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Kit looked at themself in the mirror, today is the day she’s honest with Jem and Tessa. She had been keeping it a secret for a long time, wearing dresses and skirts when they weren’t home, practicing makeup with some of his new friends in London, and sometimes they would stuff their tank tops with tissues to feel more feminine. At first Kit only liked dressing feminine, he liked the way his body looked wearing those pleated skirts or a crop top, but after a while she started to like it when people would mistake them for a woman, or when his friends started using ‘she’ and ‘they’ to help them figure what feels right for them.
There were 5 distinct moments Kit remembers questioning his gender, the first time was the way they felt when Hyacinth called him pretty when he borrowed some earrings when he was 11(she also may or may not have been the person to teach him makeup and give them their first dress), the second time was when Dru made a sarcastic remark calling him ‘princess’. The third time was during a conversation with Mark after they both had a few drinks, he was talking about how certain faeries(often related to the king and queen) were able to change their internal organs when they wanted to.
Ty was the reason for the fourth time, he had slipped up and accidentally said the wrong thing(at least he thought that), the pet name that had been said made Kit panic a bit so they stopped what they were doing and decided to cuddle instead. And of course the fifth came the day after the fourth when Kit finally decided to talk to Hypatia Vex, who had made it clear that they were genderqueer, and she told them that gender is wide spectrum and she can identify however she wants whenever they want.
The blond took a deep breath before leaving their room, as they walked down the steps, Kit scraped the palms of his hands with his nails. He walked into the living room where Jem and Tessa were relaxing on the couch. “Mom, dad,” she started, “I need to talk to you.”
Both of them looked worried, “is everything alright, Christopher?” Jem asked.
“That’s for you to decide.” They could tell that the two of them were confused so he continued, “I’m genderfluid, that means sometimes I feel more masculine and others feminine or androgynous. And I’d really like it if you guys would use they and she as well as he, and if you wouldn’t mind not calling me Christopher anymore.” He finished and then took a shaky breath, awaiting their reactions.
“Okay.” Tessa answered, going back to her book as if they just told her dinner was ready.
“Okay? Just okay? No screaming and crying? No kicking me out and telling everyone?”
Jem chuckled, “well, we do think you should probably start living on your own soon since you’re 19 but we won’t kick you out.” Kit felt like crying.
“So- so you both are okay with this?”
Tessa set her book down and went over to him, she cupped her face and smiled. “Kit, we’re your parents, we’ll always love you no matter what. You,” she pulled his head down to kiss their forehead, “are my perfect, beautiful child. And no matter how you identify, Jem and I love you unconditionally.” Okay they are definitely crying now. “Sweetie?”
“Yeah?” She answered through a sob.
“Do you want to go shopping for clothes with me, Cat, and Lily today?”
Kit laughed and smiled through the tears. “Can I get some dresses and skirts?”
“Of course, baby. Do you want to get some makeup as well, maybe some shoes?” He nodded, she patted his cheek fondly. “Go get dressed, we’ll be leaving in about 20 minutes when Cat and Lily get here. If you aren’t ready by then, I might leave you here.”
The 19-year old ran back up the stairs to get ready. She threw open her closet, grabbed a black, long sleeve shirt with a collar and a pair of ripped black jeans. He slipped on his black doc martens and headed back down the stairs, they saw Tessa sitting with Cat and Lily, idly chatting and giggling every once in a while.
“Oh, Kit. That was very quick.” Tessa said.
“Yeah well,” they rocked back on their heels, “I’m really excited.”
The brunette turned to Lily, “Lily, I believe you’ve met my daughter, Kit?”
“Yeah, Tessie, we’ve met.” Chen said jokingly. “Nice outfit there kiddo, you know we’re also going bra shopping so figure out your measurements before we get there.” They can’t tell if she’s joking that time. “Oh relax, I’m messing with you. Well, mostly, we are going to look at bras today as well as clothes, you are welcome to come with or browse elsewhere.”
Kit looked down at the ground before asking timidly, “how would I go about getting the correct measurements for one?”
“Well that depends,” Cat said, “were you thinking of one to wear against your natural chest or would you want to give the appearance of having a larger chest?”
“Both, I guess. Sometimes I would prefer it if I had boobs so I could feel correct, but other times I’d rather just look the way I usually do.” They were extremely anxious to talk about this, what if the three of them thought something was wrong with him, or what if they-
“Well, then I guess we’ll just get a few different sizes and see how you like wearing them. And don’t worry darling,” Tessa patted his head comfortingly, “nothing to be ashamed of.”
Lily made an amused face. “Maybe we should get her a corset and maybe something skimpy for the boyfriend.” She winked as Kit’s whole face went red. “I can’t tell if you actually like that idea or are just embarrassed that I’m talking about your potential sex life in front of your mom?”
“Kit, don’t be embarrassed, you’re having a girl’s day with us, so be prepared to talk about this.” Cat said, chuckling at her great-great-grandchild’s humiliation.
“Nothing can be worse than this.” The blond groaned again, making the older women laugh again. “Can we leave now?” The others agreed and they headed to a shopping complex in London.
First up was shoes apparently. They tried on heels, flats, boots, and sandals, and got at least one pair of each. Next was makeup, Kit got two eyeshadow pallets, new mascara, eyeliner, and some other things, the other three didn’t find anything and instead just helped them find what they wanted, they got lunch after that.
“So, Kit,” Lily started, “when did you start identifying as a girl? Not that there’s anything wrong with it, I’m just curious.”
“Oh, well I’ve been confused about my gender since I was like 11, my friends and Hypatia Vex helped me realize a lot of things. I don’t identify as a girl, per se, but more of everything all at once but most times only one or two of those things will want to come out.” She hoped that was a good explanation and not just a jumbled mess of no sense.
“Ohhh, alright. I thought you were trans fem, my bad for assuming.” Lily smiled, putting her hands in a quick surrender motion. “So I take it Ty knows about this?”
“Yeah he does, he was the first person I told when I realized it.”
Lily glanced and Cat and Tessa before badly whispering, “so what’s the sex like? Emma and Cristina said Blackthorns are great in bed.” She ended it with a wink as Kit choked on their drink.
“Lily!” Cat scolded. “Their mother’s here!”
Tessa put her hand on Cat’s, “you’re acting as if Lucie didn’t tell me everything.” She turned to Kit, “my daughter, Lucie, and I didn’t have any secrets. Well, there was a time where she didn’t tell me anything that was going on for almost 7 months, but she told me everything later.”
“Um, well if no one minds I guess I can talk about it. But no details, I don’t like talking about that stuff in detail.”
Lily grinned and started tapping her fingers together like a movie villain. “So go ahead, what’s the shy Blackthorn like behind closed doors?”
“Not shy, I'll tell you that.” Kit said giggling as she sipped on her lemonade. This only spurred more questions from the vampire, until Tessa reminded them they still have two more stores to go to.
Time for clothes shopping. Now Kit understood how girls in chick flicks felt when they went shopping for dresses, this was magical.
“Ehm,” someone coughed behind him, Will. “I see you told them?”
“Yes I did. And now I’m shopping for more skirts and dresses with my new mom, who loves me just the way I am.” Kit gestured to the line of dresses on hangers, “any ideas on what I should get?”
“Nothing here.” The blonde made a confused face, “these are all boring. You should get something Ty will like.”
Kit groaned, “why does everyone think my outfit choices revolve around him? He’ll like whatever I wear!”
“I’m sure he does, but he’ll like it even more if you dress up for him.”
The faerie-shadowhunter rolled her eyes. “Fine, what should I get? Lead the way.” Will smiled widely and floated over to the two piece section. “You want me to get a crop top and a skirt? To wear for my boyfriend?” Will nodded and pointed at one of the pictures showing different designs, “okay, maybe I was wrong, you do have good taste. But that is something I would just wear for me, I’m still going to get it because it’s cute, but I’m not going to wear it only for Ty.”
“Fine by me, I just wanted to make sure you got clothing that is actually decent. I’m sure Lily or Magnus could help you out more.”
“Yeah yeah whatever, I know you’re here to stalk your wife, she’s somewhere with Cat.” Kit waved his hand to dismiss the ghost. Will thanked him and floated away. She started looking at the clothes in the section Will took her to, ‘some of these skirts are really short.’ They thought.
“Kit?” Lily said from behind him, “did you find anything you like?”
“I’m not sure how comfortable I am in skirts like these, they’re really short.” They confessed. “But I really want to be able to wear them so I’d feel more feminine sometimes and therefore more comfortable in my own body.”
“Kit, there are longer skirts than these, ones that are typically worn with a shirt that doesn’t expose your stomach. I’m sure you have dresses and skirts, or at least have worn some before, what kind of style did you use then?”
“Well,” Kit started, “Hyacinth gave me some of her old clothes. They were pretty revealing but I liked the way they looked at the time. I really liked the turtleneck crop top Malcolm got for me before he went insane.”
Lily thought for a moment before grabbing his hand and pulling him to the customer service desk. “Hi, miss? I’m looking for something in dark colors, revealing but not too much, and it has to be both feminine and androgynous at the same time. Do you have anything like that?”
The woman at the desk smiled and gestured for them to follow her. She led them to a small corner that had all sorts of styles and clothing items, “if you decide you don’t like anything, you can always return up to a month after getting it. I hope you find exactly what you’re looking for.” Then she walked back to her desk.
Kit started looking at the clothes, the skirts were good fabrics and the designs and lengths were nice. They also liked some of the collar shirts, similar to the one he was wearing, they were good on pants so he didn’t really get any of those. With the help of Lily’s suggestions, Kit managed to grab 6 skirts that they liked, 4 shirts, and a pair of black pants. Cat had texted Lily that she and Tessa were handing to get checked out, so the two started making their way to the front to join them. As they were walking to the front they passed by the stand that Will took him to, they looked at the outfit one more time before deciding to get it.
The four of them checked out and now it was time for bra shopping, the part Kit was looking forward to the least. Tessa and Cat started giggling and whispering as they walked into the store, quickly going off on their own little mission, leaving Kit with Lily once again.
“Alright kid, I’m going to get what I want and you are going to sit here,” She pushed the blond over to a bench and made them sit down on it. “And you’re going to wait for me to finish and then we’ll get some stuff for you.” They nodded and started texting Ty as the vampire walked away.
Kitty:
Hey are you done with the meeting yet?
Sherlock:
Yeah, two minutes ago. Are you at home? Should I come by?
Kitty:
I’m out shopping with mom and lily and cat
Sherlock:
Find anything you like?
Kitty:
Yuppppp
I’ll show you when i get home ;)
Sherlock:
Are you going to put on a fashion show like Dru does when she gets new clothes?
Kitty:
Yes and you’re going to love it <3
Sherlock:
I love everything you do, Kit :).
Kitty:
Awwwwwwwwww
I love you too
I gtg
Lily’s done with her shopping so now it’s my turn
Sherlock:
Have fun, my dear Watson.
“You ready to be extremely uncomfortable for the next 40 minutes?” Lily asked.
“I have an anxiety disorder, I’m always uncomfortable.” Kit joked.
“Alrighty then, let’s go look for some.” They went to many different sections, Lily explained the different types and even helped them measure to find their size.
“Hey, Lily?”
“What’s up, blondie?”
“Mark said something about faeries being able to change their bodies with their magic, is that true?”
“Yeah they can, most faeries don’t believe in gender and a lot of them change their appearances to fit their wants for the time being. I’m sure Cat could teach you how if you want.”
Kit sighed and sat down on a nearby bench, “I’m worried how other people would react if I changed my appearance like that.”
Lily sat next to him and put her hand on his shoulder. “Who cares what they think? It’s your body, only you decide what you do with it. I know a few shape shifters who change minor things about themselves to feel more comfortable, so why can’t you? You should talk with Cat, I’m sure she’ll be able to help you a lot more than I can.”
“I'll be able to help with what?” Cat said from behind them.
“Kit wants to know if she can change her appearance with their magic.” Lily said simply.
Cat sat down on the other side of Kit, “you can do that. I’ll teach you how, if you want?”
“Yes please.” The blonde said.
Cat chuckled at the 19-year old’s eagerness. “We can start next week. Do the both of you have everything you need or are you still looking?”
Neither of them needed anything else so they checked out and (finally) headed home. Kit saw Ty’s motorcycle outside the house and almost jumped out of the car with his bags, the three women in the car laughed at how adorable they were.
Kit ran up the stairs to her room and found Ty laying down and reading on her bed.
“Well hello there.” Ty said, Kit put down their stuff and practically jumped on top of him. “I didn’t realize you missed me this much?”
“I told my parents. That’s why I was shopping today, I was getting new clothes.”
“You told them?” Kit nodded excitedly, “beloved I’m so proud of you.” Ty pulled Kit’s face up so he could kiss them. The blond melted into the kiss like always, but then they remembered they wanted to show their boyfriend the new clothes. He pulled away and went to go get his bags to show Ty his outfits. Ty examined all of them and told Kit how he thinks Kit’s going to look absolutely amazing on them, then he got to the outfit Will had suggested. “This doesn’t seem like your usual style?”
“Well,” Kit started, “someone with really good taste showed me it and after mulling it over I decided to get it. Do you not like it?” Kit asked hesitantly.
“I do like it, but I remember you said you don’t like going out in public with clothes like this, that it makes you feel uncomfortable and like everyone’s looking at you.” Kit nearly ‘aw'd' at her boyfriend, he was so sweet to remember something like that.
The blue-eyed boy kissed Ty softly, “I don’t feel comfortable wearing things like this in public, but maybe when I’m just with you or our friends.” Kit giggled as Ty kissed them again, moving themselves on his lap and cupping his face.
The two found themselves falling asleep before dinner, Jem and Tessa thought it would be best to let them sleep. Tessa called Magnus one more time to make sure Mina was okay, then she joined Jem in their bed, they talked about how proud they are of Kit. Will sat on the edge of their bed and pretended like they could see and hear him, when the two went to sleep he put himself in between them, and although he couldn’t feel anything as a ghost, being there with them again made him feel like he was burning alive.