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Koko cried, screamed, and even hated himself, abandoning Inupi was something he'd never forgive himself for, something that'd hurt him for life, much more now that he understood and accepted that he was in love with Inupi, that he loved him, loved him for who he was, he loved him for his huge heart; he was always there to support him, to help him, while Koko was never there for him, he was never there to support him.
Inupi always trusted him, he never even doubted a word that Koko had said, his trust in him was blind, and Koko knew that Inupi would never betray him, but still something weighed on his heart, and now is when he understood that he never came to trust Inupi completely because he never saw him for who he was, and now that he started to, it was all slipping away.
His paths separated again here, but this time there was no turning back, this time there was no way their paths would cross again, there was no way they would meet again, to love each other like they never could.
Inupi was the one who was screaming and crying now, lying on the ground hugging the person he loved the most in his entire life; inupi seemed to be suffering more than ever, although Koko didn't understand, why was he crying for someone who betrayed him? Why was he crying for someone who broke his trust, for someone who erased the shine from him?
Koko felt very warm arms surrounding him, he felt a weight on his chest, and although he couldn't see anything at that moment, he knew perfectly well who was with him, holding him gently, but with just enough pressure so that Koko wouldn't escape from his arms As if it could break as soon as he let go of it, as if he could lose it with any move he made.
Koko heard distorted voices in the distance being overshadowed by the sobs of the person holding him.
"Koko, don't do this" he sobbed those words "don't even think about walking away from me again, don't do it" this time, the sob turned into a plea so deep that her voice broke and Inupi just couldn't let go one more word.
Koko wanted to open her eyes, he wanted to speak, tell him that he loved him, tell him everything that he had never accepted until that moment, even though he knew it would be all in vain, but his eyelids weighed too much and his voice didn't even I couldn't even get out. Koko wanted to see those beautiful eyes one last time, he wanted the last memory of him to be the beautiful sparkle in Inupi's eyes; Koko tried very hard to try to open his eyes, but no effort made that possible.
"Koko, look at me, please" begged Inupi with the short broken voice he had left "I can't let you go without knowing something, Koko." The latter was not very clear, since a great sob broke from Inupi's throat, but Koko had understood each of his words "did you love me at some point, Koko?".
Those words took Koko very by surprise, which made him feel too bad; he was an idiot, why did he have to find out so late?, he thought that over and over again, spending all the energy he had left in an attempt to speak, to tell him how sorry he was for not having accepted it sooner, but it was already too late for that, Koko felt how it was becoming more and more difficult to breathe, the air no longer reached his lungs as it always had; strangely for him, it was a quite familiar feeling, as if everything was ending there and now, but for Koko it all ended a while ago, when his path separated from that of the person he loved, it all ended when he decided to get away from Inupi; what he was feeling was so familiar, but so painful at the same time, that was as far as he had come, his fight ended there, in the arms of his most precious being, listening to his pleas and sobs that were losing more and more volume, being like that, without being able tell him how much he loved him, but hoping that Inupi, deep down, would know.