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A lack of any noise at all, alone with your own thoughts, can sometimes be yearned for. Especially if everything is already too fucking much. Ena sprawled on her bed to combat the summer heat, every sound of a ticking clock or a whirring fan or fluttering curtains all being disgustingly loud and seperate. Mindlessly scrolling through notification after notification on Nightcord, a colored dot next to a certain someone’s profile reflected in her eyes.
Enanan~ 23:09
You up?
Can i ask you something
雪 23:11
what do you want
Of course, Mafuyu could be the only person on Earth able to cram the world’s largest amount of “fuck you”’s into four words. All Ena wanted to do was to tire herself out in the most self-destructive way possible, and it was already working.
Enanan~ 23:13
All i wanted was to chat
Christ
雪 23:13
okay
i am not sleeping yet but i will try soon
we can talk if you want
Enanan~ 23:14
Stop being so dry LOL
Anyways
Have you ever wanted to kill yourself in the way where it wasn’t just a pipe dream of not existing
Like OMG my skull is gonna pop open like a grape when i jump from this one specific building above a busy crossing and then you never do it. But it’s really funny to think about
雪 23:18
where did this come from
and what grounds do i have to give you an answer
Behold, the catalyst of all of her friend’s problems, refusing to make herself relatable for once in her life. If she truly wished for her OWN cries of help to be taken seriously, she should at least try. A bird in a cage needs to sing to attract attention.
Enanan~ 23:20
We already know each other's addresses this is shit people would publically share online
雪 23:22
well okay
i truthfully find my mind wandering there almost daily
i either need to force myself to make my OWN hope or hold out for kanade to help me find it
Enanan~ 23:23
Damn
As if she had anything to complain about in the first place, a beacon full of talent and lies. Every damn word that came out of her mouth was just to make Ena feel jealous.
Enanan~ 23:24
TBH i just wish you would act like a normal person for once
Like try to help yourself and function without exploiting everyone like LMAO
雪 23:28
to be honest you are the one who has done that more than even i
Enanan~ 23:28
Bullshit LMAO
Can you talk like a normal person instead of a victorian boy poet acting like you have no talent or like
雪 23:30
what
Enanan~ 23:35
Whatever can we just like call
雪 23:37
it’s late and i need to make sure my parents are out or asleep if it is past my curfew
Enanan~ 23:38
Bro fuck your parents you have a bedtime LMAO
雪 23:38
we are in different situations
and you actually go to night school
Enanan~ 23:40
Just stand up for yourself for once LMAO
雪 23:41
i try as much as i can without killing myself from stress
Enanan~ 23:40
Maybe you should just care about something for once um LOL
Mafuyu went offline.