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A soft click came from the front door alerting Levi that his roommate was back. Usually, it was accompanied by the gentle sounds of keys jingling as they were laid into the catch-all by the door. Key word usually. When the soft sound of metal against the ceramic didn’t reach his ears, a furrow formed between his brows as he shifted in his spot on the couch to crane his neck towards the front door. The sight he was met with was not the usual well-kept appearance of his roommate.

Instead, it was Erwin struggling with his shoes. He had one long leg lifted up as he fought with the shoe that appeared to be stuck on the foot, his thick brows furrowed in concentration. The tip of his tongue poked out of the right corner of his lips and while Levi always found the sight to be endearing...Currently he was mildly concerned. A few stray curses slipped out of the blond’s mouth which made Levi’s brows shoot up to his hairline because Erwin Smith hardly ever cursed. He had known the man since their freshman year of college and while they were only currently juniors, Erwin never swore.

The shoe was finally wrestled off his foot which led to Erwin repeating the same assault onto the other foot; however, Levi had to hold back a snort as the blond almost fell.

“Need some help blondie?” he asked with a light quirk of his brow as Erwin’s blue eyes tore away from the shoe to instead settle on his roommate. A frown settled on his lips that almost made him look like he was pouting.

“Shut it,” was all he offered, and Levi couldn’t help his snort as he held his hands up in mock defense.

Once Erwin got the shoe off, he moved with a speed Levi only saw him have on the soccer field. His feet carried him across the small living room and right next to Levi, far enough away to respect his personal space but close enough to where his cologne permeated the air and filled Levi’s nose. It was warm like sandalwood but crisp like fresh linen. It was the smell that has haunted Levi’s dreams since the second semester of his freshman year when Erwin let him borrow a sweatshirt.

Cerulean eyes shifted to the TV before he looked around and snatched the remote from the table and powered the it off. Thin lips parted in protest as he narrowed his eyes at Erwin, but he was cut off by a large palm lifting into the air to silence him. The gesture was one the blond only used when he was either serious or needed to get something out into the air, so whatever was eating away at him had to be important. Levi’s teeth clacked shut as he crossed his arms over his chest and sunk back into the faux leather of the couch, a brow lifting as he nodded in a silent gesture for Erwin to let it out.

They sat there in silence for a moment before the serious look melted off his face. In that moment he deflated. Levi could only watch as broad shoulders dropped into a slouch and he turned his entire body so he was facing him. Long legs pulled up onto the couch into a criss-cross position with his arms resting in his lap, fingers fidgeting with his nails.
“I think I did something stupid.”

The phrase made Levi’s heart stutter. His pulse dropped before speeding up at his roommate’s admission.

Dark lashes fluttered into a slow blink as he cleared his throat, “Okay...define stupid because I think we both have very different ideas of what stupid is.”

A heavy sigh passed Erwin’s lips before he lifted a hand to rub over his face, “I started talking to this guy, and I didn’t think it would go anywhere. It’s just been a couple of weeks, but he wants to hang out tonight.”

Levi had been in plenty of fights in his life. He had suffered multiple broken noses, split lips, bruised sides, cracked ribs, and a multitude of other injuries. His breath had been stolen from his lungs by gut punches more times than he could count, but despite all of that, Erwin’s admission felt worse than anything he had experienced before. Hearing him say he had been talking to a guy for a couple weeks combined with the fact Erwin hadn’t even told him about said guy was enough to make his heart stop in his chest and drop straight to his stomach. It made the bile feel like it was burning his throat, begging to get out of his body.

“Okay and?” he shifted in his seat for a moment before clicking his tongue, “go hang out with him if you like him?”

A soft blush settled under the collar of Erwin’s blue t-shirt and crept up his neck. Hesitation crossed his face as his eyes shifted from Levi to his lap, “I...Well, the way things are going it sounds like he wants to do more than hang out.”

Jealousy settled in his chest and filled his veins with searing heat. It was a wonder that a blush of his own hadn’t taken purchase on his skin yet. Levi narrowed his eyes before giving a shrug, “then fuck him. Erwin, I don’t see what the problem is? You’ve had sex before, haven’t you?”

Honestly, Levi wasn’t sure if Erwin had fucked before. When they were living in the dorms Erwin had never brought anyone over. There was never a revolving door of men or women that would filter through each weekend. At the time, Levi had always wondered why considering Erwin was an attractive person. He was built from years of playing soccer and working out, his body toned with muscles that had been a part of Levi’s embarrassing wet dreams for the past 2 years. His lips were always stretched into a smile that could charm anyone and make all of the girls on campus blush. It also didn’t help that he was so well kempt with his neatly parted flaxen hair, pressed clothes, and polished shoes.

The flush that had started on Erwin’s neck moved further up until it settled on the apples of his cheeks and he cleared his throat, “I have...with women.” Silence settled over them as they both grasped at what to say next. His lips parted to speak before Erwin cut him off.

“Wait,” wide blue eyes looked at him before a small smile formed on his lips, “you can help me. You’ve had sex with men before. Just...tell me what to do.”

Out of everything he could have said, that was not what Levi had been expecting. The words took a moment to sink into his brain before he felt white hot anger bubble under his skin. All he could feel was his entire world fall off kilter as the man he was so desperately in love asked him how to have sex with a man that wasn’t him. Every emotion hit him at once as he abruptly stood up. His fingers curled into fists as he clenched his jaw, “First of all, fuck you. Second...no actually just fuck you. Figure it out yourself.”

He wished he hadn’t seen the way Erwin’s face fell. Blue eyes widening only to look at the floor like a scolded child.

For a moment he felt as if his reaction was too harsh. Like he had gone the wrong direction. Erwin didn’t know about his feelings because he was too chicken shit to say anything. Maybe he shouldn’t have said what he said. It wasn’t Erwin’s fault after all.

Still, that didn’t stop him from crossing the threshold of his room, door slamming shut behind him. He stood there for a moment counting backwards from ten and trying to take as many deep breaths as he could. The feeling of his heartbeat in his ears made the room feel like it was spinning around him, the edges of his vision blurring the slightest bit. With a huff he fell onto his bed face first, the soft cotton of his sheets cooling down the warmth that had formed on his cheeks.

He wasn’t sure how long he had stayed like that. Though the entire time he laid on the bed he kept replaying the conversation in his head. Erwin wasn’t in the wrong to ask that question; he had been asking for help in an area he had no experience in and Levi had snapped on him. The anger that he felt dissipated only to be replaced by guilt.

Erwin wasn’t in the wrong, he was. It wasn’t Erwin’s fault that Levi was too afraid to cross the line between a platonic relationship and a romantic relationship.

A heavy sigh fluttered passed his lips before his arms moved to lift his body up off the mattress. Slowly he rolled his body so he could sit on the edge of the bed, his head hanging low. He should apologize. He knew he should; however, despite the guilt that ate away at him it wasn’t enough to soften his pride. Instead, he stood up from the bed and went to his door, pulling it open with mild hesitation. Part of him wanted to stay holed up in his room but he knew that avoiding Erwin wasn’t going to do anything but upset them both.

He stalled for a moment once he was in the hall. His feet refused to move as he looked down the hall at Erwin’s closed bedroom door. Levi clenched his jaw as he stood there, willing his feet to move. It felt like he was rooted to the spot the longer he stood there.

With a final mental shove, his feet carried him the short distance down the hall until he was right in front of the door. All he had to do was open it and walk in. Erwin wasn’t the type to hold things against him, he never had been.

The cool metal of the doorknob pressed against his palm as he gave it a twist. When the door opened, his eyes scanned over the room to make sure that Erwin was in fact in there. Grey eyes swept around before they landed on the bed where Erwin was laying, an old book in his hands. Levi wasted no time as he crossed the room to get to the bedside, his face passive as he neared the man.

Levi didn’t stop until he was right next to the blond, their eyes locking. He watched a thick brow quirk in a silent question as he shut the book and laid it on his nightstand. The quiet thump of the book against the wood of the table was enough to snap Levi out of his head. Instead, he just cleared his throat and placed a knee on the edge of the mattress, his weight sinking in. In a swift movement he swung his body onto the mattress, settling his body over Erwin’s so he was straddling his hips.

“Fine, I’ll help you,” Levi spoke with a grunt, his weight shifting so he was fully seated on the other’s hips, “but this will be the only time, so you better listen. Is this okay?”

Erwin’s wide blue eyes peered up at him, his Adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed. There was a light blush at the tips of his ears and Levi wanted to reach out and stroke the reddened skin with his thumb but restrained himself.

“Yea,” his voice was a rasp as he responded to the question, “this is okay.”

With a nod, Levi clicked his tongue before settling his hands on his denim clad thighs, “If you’re in a situation like this...then don’t make it fucking weird. I don’t know the guy but if it were me then I wouldn’t waste time.”

As the words left his mouth, he couldn’t help but wonder what it would be like if he was this other guy. How would Erwin’s hands feel smoothing over his skin, pulling him apart with each soft caress? Would his lips be smooth or rough against his own? Did he kiss with tongue or with his teeth...would he try to suck the air out of his lungs? With each thought he felt his heart hammer in his chest; the blood in his veins rushed with a vengeance as his body temperature seemed to get higher and higher with each passing second. Already his clothes felt hot against his skin and for a moment he was worried he wouldn’t be able to do this.

“Don’t make it weird,” Erwin repeated, his voice snapping Levi from his thoughts, “okay, so what constitutes weird?” Already a light grin was settled on his lips. It looked different from this angle considering it was Erwin who always towered over him. Sitting over him allowed for the light to hit his face, blue eyes clear as a cloudless sky. Usually when Levi saw this grin shadows were casted over his face, clouding them.

A snort settled in his nose as he hummed softly, “Just don’t say weird shit...especially don’t crack out the law books. You might put him to sleep.”

Before he could continue, a laugh shook Erwin’s body making Levi move with him. He could feel the way his body vibrated with the laugh, muscles contracting and hips shifting the slightest bit. Levi had never felt Erwin’s laugh before. He had never felt it permeate through to his bones and make a home in his chest. A small smile of his own formed on his lips before he shook his head, “Anyways, just...don’t be weird. You talk fast when you’re nervous so don’t do that either. It’s annoying.”

Erwin nodded slowly before chewing on his bottom lip. White teeth pulled the flesh between them and rolled it around before releasing it, the skin a deeper shade of pink than it had been before. Levi swallowed as he ripped his eyes away and once again rubbed his clammy palms against the fabric of his jeans.

“Okay, what else?” The question made Levi pause as he tried to gather himself. His eyes drifted down to his neck and then his shoulders before his next move popped into his head.

Slim hands lifted from his thighs to instead grab Erwin’s wrists. The skin was warm under his palms as he squeezed them. He felt selfish as he relished in the warmth the other provided, but he couldn’t help it. He couldn’t help it as he settled the hands on his thighs, his palms pressing against the back of Erwin’s hands. The weight of the large hands against his thighs made his entire body shiver.

Erwin’s gaze flickered periodically between their hands and Levi’s face. As if he were waiting for something to happen.

“Initiate contact,” Levi spoke, “he might get the wrong idea if you don’t...especially if he is inviting you over. But take it slow so there’s a build-up.” He removed his hands from Erwin’s and instead let them hang by his sides.

“What next?”

The question felt dirty. Like Erwin was waiting for Levi to take whatever this was further. It was impossible to miss the way blond lashes gave slow blinks up at him, blue eyes nearly half lidded. It all felt like too much. The weight of his hands on his thighs was not helping and Levi could swear he felt a thumb brush along the inseam of his pants.

A soft hum settled in his throat as he looked off to the side, pretending to be in thought, “Well, depends on how bold he is. Though for most first fucks being coy is always a possibility.” His gaze turned back to the blond under him and once again he moved his hands. They gently pressed against the solid muscle of his chest, the soft fabric of his t-shirt keeping him from feeling the skin he so desperately wanted to touch. In this position he could feel the rise and fall of Erwin’s breaths, the way his heart was hammering in his chest.
“Be ready in case he decides to take things further,” his voice was soft as he spoke, “if he leans forward, more than likely he’s wanting to kiss you. Like this.” To demonstrate, he allowed his torso to give. His body pressed down until their stomachs were touching and their faces were some inches apart. Leaning this close he could see the freckles that dusted over Erwin’s cheeks and nose.

Erwin sucked in a breath that fluttered inside his chest, causing Levi’s hands to move with the unsteady rhythm. He gave a slow nod, before lips parted to speak, “I think I got it.”

As soon as the statement left Erwin’s lips, Levi felt like the spell was broken. He would have to get up and whatever this was would be gone. The warmth of Erwin’s body heat would be gone and replaced with the cold water of a shower. It was his turn to nod, “Okay.”

Levi swallowed the lump in his throat as he started to pull his face away. He went to lift his hands off of the other’s chest but was stopped by the feeling of the deep voice rumbling in his chest, “So it goes like this?”

The question made thin brows wrinkle in confusion, “What goes like what?”

His question fell on deaf ears as one of the hands that had been settled on his thigh moved. It was only seconds later that it laid on the back of his neck to pull him closer than he had been before, lips slotting together in a kiss he had not been expecting.

Erwin kissed like he was hungry. Like he wanted nothing more than to devour Levi until nothing was left. It felt like he wanted to steal every ounce of air from his lungs. It was rough and messy with teeth nipping along his bottom lip, trying to coax his lips open. The fingers on the back of his neck curled into the skin, holding him firmly in place. Levi felt like he was drowning but that didn’t stop him from curling his fingers into the shirt, lithe body pressing as close as he could get.

A low groan built up in the back of his throat as his lungs began to burn in protest. He needed to pull away. Slowly he loosened his hold on Erwin’s shirt and pulled away from the kiss, his eyes fluttering open.

“Yea,” he whispered, one of his hands sliding up to gently lay against the side of his neck, “like that.”

Once again, a chuckle shook Erwin’s body and caused Levi to jostle the slightest bit. The two of them smiled as Erwin leaned up to press their foreheads together, eyes blinking open so they could see one another, “What else do I need to know?”

A smile tugged on the corner of his lips as he brushed his thumb over the front of his throat, “What do you want to know?”

Silence settled between them for a second before Erwin leaned in to brush their lips together, tongue darting over his bottom lip, “You.”

In any other scenario, Levi might have laughed. The answer was so cheesy that if it had been anyone else but Erwin he would have laughed and left, but the answer was so Erwin he couldn’t find it in him to laugh. Instead, he sucked in a shaky breath as he chased the other’s lips to press them into a searing kiss. Neither wasted any time as they settled into a kiss that was softer than the previous one.

It was nothing but the steady press of lips and breaths mixing together. He couldn’t tell where one kiss started and another ended. Erwin’s remaining hand on his thigh slowly slid up until it was resting on his hip, squeezing lightly while his thumb brushed over the waistband.

Levi pulled away from the kiss so he could sit up, hooded eyes staring down at the blond under him. Erwin’s hand slipped off the back of his neck and fell down to the mattress with a soft thud. Instead of saying anything he moved his hands to the hem of his t-shirt and yanked it over his head and tossed it to the floor in a fluid motion, “Sit up and take yours off...it’s better to be even.”

For a moment it was like his words fell on deaf ears as Erwin’s eyes seemed to scan over every inch of skin left exposed. It took everything in him not to grab his shirt to pull right back over his head. Blue eyes seemed to drift over every exposed patch of skin and left him feeling entirely too vulnerable the longer he stared, but this was what he wanted. He had wanted this for years.

Large palms slid from their current resting places to instead settle against his sides. The warmth of the hands caused a shiver to travel down to the base of his spine, but once they began to work over the skin to feel every muscle, line, and curve, he could feel himself relax. Erwin’s hands moved slow as they mapped out his abdomen. Fingers skimmed against his ribs and brushed against the bones before they settled in between each one, thumbs rubbing gentle circles into his diaphragm.

Levi’s heart pounded relentlessly in his ears as Erwin took his time. It was just touching. He had been touched before, but never like this. Never so reverently. Never so tenderly. There was devotion behind Erwin’s hands as they smooth up from his ribs to instead work up towards his chest. Now he was sure the blond could feel the way his heart hammered against his sternum, beating so quick it almost felt like palpitations.

A look of concentration was etched into his features and Levi couldn’t remember the last time someone had looked at him like that; like he was a puzzle slowly being pieced together. The look was enough to drive Levi up the walls internally. This was not the way things usually went for him. It was always quick and rough. Never soft and kind.

Erwin hummed softly as he finally settled his hands on his chest, eyes flickering up for a moment. A beat later a smile formed on his lips as he pressed a hand into his sternum, “Your heart is beating fast.”

The blush that coated his neck and chest was almost immediate. It made him feel ten times hotter than he had been before and caused his resolve to falter. He clenched his jaw before huffing out a sigh, “Well you’re taking too long.”

Another chuckle reverberated through his body and soaked into Levi. His eyes crinkled with the smile and already he had lost count of how many times his breath had been stolen from his lungs because of Erwin.

“Oh,” he mused, “I’m sorry...I didn’t know we were on a time crunch?”

Slate eyes narrowed at the teasing, “We aren’t but you’re going so slow.” He grumbled, a hand sneaking to pinch at Erwin’s side causing the man to jump.

“Perhaps you’re just impatient?” he suggested before letting his fingernails lightly scrap over the skin as he dropped them lower and lower, “I’m just trying to learn all I can.” The lilt in his voice was soft and teasing, like he knew exactly what he was doing.

He parted his lips to speak but the words died in his throat, replaced by a choked gasp as thumbs brushed over his nipples. The sound should have been embarrassing but the thought died once Erwin repeated the action. His jaw locked shut to keep any other noises from slipping out, but he couldn’t help the way his breaths came out shaky from his nostrils. The sensation caused small flickers of pleasure to travel through his body. Already his jeans were growing gradually more uncomfortable the longer he let Erwin touch him.

Erwin’s gaze flickered up to Levi’s face and the soft smile that had been on his face twisted the slightest bit into a smirk as he stopped. Slowly, he moved to sit up causing Levi to slide down and settle onto his lap rather than straddling his hips. Erwin’s hands pulled away from his skin to instead work on taking the shirt off of his body. The seconds seemed to stretch into minutes as he tugged it off and tossed it onto the floor.

“There, even.”

Levi could only nod at the phrase before his hands moved on their own. They settled against the broad planes of Erwin’s chest and slowly slid down to brush over the well-defined oblique muscles on his sides. This wasn’t the first time he had seen Erwin without a shirt on. The two worked out regularly together so this was nothing new, but to feel the muscles he had watched the other tirelessly tone under his own fingers was something entirely new.

“You’re going too slow,” Erwin mumbled as he lifted his hands to settle onto his hips, lips quirking as he shifted them. The room spun as they swapped positions with Levi’s back sinking down into the mattress and Erwin settling between Levi’s parted thighs. With the new situation, all of Erwin’s weight was pressed against his body, creating a comforting pressure.
Levi moved his arms to snake around the other’s neck in order to yank him down, noses brushing against one another, “Don’t mock me.”

Erwin merely offered a hum as he leaned in to lightly nip at his lower lip, teeth gently rolling the flesh between them, “I’m not...just saying that you were going too slow is all.”

With a scoff, the slighter surged forward to press their lips into another kiss. His tongue sweeping out to lick at Erwin’s bottom lip while his own teeth nipped at the flesh in the same manner as Erwin had done to him. A low groan built up in the back of Erwin’s throat as he leaned more of his body weight into Levi, his entire being pressing him into the mattress. Though Levi wasn’t in any position to complain. This was something he had dreamed about for years, even if it was embarrassing to admit to himself. Freshman him would have died at the feeling of the growing outline of Erwin’s dick against his hips.

He had been pining after Erwin for so long he couldn’t even remember when it had happened. It was like one day something had clicked inside him that Erwin was someone he trusted whole heartedly. He was someone who didn’t annoy the shit out of him or make him want to hurl himself into moving traffic. He was clean, neat, and had common sense. He was also honest and genuine in everything he did which always managed to relax Levi’s nerves. It was a friendship that worked well and eventually those lines blurred together until Levi wasn’t sure what was platonic and what seemed like more.

And what they were doing right now was definitely something friends did not do.

Friends didn’t kiss like they were running out of air. Friends didn’t grind their hips against one another until small gasps escaped parted lips. They didn’t tangle their fingers into flaxen hair in order to tug at the roots. And they definitely didn’t whisper their best friend’s name against their lips like it was the last thing they’d ever say.

He knew part of him should be afraid of what this would do to their friendship but in the moment he couldn’t bring himself to care. All he could focus on was the feeling of Erwin’s lips rolling against his in a steady rhythm that matched the slow grinding of his hips. It was torture as he laid there pressed into the mattress with no escape. All he could do was lay there and take everything Erwin was giving to him. Not that he minded.

It was Erwin’s turn to pull away from the kiss, lips glistening and breaths coming out in short pants as he tried to grab his bearings. Levi could feel Erwin’s heart beating against his own; the rhythm was erratic and heavy as they stared at each other.

“You should,” Levi started, his voice a near whisper as he relaxed his fingers tangled in the blond strands, “you should go to my room and grab the lube in the bottom drawer of my night-stand.

A thin stretch of silence built between them after his suggestion. Erwin’s body laid unmoving against his except for the steady heartbeat in his chest. His expression was indiscernible. Bright eyes peered into him with slow calculation causing a swell of anxiety to wash over Levi like cold water. Was he too forward? Did Erwin even want to go this far with him? The seconds ticked by slowly, hanging between them like a chill.

Erwin gave a deep inhale before nodding slowly, “bottom drawer? Got it.”

The warm body lifted off of his, settling on the edge of the bed before rising. Levi couldn’t help but watch the way each muscle in his arms flexed and strained under the pale skin. Each movement was subtle but still managed to drive him up the walls. He wanted to see how the muscles in those arms would look pulled taut while hovering over him. He wanted to watch each flex of muscle in his lower abdomen as his hips rolled into his own.

Those thoughts alone were enough to remind him once again of how uncomfortable his jeans were. He gave a low grunt as his fingers fiddled with the button of his jeans; his hands shook as they grasped at the metal button to pull them open and undo the zipper. Though the heavy footfalls against the hard wood caused his eyes to flicker away from his hands and towards the blond as he exited the room.

Levi swallowed the lump in his throat before he lifted his hips up to start kicking his pants off. The denim scraped over his briefs causing a soft hiss to scrape passed his teeth, jaw clenching shut. Truthfully, he couldn’t remember the last time he was this sensitive. His hands pushed them lower and lower until he was able to kick them off and onto the ground. In the distance he could hear Erwin rummaging through the drawer. The dull sound of objects scraping against the wood hitting his ears until there was a soft click signaling he had closed it.

This was happening.

The anxiety from before flared up in his chest. It made his pulse quicken and a chill go down his spine, though Erwin’s return to the room halted his worry. They locked eyes the moment he crossed the threshold, and he didn’t miss the way his eyes traveled over the newly exposed skin of his thighs and calves.

“Pants. Off,” Levi drawled with a quirked brow, “Fair is fair.”

A smile split the blond’s face as he nodded, repeating the words, “Fair is fair.”

Erwin tossed the bottle onto the bed with a small thump before occupying his hands with removing his pants off his hips. The button popped open followed by the grinding metallic sound of the zipper. Large hands pushed the waistband down and Levi couldn’t take his eyes off of the display. He waited with bated breath as Erwin pushed the denim down to his thighs and let them drop before stepping out of each leg. His eyes cut up to meet Levi’s and he offered a sheepish smile before clearing his throat, “Don’t look at me like that.”

Levi blinked a couple times before speaking, “Like what?”

“Like you want to eat me.”

A shaky breath passed Levi’s lips as he closed his mouth, lips pulling into a tight line. Erwin offered a laugh as he moved towards the bed, a knee pressing into the mattress as he crawled over, so he was once again slotted between Levi’s thighs. His hands pressed into the pillows by his head, the muscles in his arms straining.

“It isn’t a bad look on you,” Erwin mused, “just overwhelming.”

Thin brows pinched together at the last word, “Overwhelming? What the fuck does that mean?”

The blond shook his head, his hair falling over his forehead, “Not in a bad way. Just...I never thought that…” His words seemed to dry up in his mouth as he tried to say them which left Levi a little more than slightly amused. Erwin was a man of many words and to catch him speechless was always a treat.

“That what?” Levi asked, one of his hands reaching over to pat the bed in order to locate the bottle of lube, “That I would be laying half naked under you about to teach you how to properly finger a guy?”

Erwin’s lips parted in silent surprise before the look morphed into amusement. A laugh bubbled in his chest and spilled past his lips, the corners of his eyes crinkling, “I...well yes.

The laugh was too infectious. It was light and airy as it filtered through the atmosphere of the room. A smile tugged on Levi’s lips as he listened to the other before rolling his eyes, “Didn’t think I’d be here either.” It was the truth. Levi had slowly accepted that he and Erwin would be nothing but friends since the latter never made a move, but neither did Levi. They both seemed content to dance around the obvious question in the room.

“Do you want to be here?” Erwin asked, his tone taking on a more serious lilt. It was obvious that he was giving an out.

The lube bottle felt heavy in his hand as the question registered in his mind. He swallowed the lump in his throat before nodding, “Yea, I want this.”

Blue eyes flickered from his face and towards the hand the bottle was situated in. With a gentle shift, he balanced his weight on his left arm while the right arm slid down to take it from him. Erwin’s hand was warm against his own, but it was short lived seeing as his attention shifted to the object.
“Okay,” Erwin began as he sat back on his knees, “so…”

The words seemed to die right on the blond’s tongue and Levi couldn’t help but laugh. It fluttered in his chest and made his eyes slip shut, a hand going to rest over his eyes. He wasn’t laughing at Erwin but rather how ridiculous this all felt. Levi ran the hand through his hair, eyes opening to look at the blond who was flushed a light pink.

There was uncertainty and hesitation on Erwin’s face and a slight pang of guilt hit him in the chest. With a small snort he cleared his throat, “Sorry...I wasn’t laughing at you. Just-” He cut himself off and chewed on the inside of his cheek before nodding to the lube, “Look, I know you’re bisexual and I know you’ve watched plenty of porn so just...try things out and I’ll give pointers. Sound okay?”

Erwin seemed to weigh the compromise before giving a slow nod, blond bangs settling over his forehead, “Okay, if you’re giving me free range then try not to complain too much.”

Levi could only roll his eyes in response, though he wasn’t given much time to retort since one of Erwin’s palms slid up his calf and worked its way to his thigh. The large hand gave a firm squeeze to the muscle under the skin, fingernails lightly digging into the skin. As the blunt nails dug into the skin, Levi couldn’t help the small noise that rose in the back of his throat.

A heady silence fell over them as Erwin dropped the lube onto the bed once again so his hands could instead work on Levi’s thighs. Calloused hands smoothed from the area under his knees all the way up to the bottom of his briefs. Levi felt fingertips brush over the fabric before they gripped onto the fabric, slowly drag them down. Erwin lifted a brow at the smaller man and gave another firm tug which hinted that he wanted to pull them off. Levi lifted his hips up from the mattress to make the undressing easier, and the feeling of the soft fabric dragging over his sensitive skin elicited a low groan settled in the back of his throat as his erection finally sprung free.

“Sensitive?” Erwin teased as he slid the briefs down the rest of his legs and tossed them aside. Due to the full exposure, Levi felt at his most vulnerable. There was nowhere for him to run and nothing to hide behind. He could do nothing but lay there as Erwin drank in every inch of his skin, eyes hazy and hooded.

Embarrassment crept up Levi’s throat and replaced the words he wanted to bite back. Instead, he could only give a shaky breath in response. He shifted his legs so his feet were flat against the mattress, knees bent and thighs spread open. Erwin’s throat bobbed at the sight; he watched as his lips parted and his eyes sank lower and lower. Pride washed over him and replaced the embarrassment that had previously held him. He felt good knowing that he was the reason Erwin was flushed pink and straining against the grey fabric of his boxers.

Erwin settled his hands on the tops of his knees so he could pull them apart. As his hands spread his thighs further and further apart, a burning stretch settled into the muscles. A low moan caught in the back of his throat as he was pushed to his limit, but it only prompted Erwin to continue. With a soft squeeze to his knees, Erwin pulled his hands away and hummed, “Don’t move.”

The command was simple, but it still managed to send a jolt through his body. Levi clenched his jaw as he held his thighs apart like Erwin asked. He watched as Erwin pulled his eyes away in favor of busying himself with the lube; the noise of the cap snapping open resounded in his ears as the viscous liquid poured over two of his fingers.

Levi was transfixed by the sight. He couldn’t look away from the furrow settled between thick brows as the liquid slid over his index and middle finger. Erwin gave a couple slow blinks as he tested the liquid by sliding his fingers together. The snap of the bottle’s cap tore his attention from Erwin’s fingers.

“Go slow,” his voice was gruff as he tried to speak, “one finger at a time. I’ll tell you when to put in the second.”

Erwin gave a nod at Levi’s advice, a slight look of hesitation crossing his features for a split second. He tossed the bottle aside so he could settle his free hand on Levi’s right knee while his other hand disappeared between his legs. It was only seconds later that the cool tip of Erwin’s index finger pressed against the ring of muscle, waiting for the okay to go further.

The pair shared a look before Levi nodded giving the consent. Erwin hummed softly and with a final press of his finger the appendage slowly breached through before bottoming out. Levi could feel the gentle wiggle of Erwin’s finger before he slowly pulled it out only for it to be pressed right back inside. Erwin built up a gentle yet hesitant rhythm that only furthered Levi’s frustration. The blond was just barely brushing his finger against his prostate and he had to remind himself that Erwin was new to this so of course he wouldn’t know what to do. Levi shifted his hips before huffing, “Add another...and curl them upwards.”

Erwin didn’t waste any time in adding a second finger, he pushed them to the first knuckle and spread them apart in a scissoring motion that had Levi gasping. The fingers were much thicker than his own which resulted in a burning stretch that spread throughout his lower body, but once Erwin managed to find a new rhythm it began to subside. The blond took his time pumping his fingers, each thrust of his fingers almost agonizing slow. It drove him up the wall each time Erwin would bottom them out and scissor them apart, holding them open for a few seconds before repeating the action. He could feel the sounds building up in this throat with each movement and he was seconds away from reminding him about curling his fingers until the words fell flat on his tongue.

The fingertips moved in an upward motion, just barely brushing against the bundle of nerves that made him grind his teeth together. Grey eyes fluttered shut as he tried to grind his hips down onto the fingers, but he was stopped short when Erwin pressed his free hand down onto his lower abdomen. The firm weight pressed against his body halted the movement of his hips.

“Don’t,” Erwin mused, “I said I wanted to know you and we aren’t in a rush.”

Levi wasn’t sure what it was about the way Erwin spoke, but it made his stomach flip and his toes curl into the sheets. He wanted to blame his bodily reaction to the words on the way those fingers rubbed against his prostate but he knew he would be lying to himself. No one had ever told him they wanted to take the time to know him on an intimate level. It was always quick fucks with him leaving before the sun rose.

A third finger was added beside the first two causing him to suck in a breath, his back arched up into the hand that rested on his stomach, “Please...just- move them faster.” The words were breathy as he spoke them, whining and desperate.

“Like this?” Erwin’s question sounded muffled as he angled his wrist and pumped the fingers at a much faster pace than he had before. The lewd squelching noises that followed was enough to have Levi’s chest flush a pretty pink.

He wanted to respond. To tell Erwin that god yes what he was doing was perfect. From the way the fingers spread inside him to stretch him as best he could to the gentle press of a finger pad against his prostate, it was all perfect. The beginnings of dull pleasure sparked in his lower back as he tried to grind his hips down against the fingers, but it was fruitless considering he was stopped by the large hand that pressed firm against his abdomen.

The entire time he could feel Erwin’s eyes on him. He could feel the heated gaze pulling him apart and it was already too much, and they hadn’t even gotten to the actual act of sex yet. Erwin looked at him with a heavy gaze. The black of his pupils nearly ate away at the blue as blond lashes fluttered over them. This was too much.

“S-Stop,” the word came out in an embarrassing gasp as he tried to squirm away from the fingers that entered him with ease now, “Seriously...Erwin, stop.” He felt a moan get caught in the back of his throat and nearly choke him as Erwin gave a last spread of his fingers before removing them. The lust that had clouded his vision was gone in an instant, instead replaced by mild concern as he wiped the fingers on the sheets.

“Are you okay? Do we need to stop?” Levi could hear the worry that laced itself between each word. It was endearing to know that the other was so concerned for his well-being, but it didn’t stop him from snorting. He moved his hand down in order to grab onto Erwin's, their fingers slotting together.

“No, you idiot,” he rolled his eyes before squeezing the hand, “but if you kept it up then it’s possible, I wouldn’t have been able to keep up once you actually start fucking me.”

Erwin gave a look before shaking his head, “You don’t have to put it like that, Levi.”

“What? That’s what it is,” he grunted, propping himself up on his elbows, “It’s fucking.”

That same look flashed across Erwin’s face before he gave a definitive shake of his head, “It’s only ‘fucking’ if that’s what you want it to be. Do you want me to just...fuck you and we never talk about it again? Because I don’t think that’s what you want.”

Levi faltered for a moment, his eyes blinking and lips parting. His heart picked up in his chest as he stared the other down, “I…” His lips clamped shut as he tried to find something, anything, to say but it was like all of the words in the English language escaped him.

“I’m not going any further until you answer me,” Erwin spoke, his voice soft and firm at the same time, “because if this is just a quick fuck for you then I’m sorry Levi but I can’t do that.”

Erwin’s gaze shifted from his face and off to the side before he cleared his throat. It was obvious he was waiting for a response and Levi was afraid it would never come, but at the same time he knew if he kept quiet then they would stop right where they were, and everything would be ruined.

Frustration coursed through his body as he tried to find the words he needed to convey his feelings. He could feel them on his tongue, but his jaw stayed locked in place. With a huff he pushed himself up further and surged forward, his left hand grabbing the back of Erwin’s neck before yanking him forward. Their foreheads connected and he was looking into Erwin’s wide blue eyes.

“You…,” he paused before taking a deep breath, “God, you’re such a fucking idiot.” Levi tried to soften his gaze but it was useless. He wasn’t even angry but his body felt hot, “Of course this isn’t just a quick fuck to me, so stop running your mouth and get on with it. I want this, okay? Stop trying to place doubt on me when there isn’t any, so just...stop okay?”

Part of him was waiting for Erwin to be thrown off by the aggression. He was waiting for Erwin to pull away and ask him to leave but it never came. Instead, a smile stretched across his lips. It was one filled with humor as he leaned in to brush his lips over Levi’s, “Okay, that was all you had to say.”

It was Erwin that pulled away first. His hand settled on Levi’s chest to push him back into the mattress. The air that had settled in his lungs came out in a short puff once his back made contact with it. A smile of his own threatened to split his face as Erwin gazed down at him with the golden smile that made his knees weak. He watched as the same hands that had pushed him down settled on the waistband of his boxers, fingertips skimming along the elastic before gripping onto it. The blond shifted on the mattress so he could stand up in order to comfortably get the last item of clothing off his body.

His eyes raked over the man’s body, wandering over the muscles that flexed and rippled under the skin before they finally settled on the fingers curled around the elastic waistband. Levi watched with rapt attention as the hands pulled the fabric off his hips allowing his erection to spring free. He was no stranger to naked men. Levi had seen plenty of cocks in his lifetime but out of all of them Erwin’s had to be the prettiest, or maybe he was biased.

He couldn’t take his eyes off the reddened tip that was already leaking with precum, nor could he ignore the fact that he was well groomed. If he hadn’t been irrevocably in love before this might have been the deciding factor for him. Erwin looked like one of the marble statues from his art history class and his hands were itching to draw him like this, but maybe another time.

“Of course, you’re fucking hung,” a hand flew up to card through the inky strands as he dropped back against the pillows, “Maybe I should have let you keep going earlier.” While he contemplated his own stupidity for even considering Erwin wouldn’t be well endowed, he could hear the distinct sound of a condom wrapper rip open followed by it being tossed onto the night stand.

The mattress dipped under Erwin’s weight as he crawled back onto the bed, his body fitting between Levi’s thighs easily. Erwin hummed softly as he adjusted his body to hover over him but kept the same light smile on his lips, “Is that a bad thing?”

Levi could only snort at the question as he moved his legs so they wrapped around his waist, ankles locked behind his back, “It’s only bad if you don’t know how to use it.”

Erwin gave a laugh of his own before leaning down to press a light kiss to the corner of his lips, “I guess you’ll just have to find out...but what do you need me to do?”

The question pulled a hum from Levi’s throat as he relaxed into the mattress, “Once you’re in...give me time to adjust. You can’t just do what you usually do or else you’ll tear me apart with that thing, but I’ll tell you when you can move.”

The other nodded at his words, his bottom lip pulled between his teeth, “Okay, just let me know if you need to stop.”

Those were the last words shared as Erwin moved a hand from where it was planted into the mattress to instead wrap around his cock. Levi couldn’t help it as he stole a look between them. Grey eyes watched as the fingers curled around the shaft only to guide the tip forward until it was pressed right against his entrance. For a brief moment he wondered what Erwin looked like when he touched himself. Erwin gave a final grunt as he pushed the tip in past the ring of muscles.

Heat was all Levi could feel as he coursed through his veins. Erwin was both thick and long which was something he should have expected. Though already he felt the need to tap out and Erwin hadn’t even bottomed out yet. His breaths came out in shallow pants as he tried to get his body to relax but it felt impossible. The blond caught onto the tension and leaned down to press a few soft kisses to his jawline, “Relax...you’re really tight and that’s just the tip.”

Levi felt a frustrated noise build up in his chest at the reminder, but he let his eyes flutter shut in order to try to focus. He tried to pay attention to the way Erwin’s lips felt as they travelled along his jawline and up to his ear. He felt the flutter of warm breath against his ear along with the soft words of praise Erwin uttered against the shell of his ear; every soft word caused his muscles to unwind little by little.

“Okay…,” He could hear the strain in his voice as he spoke, “Move.”

Hesitation crossed the blond’s features, but he didn’t say anything before pushing in as slowly as he could; however, Levi could tell that this was just as difficult for him. It was apparent by the way the muscles in his arms were pulled tight to the point his arms were shaking. There was a deep furrow between his brows and even his breathing was coming out in shallow pants. He felt better about his own difficulties seeing as Erwin wasn’t doing much better.

“Fuck-,” Levi choked on a groan as Erwin filled him up and stretched him out to the point that his entire body was warm, and the stinging started to feel good. All he could feel was Erwin. He felt him in the way he pressed deeper and deeper before finally bottoming out, the two of them left in a daze of short breaths and pounding hearts.

“Can I…,” Erwin started, his voice coming out in a rasp as he tried to keep his hips from snapping forward.

Levi’s mouth felt dry as he parted his lips to speak. His eyes locked onto Erwin’s as he nodded, “Please.”

He didn’t have to ask twice seeing as Erwin didn’t waste any time in pulling his hips back, the movements slow. Once his hips were drawn back as far as they could go it was a beat later that they thrusted forward and pressed flush to his own. The singular thrust knocked all the air out of his lungs as he groaned softly, body already going boneless under the blond.

Erwin managed to settle into a slow but steady rhythm; his hips thrusted in precise movements that managed to hit deep inside him each time. The force of each thrust gently rocked him up against the pillows and made him grip onto the sheets next to him. His fingers curled against the fabric and stretched the skin across his knuckles until it was a stark white. For years he had imagined what this would feel like and already the reality was much better than anything he had ever dreamt of before. His dreams didn’t measure up to the warmth that pressed against this own skin as Erwin’s hips rolled into his over and over again.

It was intimate. The entire act was the most intimate thing he had ever experienced in his life. There was something in the way Erwin’s body moved over his in a gentle motion with his eyes never leaving Levi’s face. Eye contact had never been something that the smaller enjoyed but for some reason in that moment he couldn’t take his eyes off the blond. He couldn’t look away from the striking blues that kept him pinned to the mattress. They looked down at him with a soft adoration he had never seen before.

A sharp gasp tore from his lips as Erwin shifted his hips and found the leverage he needed to hit deeper, if that was even possible. Levi’s body lit up the moment it happened, eyes going to roll back into his skull as his back arched up. The cry that followed echoed in the room as Erwin got the message to keep pounding into him at that exact angle. Each thrust sharp and calculating as he watched Levi’s body arch and blush under him.

The sound of panting breaths and skin hitting skin was all that filled Levi’s ears, aside from the small moans and gasps he let out. When he finally opened his eyes again, he was once again met with Erwin looking right into him, watching every flicker of emotion on his face. A lazy smile pulled at Levi’s lips as he loosened a hand in the sheets to instead reach up. His hand moved slow as he settled it on Erwin’s cheek, thumb brushing along his cheekbone. Neither said a word at the affection but the widening smile Erwin gave was enough.

He shifted his weight onto one hand in order to reach up and grab Levi’s hand in his own. Their fingers laced together with a firm squeeze before Erwin pressed it back against the mattress. The action so tender it made Levi’s heart seize in his chest, but it was forgotten the moment Erwin snapped his hips upwards and hit right against his prostate unexpectedly. Levi felt his eyes widen and his lips part as his vision blurred.

Before he knew it Erwin’s name had slipped out of his mouth and filled the room; it was strangled and breathy. Erwin’s hips stuttered at the moan of his name, and what was left of his blue eyes seemed to get swallowed entirely by his pupils. Levi gasped as he slowly thrusted back inside him, pressing right into that same spot and stilling. For a moment they remained just like that, with their eyes locked and breaths mixing together.

“Say it again,” Erwin finally spoke, his own voice hoarse from the short breaths that escaped his parted lips, “Don’t stop saying it.”

Warmth spread over his cheeks at Erwin’s words and a part of him wanted to retaliate against the request. Tell him it was just a slip of the tongue and to keep going; however, there was also the part of him that wanted to say his name until his throat was raw. Scream it until the neighbors banged on the door to tell him to shut the hell up.

Without answering back, he gave Erwin’s hand a squeeze and wiggled his hips. It seemed to get the point across as Erwin resumed his thrusts, only this time with more drive. His hips snapped with a new energy that had Levi melting into the mattress. The new thrusts bounced his body against the pillows and had him arching up against the larger chest over him. Every inch of his body tingled and the spring in his stomach only wound up tighter and tighter.

He could feel his face pinch up. His brows drew together into a tight furrow as his eyes squeezed shut. The previous pants that had escaped his parted lips were replaced with a steady stream of moans mixed in with Erwin’s name. All he could feel was Erwin. The scent of his cologne and sweat mixed together until it was all Levi could smell. The warmth that rolled off his body seeped through Levi’s skin until it made his own body flush. Every thrust stretched him out and filled him up until he was sure he could feel it in stomach.

Erwin leaned down, his lips pressing against Levi’s parted ones. The kiss was open mouthed with the blond’s tongue dipping in. Levi could feel the beginnings of drool forming on the corners of his lips and spilling out, but he didn’t care. He would let Erwin kiss him until his lungs burned from a lack of oxygen.

The kiss broke when Erwin moaned Levi’s name against his lips. It was a muffled sound that nearly got swallowed by the kiss, but he heard it all the same. The sound went straight to his stomach as his toes curled. Nothing could have prepared him for the way his name sounded coming from Erwin’s lips like that. He wasn’t ready for the desperate way it sounded on his tongue as his thrusts turned sloppy.

They were close. He could tell by the inconsistency of Erwin’s thrusts. No longer were they as measured as they had been and instead they varied between being short and fast or slow and lingering. Either way Levi’s toes still curled with each thrust and by now he couldn’t stop Erwin’s name from falling out of his mouth. The more his body prickled with pleasure the louder he got. He could feel the coil in his stomach as it wound tighter and tighter.

A keening whine settled in his chest as Erwin shifted his hips so could hit into his prostate over and over again. His breaths came out in short puffs as he dropped his face into the crook of Levi’s neck. Lips pressed soft kisses along the column of his throat before they settled on the juncture of his neck and shoulder. He could feel Erwin’s teeth graze the spot before biting down to pull at the skin.

The longer Erwin nipped at his neck the more he felt like he was teetering over the edge. His hips rolled down to meet each thrust and he wasn’t sure what did him in, the last hard bite to his neck or the sharp thrust that made him see stars behind his eyelids. Though as the orgasm washed over his body in warm waves, he couldn’t help the choked babble that escaped his lips and sifted through the air. Everything felt so intense that he hadn’t even realized that Erwin’s orgasm followed his own.

All Levi could hear as he came down from his high were the heavy breaths that shuttered in their chests and the shifting of the sheets as Erwin moved to stand on slightly shaking legs. With lidded eyes, Levi watched the blond grab something from the floor only to come back and wipe whatever it was over his skin. The feeling of cotton gently rubbing over him told him enough that it was a shirt. Erwin’s hands were gentle as he used the cloth to get every bit of cum off his body before tossing it back to the floor.

His next move was removing pulling the condom off, tying it, and tossing it in the waste bin by the nightstand. Once he returned to the bed, he laid down with his back against the mattress and a hand over his chest as he stared at the ceiling. They were quiet for what felt like hours.

Levi could feel the fatigue from his orgasm build up in his body, so he rolled over onto his side and pressed his face against Erwin’s bicep, eyes already slipping shut.

“Don’t go to sleep yet.”

The voice pulled him from his musings. His eyes opened to flicker up at the other before humming, “What?”

Erwin grunted before he turned on his side and draped an arm over his body to pull him close to his chest. He could hear the steady thump of Erwin’s heart in his chest as they laid there, nearly lulled to sleep by it.

“Levi…,” he started again, his voice rumbling deep in his chest, “I know we skipped a few steps but...would you want to go on a date?”

The question took Levi by surprise. He laid there for a moment as he thought about the entire situation before laughing. The laugh started out as a chuckle before it bubbled out and shook his whole body. His eyes clenched shut as he reached out to hold onto Erwin’s body as he shook with each laugh. Though the longer he laughed the more tense Erwin seemed to get, so he willed himself to stop.

Levi cleared his throat as the laughs once again subsided to chuckles, “You think we skipped a few steps?” It was a rhetorical question. He knew this was not how things usually went. People didn’t usually harbor a nearly three-year-long crush on their roommate only to give them pointers on how to fuck...only to then end up fucking. It was a scenario he had never heard of before but if Erwin was serious about this then so was he.

His eyes cut up to look at Erwin before he leaned up and pressed their foreheads together, “Yes, I will go on a date with you.”

A smile tugged on Erwin’s lips at the confirmation before he dipped down to press a softer kiss to his lips. It lingered even after they pulled away; the feeling of Erwin’s lips ingrained in his mind.

“Took you long enough,” Levi muttered as he rolled onto his other side so his back could press against the broad chest. He pulled Erwin’s arm over his waist and held it close to his chest as he nuzzled into the pillow, “I thought me staring at your dick through gym shorts was enough of a hint but apparently not.”

His back vibrated with the chuckle that Erwin gave, his body pressing close to Levi’s as he kissed his hair, “Oh, no...I noticed the staring. I was waiting on you to do something about it.”

At the admission Levi laid there unmoving before letting out a heavy sigh, “Of course we were both waiting on the other.” He huffed softly before relaxing into the mattress, his body warm and mind content.