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Namjoon is a writer who has traveled to many places in search of ideas and experiences that he may use in his writings. He has also written poems. In fact, he had produced a book of his poetry collections, which was well-known. They admire how he portrays his characters' emotions and creates a different universe. And he enjoys his profession since it allows him to communicate his silent thoughts trough his characters.

He opted to ride his bicycle and enjoy the view of the Han River while pondering on this particular day because he enjoys doing so. Namjoon stows his notepad and pen in his bag, then unlocks his bicycle's steel wire. He hasn't used it in months because he has been traveling outside of Seoul and hasn't been able to carry his bicycle with him.

He appreciates the breeze on his face; he's already arrived at a park with a view of the river; there aren't many people, which he expects given that it's a weekday; most people are at school or at work. But he's glad because he observed a bunch of friends, lovers, and families having time together, and Namjoons just stood there and watched them,he pulled over and parked his bike alongside him.

His gaze wanders over the park, thinking of phrases to jot down in his precious notepad. He noticed a man sitting alone on one of the riverside seats, he looks lonely but Namjoon should not think about that, so he guesses the man simply wants to relax and ignore the person to concentrate on his writing. Honestly, if that guy didn't fix his hat Namjoon would think it's a statue..

Rolling with two feet
I face you, who I can't see
A few centimeters of shaking
Are greeting me as always

It's not a problem if you're alone; people shouldn't be offended if they observe people walking, eating, or having fun without the need for someone to make them happy.

He looks up at the sky and notices that the cloud is dark, indicating that rain may fall at any moment and he didn't have an umbrella, so he returned his notepad to his bag and steal glances on the man before starting to pedal his bike home.

"HYUNG YOU'RE HOME" Namjoon is welcome by his best friend Taehyung.

"Yes Taehyung, I'm home but you don't need to shout" Taehyung is suddenly in front of Namjoon and hug him.

"Ohmygod Tae shut up, I almost fell down because of you"

"Ehh it's because I miss you" He smiles at him "Did you finish your book?" Namjoon shakes his head, the reason why he left the Seoul for months was because of his books

"Aww so you mean you will leave again? Hyung I rented the apartment with you so I won't be alone"

"Don't be dramatic, I won't leave again. You can go to your boyfriend's house if you feel alone here"

"Jimin is busy too" Taehyung pouts and Namjoon think he is the cutest person the in the world. "By the way, our friends are asking me about you and I'm sure that they're excited to see you too"

"Okay I'll text them and meet them later" Taehyung left him after he agrees and remind him to sleep before doing his things such as editing his books, for now he needs a shower.

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Namjoon woke up when someone turns on the light in his room. He didn't realize he fell asleep after he showered.

"Wakey wakey Hyung. I really don't want to interrupt your dreams, but Seokjin Hyung has been already in the restaurant" He groaned and get out of his bed to change clothes.

Namjoon can't drive and he's glad he got Taehyung who owns a car so he can avoid to commute.

"Hello Joonie Hyung" Jimin greeted him when he enters the car.

"Hi Jimin how are you?"

"I'm fine Hyung. Soooo any updates to your new book? I'm excited to read it, can i get the first copy of it?" Jimin must be prepared a lot of questions for him.

"Jimin relax, Namjoon Hyung already promised that he will give me the first copy of his new book" Jimin looks at him, asking if it's true using his eyes and he shrugged.

He cant remember making a promise to anyone today. Although, he knows that Taehyung is teasing Jimin and he succeed, they are arguing now about who should receive the first copy.

And still arguing when they arrived at the restaurant where Seokjin and Hoseok are waiting.

"Namjoonieeeeee" He hugs Hoseok when they reach the table that Seokjin got for them.

He is so happy he met his friends after how many months of not seeing them, and they are still supportive as before.

"Hey Joon, how's lovelife?"

"Ah Seokjin Hyung, you know what it is" They both laughed because of his answer.

His love life is not that important now, he's not looking for a partner now, but if he met someone by chance then he will accept the fate will give him.

"By the way, where's Jungkook?"

"I'M HERE" Jungkook is the youngest in the group and Namjoon first met him when he went to a university to give advice to the students as a writer.

His group of friends is small but he preferred that, they are the closest persons to him and really has a big part in his life. He has other friends in different cities but Seokjin, Hoseok, Jimin, Taehyung and Jungkook are the kind of friends he treats like brothers other families.

Actually, he believes that having a large number of friends is not necessary. Instead, people should remind themselves that having only one or two friends they can trust and who will support them no matter what they are going through. And while friends cannot always assist you, the support they provide is enough to make you feel as if they care about you, which is how Namjoon feels about his friends.

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Namjoon had a great time last night with his friends and he put it in his notebook because everything can be a meaningful thing to him as a writer. In fact, some of the scenarios in his books are based on real-life encounters with his family, friends, and ex-lovers. Everyone can be a writer if they want to tell their own stories that they wouldn't be able to tell anybody else; it's like telling your life to anyone who reads it.

Another day to ride his bicycle in his spare time, as the sun begins to set and people begin to leave their jobs and schools. It's Friday, and the park is nearly full, so he's still paddling to locate a quiet location where he can concentrate on his writing. Namjoon doesn't mind being in a crowded place, but while he writes, he prefers silence. He found a spot that is well hidden and far from the entrance. He took a seat on one of the riverside seats and began writing..

After 30 minutes, Namjoon takes a look around to get a feel for the area because it's a nice site for him to write, and he intends to return here whenever he needs to write. He thought he was alone until he noticed a man sitting beside the bench, it was the same man as the day before, he knows it's the same person because of the cap he is wearing. He's staring towards the river and appears to be deep in meditation.

This time, he finally saw his face. The first thing he noticed is the man is pouting as if he's trying to figure things out, his eyes remind him of a cat, and he has a cute nose. Namjoon didn't want to bother him, so he quietly left the area, promising himself that if he saw him again, he would try to talk to him, if he had the courage to approach a stranger. Well, a cute stranger.

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Namjoon forgot about the guy the next day and didn't go to the park. He went to Jimin's cafe, where he works. That shop, in fact, owned by Jimin.

"Good day Hyung" Jimin greets him as he appeared in front of the counter.

"Hello Jimin Can I order a coffee?"

"Sure" He says and punches his order in

"You will write your story here Hyung?" Jimin asked when he's done

"The atmosphere is good, I'll try to write and edit another draft today"

"Ohh I'm excited. When your book gets published, I will put a sign here that this place was part of your journey in writing the book" Jimin smiles at him.

"Don't be ridiculous, my book doesn't deserve that kind of hype"

When Jimin hears that from him, he pouts. Namjoon is a brilliant writer, but he isn't always aware of it. His friends are always honest if Namjoon asks if his drafts are okay, they would provide their honest opinion, not biased because Namjoon hates that. He's so adept at describing the characters' emotions with words that even they were surprised when he used words, or what they call wordplay. Readers adore his work, and there are blogs dedicated to his book and the wordplays he uses..

"Coffee for Mr. Namjoon" As he heard his name, Namjoon walked over to a barista to get his drink and pick a perfect spot.

His boss had called him earlier to give him an update on his upcoming book, so he decided that the coffee shop would be a good place for him to do his work, as he had done in other places. It's a great place for him to concentrate because other customers are also busy minding their own business, because sometimes outside noise can be distracting when he is writing. His new book is almost finished, he just needs to edit some parts before it gets pubished.

Jimin is also concerned about his Hyung's well-being because writing may be difficult, so he sent free drinks and food to his table, hoping that it would to reduce the stress. Namjoon was so preoccupied with correcting his drafts that he didn't notice the passing of time until Jimin approached him.

"Hey Joonie Hyung! we are about to close but you can stay here until I go home"

"Oh, sorry about that" He takes off his glasses and massages the bridge of his nose. "Thanks for reminding me about the time. I will just go home and not bother your night"

"You know you're not a bother here"

"Anyway, thanks again for the foods you sent" Namjoon pinched his cheeks when he saw him pouting

"No problem Hyung. Should I accompany you?"

"No need. I will visit the park near the Han river to relieve my stress first then go home" Namjoon said as he put his things inside his bag and said goodbye to Jimin.

He goes to a bicycle parking lot of the cafe, he unlocked his bike and ride it, the park is 15 minutes away from the cafe.

"Damn" Namjoon muttered when he feels there's something wrong with the chain of his bicycle.

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He's almost to the park, but he needs to fix his bicycle, which is a problem because he has no idea how to do it and is scared that he'll break it instead of fixing it. He let out a sigh. He has no choice but to walk, he can't leave his bike here, so he's considering carrying it. People may think he's crazy for not riding his bicycle, but what can he do? The repair shop is a bit far away.

"Need some help?" Namjoon came to a halt and turned around to face the guy who offered to help his miserable situation. When he recognized the man, his jaws widened.

It's the same guy he saw at the park.

"Uhh--"

"I was walking home when I saw you and uhh kinda figured out what happened to your bicycle" the guy explained

"Huh?- ah yeah I need help. The chain of my---" Namjoon didn't finish what he was about to say when the guy crouched down to check his bicycle.

"Okay. I used to fix my bicycle so this is easy"

"Thank you Mister"

"I'm Yoongi" the guy introduced himself

"Oh okay. Uhmm I'm--" Again, Yoongi cut his words.

"Namjoon. You're Kim Namjoon" He's taken aback by the fact that this man knows his name.

"How do you--" oh well damn Yoongi likes to cut people's word.

"You're a writer. I read your books" He simply said. Namjoon feels the heat of his cheeks as he stares down. He reads my books, the cute guy reads my books.

"Uhh Thank you for reading it" He was flustered since he had just met a reader of one of the books he had created.

"Anyway Let's get some lights there, it's dark to fix it here" Yoongi pointed a spot, Namjoon nods and follows him.

Like what Yoongi said, repairing his bicycle is simple for him, and in less than 10 minutes, Namjoon is able to ride his bike again. He has no idea how he fixed it, but he can now get home. He's grateful he encountered a friendly stranger (actually, he's no longer a stranger) who helped him. His apartment isn't far away, but he's already tired, and the thought of walking gives him a headache. He wants to go home and relax in his bed.

"Thank you Yoongi-ssi" Namjoon said and bow.

"No worries, I can't let my favorite author walk to his home carrying a bicycle"

Favorite? I am his favorite author? When Namjoon heard Yoongi's comments, his thoughts went blank. He previously stated that he read his book, and now he admits that Namjoon is his favorite author. He can feel that he's blushing again so he looks down.

"A-ah I have to go home. I- thank you again" Namjoon stutter while showing how grateful he is for helping him.

"Take care" Yoongi bows to him and Namjoon watches him as he walks away from him.

He lets out a long sigh, unable to believe what has just happened. He shakes his head, attempting to clear his mind and begin pedaling his bicycle, he needs to get home or he won't be able to do what he needs to do before sleeping.

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Namjoon walks into his apartment and immediately sits down at his table to begin working on his drafts. If he doesn't finish at least one chapter tonight, his boss will keep bugging him about his new book. He also writes poems tiand still deciding whether or not to publish them, but for now he lets his close friends read them.

Taehyung arrived a short while later with meals he bought for them "Hello to my favorite person in the world. I bought you food because I care and don't want you to starve" Taehyung is standing at his door showing the food.

"Favorite person in the world? What about Jimin?" Taehyung just giggled.

His thoughts immediately returns to the park with Yoongi when he hears the word favorite. He couldn't believe the guy he'd just seen at the park had approached him, well, helped him, and said he read his book and Namjoon was his favorite author. He'd heard it from his other readers, but this guy seems to have caught his attention he's not sure why, but Namjoon wishes to see Yoongi again.

"Hyung? You're not listening to me" Taehyung pouts when he realized his hyung is not paying attention to him.

"Uhm sorry Taehyung, Something is occupying my mind," he says" By the way Thank you for the food

"Oh, then I should leave so you can continue what you are doing" He was about to walk out of his room but he turn around and "Just make sure you will rest after what you are doing Hyung"

"Yes, don't worry about me. Good night Taehyung" He finally exited Namjoon's room, bidding him goodnight..

Namjoon picks up his pen and decides to add words to a poem he wrote last week, thinking about fresh events or any moments this week.

I wanna keep the bass down low
My mind is already in weekend mode
I don't see no open cars, no open bars
It's not bad, I'm all alone on this road

His poetry is more personal than the stories he's written, which is why he's not sure if he's ready to share it with those who want to read it..
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Namjoon returns to the park the next day.Is he hoping to see Yoongi? No. Is he lying? Yes. That's because Namjoon refuses to accept that Yoongi is the reason he got up early to go to the park in the first place. He arrived in a quiet part of a park, which he expected given that it is still 7 a.m and probably most people decided to stay at home, but he noticed people exercising or doing something else.

Sitting calmly on one of the benches, he can't see any trace of a person he'd hoped to see, so he focuses on his writing. He finished his draft for his new book last night and sent it to his boss; now all he wants to do is relax and enjoy his free time before his book is published.

He wrote poems and make another draft that he will decide later if he will continue it in the future.  He senses someone sitting next to him, but he is so inspired to write that he ignores the person and continues writing since he has a fresh topic in mind.

He is startled to see the individual when he eventually looks up from his notes.

"Oh hello" He bows to Yoongi. It's him who sit beside him while he was busy.

"Did I disturb you?" He asked and Namjoon shakes his head. "Sorry, this is my usual spot because the view here is pretty amazing"

Namjoon knew that, he found him sitting on this beach when he went here last week.

"You dont have to apologize, I-I should leave then"

"Don't. I said this is my usual spot but not my own bench. You can write your story here if you're comfortable" Yoongi shrugged when he said that.

"Okay" He mumbled to himself and stay sitting beside Yoongi.

This is a little uncomfortable

Namjoon thinks. Yoongi is merely staring at the river, while Namjoon continues to write  He's curious as to what he's thinking right now, but it's too personal to ask about. He's still debating whether or not he should leave him alone, but the guy seemed unconcerned about his presence. Silence is still dominating between them, no one wants to speak first as they are already comfortable sitting side by side and doing their own business

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However, after two weeks of doing the same thing with Yoongi sitting quietly and calmly alongside him, it became his daily routine. He hasn't missed a day, goes to the park every morning and spend the time with him till lunch. Sometimes they chat about subjects or topics in which they both have an interest, such as Namjoon's book and he found out that Yoongi is older than him so now he calls him Hyung and Yoongi lets him. They became close Namjoon though, but he doesn't know if Yoongi regards him as a friend now.

"Do you want to go grab a coffee with me?" He is puzzled when Yoongi asked him suddenly "Sorry. You dont drink coffee I guess?"

"Yes- I mean No I drink coffee. I was just shocked?"

"Because I asked you suddenly?" Namjoon nods "Yeah that was sudden. I just thought drinking a coffee with someone would be fun"

Namjoon was speechless; he had no idea how to respond to Yoongi. He is unsure whether or not he should accept his invitation, he's not asking him out on a date instead, they're just friends having coffee. But, Namjoon's mind is thinking differently.

"You can refuse" Yoongi shrugged.

"Sure let's get a coffee"

"You see... I actually did not ask anyone but having you here beside me gave me comfort? I mean It's been 2 weeks you know and I don't know, is it because I read your books and I can relate to your characters? And I think we're friends now right?"

"I see" He said. Still processing what Yoongi said

"You're thinking I'm weird now?"

"Not. Not at all, I told you I was just shocked because usually..."

"they asked you out, usually it's a date?"

"Yeah" He stated this truthfully because all of his previous relationships began asking on a coffee date.

"Sorry I made it awkward. Asking you suddenly" Yoongi said.

"It's okay. I'm just---

"You dont need to explain. I get it or I hope I understand what you're trying to say"

"So shall we?"

"Okay" Yoongi is the first to stand up "I know a coffee shop near here. It's my favorite cafe"

He follows Yoongi, dragging his bicycle with him. This is the first time a guy has asked him to drink coffee with him, generally, Namjoon does so, but that was a long time ago, and today was different; Yoongi asked him as a friend and he gladly accepted it. Jimin's coffee shop turns out to be Yoongi's favorite cafe. As he enters, he smiles at his friend, who is now giving him a puzzled expression because it's the first time he's seen him with someone other than his friends.

Namjoon is waiting for Yoongi, who has ordered drinks for them. He feels Jimin's gaze on him but decides to ignore him; he has nothing to say since Yoongi only wants someone to accompany him, and he tries not to think of any other reasons.

"Thanks Hyung" Namjoon says when Yoongi gave his drink. And the older replied welcome as he sits in front of him.

He steals a glance towards Jimin, and, to his surprise, is already narrowing his eyes in his direction. "Who is he?" he asks silently, pointing at Yoongis with his mouth. He paid no attention to his friend. They discuss a variety of topics while drinking their own coffee, with Namjoon discussing his book and how he develops his own concepts, and Yoongi discussing his love of music, which Namjoon recently discovered today.

"It's just putting my shoe to the character and I express what I feel when I do that" Namjoon explaining how he convey the feelings of his characters "I want the readers to understand what I want to express"

"Hmm I like that. I was really curious what writers do when they write. Sad or Happy stories"

"Well, writers have their own ways"

"And readers have their own way of understanding what they're reading you know?" Namjoon nods agreeing to Yoongi.

They talked for nearly 2 hours before Namjoon realized it was already lunchtime and invited Yoongi to join him.

It's not a lunch date.

Namjoon is repeatedly telling himself of this.

"Alright, where do you usually eat during lunch?

"Sorry I made you drag your bicycle" Yoongi said "You can ride and I can walk"

"That's okay Hyung. There's no way I let you walk alone" Yoongi giggled and he thinks Yoongi is cute. He had already noticed his gummy smile and had brightened his day. Yoongi doesn't need to know that Namjoon wrote a poem about it since he will embarrass himself.

"Next time I'll bring my bicycle and we can ride it together"

"Yeah?" Namjoon cannot contain his dimpled smile.

"Yeah. I ride bicycle when I'm sad or want to distract myself" He looks at Namjoon "But maybe I should try riding it when I'm happy"

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It's freaking 6:45AM and Namjoon is still awake. It does not surprise him because he has a bad sleep time habit, he sometimes sleep in the morning if he's not done writing his drafts but the situation is different. His mind is occupied by a certain man.

I should try riding it when I'm happy

He said it while staring at him, and he can't get it out of his head. Not only that, but he couldn't concentrate on the menu since Yoongi was staring at him, and when he asked what was wrong, he simply shrugged and grinned..

What was that for? He couldn't sleep because of that, does it mean anything to him or it is because he was being delulu. He groaned and went to his bathroom to take a shower. Because they would all be busy again, his friends planned to get together for breakfast. And, when he got out of his room, he noticed Taehyung was already awake and ready to go.

"Good morning Hyung" Taehyung greets happily.

"Good morning"

"Jimin keep texting me if we're on the way" He snorts because he knows why Jimin is eager to see him.

Yesterday, he ignored his friend and didn't even respond when he asked about Yoongi. He doesn't have to explain himself, yet he knows too much about his friends and he won't stop asking until he gives him an answer.

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"Joon-ah did you even sleep?" Namjoon nods to Seokjin's remarks.

He knows he lack of sleep, he can see the dark circle under his eyes when he saw himself in a mirror.

"Jimin mentioned you got a date yesterday" Hobi said and all of their attention is on Namjoon.

"It was not a date" He simply answer but everyone still looking at him "What? I'm serious. We were just hanging out like what we're doing right now"

Jungkook pouts at his answer "I wanna hang out with you alone too Hyung"

"You still have a crush on him?" Hoseok teased.

"Anyway, my book will be published in 2 weeks, just in case you're wondering" He tried to change the subject and Taehyung snorted when he realised what he was doing.

Yeah they were definitely hanging out yesterday and Namjoon keep telling it to himself even though his mind refuses to think that in fact, it was not a date. Thanfully, the subject changed,they were having a fun discussion until some of them need to leave and while their friends left to work, three of them decided to stay in Namjoon and Taehyung's apartment.

His two friends were playing xbox that he doesn't know how to use so he stay in his room instead and read books. He was still reading when he receives a message from Yoongi.

"Joonie Hyung?"

"Huh?" He looks up from his phone.

"Taehyung asked what food do you want. He will cook for us" Jimin said.

"Ah. I have to go" Namjoon said collecting his things. "You guys enjoy your dinner here without me"

"Where are you going Hyung" Taehyung who appeared from his kitchen.

"Park" Both of them did not ask anymore and watch Namjoon left.

"Do you think he will have lunch with the guy he was yesterday?" Jimin asked his boyfriend who's still standing in front of the door.

"I'm not sure but the possibility rate is high"

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The weather is nice; it is neither too hot nor too cold, making it an ideal day for a bicycle trip. Namjoon is waiting for Yoongi at their usual meeting site, feeling nervous for reasons he doesn't understand.

He's been thinking if he has a crush on Yoongi, but it's been two weeks since they started hanging out, and it's not the usual hangout. Is it like a quiet hangout? Does this make sense? He enjoys his presence beside him while he's editing his drafts or just reading a book. They don't need to talk to each other because they're too busy with their own business, but sometimes one of them will start a conversation.

"Hey" He smiles automatically when he heard Yoongi's voice.

"Hi Hyung"

"Sorry were you waiting too long?" Yoongi asked.

"Nope" He looks at Yoongi's bicycle "Wow Hyung your bike looks cool" His bike is simple yet cool. He saw the sticker MYG and he guesses it means his name Min Yoongi.

"Thanks"

The sun is setting, and it's the perfect time for them to ride their bicycles side by side. Namjoon looks at his Hyung, who is now smiling, while the wind hits their faces. Yoongi Hyung is absolutely adorable. He can feel something warm on his cheek, just glancing at Yoongi makes him blush.

He has no idea how long they were pedaling, but they both seemed to enjoy themselves without saying anything. They simply rode it while chasing the sunset together. He checks his watch and notices that it is already 7 p.m..

"Let's have a dinner Hyung"

Yoongi agreed, and they went to a restaurant near the park for dinner. He remembered how awkward they were the day before, but once Namjoon came up with a topic to talk about, Yoongi just went along with him. Giving his thoughts on everything they were discussing..

Tonight, however, is different, it is no longer awkward. They ordered their food and began chatting as soon as they were seated. They were talking his book as usual since Yoongi said that he enjoys talking about what he reads but he does not have friends that enjoy reading as much as he does.

"Can I ask something Hyung?"

"Hmm"

"You said yesterday, you ride your bicycle when you're sad..." Namjoon paused in his speech, unsure if he should continue with the question he was about to ask. It's too personal to talk about.

"Yeah" Yoongi simply answered, he's nervous now because it's a wrong timing.

"Since we're friends now, I think I can say it to you. When I ride my bicycle, I feel free from everything. You know when we ride it, we need to balance ourselves so we won't fall and that's how I feel" Namjoon can hear the sadness in Yoongi's voice, he wants to say something but he let him talk "I feel balanced, it's a weird metaphor I know. But, if I want to distract myself, I ride a bicycle and balance myself so I won't fall to the problems I want to forget for a while"

"But when I saw you in the park? You didn't have your bicycle with you"

"Yeah I decided to walk and sometimes sit in front of the Han river. I'm glad you didn't see me or heard me talking to the river"

"Talking to the river?" Yoongi laughed and nods.

"Yeah. I was lonely there so I didnt have a choice but to have a conversation to a river that will never understand me but at least my chest feel light every time I do that"

"That's... Uhmm your friends? You can talk to them"

"I don't have a lot of friends Namjoon-ah" Yoongi said and smile sadly. He felt guilty, he said sorry "I mean I have people who I can call friends but I'm really not comfortable"

"You said we're friends now. You can talk to me or rant if you want"

"Yeah that's what I'm doing right now"

"Oh"

Yoongi suddenly hold his hand "Thanks for being a friend. We knew each other for weeks and I've finally figured out why you're my favorite author. Why can I relate to your stories and why am I at ease telling you what's on my mind?"

Namjoon blushed "N-No problem Hyung"

"Let's ride our bicycles again Namjoon-ah"

"Tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow" He smiles at him.

He finally found out why he saw him there he looks lonely, however even the river will not answer him, there's still something that he can tell his problems. He also finally found out the strange feelings that have been keeping him awake. Yeah, he got a crush to Min Yoongi.

Namjoon returns home with a confused head; he noticed Jimin and Taehyung watching a movie and urged him to join them, but he declined. He has to get his thoughts together about what's been going on since he met Yoongi. Sure, he admits he likes Yoongi, but he's not sure if it's an infatuation or if he has a deeper feeling for his Hyung.

With a heavy feeling, he started to write his thoughts, he writes about nature, people, place, and

Min Yoongi.

When sad, let’s ride a bicycle
Let’s have the wind blow beneath our two feet
Oh, let’s ride a bicycle
,i>with our two arms spread out freely

Sometimes, just let it roll on its own
like bicycle wheels
There’s something I have to find,
like an afternoon snack
It feels like I’ve lived for this little moment

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Namjoon set a day for them to meet up and ride their bikes together this time. And Namjoon had been up all night tossing and turning in his bed till he figured out his true feelings for Yoongi. It's not the first time he's dated a guy or been the one to confess first, but things have changed dramatically. He likes Yoongi, but not in a crush way, and he lacks the bravery to admit it. But if the right time comes, he won't waste it and will ask Yoongi to be his lover, or ask him out first.

However, after a few days, Namjoon realizes that his feelings for the older man have become stronger. When he sees him or simply sits at a place they agreed on, which is generally in the park where they first met, he feels like the happiest person on the planet. He didn't know what to do, so he asked advice from his friends, particularly Jimin and Taehyung, who have more experience as a couple, and that's when he realized the feelings had progressed from like to love.

And he's so devoted to Yoongi that everything his Hyung does for him is precious to him, whether it's Yoongi talking to him, being open to him if something bothers him, being quiet or just staring at the river, or when he fell asleep one time. Namjoon is beginning to believe in fate because almost everything about Yoongi is perfect, and he never imagined he would fall.

"Joon-ah? Are you still with me?" His thoughts got interrupted by Yoongi's voice.

"Sorry Hyung, what is it again?"

"I said your book will be published and distribute tomorrow and I'm asking if you would to celebrate or did you forget it?"

Ah.. He's right, his mind was about Yoongi the whole week that he forgot about his book.

"Yeah I don't have a problem with that. It's my treat though"

Yoongi's eyebrows furrowed "Why? I'm the one who asked you"

"Because I want to" Namjoon argued. Yoongi has always been paid for their food and it's not really okay.

"No"

Namjoon sighs "Fine. But next time I will pay" He stopped walking and "And it's a date"

His eyes widened. Did he just confess? He swear that he didn't mean to speak it aloud. He looks at Yoongi, who is now staring at him with a puzzled expression he is terrified that he looks away as their gazes meet.

"Hyung"

"Do you want to talk about it right now?" Yoongi asked with a soft voice, he doesn't know why his Hyung asked that but he shakes his head.

"I'm sorry. I didn-"

"Okay Joon-ah, let's not talk about it. Shall we go now" Yoongi offered his hand.

"Hyung? You're not mad?"

"Why would I be?" Yoongi says "I'm not mad. We will not talk about what you said right now because you don't want it, right?"

"I want to" He mumbled shyly

"Seems like you're not ready"

"Hyung--" He tried to explain but everytime he opens his mouth, there's no words are coming.

"Okay.. let's clear what you said" Yoongi guided him to near bench "So you invited me to a dinner which is not strange but you said 'it's a date'. Did you mean it?"

"Yes, Hyung" He answered without hesitation. "I mean it but I didn't plan to confess right now"

He groaned hiding his face using his hands. He already planned how he will tell Yoongi about his feelings but he fucked up.

"I would like to" Namjoon looks at him in surprise "I would like to have a date with you"

"Huh?"

"Yes, you idiot. I thought I was obvious when I sometimes hold your hands? Going out and ride our bikes together? To be honest, I treated it as our dates"

"What?" Namjoon cannot believe what he heard from Yoongi.

"I like you Namjoon" Yoongi holds his cheeks and he feels like he will melt because of his warm hands "Since the first time we ride our bicycle together side by side that I realised I would love to have you beside me not just friends who have the same interest but a partner, a lover or whatever you want to call it"

"Hyung I don't know what to say" He says, still shocked about what's going on right now. He was supposed to confess, he did accidentally but he did not expect the reactions from Yoongi.

"Do you like me too Joon-ah?"

"Yes Hyung. I like you too" Namjoon leans with Yoongi's warm hand on his cheek and smiles sweetly "It's not hard to fall in love with you. Almost everything about you is perfect"

Yoongi laughed softly "I doubt that. I have flaws too, and I'm scared that I will fail our relationship like what I did to my past relationships"

"You're not the only who scared Hyung. But, I will promise that whatever happens I will understand you and respect you"

"I don't like promises but I will trust myself to trust you"

"People do mistakes and I know there will be a time that I will break your trust accidentally but I will try my best to avoid that although it's not easy" Namjoon looks down, on Yoongi's lips. It looks so soft that sometimes he thinks he wants to kiss it so he leans until their lips touched and Namjoon feels the butterfly on his stomach..

He's a writer and his readers praised him for his word play but Namjoon is so happy now that he can't describe in words.

"Hyung did you know I wrote poems about you?" He confessed

"Really? Why?" Yoongi frowns cutely.

"You have been my inspiration these days" He says and hands the notebook to Yoongi. The contents are his drafts but mostly his collection of his unpublished poetry.

"Oh I like this" Yoongi says and read the poem he wrote last night.

On the two wheels, everything is just a trivial daydream
Feel the roof, smell the truth
Miracle isn’t far away
Whatever face I’m making now, it doesn’t matter right now
Things that are truly precious are not to be seen with eyes

"The title is Bicycle. It is based on what I feel while riding my bike and what you said to me gave me ideas to continue writing this"

"I love the last line" Yoongi smiles at him "That's why you're my favorite author"

"It's about you, you're special to me. And, there's no need for people to see my precious feelings to you through my eyes, everything is from here" he says and touch his chest, implying that his feelings are true and it invisible that only Namjoon and Yoongi can feel it

And today, both of them are no longer alone. Using their bicycles, they move forward and hopes that one of them will not get tired to pedal until they reach the line where they are both ready to step up their relationship and continue their journey side by side.