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Hyunjin's POV:
2 months.
2 months it has been since I saw him look at me.
Look at me the way he used to, the love of the entire world his gaze held. As if I was the only Twinkling star of his universe.
The warmth of Fresh summer morning encased within those glittery orbs, just for me.
Sunshine to my glacier soul.
But,
Now I feel as if I'm staring at the An Endless Pathway eventually ending up in an abyss when I look into his eyes. I think the only extreme of Black I have ever seen was when my eyes fell onto his.
Pitch Black.
And I may get to be considered for being the dumbest because I don't have a slightest idea when or what happened.
to him.
To us.
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How does it feel to be in Love? Does it feel like you are Always on cloud nine with the hold of your Beloved around you?
Is it not rational? pure Madness.
A beautiful, wonderful moment of magnificent insanity.
Or just a sweet song of melancholy?
But then, what is love if it doesn't made your spirit bleed a bit? What is love if doesn't hurt?
As long as you have me, I have you.
We have a tale of love to leave in the autumn breeze, it's enough.
We lived a eternity together and it's enough.
But from last two months, things are clearly going downhill without Hyunjin having a slightest bit of idea.
It's been 3 months to Felix's back injury as well.
It was day they were randomly practicing the new moves Hyunjin came with for the opening performance of their Upcoming cascade of concerts in their "Maniac" World tour 6 months from now.
As usually, the high spirits, the banter about how Seungmin sucked at it and how Bangchan was trying to seduce Stay with his casual wear of crop top even in practice.
Hyunjin was in corner, couped up in the warmth of "Angel" as he always consider Felix to be one.
They were so disconnected from rest of the people as if their field of vision was just another one.
It happened usually.
Whenever they would get their blood heated from all the practice and their breathing seemed to loose the track, they weirdly wanted to be close.
As if the passion and heat oozing out from their veins were radiating in the air,wanted to be entangled in their breaths.
The rhythmic beating of their strained hearts to the Melodies around them.
It was heaven in sight.
Holding onto those sticky sweaty hands was a proof that they were so into becoming one with each other and with music.
It was love, love for each other, love for Chords.
Their little Bubble of peace was popped up the continued ringing of Hyunjin's phone.
Felix gave an obvious /I'm disappointed but I can't show\ look to which Hyunjin couldn't help but giggle.
"Ah I need to attend this one, mom".
Hyunjin positioned it Infront of Felix.
Felix's acknowledging nod made Hyunjin smile and he happily excused himself just to appear back in 10 minutes as a promise to rest of the members.
Lee know on the couch gave a deadpan look to Felix out of tease and mumbled "you guys are just sulking....".
"Says who?" Felix gave a flicker to his babysoft air with the angelic face.
"Let's see who got this!" Felix joined to members with a spring and started warming up to the moves.
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Just as Hyunjin was about to end up the call with his mother, he heard some noises which on 2-3 seconds of interpretation came out to concern-filled shouts of his own team members.
Telling his rushed goodbyes to his mom, Hyunjin quickly cut off the call and hurrying to the their practice room to check what had happened.
On opening the door, he witnessed something he didn't want to.
He never wanted to.
He dared not to imagine it was real.
He stood at door step for 1-2 mins, trying to comprehend why Felix was laying on floor, with his jaws clenched, fearing they'd snap.
Knuckles tightly gripping onto the sides of his lower.
All he could see was him, with his cheeks flushed red, tears dripping down to the floor from his eyes.
His chest was heaving up and down due to his hitched breathes....
What is happening?
Han's repeatitive calling of Hyunjin's name brought him out of his blanked out zone.
Just as he got back on his feet, he rushed toward where Felix was laying and gently sat besides.
"W-what happened.... Felix!"
He held his pale knuckles with his shaky one and softly touched his cheek with other, trying to not to hurt him.
He looks so much in pain.
Just as Felix realised it was Hyunjin by his side, gripped into his hand and looked at him with his bloodshot eyes.
The picture in front of Hyunjin was so horrific and the hair on back of his neck stood up.
"H-hyunjin....haa.." Felix was truly mustering up all the will to make comprehensive sentences.
"It..it hurts so much.." a choked sob left from his mouth and Hyunjin really could see himself trembling as the broken sound settled in his ears, trying to plunge air out his lungs.
Other members with concern plastered on their faces, were trying to do whatever they could.
"Felix...I'm here okay...I'm here".
"What happened here!"
Bangchan came in the sight as he just finished call with the staff who assured the ambulance will be at their door steps in 5 mins. They knew something was obviously wrong given that even Bangchan was in state of utter panic.
"He was just Casually doing a flip and suddenly he fell on his back..." Bangchan was trying hard to not Hyunjin see how himself was in anguished uncertainty. "We first thought it was just a causal sink but he....he couldn't get up and..."
Bangchan looked at Felix ,in wrecked state, Holding onto Hyunjin's hands with his dear life..
"I'm...I'm sorry"
Hyunjin looked as if someone had held a tight grip around his throat, so suffocated.
No...it's going to be okay...it's alright..yes it's okay...
"F-felix...I'm here okay w-we all are here" Felix looked at him, through the crack of tear-glazed crystalline eyes, and before he could even register a hitched whimper left from his dry mouth which made Hyunjin's resolve to stay clam quiver.
Within minutes, paramedics were at their doorstep and Han immediately let them in,not wasting time in explaining the situation as they themselves weren't sure about what had happened.
As per the request from medical team, they made a distance from Felix in order to move him to stretcher comfortably but just a gentle tug, was more like an extreme jerk causing Felix's neck to arch, sending jolts of striking pain from his legs to his back.
"CAN YOU NOT MAKE IT HARD FOR HIM PLEASE!?
HE IS ALREADY IN PAIN!"
Hyunjin Upon seeing the sight in front of him,unable to unburden the pain of his beloved, was getting impatient.
That's when Lee know decided to intervene and held Hyunjin from sides of his neck.
"Calm down okay? He is going to be alright, just don't make this more painful for him".
By the time, Lee know finished calming him down, Felix was being taken out by health team.
// At the hospital //
Hyunjin just stared at the doctor in front of him with wide open. He was there, with them but his senses didn't support him anymore. God knows what doctor was saying after he delivered the news of Felix being unable to walk properly for next few weeks or might have chances of developing short termed paralysis.
After that he couldn't even hear anything in the amidst of the turbulence of misery that he knew was brought to both of them. It was as if whole world is breaking, crumbling part around him and he didn't even shake.. Just there he was in total paralysis without realizing what will happen after that.
Other members weren't any better, Jinsung was suppressing his own tears, keeping his jaw clenched knowing he cannot make it worse for anyone with Minho trying to ease him while himself was in tribulation.
Bangchan, to whom Felix was more than just a team mate, Real family as he always meant, felt like he was finally defeated, finally the walls he was creating around them, every single day to make sure "his kids" were safe, were smashed to smithereens.
Turned out to be the fall Felix had while practicing was more severe than anyone could have thought.
Sudden compression to the sciatic nerve due to herniated disc in spine,not such a good news to anyone. Intense diet plans, his anxiety and stress levels being spiked up due to his upcoming events, insecurities about himself,all aggravated to make his Body feeble.
As per doctor's Strict standards of treatment, he was announced to not to continue dance for time being, weekly physiotherapy sessions, more emphasis on his diet, stretches once his injury started to heal.
All in all this will take more than 3 months to heal properly, still with suspected complications.
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But what had happened within These 3 months, that now Felix was no more of Hyunjin's sunshine but was a walking corpse, with blank eyes.