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TK blushed as he laid in Carlos’ arms, thinking back on what had just occurred during their latest early-morning sexy times. He’d called Carlos, ‘Papi’. He’d known he was a submissive for the last few years, something that Alex had always took advantage of, knowing that TK was always trying to please him, but never gave him the strong, steady presence he so desperately craved.
“Hey, what’s going on in that pretty little head of yours tiger?” Carlos whispered softly against TK’s neck, the taller man’s voice jolting TK out of his thoughts as a second blush crept up his neck to his cheeks.
“It’s nothing, don’t worry ‘bout it,” TK found himself mumbling as he pressed his face into the pillow his head was on, trying to avoid looking Carlos in the eyes as much as possible.
“Nope, not the right answer tiger. Please talk to me. If this is about you calling me...”
TK immediately cut off Carlos’ train of thought.
“Nope. I don’t wanna talk about it. You already probably think I’m a freak,” TK whined as he squeezed his eyes shut, trying not to melt as Carlos ran his hand up and down his side soothingly.
“Hey, I didn’t say anything about thinking you were a freak. You’re not by the way. Do you want to roll over and look at me please? I don’t think this is a conversation we should be having with your back turned to me,” Carlos whispered, as he pressed a soft kiss to TK’s neck, smiling as the smaller man rolled over and looked up at him.
“There’s that beautiful face of yours,” Carlos smiled, kissing TK on the forehead before he pulled back to study his face. “Now, what’s got you so flustered? Does it have something to do with you calling me Papi?”
TK sighed heavily at Carlos’ questions before he timidly nodded, nibbling nervously on his bottom lip. “I just got really into everything and it slipped out, I’m so sorry.”
His breathing started to speed up after he rambled the words to Carlos, a wheeze slipping past his lips as his thoughts spiraled around what he had said.
“Baby, I’m not mad at you. Can you focus on trying to catch your breath? In through your nose, out through your mouth. I don’t want you having an asthma attack,” Carlos whispered gently as he helped TK into a sitting position between his legs, gently rubbing a hand over his boyfriend’s exposed chest to soothe the growing tightness.
TK squeezed his eyes shut as he listened to Carlos’ voice, his boyfriend’s calming words helping to ease him out of the growing panic attack. “Every time you’ve taken the reigns in our relationship, I feel like melting, whether it’s in the bedroom, or in our day to day lives. I have never trusted a person as quickly as I have trusted you and it scares me,” TK whispered softly under his breath, choking on a sob as he finally broke down, everything he’d repressed finally bubbling over.
“Shhhhhh, breathe sweetheart. You’re panicking,” Carlos said gently as he turned TK in his arms so that the smaller male’s face was pressed against his neck, running his fingers over TK’s hair once more to hopefully help him relax before he leaned over to grab TK’s bottle of water and inhaler from the bedside table.
“Can you try and take a few sips of water for me and then take your inhaler?” Carlos asked as he opened the top of the water bottle, guiding the straw spout up to TK’s lips to get him to drink a bit of the liquid.
“That’s it, honey. You were thirsty, huh? Now, can we try your medicine? We really should have you take it before we have sex,” Carlos whispered, mostly to himself as he shook the inhaler up before pressing it to TK’s lips, letting out a sigh of relief when the other inhaled the medicine before immediately relaxing in his arms.
TK let his eyelids drift shut as he focused on listening to Carlos’ breathing and heartbeat, the two sounds grounding him back to reality as he fought the floaty feeling that subspace typically brought him.
“Why didn’t you tell me that you were a submissive?” Carlos asked gently after a few minutes, wanting to make sure TK was calmed down before he approached the sensitive topic.
“I didn’t want you to be weirded out by it. I didn’t understand it at first myself, but I just like having someone else in control. It is a way to get my mind off of all the stressful things in life. I’m always so in control and taking care of other people at work, that having someone else be in charge in some aspect of my life allows me to relax and just decompress,” TK admitted as he looked up at Carlos, picking his head up from where it was buried against his boyfriend’s chest.
Carlos nodded as he listened to TK talk, letting the other take his time expressing his feelings. “That makes complete sense. And lucky for you, I have experience as a dom. Now, are you into a regular dom/sub dynamic, or something more like age play or pet play?”
“Ummmm, I’m not into pet play, but I’ve been curious about age play. My ex was only into a regular dom/sub dynamic,” TK said as he kept his eyes locked with Carlos, hoping his boyfriend wouldn’t be grossed out.
“Perfect. I’ve been curious about that too baby. Why don’t we go get a shower and then I can make breakfast,” Carlos offered as he dropped a kiss to the top of TK’s head, smiling as the other nodded against his chest once more.
Ten minutes later, Carlos was standing in the kitchen making some pancakes for the two of them, smiling as TK drank some coffee at the island across from where he was cooking.
“Do you want chocolate chips in your pancakes?” Carlos asked as mixed up the batter, holding up the bag with a smile.
“Yes, please. Can we also put strawberries on them?” TK asked shyly, tugging at the sleeves of the hoodie Carlos gave him after their shower, the sleeves falling over his hands due to how big the sweatshirt was on him.
“Of course we can sweetheart,” Carlos nodded, taking a drink of his own coffee as he mixed the chocolate chips in before starting to make the pancakes.
“Do you want me to cut them?” TK asked, moving to get up to grab the strawberries from the fridge.
“I can cut them up. Can you grab them for me though? And the syrup and whipped cream?”
TK nodded eagerly as he got up to grab the three items from the fridge before setting them on the counter next to Carlos.
“Thank you baby,” Carlos praised as he pressed a kiss to TK’s forehead and kissing him gently on the lips before ushering him back to the island, turning to finish their breakfast.
“Go sit at the table, I’ll bring your pancakes over.”
TK nodded as he sat down, bringing his mug with him.
Carlos set down his own mug of coffee across from TK, along with a glass of orange juice in front of TK before going to grab their pancakes.
Setting one plate next to his coffee, he placed the other in front of TK, having arranged the strawberries and whipped cream in the shape of a smiley face.
“So, I think we should talk about what we want out of this dynamic. How often we want to do it, things like that,” Carlos offered as he sat down across from TK. “Do you want me to cut your pancakes and feed you?”
TK blushed at the offer before he nodded shyly and pushed his plate towards Carlos. “Yes please.”
“Okay, so cutting your food and feeding you. I can definitely do that,” Carlos nodded as he cut a piece for TK before holding out the fork.
TK smiled as he took the bite of food, humming in content at the sweet taste. “Yummy! Can we maybe do this at least once a week? Maybe do a bath, have you cook, and then we cuddle and watch a movie? Maybe get a stuffed animal or two?”
“Cuddles and a movie? And stuffed animals? Of course we can do that honey, that sounds wonderful,” Carlos nodded as he took a bite of his own breakfast before cutting another piece for TK. “Do you want to go shopping at a store? Or do you wanna order stuffies online?”
TK took the second bite, chewing as he thought carefully about it before he swallowed and grabbed his cup of juice for a drink.
“Ummmm, can we go to the store and pick something out?” TK asked, getting shy again as he glanced down at his hands.
“Of course sweetie. We’ll finish breakfast, then head out. Deal?” Carlos asked with a reassuring smile, holding out TK’s fork once more.
Glancing from the fork to Carlos, TK nodded before opening his mouth again. “Deal.”