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No.
Never.
It can't be. You don't know him any better than I do. What's your say?
“Tangina Beomgyu! Napansin na namin, ikaw ba hindi pa?! Hanggang kailan ka pa ba magpapakatanga sa lalaking yan, ha?! Awang-awa na kami sa'yo.” I watched Yeonjun's burning glassy eyes, he was leaning on the kitchen counter, pulling his hair.
I glanced at Heeseung and Jeongin, both sitting quietly while they stared at me. I know they think the same. They don't need to spit unnecessary words as well.
I rolled my eyes at him, shutting his words out. Can I ever accept that?
“We've been together for less than two years. It's fucking normal, dude. Kung inis ka lang sa sarili mong relasyon, huwag mo kaming i-damay.” I looked down on my shoes, reviewing the past scenarios.
“Normal ba yung may tatlong babae sa isang linggo?” Jeongin blurted.
I glared at him, knitting my eyebrows. “They're friends, goddamnit! Ilang beses ko bang sasabihin yun sa inyo?”
“They kissed, Beomgyu.” Heeseung whispered.
I felt my eyes water, so I shook my head to get rid of them. Nonsense, they're spewing nonsense, Beomgyu.
“Here in your so called shared apartment, he's never here. He forgot your birthday, and he has spent 0 holidays, 0 day-offs with you. And enough with your fucking delusions that he's busy, he's fucking with your head and you have to see and know that. I'm not saying this because I'm fucked up with my own relationship. I'm saying this because I'm your friend and I fucking care about you.” I saw a tear roll down his face which made me look away from him.
“He's your boyfriend. And it's obvious that he doesn't care about you.” Yeonjun brought his hand up his face to wipe the tear, hiding his face from us.
I took a look at my dark home, dim lights and messy things seen. I spotted a picture frame hang on the wall. It was taken on our first anniversary, it's the latest picture of us together wherein I still saw stars in his eyes.
I mean of course it's still there. I still see it. Really.
His arm was wrapped around me and his chin was rested on the crown of my head. He planned fireworks by the bay that day. I would always reminisce that.
I glanced at Yeonjun again.
Taehyun wouldn't do that to me.
“Get out. All of you. I heard enough of your nonsense. Come back to me pag may sense na mga pinagsasabi niyo.” I got up to go to our bedroom.
My bedroom.
I shut the door quietly. I heard sighs and footsteps walking out of the house.
“I know you're confused and all. But don't shut us out because of your pathetic guy. You can do better than that. We'll be back, take care of yourself.” Heeseung knocks on my door.
I closed my eyes as I laid down on the bed.
I looked over to my side and thought,
Damn. They're right.
They could be right.
I cried myself to sleep that night.
7:30 AM
my tyun <3
goodmorning babe
are you home?
i'll be coming by, im picking up files
I smiled, widening my puffy eyes.
You
hi, yeah im home
sure
i miss you, are you free today?
my tyun <3
can't. im busy, sorry
uhh
is yeonjun with you?
You
ah is that so, alright no biggie baby
no why
my tyun <3
okay, keep ur distance frm that guy
see you babe
You
okay
i love you see you!
my tyun <3
mhm
“Babe. That sounds nice. ” I giggled, getting up to wash my face and prepare breakfast for the two of us. He has a busy day ahead of him, might as well be a good boyfriend.
Did he hear about my fight with the guys that's why he's telling me off?
But then again, he didn't really like Yeonjun in the first place. Which was weird since Yeonjun's been my friend ever since we were in diapers. I guess people do have different perspectives.
I was flipping the eggs when the doorbell rang. I squeaked before turning off the stove. I brisk walked to the door, opening it almost immediately to be delighted by my Taehyun's figure.
“Hi there, baby!” I jumped on him. He catched and manhandled me, chuckling before putting me down to go inside.
“I'm sorry I haven't been able to stay here with you. I already had pillows in my office because of the shitload paperwork.” He looked around the living room. He should've called me yesterday so I could turn the mood lighter here. It seems very, uh, gloomy.
He pulled me by the waist, his one hand securing me and one fixing my bangs.
“Were you lonely here, baby?” His thumb caresses my boney waist.
I nodded, pouting.
“I'm sorry. I'll try to come by more often. Sounds good?”
I nodded again, of course now smiling.
“There.” He said once he got his hands on some folders with messy papers peeking from it. It was colorful, but not really organized.
“You found it?”
“Mhm, thank you. I'll get going now, babe.” He played with his car keys when he got out of the bedroom.
“Breakfast, tyun.” I pointed at the viand displayed on the table.
“That's really nice, babe. Go make yourself full, I'll try to be home tonight.” He sniffed on my neck before placing a wet kiss.
“But breakfast...” I muttered watching him wave a goodbye as he closed the door with a folder in one arm.
“I love you.” I blurted with a smile, knowing that the only thing that heard that was a white wall.
And there was another bright sunny morning that felt like a gloomy Monday of eating breakfast alone.
Without him.
I knocked lightly numerous times, fiddling with a plastic bag that had bento boxes packed inside.
The door opened revealing a once sleepy that's now surprised Heeseung.
“Gyu. What are you doing here? I don't know if Yeonjun is still mad at you or something.” He let me inside.
“Beomgyu.”
Speaking of which.
“Hyung. I'm sorry. To the both of you as well, I'm really sorry. I know I shouldn't treat you guys like that. You don't have to do so now, but I hope you can forgive me.” I told them before looking down at the bento boxes again.
“Beomgyu,” Jeongin called.
“Will you still stay with that jackass?”
I felt tears welling up my eyes as my heart started to pound loudly.
I looked up to face their serious faces.
“I'm sorry.” I weakly whispered.
“Oh Beomgyu.” Heeseung initiated a hug while the three of them came to embrace me in their arms.
I sobbed on Yeonjun's chest, tightly holding the hem of his shirt.
“It's okay. We don't have to talk about this right now. I'm sorry din.” He pats my back before holding my face to wipe my tears.
“Pero alam mo naman na we're saying this because we're worried right?”
“Yes, Jeongin. That's why I'm thankful. I love you guys.” I ruffled his hair.
my tyun <3
babe i cant pala today
maybe next time nalang
give me kiss when we meet? hahaha
You
lots of kisses for u talaga in store :(
its okay!! miss u tho
i loooove you
seen 1m ago
Is it safe to say that I kind of expected that?
I decided to just stay the night at their dorm because these lunatics bought an insane amount of soju, considering their alcohol tolerance was low, like real low.
“Gyu! I'm posting this.” Yeonjun giggled while looking at the picture he took on his phone, he was already drunk as we just started.
I just nodded, letting him do anything he wanted. Ako bahala palagi sa pulutan eh.
cyjsayshey: w da high tol
My head was spinning, but I still was very much alive. I settled laying down on my bed, finally having an opportunity to go through my phone.
my tyun <3
beomgyu
my tyun <3 sent you a photo
didn't i teel you to keep your distance from this guy?
is this your way of getting back at me kasi hindi kita dinedate?
hindi ka talaga sasagot?
okay fine idedate kita tangina kelan mo na gusto
I closed my eyes, trying to take his words in.
“Babe ano na naman to? I'm not doing any girls. I'm just really fucking busy!”
“Sorry, bawi ako.”
“Busy nga diba?”
“It's a shame you don't see how pathetic you are.”
“Honestly you should thank me for dating you, look how many friends you got there. You think that's all you?”
You
fuck you
saksak mo sa baga mo date mo
he's my friend, repeatedly!
kapal ng mukha mo
im completely done with you and everything about you
the us as well. WE are done.
Now here we are.
I still see him every once in a while, kasi we're in the same city and I knew he liked going outside with his friends and his girls. Jeongin and the guys threw another drinking party even after all the hangover they got the day before when they found out i dumped Taehyun.
“Malaki ka na nga.”
I miss him. A lot. And I think about him everyday as I get reminded of him in every small thing I see.
But at the same time, I didn't feel the need to walk to his door once again and beg him to forgive me. I did that numerous times already that it's very embarrassing.
“Okay, Beomgyu! You're next. Camera, cue!”
I finally got a role in one of the theatre shows I've been wanting to do but couldn't since I was so stuck with my previous relationship.
gyu_313: alas, theatre role!
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I have no strength to face you right now, but I know you know I would wish you the best when I do.
See you soon, my once lover, Kang Taehyun.
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see you when i do, jopay.