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failed attempt after failed attempt.
it isn’t that eren didn’t want to have sex with you, it’s that he couldn’t. of course, like every couple you did other things but no matter how long and how much he prepped you, you simply just couldn’t take his size. you’ve barely gone past the tip. you were aware that losing your virginity would obviously be painful but what you experienced every time you guys tried was unbearable.
to be fair, you only tried five times over two years but that didn’t change the fact that it was stressful for the both of you—more for eren than you. you could tell that he was beyond sexually frustrated and your mere sloppy handjobs and blowjobs weren’t enough for him anymore.
and as his girlfriend, you couldn’t help but be overwhelmed with a sense of guilt. he would constantly reassure you that it wasn’t a big problem for him and that he didn’t want you to get hurt but that didn’t change how you felt.
it was like there was a missing piece in your relationship. and that’s what you were currently working on fixing as you stared at the ups tracking for the delivered package you had ordered.
your heart raced in anticipation as you entered the elevator to go up to your apartment. with a quick google search, you were able to find out that you weren’t the only woman dealing with such a problem. you fell down an internet rabbit hole and came back a changed woman.
to your surprise, there were multiples of posts and articles on what you were struggling with. an article advised to buy different sized dildos—from small to big—and to slowly work up to the size of your partner. you would be lying if you said that you weren’t excited to finally do it with eren but there was a slight bump in the road.
what you weren’t expecting was for eren to be home before you. your breath hitchs in your lungs as you see the open package of dildos on the island. you feel your heart drop to your feet. you were originally planning on hiding the toys from him and doing it yourself.
he turns his head in your direction when he hears the clack of the front door. his face rests in its classic unreadable state and that made you feel even more nervous. nonetheless, you were ready to turn on your heels and make a run for it due to embarrassment.
“i didn’t know you were into these kind of things,” he smirks as he walks in your direction.
“it’s not what it looks like,” you reply as you avert your eyes from his intense gaze.
“if you wanted to try something like this, you could’ve just asked,” he smiles as he rests his hand under your chin. you slightly turn your head to look him in his eyes. the unreadable expression on his face was gone and softness filled his orbs. that changes in a second as he leans over and whispers in your ear. “or did you buy it to play with your pretty pussy all by yourself?”
your face instantly rushes in heat as you rest your hands on his chest and gently push him away while you take a step back. “i told you it isn’t like that.”
your voice came out in a low murmur that was barely audible to him. with no other words being said he slides your bag of your shoulder and leads the two of you towards the couch in the living room. he tugs you into his lap and allows you to get comfortable before beginning to speak.
“then help me understand. this isn’t like you,” he whispers as he begins to pepper kisses along your nape causing you to squirm. his hot touch on your skin wasn’t making it any easier for you to focus and answer his question.
“i was upset that…that we couldn’t do ‘it’,” you pause and a whimper flows from your lips as he begins to nib the skin on your shoulder—moving your shirt out of the way.
“continue.”
“so, i did some research and found out that it’s easier if you warm up with…with toys,” you stammer as the bites on your skin become harsher.
“hm, is that so?”
you nod in response and turn to face him. you were now straddling his lap.
“please, believe me. i wasn’t trying to do anything else. i just really wanted to do it.” your voice trails off into a whisper towards the ends of the sentence.
“if you want me to forgive you, show me.”
“what?”
“show me how you were gonna do it,” he states as his eyes that were earlier filled with softness were now pooled with lust. he places a quick kiss on your cheek. “show me, and i’ll forgive you.”
you nibble on your bottom lip as you stare off into nothingness. at first you were convinced that he was teasing you but you knew it wasn’t a joke because of the stern look on his face.
“i’m not as patient as you think i am,” he grunts as he tosses you over his shoulder in a quick motion. he walks towards the island snatching the box off the table with one arm while he held you up by the other.
you feel your skirt ride up more and more with each long stride he takes towards the bedroom. you couldn’t even bring yourself to protest from how excited yet nervous you were. after dating for two years you guys were finally going to do it.
he gently rests you on the floor of the room as he flips the box dropping the contents of it for you to see.
“i’m guessing we should start with this one,” he says as he leans over and grabs the smallest of the set. he throws the toy in your direction with a sly smirk on his face. you pick up the small pink object and observe it. it wasn’t too big—at least three inches tops. although it was short, it was a bit thick.
“well, get started,” he teasingly encourages as he sits on the edge of the bed. with the way the room was set up, there was a mirror in front of you and you could see him sitting in the bed through it. you scoot back pressing your back against the foot of the bed for support. you were now sitting in between his legs.
your hands drag down and you push your hips up to try and unzip your skirt. the action is cut off as eren grabs your hand.
“the skirt stays on,” he orders as his hands massage your shoulders. you hadn’t even gotten started yet you could feel his growing hardness press against your shoulder as he hunched over for a second.
you comply to his order and leave the skirt on. you push your hips up again but this time to remove your underwear. you grab the toy as you hunch your schoolgirl skirt up to your hips.
eren could practically sense your nervousness and soothingly continues to run his hands up and down the sides of your arms. he momentarily stops as you bring the toy to your entrance.
“you can’t just put it in like that, baby. you have to get it wet first.”
his large hand envelopes over yours as he brings the toy to your lips and guides it into your mouth.
“stick out your tongue.”
you do as he says and twirl your tongue over the cool silicone.
“you’re so pretty with drooling lips,” he praises as he grabs your throat and pulls your head back a bit so could see him.
you continue your maneuvers until the toy is wet and eren pulls his hand away. his hands find there way back to your shoulders as you curl your knees up to your chest and prod the toy at your entrance.
“no, you have to show me everything, princess,” he whispers as he leans forward and places his hands on your knees before spreading them. the cool air makes your clit twitch.
“and you have to look in the mirror,” he continues as he softly grips your cheeks making you look in the mirror. your eyes meet his through the glass and he gives you an lecherous look to continue.
his hand moves from your throat to your jaw holding it steady to ensure that your gaze wouldn’t stray away. adjusting to his light grip, you slide the cool toy up and down your folds familiarizing yourself with it. you gently tease it on your clit resulting in small moans that made eren more intrigued.
after you feel yourself relax a bit, you push the toy into your hole. your eyes still held those of eren in the mirror as he places kisses along your shoulder. you thrust it in and out of yourself feeling frustrated that you couldn’t find your spot.
“you’re doing so well. look how pretty you are clenching around that tiny thing,” he coos as he hunches over and momentarily places his chin on your shoulder. you scoot back closer towards him but he unexpectedly wraps his hand around your throat and pulls back your head. you are met with the sight of his lose strands of hair hanging over your face.
he traces his tongue along your bottom lip and gently tugs on it with his teeth before indulging you in a kiss. he drags your lip down with his callous thumb guiding you to slightly open your mouth. it was hard to keep a pace on the toy when his lewd kisses were fogging your mind.
a warm, honey like string of spit falls from his mouth into yours before he pulls you into another breathtaking kiss.
“are you having a hard time finding this?”
he slides down from the bed and sits on the floor with you as his hand envelopes over yours. he thrusts the toy upwards into your sweet spot sending your body into a wave of pleasure. you feel empty as he suddenly slides the toy out of you.
“i think you’ve had your fun with that one,” he says as he stands from the spot he was sitting and heads over to the pile of dildos. you feel your heart palpate quicker in your chest at the one he picks out. it was much bigger than the one you were just using and far more thicker. a good six inches give or take.
he also takes the time to pull his shirt over his head and get rid of his sweats leaving him in his briefs.
“that ones too big,” you complain as he walks over to the nightstand grabbing the lube.
“don’t worry, i’ll help you this time,” he assures in a smirk as he sits behind you. you adjust yourself between his legs while he continues to lube up the toy.
unlike earlier, he was fully hard now and his cock was pressing against your back. you lean into his chest as you feel the cold lube running up and down your folds. you clench around the air as he unexpectedly spreads your entrance to tease you.
“look how pretty,” he whispers as he licks your ear. you stare back at him through the reflection as he prods the toy at your hole before slowly pushing it in. you breathily gasp as you feel yourself stretch out around it.
“shhhh,” he hushes as he uses his free hands to grip on yours. “i got you, baby.”
tears fill your eyes as he pushes past the thin membrane inside of you. he mumbles sweet nothings into your ear to distract you and before you knew it, he had completely slid in the toy. the pain soon turns into pleasure as he thrusts it inside of you at a quick pace. a foreign feeling of warmth begins to bubble in your abdomen as you close your eyes.
“i feel weird,” you moan as he hits the silicon into the bundle of nerves inside of you.
“don’t come yet, i want you to come around me.”
although he told you to wait, his actions were pushing you farther to the edge as he begins to fondle with your clit. just as you were about to tip over the edge, your eyes fly open at the sudden loss of sensation.
“don’t worry, i’ll fill you up again princess,” he guarantees as he carries you to the bed. although you prepared well, you can’t help but feel nervous as he pushes down his briefs. no matter how many times you saw him, you were astonished by the size.
“i’ll be gentle.”
it was almost as if he could sense the nervousness in your eyes. you lift your hips up as he tugs your skirt down after ridding of your bra and shirt.
“are you still on birth control?” he asks as he pumps himself with lube. you respond with a small nod as you grow wetter at the sight of his pulsing dick coated in the substance.
he hovers over you as he gently meets your lips. you’re filled with the familiar feeling of being stretched out as you whine against his lips.
“you’re doing so good, princess,” he comforts as he plunges himself deeper into you. you accidentally tighten around him as he hits a certain spot in you.
“it hurts,” you whimper as a warm tear trails down your cheek. the toys were nothing compared to his size but it hurt a little less than it did in the past.
he tugs on your arm and pulls you into his chest as he rests his back against the headboard.
“i can’t go on if you keep crying. just breathe in and out like i taught you last time, okay?”
you nod into his chest as he runs his hand down your back and you take a deep exhale. with you being in his lap, you were in control of the pace. you sink yourself down onto his length as you continue breathing.
“just like that,” he murmurs as he changes the position and lays you on your back. you claw at his biceps as he begins to speed up his pace—spreading your legs wider than before. your moans bounce of the walls as the pain completely vanishes. pleasure runs through your veins as he pounds up into your sweet spot.
“look at me filling you all up,” he grunts as he tugs you up by your arm and thrusts into you harder. you’re met with the sight of him ruthlessly pounding into your sore cunt. “you feel so good, fuck.”
he releases your hand and props your trembling legs onto his shoulders as he begins to massage your clit. a pleasurable yet painful feeling courses through your core. the warmth of climax swirls in your abdomen as you feel yourself falling over the edge.
“fuck, fuck, i’m coming,” you huff as he pulls you into a kiss. a shock of euphoria runs up your spine as spots of white dance in your vision. he continues to harshly rock his hips into yours. the veins of his cock pulse against your walls—you could tell he was close.
he tosses his head back and grunts through his teeth as his cum spills in you. you moan at the strange warmth that fills your cunt.
“so good. that was so fucking good, baby,” he pants as he falls on top of you while catching his breath. your chest rises and falls as you also struggle to catch your breath. a smile paints his face as he leans in and places a final peck on your lips.
maybe it wasn’t so bad that you guys didn’t force it the first time.
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