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“This is so wrong.” Kurt groans, gripping Sebastian’s hips to keep from falling over as he’s pushed against the door of his old friend’s apartment.
“Yeah, and isn’t it all the more fun because of it?” Sebastian asks, pushing Kurt’s shirt up and tugging it off, tossing it aside.
“Well- yes.” Kurt laughs, sucking Sebastian’s lip into his mouth and rocking his hips forward.
“Then shut up and let me fuck you already.” Sebastian says fumbling with his keys and pushing the door open, holding Kurt up by his belt loops so he doesn’t fall over as they walk into Sebastian’s studio loft.
“No! We agreed no fucking, it’s going to mess up our, oh shit!” Kurt yelps as Sebastian drops to his knees, unfastening Kurt’s skinny jeans and pressing his mouth to the outline of Kurt’s cock through his underwear. “Ok- maybe, this once.” Kurt whines, leaning back against the couch, nearly knocking over the large artists table covered in Sebastian’s oil paints.
“Mm, I love how easily you give in.” Sebastian growls, tugging Kurt’s underwear down and sucking his member into his mouth in one swift movement that makes Kurt’s knees buckle beneath him. It’s so different from what he’s used to. Sure, he’s slept with a few guys since Blaine broke his heart by cheating on him, but becoming friends with Sebastian Smythe makes him feel like he’s on a tilt a whirl.
“If you keep that up I’m going to come.” Kurt whines, yanking Sebastian back by his hair and staring down into his wicked green eyes.
“And you want to come when I’m fucking you instead?” Sebastian asks, licking his lips, it makes Kurt shiver.
“What if I do?”
“You said no fucking.” Sebastian teases his tongue over the tip of Kurt’s cock, lapping at the precum.
“Yeah- and then you ripped my clothes off.” Kurt whines, biting his lip. “But- one thing.” Kurt says nervously.
“What?” Sebastian asks, noticing the change in Kurt’s tone. Despite their past Sebastian is actually quite glad that the hobbit he’d once wanted made a mistake that lost him Kurt.
“Um, you’re going to be such an ass about this but I’ve never bottomed.” Kurt holds a hand over his eyes, surprised he’s still embarrassed about sex, but Sebastian is just such a sexual creature that Kurt feels completely juvenile in comparison.
“You’ve never- wait really?” Sebastian licks his lips, quite pleasantly surprised by the news. Normally Sebastian avoids virgins like the plague, they complain, it takes time to coax them open, and they usually get emotionally attached. But for some reason the idea of taking Kurt’s ass, and being the first to ever do so, makes him incredibly desperate.
“No, but I’ve wanted to.” Kurt says, peaking down at Sebastian through his fingers. “Oh come on say something to me stop looking at me like that.” Kurt laughs nervously, gripping Sebastian’s shirt and pulling him up.
“I’m sorry, all the blood just rushed to my cock when you said that.” Sebastian says, leaning in to claim Kurt’s lip in a slow dirty kiss. Without warning he swoops Kurt up into his arms, carrying him bridal style to his bedroom as Kurt protests and laughs.
“Come on, put me down Bas!” Kurt laughs as Sebastian dips down and lowers him ceremoniously onto his crimson velvet bed.
“I love it when you call me that.” Sebastian says, nipping at Kurt’s neck as he pushes him up the bed.
“Yeah well you’re full name gives me flash backs to you trying to throw rock salt into my eyes.” Kurt laughs, groaning as Sebastian rocks his hips against him.
“Hey- you should thank me for that, I got the hobbit instead.” Sebastian laughs; knowing that the mention of Blaine’s name can make his friend melancholy, but the cruel nickname usually only makes him smile.
“Any chance you’ve still got rock salt?” Kurt laughs.
“No, but I do have lube, and I think that will make this night so much better.” Sebastian says, pulling back to throw his jacket and shirt across the room, exposing his gorgeous chest and abs.
“Mm, more, take off more, and make it slow.” Kurt says, grinning up at Sebastian.
“Dirty.” Sebastian mock scolds, sliding off the bed and slowly walking backwards, fingers unfastening his belt, pulling it off and tossing it on the bed. Kurt moves to throw the belt aside but Sebastian shakes his head. “Leave it, I think you might like the feel of leather.” He says, raising one eyebrow at Kurt in a demanding manner.
“You want to hit me with your belt?” Kurt asks, his voice not scared, but low and quiet.
“I don’t want to hurt you, but clearly you’ve been craving to be dominated, at least topped.” Sebastian knows he has to be careful, breaching this topic with Kurt, but there’s just something about the blue-eyed boy that makes Sebastian want to own him. Perhaps if he had faith in actual relationships he would want to date him, but owning Kurt sounds safer, and sounds like something he might be able to achieve.
Kurt doesn’t say anything. He doesn’t know what to say, so he simply watches as Sebastian strips, biting his lip at the realization that Sebastian is quite a bit larger than he had expected. Kurt begins to pull his boxers off fully but Sebastian shakes his head, stalking forward towards him.
“Let me do that.” He says, his words are soft and sweet, but they make Kurt tremble.
Sliding the green briefs down Kurt’s pale legs Sebastian stares into Kurt’s pale blue eyes and tries to read him. Clearly Kurt is aroused, his pupils blown wide, but he also appears to be nervous, which, to Sebastian is even more of a turn on, although he genuinely wants Kurt to give in to him and enjoy himself.
“Talk to me?” Sebastian says, careful to make his words sound like a question so he doesn’t feel afraid. But seeing Kurt bite his lip before speaking is hotter than he can put into words.
“I’m um, kind of nervous.” Kurt says, shifting under Sebastian’s steady gaze.
“Because you’ve never done this before? Or because I made you nervous when I said I want to dominate you?” Sebastian asks, keeping his tone light. “Because tonight I want to give you whatever you want, in whatever way you want.” His smile softened, and he leans in and kisses Kurt lightly.
“Because you surprise me, all the time.” Kurt says, licking his lips. “Because the things you’re saying are making me feel sort of – I don’t really know.” Kurt whispers, closing his eyes as he tries to muster the courage to say what he’s thinking. “I like it.” He says, opening his eyes to see Sebastian looking at him in a truly hopeful way. “I don’t want to be in an abusive relationship, I’m probably not ready for any kind of relationship but I know I don’t want to be abused.”
“I would never abuse you Kurt, I’m offering something different.” Sebastian takes a moment to collect himself before continuing. “How about for tonight, you give in to me, and I’ll take care of you.” Sebastian offers, kissing Kurt’s throat.
“If by take care of me you mean fuck me, yes, please.” Kurt grips Sebastian by his hair and crushes their lips together, making Sebastian groan into his pliant mouth.
“I don’t take this honor lightly Kurt, it’s practically unimaginable that you’ve never been taken, and I’m more than happy to be the first.” Sebastian whispers, nipping at Kurt’s shoulder as he feels Kurt stroke his cock with silken fingers. “Lie on your stomach so I can open you up.” Sebastian winks at Kurt guiding him with sure hands.
“Shouldn’t you get the-” Kurt’s words trail off as he feels Sebastian’s tongue on one of his cheeks, sliding down over the lobe of his ass. “Oh fuck.” Kurt whimpers, hiding his face in the velvet blankets.
Sebastian loves the way Kurt’s body reacts when he drags his tongue over Kurt’s hole, attempting to lick his way inside, but Kurt is incredibly tight, which only makes Sebastian rock his hips down against the bed, needing some friction against his aching cock.
“You are so tight Kurt.” Sebastian says, gripping Kurt’s hips to hold him down against the bed as he jerks in pleasure when Sebastian’s tongue finally pushes in past the tight ring of muscles, dragging small circles against Kurt’s insides.
“Sebastian, feels- that feels so good.” Kurt groans, but before he can get enough of the sensation Sebastian pulls back, leaving Kurt to breathe heavily on the bed alone as he goes to grab the lube from his night stand.
“Are you ready for more?” Sebastian asks, dragging his fingers over Kurt’s ankle.
“Please- yes please more.” Kurt begs, the pleading in his voice making Sebastian’s cock throb painfully hard.
“As you wish.” Sebastian smiles, coating his fingers in lube before running them over Kurt’s entrance, lightly pressing both against the hole to test how open his tongue had worked the boy, but when Kurt flinches he works just one over the hole, teasing it inside ever so slowly, all the while watching Kurt’s body react, every twitch, every gasp sending pleasure radiating through him.
Kurt can’t believe he’s waited this long to experience this kind of pleasure, he’s always been on the giving end but receiving is entirely different, and honestly, much better. Still, the sting does make him shudder, but by the time Sebastian has two fingers in him he’s already found his sweet spot, and Kurt doesn’t feel the pain as anything more than a heightened exaggeration of pleasure.
“Please.” Kurt asks softly, looking back over his shoulder at Sebastian, eyes wide and desperate with need.
“Do you want it like this, lying on your back, or on your hands and knees, or your back, or you could ride me.” Sebastian offers, fingers twisting in Kurt, keeping him open as he deliberates.
“What- what do you think would be the best way?” Kurt asks, dropping his head to the bedspread.
“Well, if you’ll forgive me for being a little melodramatic, this is kind of your first time, we get two firsts after all.” Sebastian says lightly. “I think it would be best if you were on your back, so I can see you.” Sebastian swallows, feeling nervous because it sounds too intimate and he’s never fucked someone who was actually his friend. “That way if you’re in pain you can’t hide it from me, I know you, you’re very good at being brave in spite of yourself.” Sebastian adds, hoping that covers up the slightly over romantic notion.
“Okay, you do have a point.” Kurt admits, smiling a little at Sebastian as the man pulls his fingers out and turns Kurt over, propping a pillow under his ass so he’s at a better angle.
“I do indeed darling.” Sebastian smiles, leaning in to press a soft kiss to Kurt’s lips. “Are you ready?” he asks, grabbing a condom off of the bedspread.
“Yes.” Kurt takes the condom out of Sebastian’s hands and tears it open. “Admittedly I’ve never put one on someone else, but it seems hot.” Kurt laughs nervously, but sliding the condom on Sebastian’s cock is actually a lot easier than he would have thought, especially since Sebastian actually bought magnums so they fit. Kurt’s fairly sure that if he bought the regular ones they would rip open over his cock.
“You look a little nervous.” Sebastian says, brushing Kurt’s hair back.
“Yeah well you kind of are impressive.” Kurt laughs biting his lip. “But please, I want to do this, and I trust you.” He says and in that moment he realizes he actually does trust Sebastian.
“Relax for me.” Sebastian says, spreading more lube on his length and pressing the tip against Kurt’s hole, feeling how tight he is despite the stretching, and groaning at the heat of him. “Jesus fucking Christ Kurt, you feel like pushing into heaven.” He groans, eyes rolling back into his head as he keeps pushing, slowly, steadily into Kurt, knowing that it’s easier to push all the way in gently instead of pausing every inch. When he’s mostly inside of Kurt Sebastian forces himself to open his eyes, staring down at Kurt. “Kurt, talk to me, look at me.” Sebastian whispers, leaning down to kiss Kurt, one hand stroking his cock.
“S-sorry.” Kurt stutters eyes closed tight against the pain. “I just need a second, it’s no, you’re a lot.” He laughs awkwardly.
“That’s what I like to hear, but I also don’t want you to be in pain.” Sebastian says, uncapping the lube by the bed and spreading it down over Kurt’s length, stroking him slowly.
“That helps, a lot.” Kurt purrs, wriggling a little, adjusting to the feel of Sebastian inside of him.
“Good, that’s what I want.” Sebastian whispers, kissing Kurt again, which pushes him further into Kurt’s tight heat. “You feel incredible.”
“So do you.” Kurt purrs, “I don’t know what I thought this would feel like, but it’s overwhelming.” Kurt says, his breathing unsteady as he speaks.
“Does this hurt?” Sebastian asks, moving slowly, circling his hips instead of thrusting, for fear of hurting Kurt.
“No!” Kurt gasps, moving in a way that causes Sebastian to thrust in against him. “I need more.”
“As you wish.” Sebastian breathes, pulling back a bit and pushing in again, groaning at the suction.
“Princess Bride?” Kurt asks, clutching Sebastian’s arm as he moves with him, delighting in the sensations rippling through him.
“Shh, love that movie.” Sebastian chokes out, slowly increasing his speed and releasing Kurt’s cock so he can support himself without crushing Kurt beneath his weight.
“S-such a sap.” Kurt’s laugh breaks into a moan as Sebastian’s thrusts begin to pick up pace. “Oh my god.” He groans, eyes closing tight.
“Still okay?” Sebastian manages, his body rocking inside of Kurt’s is deliriously sweet, he can hardly hold himself back now, but if Kurt’s eyes are closed in pain he has to.
“So so okay.” Kurt whimpers, licking his lips.
“Good, let’s try something else, get on your hands and knees.” Sebastian says, pulling completely out of Kurt’s heat. “Trust me, it feels amazing too.”
Kurt complies easily but when Sebastian thrusts back into him Kurt drops his chest to the bed, his arms giving out keeping his ass in the air as Sebastian’s cock pushes against his prostate, making his whole body shake.
“So good Kurt.” Sebastian says, gripping Kurt’s hips, thrusting into him harder now that he can feel Kurt’s body taking him so sweetly again and again. Kurt can feel his own cock beginning to leak precum over his stomach as Sebastian’s thrusts speed up, pounding into him harder and harder.
“I- I’m gonna come.” Kurt gasps, shocked that his release is coming without Sebastian even touching his cock. The pleasure is different now, deeper, more raw and explosive.
“Fuck, please come for me Kurt, I want to feel you around me.” Sebastian says, thrusting in harder, his body moving of his own volition at this point. “Jesus Kurt, so good.” With one particularly hard thrust Sebastian feels Kurt’s orgasm spasming through his body, and the sensation tips him over the edge, he thrusts harder, deeper, and finally comes, collapsing on top of Kurt, curling his arms around him as they lie tangled and panting on the bed.
After a few minutes Sebastian eases himself out of Kurt, finding the boy in his arms is fast asleep, curled up around one of his favorite pillows. He tosses the condom and slips out of the room, walking to his bathroom. Staring back at him from the mirror Sebastian can see the fear in his own eyes, the uncertainty. He doesn’t know what it is that he wants from Kurt, but just knowing the boy is sleeping in the other room makes his stomach twist, the feeling is unfamiliar and uncomfortable, but his heart is pounding.
“Get it together Smythe.” Sebastian groans, turning on the hot water and stepping into the shower, washing away the sweat and cum from his body. He’s done conditioning his hair when he hears a soft knock on the door before it eases open, revealing Kurt, wrapped in a throw blanket, leaning against the doorframe.
“Hi.” Kurt says loud enough that Sebastian can hear him through the water. “Do you think I could take a shower after you?” Kurt asks, a little uncertain.
“Depends,” Sebastian says, sticking his head opening the sliding glass door of the shower. “Are your legs unsteady? I can’t have you slipping and falling in the shower, you’d be no fun for weeks.” Sebastian’s words make Kurt laugh, but then Sebastian just extends his hand. “Join me? I’ll keep you upright.” He promises, watching as Kurt lets the blanket slide down his body to puddle on the floor. Kurt looks incredibly, his body muscled but still lithe, his skin beautiful and marked only from where Sebastian’s mouth had sucked marks.
“Mm,” Kurt hums happily as Sebastian pulls him into the warm water, opening a bottle of body wash and lathering his hands.
“Let me do that.” Sebastian says, taking the soap from him and washing Kurt’s shoulders, town his torso, washing the dried cum from his stomach. “How do you feel?”
“Awesome.” Kurt says, leaning his head back against Sebastian’s shoulder. “Seriously awesome.” He repeats as Sebastian rubs shampoo into his hair.
“Okay, rinse.” Sebastian turns Kurt around, stepping back so he can rinse his hair. “You can stand okay?”
“Yeah, I mean, it’s a little difficult considering I think you fucked me sideways and the water is slippery. Kurt teases, running conditioner through his hair.
“I think you returned the favor.” Sebastian laughs. “Come on babe, you’re squeaky clean, if you’re still shaky I can carry you again.”
“No, no more carrying me, though I did enjoy the way the last time ended.” Kurt smiles, letting Sebastian wrap him in a large towel. “Hey I thought you had a no sleep over rule with all your sexual exploits.” Kurt says lightly, though he’s honestly a bit curious how Sebastian is feeling about them being friends and having slept together. Sebastian had been nothing like what he had expected in bed. He’d been sweet, and gentle, it was almost romantic.
“Ah, is that why you were against us fucking?” Sebastian asks. “I told you I wouldn’t let you wallow alone Kurtsie.” Sebastian says lightly, leading them back to the bedroom and pulling two pairs of pajama pants out of his drawer, tossing one to Kurt and stepping into the other. Wearing pajama pants Kurt flops back onto Sebastian’s bed, already stripped of the cum covered bedspread.
“You also promised me a night I wouldn’t remember.” Kurt says, leaning on his side as Sebastian joins him on the bed.
“I did indeed, but how was I to know you were going to get frisky before the fourth round of tequila shots?” Sebastian says, grinning at Kurt.
“I got frisky?” Kurt says with a laugh.
“Okay, you got on stage and sang Adam Lambert, after that it wasn’t fair anymore.” Sebastian complains, leaning in and kissing Kurt again, pausing, as Kurt seems to freeze beneath his kiss. “Something wrong?” Sebastian asks, no one has ever resisted him before and it makes his stomach drop out.
“Um, no.” Kurt says, leaning in, kissing Sebastian again but more slowly. “Hey, do you think we could watch a movie while we fall asleep?” Kurt asks, knowing he’s far too sore for anything more sexual to happen again too soon, and kissing Sebastian without it leading to sex makes Kurt’s too confused.
“Sure, anything in particular you want to watch?” Sebastian asks, picking up the remote and turning on his flat screen.
“Hm, how about the Princess Bride.” Kurt asks, wrinkling his nose teasingly at Sebastian.
“As you wish.” Sebastian says, swallowing a little uneasily as he wraps one arm around Kurt, selecting the moving on the screen and pressing play. He still wants to keep Kurt, but he hasn’t quite figure out how yet.
“Hey, you never used that belt.” Kurt says, laughing softly as he catches sight of it tangled with the bedspread on the floor.
“Next time Hummel.” Sebastian grins wickedly at him. “So did I keep my promise? Did you have a great night?” he asks, fingers drawing lazy circles over Kurt’s arm.
“Yes, and no, you gave me a perfect night, but it’s one I’m not likely to forget any time soon.” Kurt yawns, snuggling closer to Sebastian as he pulls a blanket up over them, letting his eyes slip closed. While he is truly exhausted, there is something difficult about falling asleep when he thinks about Sebastian’s belt, and the words next time. He has no idea what’s coming to him, but for the first time in a while, he doesn’t fall asleep feeling like he’s hopelessly broken, in fact he doesn’t think of Blaine’s betrayal at all.