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Clarke was horrified and looked at Finn, yes he was there, but she felt she didn’t know this kid who was in front of her. As he walked toward her she took three steps back suddenly scared; she did not want him to touch her or come near her.
'' What the hell did you do ?? '' she asked him.
'' I was looking for you. '' He said somewhat embarrassed
'' Killing innocent people? Children?! When did you become a killer ?”
'' I thought they knew where you were, all the clothes are here; I thought they had killed all of you. We captured one them, who had your father's watch. He sent us this way, said you were here. '' He tried to justify
'' That one you executed in cold blood !? '' spat Clarke.
Finn glared at Bellamy who was watching everything as perplexed as was Clarke.
'' I told you he was expelled from here, he sent you here to take revenge '' said Niko desperate who was still on the floor with the dead child in his arms
'' And you think that killing children helped you feel better? ''
Clarke looked at the body of Artigas fallen lifeless in Niko’s arms, she thought the boy was not even 15 years old, was only a child.
'' These people are not warriors, look at them; it wasn’t them who attacked our camp or took people from the dropship.''
'' Who was it then!? '' Finn was confused
'' That doesn’t matter now, the damage is done ''
Finn tried to approach Clarke, wanted to hold her, kiss her, he was desperate for her, but she pulled away from him and said:
'' Do not touch me, I don’t know who you are. ''
That was enough for him to fall; he knelt down and began to cry. Bellamy glared at Murphy
'' You helped him do that? ''
'' Of course not. '' Murphy said offended.
'' So why didn’t you do anything ?? Why didn’t he stop? ''
'' He was out of control, I couldn’t do anything. ''
Clarke walked around and looked at the face of each dead person and felt like punching Finn. This was an attitude that she could expect from Bellamy when they first met, but never Finn, she could not understand why he had done it all. Regardless if he missed her or thought she was dead. That was not an acceptable reason for a massacre like this, because that was what had happened here, a massacre. She was desperate and sick, how they would fix this mess that Finn had made? Surely the grounders would not accept it without retaliating, they already had many problems to achieve peace, and now after this they would never have peace. She looked at Bellamy who had stopped in front of Finn who was still kneeling on the floor, and wondered, how two people can change so much in so little time? As Bellamy became the person she would trust with her life, Finn became the person she would not even touch.
An angry Niko and already yelling at Finn pulled her out of her thoughts
'' I'll kill you! ''
Murphy pointed the gun at him and ordered to stay away, Clarke got in the middle of the two and looked at Niko, he was strong, he could probably kill Finn with his own hands, but she could not let that happen. She asked that Murphy lower his weapon.
'' I'm sorry for what happened here, I am very ashamed of what my friend did, but I cannot let you hurt him. ''
''Ashamed? Your friend killed my son and my friends, my father. O what would you do if one of ours came into your camp and began killing everyone for no reason? The least you guys can do now is leave him here for him to pay for his crimes our way. ''
Clarke thought about it, certainly if a grounder invaded their camp to kill her friends and her family, he would be killed for sure without a second thought, but she could not leave Finn here, even though she thought he deserved.
'' Sorry but I can’t do that. '' Replied Clarke
'' So I'm sorry but you guys are all complicit, and have blood on your hands. The blood of my people, my son and we will not let it go, he pays it alone or all his people will pay for it. '
'' We will have to wait and see. '' Said Bellamy
Clarke gave a sad look at Niko and weakly said the only thing that she could
'' I'm really sorry. ''
Then gave a furious look to Finn
'' Stand up and let's go. ''
Murphy reached out and lifted Finn, Clarke looked at him and said:
'' Deliver your weapon to Bellamy,now,Finn. ''
Finn handed the gun to Bellamy and they got ready to leave, with Murphy and Bellamy still pointing guns to prevent a very likely attack, Bellamy called Octavia who all that time had been down on the body of Artigas trying to comfort Niko. She looked at him sadly and said:
'' I'm sorry Niko. ''
He looked at her and said
'' And I'm sorry that you're in the middle of this war, because your people will not win. ''
She got up and followed them. Finn walked in front with Murphy after Clarke and Bellamy and Octavia behind them. Along the way Finn tried to reason with Clarke, but every word out of his mouth only served to make her more angry until Clarke in a burst of anger yelled at him;
'' Enough Finn, nothing you tell me will make me understand what you did to those people, you put us on a path of no return, in a war where both sides have to lose, have you thought about how many of our people will die because of his reckless attitude? You're not yourself, so when we get to camp I'm going to tell my mother everything that happened here today.
Finn froze
'' Clarke if you do I will be arrested. ''
'' It's the least of what you deserve after what you did. You need help Finn; and you need to be confined to pay for your crimes. ''
'' But ... '' he began
'' But nothing, I do not want to hear your voice, one more word and I'll gag you until we get to camp. ''
A solitary and silent tear fell from Finn's eyes as lowered his head and moved on, Bellamy looked at Clarke and she looked like a fortress, with a hard, angry expression, but he ventured to ask:
'' Are you sure you delivering him to the council is the best way? ''
She glared at him and said:
'' Would you rather I had left him there to the grounders version of justice? ''
Bellamy did not answer
'' He has to pay for it, we cannot leave him in the forest to die, he is out of his mind, the best way out is to lock him up and get someone who can help him, now we please stop talking? My head feels like it will explode and I need a bit of silence to think ''.
Clarke was destroyed, she needed to focus on rescuing her friends but could not stop thinking that she had lost Finn forever, even though he had improved slightly, she could never forget what he did. She would never forget all those bodies on the ground, she would forgive him some day, but they would never return to what they were before. After everything it seems that what happened in the 100 camp, happened centuries ago, and everything had changed when she closed the ship's door. She also never will forgive herself for that, even though it was the only choice to be made.
Bellamy looked at her sadly and wished he could take all the weight she carries to himself, but he knew she would never let him do it; he wondered why he felt this tightness in the chest to see her so disappointed with Finn. He felt guilty for letting him continue the trip with those weapons when he knew Finn was dangerous, but she never let him take the blame for that, he wanted to help her, comfort her, pick her up and relieve their suffering. What was happening to him anyway? He quickly pushed the thought away and then they went all the way to camp silently.