked out the door with his suitcase, which really contained very few things.
He told them that he would be spending some time at his parents' house, that he was feeling very tired lately (that technically wasn't a lie) and that he would be taking a break, that he planned to retaliate home with them in a month.
What they didn't know was that instead, in his suitcase was his letter of resignation, and he wouldn't be back for a month.
He did many things in that month, he did visit his parents and stayed with them for about two weeks, receiving calls from the members to see how he was doing, to ask him to come back sooner and to tell him that they missed him and loved him very much.
Everyone called him, Yoongi who was not very open to showing affection called him almost every day, Jungkook who never answered messages always answered his messages and calls at the speed of light.
He visited his brother and his wife, arriving by surprise, but spending an incredible day together with them and his still young nephew, leaving and promising to come back some other day soon.
Too bad he would not get to keep that promise.
The morning was completely normal, they had a day off today so everyone had gotten up early and gone about their own business.
Namjoon and Yoongi were in the living room, Yoongi was looking at his phone scrolling through weverse looking at comments on some posts and Namjoon was with his cup of coffee ready to sit down when he got a call.
He fumbled for his phone in one of his pants pockets and frowned when he saw that the call was from his manager, apparently Yoongi noticed the change in his expression.
- Who is it?
-Sejin hyung
Yoongi frowned, it was strange for their manager to call them on their days off.
Namjoon answered.
- Hello?
-Namjoon-ah? Is everyone there at home?
Sejin's voice trembled, Namjoon felt his heart start to race.
-Yes, why hyung?
-Namjoon, I'm going to need you to stay calm, okay? What I'm about to tell you is not going to be easy to hear, and then I'm going to need you to tell the others.
-Hyung, you're scaring me. Is something wrong?
By this point, Yoongi had sat up straight and was staring at Namjoon, asking him with his eyes, Namjoon motioned him to wait with his hand.
-Namjoon, do you know why Seokjin left?
-He told us he was tired, he was going to his parents for a while, he is supposed to come back in a couple of days.
Yoongi put on a confused expression, he knew they were talking about Jin, Jungkook and Jimin had entered the room, listening to Namjoon talking on the phone and being curious, this made Namjoon even more nervous.
-Namjoon, he lied to them, he lied to all of us.
- What do you mean?
-He didn't leave because of that, he didn't go to his parents' house.
- Then why? Where?
Namjoon asked completely confused, ignoring the presence of now Hoseok and Taehyung in the room, all completely confused about the situation.
-He was sick, Namjoon, he had cancer.
- He had WHAT? -
Namjoon felt the heat leave his body and his legs failed him, worrying the others in the room.
-Just like you heared it- Sejin sniffed, as if he had been crying, the young leader tried with all his might not to imagine the worst scenario.
- Namjoon-ah
- What happened?
- He passed away this morning
When the Bangtan members entered the Kim's house, all eyes were on them, but they were focused on finding only one person.
Their eyes were drawn to the white coffin with gold accents and some purple gems that was in the living room, still open.
Jimin and Taehyung were the first to react, followed by Jungkook, they approached the coffin. Jimin seeing him, couldn't contain himself and collapsed on it, taking his hyung's cold hands and crying with his forehead on them... Taehyung was crying silently, touching the immaculate face of his hyung, who seemed asleep, it looked like he was smiling of tranquility and that only destroyed him even more.
Jungkook slowly approached him, when he saw him he couldn't help a heartbreaking sob, it felt like it had suddenly hit him, now it felt real, he couldn't deny it anymore because his hyung was there, pale and cold.
He didn't want that, he wanted him to wake up, to hug him and kiss his forehead like he used to do when he was younger.
He didn't even realize it the moment he collapsed on his body, sobbing loudly and denying reality in front of his reality, telling his hyung to come back, that he still needs him.
Hoseok, Yoongi and Namjoon stood by their maknaes respectively, hugging and comforting them when they themselves were also shattered that something so precious had suddenly been taken away from them.
Namjoon let go of Jungkook for a moment, to turn his attention to where Seokjin's family was, his father, brother and mother, who was a mess.
He approached, Seokjung, with whom he had spoken on the phone a few minutes before arriving at the house, smiled sadly at him, his eyes with traces of tears, when Mrs. Kim saw him she stood up and went towards him
-Eommonie...
He began, but could not finish because she wrapped him in a crushing hug while sobbing, he quickly followed her example involuntarily.
-Ohh Namjoonie- she started with a trembling voice, stroking his hair from the nape of his neck, he felt his shoulder being touched to see the rest of her members there, also wanting to support his hyung's family.
Yoongi had already approached Seokjung and hugged him, which was unlike him... Hoseok, Jimin and Taehyung were with Seokjin's father.
Jungkook had touched Namjoon's hand and when he pulled away, Seokjin's mother hugged him tightly, Jungkook couldn't help but burst into tears again.
-Oh Jungkookie...- Jungkook heard Mrs. Kim's sweet voice faltering, but still trying to comfort the child in her arms a little, probably reminding her own son that was no longer there.
When the funeral home arrived to take Seokjin to the funeral home, everything went haywire.
Her mother fainted, her father and brother went with her and other relatives to one of the rooms to help her, while the chaos continued outside.
- NO!" a scream was heard coming from Jungkook - Noo please! Don't take him away! - he sobbed terribly over the white coffin, completely clinging while Yoongi and Namjoon tried to pull him out gently - No hyung! I don't want them to take him away! I don't want to! - he cried out in a completely heartbreaking way and sobbing loudly.
Hoseok was hugging the other two maknaes who were sobbing uncontrollably, each clutching his side.
Namjoon grabbed Jungkook's arms tightly and tore his grip from the coffin, while hugging him and burying the boy's head in his chest so he wouldn't have to watch when his hyung's body was taken away.
-Shh, shhh Kookie, it's okay, it's okay " he told the sobbing boy as he motioned for the morticians to remove the coffin.
-No hyung, it's not okay! - Jungkook cried in his chest - He's dead! Jin hyung is dead! Nothing is okay! -
Namjoon felt himself being hit right in the heart, Jungkook's knees began to buckle as he cried then Namjoon crouched down next to him, leaving them both lying on the floor with the older man hugging an inconsolable Jungkook who was crying loudly for his hyung.
The living room of the house was empty now, only the 6 boys were left to mourn their lost brother.
They had to go and change at the company where many of the staff they had worked with for years greeted them with hugs and tears.
They saw Bang PD and Sejin who were also heartbroken and they all hugged and cried together.
When they arrived at the funeral service site, Seokjin's body and family were already there, the security was impeccably tight so no sasaeng or malicious paparazzi could enter, only one news channel was allowed to cover the tragic event.
Many of his idol friends and colleagues from some of the shows he participated in came to pay their respects and condolences to the family and Bangtan members.
Shinee came and hugged the members understanding their pain for a lost member and brother.
Seokjin's childhood friends, Jaehwan also arrived, he was almost as heartbroken as they were.
ARMY was heartbroken, the whole world was mourning the death of Kim Seokjin.
James Corden, Jimmy Fallon, The Ellen Show, the Billboard Awards, even the official Grammys website all posted compilations of videos and photos of Seokjin, along with words of grief and comfort for members and family members.
ARMY made big announcements in honor of him, all over the world, to honor his memory and appreciate the great talent he had, they made videos, drawings, even covers of his songs, all showed the great love they had for him and the immense pain his departure from this world caused them.
Namjoon and Yoongi remained strong, Hoseok and Jimin were together on the chairs hugging each other with Jimin shedding silent tears without uttering a sound or word.
Taehyung and Jungkook remained near the coffin, Jungkook had a blank stare, sometimes he looked at his phone, he saw messages from friends, family and ARMY expressing their sorrow and condolences for them but he didn't feel like answering any of them.
Taehyung was thinking about his hyung, his smile, his window cleaner laugh, his dad jokes, his angelic voice, all that they would never see or hear again.
They announced that they would soon be leaving for the cemetery and everyone prepared for that moment, although none of them were ready.
As they left the building, Jin's brother took his photograph and stood in front of the coffin carried by the Bangtan members, Namjoon, Yoongi and Hoseok on one side. Jimin, Taehyung and Jungkook on the other. Bang PD and Sejin behind them.
As expected there were cameramen outside, but they were very respectful of everyone's grief and were discreet in taking pictures without asking questions to the members or family members.
When the coffin was placed in the car, the 6 members stood around the open hatch as his mother was carried into the car along with his father and brother.
Jimin could not contain himself and cried on Yoongi's shoulder who hugged him tightly as the mochi hid his sobbing face from the cameras.
Jungkook did not take long to do the same by hugging Hoseok who was the closest member to him.
They all got into the same car when they closed the back door.
The ride in the car was silent except for sniffing and some sobbing.
Taehyung was silently looking out the window, thinking about what their life would be like now without their shining hyung.
When they were about to lower the coffin into the ground, this time it was Jimin who got out of control, falling to his knees next to the hole and stretching out his arms trying to reach where his precious hyung was.
His mother who had arrived from Busan upon hearing the news embraced him from behind, holding his waist with her arms and kneeling with him, preventing the young man from throwing himself over the coffin, burying her son's head under her chin.
-It's okay, Jiminie, it's okay, relax –
Jimin sobbed harder
-He's gone mom, he's really gone- he murmured in his mother's arms, she nodded and kissed him on the head and then hugged him tighter, tears running through her own cheeks.
All their parents were there, traveling to comfort their children as soon as they heard the terrible news, Yoongi's mother was next to Jin's mother, who was also out of control crying on her husband's shoulder, to which Tae's father was gently rubbing his shoulder, she had to leave as she was about to faint so they took her home to rest while the waiters were still filling the grave.
Jungkook was crying in his mother's arms, Namjoon and Hoseok were with their respective parents by the grave, trying to be strong.
The parents went to the Kim's house, to keep Jin's parents company, leaving their children in the cemetery, there were only 6 of them left.
Yoongi finally fell to his knees sobbing, Namjoon and Hoseok also allowed themselves to cry for their hyung.
The maknaes embraced each other as they gazed at the solemn tomb where one of the most precious people they had in their lives now rested.
Taehyung sobbed and took a moment to look up at the sky.
Please... he whispered to his angel while shedding more tears...
Take care of him for us