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1000 years

Yoongi was an angel who loved to look at the humans up from the heavens and sometimes when he got too bored, he would look beyond, into the hell where demons exist. 

Everyday was the same, humans, one after the other for more wealth and demons for more power to take over the heavens. 

Yoongi would scoff and laugh at the absurdity and the monotone of their lives so he would sometimes venture around the world and observe humans upclose to have a bit of fun himself. 

On rare occasions though, he would visit hell when he feels the chewing buzz of weariness and rile up some demons to fight with them. 

He almost never gets questioned for his reckless behavior since he is one of the finest soldiers of God and one of the highest ranking angels of the heavens. If asked, he says he doesn't want to get rusty from not fighting, and no one would dare to question him.

Hence demons are wary of him, since his strength and power are too much for a mere demon. Some think the power he holds might force Lucifer to cower in front of him. 

During one of his visits to hell, he stumbles upon a human, a beautiful human girl in hell. A pregnant human girl abandoned in a lonely place of hell. 

He concludes that a demon might have brought this innocent child to hell and impregnated her. Humans cannot survive hell but perhaps the half demon sleeping in her belly might be keeping her alive till it is born. 

Angels cannot get involved in the affairs of the demons or the humans unless it threatens the balance of heaven and hell. 

So he bites his tongue, holding his sorrow for the miserable human and closes his eyes pretending not to hear the pleas of the girl to save her. 

Even though for some unknown reason his heart clenches to save the human girl when he hears the wailing of her unborn child, the fetus' cries are louder than the horn of the God to his ears.

The next few days are like thousand years of storms raging inside him. He cannot forget the eyes and the tears of the girl and the pain of her voice. 

He has witnessed thousands of years of sadness and misery of humans on earth. He has witnessed souls being ripped apart and mended to be ripped again for thousands of years in the pits of hell. All those screams and tears could never scratch his nerves of titanium.

But this unborn child's cries are deafening to his ears and he can hear its screaming even up from the heavens. So he goes back, to see the girl against his better judgements and rational mind, submitting purely to the pains of his heart.

He finds the girl has given birth already on her own to a beautiful boy, half human and half..demon. 

The birth must have taken her whole life force since Yoongi finds the girl in a state of waning. With her last breath she begs Yoongi to save her newly born child instead of her. 

"But he is a child of a demon." Yoongi says, shocked by her request. 

"No, he is..he is my child." The mother begs. 

"But he will be a demon.." Yoongi argues.

"But..he is still innocent.." the mother defends. 

Yoongi has lost the argument since he knows, he knows against all the rationale and the rules of the heavens, regardless of the father, and the circumstances of the birth, the child is innocent, still a half human…

So Yoongi takes him and promises to save the child. He asks her, "What should be its name?"

"I want to name him after the man I loved." The girl answers.

"And what would that be?" Yoongi asks again.

"Taehyung. His name will be Taehyung." 

The mother's last breath, the last word is the name of the child, a half human child. No! A half demon child.

Taehyung!

Since Yoongi has promised the mother to save the child, he finds it a shelter, in the laps of a half demon girl who owes him a favor. This half demon is a half angel, born from a forbidden union of a demon and an angel, whose life was once saved by Yoongi. So he goes to her finally to use the one favor she owes him. 

"Life for a life. I saved yours and you will protect it's." Yoongi says to the demon girl while giving up the child. 

The child in question refuses to leave Yoongi’s embrace, crises profusely from the loss of the warmth of the angel. But Yoongi turns around, shutting his ears, he walks away.

But he would find himself, observing the child up from the heavens, growing up with innocence and purity of heart even though demon blood runs through his veins. His dead mother's words still echo in his ears.."But.. he is still innocent..". 

And Yoongi can see that, the way the child smiles, looking up at the sky. It's like it knows Yoongi is watching him and subconsciously, the child would look up and meet his gaze even though Yoongi knows the child cannot see him.

The child, aka Taehyung, is growing up to be a beautiful boy. No! A beautiful demon. 

Demons are the creatures of the darkness with the power to enchant and manipulate the hearts of others. 

So Yoongi concludes the obsession he feels towards the demon boy is his dark magic inherited from his father’s demon blood. 

But deep down Yoongi knows it's not correct, because the boy, Taehyung, has no magic in him. The fascination Yoongi feels has a sinful origin which cannot be cultivated any further otherwise his heart and soul will be corrupted beyond redemption. 

Such passion cannot exist, such overpowering emotion to possess the demon boy and to commit transgressions by an angel of his ranking is punishable to the highest degrees. The burning desire fueled by his unholy thoughts is consuming his mind and heart like a wildfire. So he decides to let go, never look back at the demon boy ever again and to put a seal on his heart. 

Forever!!

So he thought!!

Hundreds of years pass by with the seal on his heart intact, without looking back at the demon boy or without stepping into hell. 

However, about a hundred years later, Yoongi is tasked to go to hell and kill a demon who has been trying to enter the heavens and steal Holy waters which have healing properties. 

Cocky as he is, Yoongi goes to hell without thinking much of it, but finds himself walking on a trap set up by Lucifer himself. 

A fight ensues and Yoongi is severely injured. In the clutches of death and almost losing his soul to the demons, he miraculously escapes and hides but he is too weak to fly back to the heavens. 

He is counting moments before he will be discovered by the creatures of hell but instead he is rescued by a demon, a beautiful demon. 

No! The most beautiful creature in the entire hell or earth..no, the most beautiful being in the existence of heaven or earth or hell. 

He is saved by…Taehyung. 

Taehyung saves his life and treats his injuries, nursing Yoongi back to his strength so that he can fly back to the heavens. But the angel notices the half demon is alone. 

So he inquires, "Where is your mother?"

"My mother passed away two decades ago."

"Passed away?" Yoongi is shocked to hear this. Is it the news or the boy’s deep voice that's playing the strings of his heart so wildly, Yoongi doesn’t understand or perhaps he doesn't want to understand. 

"Yes, she was…she was..killed by some demons."

Taehyung’s beautiful face is full of sorrow for his foster mother and Yoongi finds his heart breaking upon seeing such sadness in the demon boy's eyes. 

"You have been on your own since then?" Yoongi finds himself asking.

"No, an angel is there, up in the heavens, always protecting me." Taehyung says with a smile. 

That beautiful, bright, innocent smile that threatens to uncap the lid he has put on his heart. And Yoongi knows, he knows that Taehyung knows him, the demon recognizes him.

So the angel asks, "how..how did you find me?"

"I could feel you when you descended to hell. So I followed the pull and found you." The half demon says, still smiling. 

Yoongi only nods, not trusting his words, not to say anything that will endanger the seal on his heart, that will reveal his sinful desires. 

So as soon as he is able to fly again, he returns to the heavens but not before destroying the demons who tried to steal from the heavens. 

And in the process if he kills the demons who has murdered Taehyung’s mother and made him sad, no one needs to know. 

Afterall, they are demons, accidents may happen during fights between angels and demons. There will be casualties…

Yoongi returns to the heavens but without any goodbye to Taehyung since farewells are unnecessary when it means, he would need to acknowledge that the half demon exists, that Taehyung exists. 

So the angel returns, silently.

That's easier said than being done.

Because Yoongi finds himself in absolute dismay, heart in turmoil and mind in utter chaos. The suppressed desires cannot be contained any longer. 

100 years!

One hundred years of resistance and the seal on his heart, is slowly chirping away, bit by bit. The obsession, he fought so hard against, the voice he so refrained from listening to, wakes up within him again, calls for him again.

There is a constant buzz in his head, the murmur in his ears making him go crazy. The mania deep in his heart, is making him think of the forbidden fruit. 

It whispers, ever so lightly, in his ears, 'Just one bite…just a little one..there will be no harm.'

Once is okay, just one glance should be okay, Yoongi says to himself. 

Big mistake!

Because now, Yoongi finds himself losing again, slowly falling into the old habits of watching the boy, the half demon, the half human.

He finds himself constantly in awe of Taehyung and he cannot help it. He cannot help what he feels about the boy, the attraction, the fascination at its highest point, in it's strongest degree. 

This is forbidden, it will be unforgivable, if this is revealed to anyone! An angel..with a demon..may it be a half demon..

So Yoongi tries to push himself away from the boy, AGAIN, promising himself it would be for one last time. 

One last look. 

But, fate is NOT his friend.

Because, on the last day of his promise, he finds Taehyung in the clutches of some other demons, dragging him out from his hide. Forcing him to go with them.

And Yoongi knows what’s going to happen now. The demons are going to torment the half demon boy. They are going to take away his purity, they are going to rob him of his innocence. 

Then they are going to kill him.

In an instant, Yoongi’s wings appear, like they have a mind of their own. Even before he can think, his body reacts, his instincts take charge. And he flies to hell at lightning speed and lands before Taehyung.

He kills the demons who dared to lay their hands on the boy, brutally. All the hatred and anger in his soul, poured on the tip of his sword, slices the flesh of the monsters, over and over, who have the audacity to touch Taehyung.

HIS TAEHYUNG. 

HIS.

ONLY HIS.

With a heaving chest, Yoongi looks back as he withdraws his sword upon destroying the assailants and finds Taehyung looking at him with absolute horror in his eyes. But it lasts for a moment only. Because the next thing he notices is being tightly embraced by the boy. 

And it's okay..it's just an embrace..it should be okay…but..

Yoongi doesn't get a moment's notice, it was not supposed to happen, it cannot happen..but it happens…

His lips on his own.

Taehyung's lips on his own.

Taehyung’s soft lips are kissing him, gently, giving Yoongi the sweet taste of his innocence which is..unacceptable. 

Which is unforgivable..

Which is forbidden..

Which is…

Which is liberating..

Which is intoxicating..

And Yoongi kisses back, with all the passion suppressed for a hundred years. He holds the boy in his arms and kisses him fiercely. 

Emotions overflowing and destroying all the rational senses and replaced by ever consuming and burning desire, Yoongi finally lets go of all the restraints and shackles of the heavenly laws. 

And he then accepts, he admits that..he loves the boy, he is in love with Taehyung. 

Hence he doesn't think anymore and kisses the boy with all his heart. He takes the boy tamely, makes love to him gently which slowly progresses to untamed, unrestrained and heated moments of lust.

And Yoongi cannot stop, he cannot stop kissing the boy..he cannot stop touching the half human…he cannot stop..loving Taehyung. 

Yoongi thinks about it, as he holds a sleeping Taehyung in his arms, that he will never stop..he will never let go of the boy. 

He will always love Taehyung.

Someone must have talked.

Someone must have said something to Father, that’s why angels are coming down to hell.

This is what Yoongi sees when he is woken from his sleep by loud thunderstoms. The red sky is glowing and angels are coming down like shooting stars. The energy of their arrival is intense, charged, heavy in the air and so strong and unbreathable. Demons hiding away in their caves because they are all….afraid.

Just like Taehyung.

One look at him and Yoongi can tell he is frightened, scared to be captured, terrified to be taken away. So Yoongi holds him in his arms.

“It’s alright, I am here, they will not touch you… I will not let them touch you.” 

The angel tightens his grip around the half demon’s torso, nuzzles his neck and whispers the words of comfort, even though he himself knows, there’s no fighting with God.

“I will protect you, my love. I will always protect you.” Yoongi breathes in his lover’s ears.

Taehyung can only nod, no words of protest, no words of complaint, since he too knows, they will not win…but still, they must try…

“We need to get away from here. We cannot hide in hell or the henaves, so we will need to take shelter on earth, among the mortals.” The angel proposes and Taehyung again nods, conceding to whatever Yoongi has to say.

So whatever minimum belonging Taehyung had, he grabs them and they escape. They must atleast attempt to fight for the love they have, specially when they just found each other. They cannot give up on love, not yet, not just yet. 

However, one should know, there’s no breaking free from God, specially when they want to find you, angels are after you. Every turn you take, they are there, waiting for you.

But, Yoongi is one of the best warriors of God, adept in fighting both angels and monsters and he is not to be taken so lightly, and he does what he does the best, he fights, he protects, he shields the soul he loves from the wrath of God.

But for how long? He is one soul only, one angel fighting the many likes of him. So it’s not long that he sustains beating, injuries taking longer to heal while body becomes weaker. 

“Hey it’s alright, I will heal, just that it’s going to take a little longer than usual.” Yoongi tries to soothe the younger while gently cupping his face and kissing his lips. 

The half demon in question can only sob, tears flowing freely over his beautiful face as he takes in the warmth of his lover, in his embrace.

“It’s my fault, it’s all my fault.” Taehyung cries and cries seeing his lover’s wounds, and Yoongi finds him inconsolable, trying his best to placate the wailing boy but in vain. 

They fall asleep just like that, in each other’s arms. 

Yoongi wakes up from the gentle calls of the man he loves, “Yoongi, wake up.” Taehyung is whispering softly to his ears and he finds himself smiling as soon as he opens his eyes and sees the half demon smiling at him sweetly. 

And Yoongi knows, he can devote his entire life for this smile, for his soul, for this man who he loves with everything he has. 

“Yoongi, you have to wake up.” 

“Hmm..just a minute, let me memorize your beautiful smile.” Yoongi says to the beautiful half demon who smiles so prettily, who leans in and kisses the angel softly. 

But there’s something else. 

Yoongi senses some energy around them, intense pressure in the air, his senses going on high alert and he reaches for his sword since he knows this feeling…they are here..The angels are here. 

“They have found us again, we need to run again.”

But Taehyung is not moving at all, just smiling, not even slightly bothered by the revelation of the angels’ arrival. So Yoongi asks, “Why are you ….” 

He doesn’t get to complete his thought becasue the realization hits him.

“Taehyung, tell me you didn’t. My love, tell me please.” Yoongi implores to his lover, not wanting to hear the truth. 

“Yoongi, this way one of us will be punished…You..you will be forgiven…if..if I claim that it was I who beweitched you.. And you..

“NOOO!!!” Yoongi screams. “They will drag you to hell and will condemn you for life. Your soul will be punished for eternity.” The angel belows, holding his lover’s face. 

Taehyung cries, pleads to the angel, “I know and I accept. If it means… if it means, you are safe..”

“But I do not! I will never let them take you away! It’s I who should protect you!” Yoongi seethes in anger. 

Taehyung closes his eyes and begs to the angel, “Yoongi, you have protected me since the day I was born, please, let me do this for you for once.”

“But it’s for eternity, the punishment and the pain you are so willing to accept on behalf of me.”

“Yes, because it’s all my fault.” Taehyung whimpers.

“No, it’s both of us, because I too fell in love with you.” Yoongi tries to reason with his lover, but Taehyung only shakes his head.

“You don’t understand…I … did the unforgivable…” Taehyung says.

“What do you mean?” Yoongi inquires.

But before Taehyung can say anything, they get interrupted by a loud bang and now suddenly their hideout is being crowded by the angels, the soldiers from God, who have come here to punish them….to separate them. 

“Demon, your time is up. Time to go.” one of them says.

Yoongi immediately stands infront of Taehyung, stance defensive, sword on hand, ready to fight, kill or die but he will not let them take his love away. 

“Yoongi….” Taehyung pleads, voice broken, fear striken. But Yoongi pays him no heed. 

“He will not go with you, he has not done anything wrong, love is not a crime.” Yoongi defends his position.

“But he is not being punished for loving you.” another angel says and Yoongi knows this voice. It’s Namjoon’s…. Namjoon is the only one who can perhaps match Yoongi’s skill.

“So they have sent you? To capture us? To punish us for what..loving each other?” Yoongi scoffs.

“No hyung, the demon is not going to be sentenced for your love affair, but for the crime of stealing from Father.” Namjoon informs.

“What do you mean he stole from Father?” 

“It looks like he hasn’t told you.” Namjoon sighs but continues. “It’s your demon who entered through the gates of the heavens and stole the holy water from Father.”

Yoongi, shocked from learning the truth about his lover, looks back at him, expecting him to deny, but the boy only cries, tears affirming the claim of the other angel. 

“I am so sorry…I didn’t know… they told me I could pass the gates.. Since I was half human..that I will not be detected…I am so sorry….” Taehyung tells the truth. 

“But why…”

“Because they said, this is the only way I could see you…” Taehyung has finally stopped crying and tells him the truth, “Because I wanted to see you…because I was so scared by myself…I was so alone…” Taehyung admits, voice defeated. 

Yoongi listens and curses himself, because it was Yoongi who left the boy alone in hell, to rot in there..defenseless…no it’s not the boy’s fault but his own since he could not control his desires. 

So he takes a deep breath and takes his defensive position again.

“It doesn’t change anything, I will still not let you take him away from me.” Yoongi informs the others which causes a wave shock among everyone, including Taehyung who is looking at the angel with stunned eyes. 

“Hyung, he stole from Father, are you still defending him and defying Father’s orders? It will be an act of rebellion.” 

“But you have heard him, he was misled.” 

“Father will be the judge of it.” 

“NOO!” Yoongi screams again and a fight ensues among the angels, a fight to capture and defend, a fight to punish and protect. A fight for life and death. 

And like they say in the heavens and hell, demons’ lives are worthless, there are always casualties when angels fight. And if one or two demons die in a fight of angels, then it’s alright, because they are just accidental deatha, tragedies, demons..their lives are not so significant…

That’s why it’s okay if Taehyung gets stabbed in the middle of the fight, because he is just a demon… just another one….

“It’s okay..it’s okay…I am here…my love…I will heal you…” Yoongi cries as he holds Taehyung in his arms, as Taehyung coughs more blood, as life slowly slips away from the body. 

“Yoongi…it hurts…”

“I know, I know…I am so sorry I couldn’t protect you.” 

“But you are safe…Yoongi…you are safe…”

Yoongi cries as his lover is dying in his arms, unable to say anything, he kisses the boy gently. 

“Yoongi, say you love me…please…”

“I love you…I love you with all my heart.”

And Taehyung smiles, “I love you..Yoongi..my angel…I love you…”

Yoongi screams and cries loudly as the love of his life is breathing his last breaths. 

“Hyung, you have to let go. We have to take his soul back to hell.” Namjoon requests Yoongi with the gentlest of voices.

But Yoongi, not yet ready to give up, not yet ready to let his lover’s soul go to hell, says, “NO.” 

He promised to protect the boy, to save his soul. So as long as Yoongi breathes he will not let the boy be sent to hell. 

“Hyung, please, I beg of you..please do not make it worse.” Namjoon implores.

Yoongi only smiles at him and closes his eyes. Then there was a prayer.

Dear Lord, when I get to Heaven

Please let me bring my man

When he comes, tell me that you'll let him in

Father, tell me if you can

All that grace, all that innocence 

All that face makes me wanna love

He's my sun, he makes me shine like diamonds

That is the last thing anyone remembers because then there is an influx of light and a burst with a loud bang and everyone is knocked off.  

There is white.

There is white everywhere.

White is what Yoongi sees when he opens his eyes, white so bright, blinding his eyes, he squints to adjust his vision and as soon as he gets his bearings together, his mind goes back to him.

Taehyung. 

He searches for him, around him like a mad man. But there is no end of the white, expanding in all the horizons. So Yoongi runs and runs, he doesn’t know for how long though but he sees no soul, finds no conclusion to this never ending white.

He starts to cry, kneeling down and prays for Taehyung, to let him find his soul. 

Then there was a loud thump, his heart stops pulsing for a moment and then it starts to beat again but this time it is different, he can feel it, he can feel him, he can feel Taehyung.

But he is far away, somewhere, sleeping. The urge to find Taehyung is intense, making him go crazy, just to hold his lover in his embrace again but Yoongi cannot reach him, cannot find him.

So he starts to pray again.

Dear Lord, 

Please hear the cries of an aching heart

Punish not the soul of innocent 

Love is all I did and love is all I need

Please Father let me find his soul…

“Yoongi.” a voice calls for him. But it does not belong to Taehyung, it belongs to another angel, Yoongi knows him, it belongs to his hyung, Seokjin. 

“Seokjin hyung, what are you doing here?” Yoongi inquires urgently, “Do you know where he is?”

Seokjin nods.

“I beg of you hyung, please take me to him.”

“He is not here, Yoongi.”

“But I can feel him.” Yoongi places a hand over his heart to show that he can feel his lover’s heartbeat. 

“I know you can feel him because you have tied your soul to him.” Seokjin informs. 

“What do you mean?”

“Do you know what you did on earth before you lost your consciousness?”

Yoongi tries to recall, but all he remembers, Taehyung dying in his arms and him trying to protect his soul. “I tried to save his soul so that he would not be sent to hell.” 

“That you did, Yoongi, you saved his soul by sacrificing all your power but in the process you have tied yourself to him for eternity.”

“That’s a good thing, right, that means he and I will always be together.”

Soekjin gives him a sad smile but remains silent. 

“Hyung, please tell me where he is. I want to see him.”

“I will tell you Yoongi where he is but I am afraid you cannot see him.”

“Why? You just said that we are going to be together.”

“Yoongi, you are forgetting that he stole from Father and he is going to receive his punishment.”

“But, I saved his soul… he cannot enter hell…” at this point Yoongi is losing his patience and raises his voice. 

“Yes, Yoongi, you are right! You gave up all your power to bind his soul so that he will not enter hell. But it doesn’t mean he can enter heaven. This is his punishment.” 

“So it means…”

Soekjin sighs and says, “Yes Yoongi, Taehyung’s soul can neither enter heaven nor hell, he will remain on earth.”

“But he is a mortal…he cannot live long!” Yoongi’s mind starts to run wild to find a definite reasoning which will make semblance of sense, but nothing seems right and he feels losing his wits. 

“Right, he is a mortal hence he will die and then be reborn as human over and over again till eternity, till the end of times.” Seokjin explains.

Yoongi feels like the ground beneath him is shaking, limbs heavy and a boulder crushing his heart. A blunt, obtuse pain blinding his senses. 

“Hyung, does that mean…he will not come to heaven…and I…hyung…I cannot be with him?” Silent tears are now flowing over his cheeks, unprompted.

“Yoongi, you cannot remain in heaven either.” Seokjin tells him very gently. “Once you gave up your powers of an angel to save his soul, you lost your right to be in heaven too. I am so sorry but you will be sent to earth because your soul is tied to his, and both of your souls should remain together.”

“But..but..it’s a good thing..I don’t care whether I am in heaven or earth, as long as we are together….I will be happy…” Yoongi is baffled by the situation since it’s not making any sense to him.

Seokjin sighs, shakes his head and tries to explain again,”Yoongi-ah, my dear brother, that’s your punishment for defying Father’s orders and fighting with the others. Since your soul is tied to his, you will be sent to earth but you cannot be together. If you break this then, I am afraid, Taehyung will be punished and his soul will be obliterated. 

“You cannot be..serious…noo…please…please..tell me this is not true…hyung…I beg of you…”

“I am sorry, I am so sorry Yoongi-ah, I tried to reason with Father but he is angry with you since you are one of his favorites, he got really upset when you chose a demon soul over his wishes…”

Yoongi feels numb, the obtuse pain on his chest has pierced his heart and made a hole that has robbed him of any hope, feelings and love. The pain in the heart is so unbearable that he feels…nothing at all…

He will not be able to be with his lover…the person he loves the most will not be his in any lifetime, Taehyung will not even know him…what’s the point of such life when they cannot be together…

“But I was able to get you a gift.” Soekjin gives a sad smile to his brother. “Each time Taehyung is about to die…” He inhales deeply and continues with the morbid news, “When he is taking his last breaths, in his last moments he will remember you. Only for a few moments you can be with him…I am sorry this is not much. But this is what I am able to give you.”

Yoongi looks at his hyung with stunned eyes, tears clouding his vision one more time and then he breaks down...because he doesn’t know what is worse…the feeling that for the rest of the eternity they will be stuck in a limbo or the fact that he will have to witness his lover die in his arms over and over again just to be with him for few seconds…

So Yoongi crumples, kneeling down he starts to scream in pain and tears…and tears become his second best friend. 

1000 years! 

It’s been 1000 years since Yoongi was sent to the earth among the mortals. 

It’s been 1000 years since Taehyung’s soul was sent to earth to be born as human. 

It’s been 1000 years since Yoongi has seen Taehyung take birth and die in his arms. 

It’s been 1000 years.

Over these 1000 years, Yoongi has seen Taehyung take many lives, he has seen him in many roles and forms. Yoongi has seen him to have different families, different jobs and different ways of living and of course different ways of dying. 

Yoongi has seen him die by accident or expire due to old age. He has seen him getting killed in a war, he has seen him to get murdered by mob.

And each time Yoongi has been there. He has been there during Taehyung’s last breaths, in his dying moments, to hold his hand, to give him a goodbye kiss, to tell him he loves him unconditionally and ofcourse for a few seconds to hear one more time that he loves his angel.

And each time, it has been difficult. To see his lover die infront of his eyes, in his embrace. No matter how many times Yoongi has seen his lover die, it never gets easier. Each time he sees Taehyung take his last breaths, it feels like a part of him has died with him.

Taehyung's each death causes his soul to get ripped apart and then his each birth mends the tear in his soul. But never in the last 1000 years it got easier, and each time his heart breaks a little more and he dies a little more. 

But what’s even more heartbreaking than his lover’s death? 

To see the man he loves love someone else. 

In his many lives, Taehyung has taken many lovers. He has married, fathered many children, he has made love to many more, held their hands, kissed their lips and told them he loves them. 

And Yoongi has to bear it all, from afar, never crossing the distance, never daring to get close because he fears losing his soul. 

And the heartbreak? It has been worse than seeing the love of his life die.

And all this time, Yoongi has been alone. He tried many times to take other lovers, however the love in his heart for Taehyung, deters him to fall in love with any other soul.

Taehyung cannot remember him, when he takes birth, Yoongi cannot go close to him and make him remember. Hence Yoongi has to bear it all by himself, not a single soul to share his pain with, not a single being to console him when he cries. 

And now, after seeing Taehyung die for 12 times and take birth for the 13th time, it’s still the same. The same pain, the same longing, the same distance always between them. 

Taehyung’s 13th birth is not so different from his other lives. He has been born again in a poor family where he has to work hard to earn a living. The cruelty of fate, never giving him the chance to live his life fully. It’s always the same, his fate, destitution and hardship.

But Taehyung also remains the same, innocent, lovely, kind and beautiful, so so beautiful. 

Yoongi observes him from afar, as Taehyung is making coffee for the customers he has in the coffee shop he works in. In this life Taehyung is a poor student who works part time at a coffee shop to support himself. 

In this life, he is a sweet kid, so lively and friendly, making friends everywhere he goes, making people fall in love with him too! But he doesn’t have a lover yet. So Yoongi is at ease but he knows it's temporary because any time soon Taehyung will fall in love and will take a lover.

Yoongi is observing Taehyung working when he notices an energy from the coffee shop. He knows the energy, it’s coming from an angel. An angel is in Taehyung’s coffee shop, near him. 

Yoongi feels alarmed. 

He wants to go inside and find out what’s going on but he cannot. He cannot cross the barrier, the distance. So he waits till the angel leaves so that he can confront them.

Taehyung leaves first when he is done with his shift. Yoongi usually follows him home. But today he doesn’t, he waits till the angel is out. And when he sees the source of energy getting out of the place he is shocked, because Yoongi knows him, it’s his hyung. It’s Seokjin.

So Yoongi approaches the elder and asks him, “What are you doing here?”

“Hey, Yoongi, how have you been?” Seokjin asks warmly instead of answering his question.

“I don’t have time to chit chat with you, so tell me why you are here and I can move on.” Yoongi replies.

“You are not happy to see me?” 

“Not really, nothing good comes by when we cross paths with the angels. So l am asking you again, why are you here?” Yoongi’s tone is sharp, irritated. 

“Ah! Not in the mood to talk to me, I see. Well, Yoongi, there were some disturbances on earth so I came here to investigate.” Soekjin reveals.

“Alright. But why are you specifically here, at the place where Taehyung works.” Yoongi wants to dig deeper.

“No specific reason actually. I just heard that he makes good coffee so I came here for a taste.” Soekjin humors but it makes Yoongi more agitated.

“Don’t come here again. If you are here for a job then do it, just don’t go near him.” Yoongi threatens the other angel.

“Hey Yoongi, don't be like this, I don’t mean any harm.” Seokjin tries to reason with him but Yoongi is not in the mood.

“No shit, no angel means no harm but always ends up destroying innocent lives at God’s bidding.” Yoongi fires away.

Seokjin is surprised to hear his younger brother talk in such a crude manner so he says, “Yoongi-ah, the earth has changed you, you never used to be so impolite with your hyungs.” 

“Yeah? Tell me this when you have seen the love of your life die 12 times in your arms for 1000 years.”

“Yoongi I know..it’s hard….” Soekjin tries to say but Yoongi cuts him.

“You know nothing and I am done talking to you. Leave before I come after you.”

“Yoongi, you do not have your powers to fight me.”

“Right, but I will not die either, so go away and don’t go anywhere near Taehyung!” Yoongi says this with finality and leaves the place without looking back at Seokjin and hoping that the elder will listen to him and will leave.

Because like he said, he truly thinks nothing good happens when angels are here crossing paths with them. 

And he was right, things go south very quickly.

Yoongi is going to Taehyung’s university to watch him go back home. It is late at night. Taehyung is studying late in the evening. But suddenly his heart starts to beat really fast and his breathing becomes heavy. An unsettling pressure is clenching his chest. He knows this feeling. This is how his soul feels when Taehyung is about to die. 

But why now? In this life, Taehyung isn’t supposed to die so soon, he is supposed to live a very long time. Something is wrong, something has changed! And his mind goes back to a few days ago and his conversation with Soekjin. 

“Fuck! If it’s Soekjin then I am going to kill him.”

Yoongi runs to the source. He doesn’t know where Taehyung is but he knows his instinct will guide him, it’s their fate, it’s his fate to be present when Taehyung dies.

Yoongi reaches the park near Taehyung’s university, his instincts have guided him here. It’s late and dark, only street lights from far are illuminating the place. And he hears screams and cries of someone..it’s Taehyung.

Yoongi rushes to the source and from a small distance away he can see what’s happening which has caused his heart to start to break, which is going to cause Taehyung his death. A horrible scene is unfolding before his eyes.

He sees that a demon is attacking Taehyung who is trying to protect someone. But he knows that person…no, it’s an angel, it’s Seokjin and he is injured and Taehyung is trying to protect him from the demon. 

But Yoongi knows Taehyung cannot win, he is a mere human and he is faced with a demon so he watches from afar and starts to cry helplessly as he sees the love of his life fight for his own life and for another, as he cannot meddle and protect the boy. 

The demon is attacking aggressively now but Taehyung is successfully able to distract it from Seokjin which would give enough time for the elder to escape but he doesn’t. Instead Seokjin gets his sword which was on the ground and swings to kill the demon.

But at the last moment the demon throws Taehyung infront of it and Sepkjin’s sword pierce through the human’s fragile body before it hits the demon. The demon evaporates as the holy sword touches the unholy soul of the demon but in the process it kills Taehyung as well.

Yoongi screams as the scene reaches its climax infront of his eyes. He runs to Taehyung to hold him in his arms and cries as he sees Taehyung coughing blood.

1000 years ago Taehyung had died for the first time by the sword from an angel, during the fight of the angels. 1000 years later he is again dying from an sword of an angel, during a fight of an angel.

And Yoongi feels helpless as he cries and watches his lover die, one more time, to see the lights from his lover’s eyes fade away, slowly. And he says the same things he had said all those years ago, 1000 years ago. 

“I am so sorry I couldn’t protect you.” Yoongi cries. 

“But you are safe…Yoongi…you are safe…” Taehyung remembers and hence he repeats and asks him again, like he does every single time, “Yoongi, say you love me…please…”

“I love you…I love you with all my heart.” Yoongi says, like he does every single time. 

Taehyung smiles, “I love you..Yoongi..my angel…I love you…”

And then he is gone, for the 13th time, Taehyung has died and Yoongi screams in pain, as his heart breaks, as his soul gets ripped and he cries because he cannot do anything else.

Seokjin comes closer and crouches down infront of Yoongi and says, “Yoongi, I am sorry, so so sorry.”

“I told you…I told you not to go close to him…I told you nothing good happens when angels cross paths with him…then why didn’t you listen? He wasn’t supposed to die today…he had a long life ahead..a good life and you took it away from him…” Yoongi yells at his hyung.

“Yoongi…I didn’t know this would happen..” Soekjin’s voice is so soft and so gentle.

“Go away! I don’t want to see your face!” 

And Seokjin leaves as he sees the heartbreaking scene of Yoongi crying over his lover’s dead body, with the enormous guilt on his shoulders that he is the reason for the untimely death of Taehyung, an innocent boy in this life. 

He tries to close his ears to the cries of pain of Yoongi, his dear brother whom he loved who mourns for his love. But Seokjin cannot. He cannot simply unsee the tears, he cannot unhear the howls of a breaking heart and a dead soul. 

Yoongi wakes up from his sleep. He feels weak but it’s natural since Taehyung has died a few days ago and his soul is still healing from being ripped open. 

But it seems like the more times he encounters this, the weaker he becomes. But it’s alright, he tells himself. As long as his soul gets repaired and Taehyung takes birth again.

The longer it takes his soul to mend, the later Taehyung will be reborn. The last time it was almost 100 years late and it almost drove Yoongi mad to be apart from his other half of the soul. He wonders how long it will take for Taehyung to come back to life this time.

He pushes his soul to feel Taehyung, that’s the only thing that keeps him sane, he can feel Taehyung’s soul, his other half. And he relaxes, knowing that Taehyung’s soul is there somewhere, floating to be born again. 

So Yoongi should try to heal a little faster so that his lover’s soul will come back to earth, come back to life. 

A few weeks later, Yoongi is still recouping when suddenly with a loud thump, his heart stops beating for a second. He feels scared because after a moment when his heart is pulsing again, he feels different. 

It’s different because he cannot feel Taehyung any longer. Taehyung’s soul is not there any more, it’s not floating…it just simply…vanished.

Yoongi is frightened and he doesn’t know what to do so he runs and goes back to the place where Taehyung had died a few weeks ago, to absorb any residual energy his soul and his death might have left. 

But he feels nothing, absolutely nothing…Taehyung’s soul is gone and Yoongi feels like going crazy…because he doesn’t know what to do…where to go…he is there alone, helpless without his other half gone completely….

So he does what is the only option for him, he prays as he sheds tears…

Dear Lord, 

Hear the cries of a weak soul

Return the hope that is gone

The spirit who is innocent 

The only light of my existence….

He is sitting by the place, in a swing where Taehyung has taken his last breaths. He feels empty inside since a part of him is missing, gone, disappeared and his soul feels numb. Tears have stopped flowing since he has no more to shed.

The swing next to him suddenly gets occupied but he doesn’t turn to look at the occupant. He knows the energy, he will recognize it anywhere… His hyung is here again..Seokjin is here again.

“Yoongi-ah, how are you holding up?” Seokjin asks but Yoongi doesn’t answer, he feels exhausted, depleted of any energy or hope to exist. 

“I know you are upset but I just wanted to apologize.” Seokjin tries again, Yoongi remains quiet. 

Since Yoongi is not responding, Seokjin tries again, “I know you cannot feel Taehyung any more…” that seems to spark some energy within Yoongi who immediately responds.

“Where is he? Where is his soul? Hyung, please tell me or I will go mad.” Yoongi begs, tears clouding his eyes one more time. 

Seokjin smiles at him, a good smile, a smile adorned with hope. “He is in a good place Yoongi..he is in heaven.”

“But how?” Yoongi is baffled by this piece of information, “He cannot enter heaven...his soul is prohibited…it’s his punishment….”

“Well Yoongi, how can a soul so noble be punished?” Soekjin says instead.

“I don’t understand….”

So Seokjin explains it to him, “When he…when he saved my life and sacrificed himself, his soul was forgiven for his selfless act.. Father couldn’t punish him any longer and gave permission for his soul to enter the heavens.” Soekjin smiles and Yoongi starts to cry again.

“So he is in the heavens now…he is in a good place?” 

“Yeah Yoongi, he is in a good place…but he hasn’t been woken up yet. He will not wake up.”

“Why? What’s wrong? Why wouldn’t he wake up!” Yoongi is out of breath at this point.

“Because his soul is incomplete.. Because you are here..you need to be with him for him to wake up..because Yoongi, you are the other half of his soul.” Seokjin smiles at his brother.

“So does this mean..”

“Yes Yoongi, you have to come back to the heavens..”

“But my punishment?”

“I think 1000 years are enough punishment. So Father has chosen to forgive you as well for listening to his last command of keeping your distance from Taehyung.” Soekjin explains.

“Does that mean…I can finally be with him?”

“Yes Yoongi, finally you will be able to unite with your love, you will get your other half of your soul.” 

Yoongi is crying profusely now, unable to quite believe that finally he will be free from this prison, the pain and the horrible fate. 

“Thank you hyung…thank you so much…” 

“But he will not remember you when he wakes up…he will have no recollection of his past self.”

Soekjin informs him.

“I think it’s better this way..I don’t want him to go through the pain of 1000 years.” Yoongi finally smiles a little.

“What if he doesn’t fall in love with you again?”

“I don’t think it is possible…I think in every universe, in every lifetime, we will find each other, we will love each other.” Yoongi tells his hyung, hope finally gives some light to his dark eyes.

“Very well then. Let’s go back, let’s get your Taehyung back.” 

Yoongi closes his eyes & then he opens his eyes, there is white again. 

Taehyung wakes up and as soon as he opens his eyes he sees a man sitting infront of him. The man is very beautiful.

“Are you alright?” The man asks.

“I think so?” Taehyung is not sure as he tries to sit and takes in his surroundings. “Where am I?”

“You are in the heavens.” The man tells him.

“I am in heaven?” Taehyung asks surprised. “Does it mean I was good on earth?”

“Yeah, it seems so. Can you remember your name?” The man is asking him.

“I don’t know…I think..I think my name was Taehyung?”

“Taehyung! That’s a nice name. I am Yoongi. It’s very nice to meet you.” The man smiles, and Taehyung thinks it’s the prettiest smile, the most beautiful so he smiles too while looking at the man….Yoongi.

“Let me show you around Taehyung.” Yoongi extends his hand and Taehyung takes it and says, “Alright.” 

They walk together, wander around the expanse of heaven, always together, side by side and Taehyung feels happy when he is with Yoongi, always smiling at the elder.

“Why are you smiling?” Yoongi asks.

“I don’t know.” Taehyung answers, “Maybe because I am happy.”

“And why are you happy Taehyung?”

“Because I am with you.” Taehyung says while looking at Yoongi’s face. 

Yoongi smiles and says, “You like being together with me?”

“Yes..I like it when I am with you..because…um..I think..I think I like you.” Taehyung confesses shyly.

“Yeah? You like me? Well good thing! Because I like you too.” Yoongi smiles, his beautiful gummy smile. 

Taehyung is surprised, but feels happy to hear it and hence he leans down and kisses Yoongi who kisses him back. 

“Will you accompany me?” Yoongi asks him while resting his forehead on the other’s, “For the rest of eternity, will you stay with me?”

“I will always be with you Yoongi..as long as heaven exists..as long as I exist.” Taehyung replies. 

And they hug and hold each other close, and Yoongi finally releases a sigh of relief… becaue…finally, always and forever, they are going to be together.