Chapter Text
Not sure if you know this
But when we first met
I got so nervous I couldn't speak
In that very moment
I found the one and
My life had found its missing piece
Both of them remember. It was when the cold wind blew, small pieces of soft cotton fall from the sky, people around them exhales mist as they breathe.
No, its not their first meeting but the first realization.
When Chanhee first realized all his acts towards the older was actually him afraid to admit that he has fallen.
OR
When Hyunjae realized loving Chanhee might hurt him more but you cant hurry love and Chanhee is worth the wait.
“Move away. Don’t touch me,” Chanhee whines when Hyunjae want to hug him.
Don’t blame Chanhee, he just don’t want the older to find out how loud his heart beats and how he always forget all the words he wanted to say when he looked into Hyunjae’s eyes.
The older face fell into sadness but of course Chanhee didn’t notice that. He was too afraid to look at the older right now.
Denial? Yes he is. He know he is in the denial phase. But he was too afraid to fall in love.
So as long as I live I love you
Will have and hold you
You look so beautiful in white
And from now 'til my very last breath
This day I'll cherish
You look so beautiful in white
Tonight
The times when both of them were fated to know each other feelings. They moment they realized they are each other forever.
It was when they are having a sleepover with their friends.
“after Haknyeon and Sangyeon trot performance we definitely need some honey in the air. So who’s gonna do the honor,” ask Changmin.
“Me,” Chanhee immediately looking at the source of the voice. No, not because he is surprised, just because he knows, he’s gonna fall harder.
“The song title is the poem titled you,” Hyunjae look at Chanhee at the you word. And it doesn’t go unnoticed because Chanhee is definitely staring at him.
Whenever I think of a poem called you
I want to memorize it, so I can remember you
When a sad night comes, I’ll protect you
Can you hear my voice?
Don’t forget…
Chanhee knows he will remember this moment even after he is no longer breathing. He know he is devoted to hear the voice forever.
And damn now he realized how beautiful Hyunjae look in that milky white hoodie of his.
Pretty.
That’s the word that have been creeping inside his mind when he saw the younger boy walked out with a knitted shirt.
Although we may grow apart one day
If it is you, I could wait
Even if time passes, I’ll be standing here
Don’t hesitate If that time comes…
Just like the lyrics, he will wait. No matter how much it takes, even if he need another lifetime, he will wait for him because his love for him might be greater than infinity.
What we have is timeless
My love is endless
And with this ring I
Say to the world
You're my every reason
You're all that I believe in
With all my heart I mean every word
Chanhee knows Hyunjae will wait for him. The question is how long? How long till he will grew tired? Chanhee know people have their own limit. What about about Hyunjae? Will it be weeks, months, years or eternity? That is something Chanhee doesn’t know.
He decided to take the next step. No, not next step but a really big step because he know when Hyunjae walk out from his life, there is no use of living. He will live in the world without his own world.
Universe has its own plan. He got a called from Hyunjae to meet up at their high school backyard. He remember that when the first time he met Hyunjae. Back then, the place ain’t special for him but now the place become one the fate he followed to found the love of his live.
He smiled when he saw the familiar back sitting on the grass. Slowly he approach the elder and sit beside him.
“hey,” Hyunjae greets him with a big smile.
“I thought you won’t come,” Chanhee smiles softly before replying,
“You waited. Of course I will come,” they locked eyes for second before Hyunjae decided to break the contact and start talking.
“I used to believe that love at the first sight was a joke and only applied to childish people. But I guess I am the childish people,”
Three seconds of silence before Hyunjae continue his words.
“remember when I first met you? We can predict some things but I never once predicted that I’ve found my reason to wish for 11:11 again, the one that my heart wants to believe in,”
“Chanhee,” He wait until the younger speaks.
“Yes?”
“I ain’t romantic, in fact I am hopeless but after I learned the time don’t stop for me, and if I don’t do this now, I will be begging the clock for one more seconds so that I could say ‘will you marry me’. with the wind, the skies and clouds, and one the most important place in our book of fate as the witnesses, will you, the love of my life, marry me?”
There is no going down on one knees, no romantic piano music, no fancy place, no flowers but just two people realizing that they doesn't have all the time in the world.
“Hyunjae, before I answer your question, can you listen to me first. No matter what I will say, promise me, you will stay and wait till I finish talking,”
“I promise,” looking at Chanhee face, the urge to see the beauty face eveytime he wake up become stronger.
“I am sorry. I am fucking sorry for everything. You are one of the best part in my life but I am really sorry for always hurting you, for always pushing you, for always telling you to fuck off. Deep down inside my heart I really want you to hold me and vice-versa. I am afraid to love you because I don’t want to get hurt but from today and till death do us apart, I decided to take the risk. I have decided to continue writing this book of fate but this time, with you, with the home I’ve always dream of coming back. Yes I will marry you. But…,”
Chanhee left his hanging before breaking their linked fingers. He reach the bag beside him and take out the rings he bought for them.
“Will you, Lee Hyunjae, my person, do the honor of marrying me, a person who hurts you the most but will love you for the rest of his life and in another lifetime,”
“I will,”
The last sentence of the chapter lead into another beautiful chapter with a new characters and scene.