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I looked down at the poorly typed text on my phone one last time.
Look you’ve got a gr8 personality and all but your just not my type sorry. Thought we could get down but thunder thighs just aint my thing. Call me if you lose weight though.
My hand gripped the device and squeezed until my knuckles went white. It shouldn't have bothered me really. I'd only been talking to the guy for a few weeks. Only been messaging him in between classes. And looking forward to his cute emojis that I now realize were annoying as fuck. Only been daydreaming about meeting up until we finally did. And then he took one look at me and suddenly didn't seem that interested.
The date went about as well as you could expect. We got coffee and he was weird and dejected the entire time. I put a lot of effort into carrying on the conversation and he couldn't hold it above his head if it was crushing him.
Not even half an hour goes by and he makes an excuse, gets up, and leaves. Suddenly I'm sipping my iced mocha by myself and he shoots me this text as if it makes up for wasting my time and energy.
I read the hurtful thoughtless words again and loosened my grip. Fuck that guy. Like more than usual fuck that guy. What kind of person even does that?
A sigh leaves me and I think about the number of guys that have dropped me recently ...5 within the last year? I think counting on my fingers.
Relationships are...weird. Not that I’ve been in many. But every time I snag a guy's attention he either loses interest after a few dates or just dumps my ass immediately.
Maybe it was the dating app I was using? Scentmarkr was by far the best dating app out there and it worked really well for people seeking out specific dynamics.
Maybe that's my problem. I thought about the last couple of guys I'd talked to. Each one of them had taken the time to specifically ask me about my dynamic, and were very excited when I told them I really was an omega. After that is when they really started to put the work into talking to me. Now that I think about it, that's probably the only reason anyone’s messaged me at all.
I’d never posted pictures or anything on Scentmarkr so when we finally met up and they got a good look at me I guess they all decided the same thing. I didn’t fit their image of an omega.
I looked down at my “casual but not too casual that it looked like I didn't care date clothes”. A pair of denim shorts held a couple of round squishy thighs. And a close fitting t-shirt hugged my huggable middle and squeezable chest. Two brown eyes and dirty blonde hair framed my chubby cheeks. Some would probably say “I needed to lose weight” but that had never been something I considered before. I liked my softness, I liked my weight, and I liked my body. But, the way people made me feel about it, that's the part I didn't like.
Thought we could get down but thunder thighs just aint my thing. Call me if you lose weight though. See ya! The latest asshole voice rang in my ears and I felt my cheeks get red with embarrassment.
I look out the coffee shop window at all the people walking about in the sun. There were a lot of couples out today holding hands, sharing drinks, and bumping into each other every few seconds. It painted this pretty picture that I so very much wanted to be a part of. But for some reason I don’t think I ever will be… I thought sadly to myself, feeling sick in my body.
Maybe...maybe I should lose some weight? Maybe then I won’t feel like this anymore? Sad and lonely and unwanted. I hated that whenever I went on dates nowadays that's all I seemed to feel at the end of them. Pathetic. I spat.
I went to drain the rest of my melted coffee slush when the cafe tv sprung to life. Some barista probably wanted to catch up on one of their dramas but what popped up instead was a brightly colored ad.
-ere at the Super Strength Center every dynamic is welcome. We take special care to make sure everyone’s comfortable no matter who they are and where they're at in their fitness journey. We’ve got multiple facilities for different kinds of workouts; weight training, pool, yoga - you name it we’ve got it. If you're looking to change your life around, come on in ‘cus were here to help!
For the first time in a long time I felt just a tiny bit motivated. I didn’t give a fuck about those guys. And I didn’t care what they had to say about me. But if I wanted to change then I was going to do it for me. And I could because the opportunity was right in front of me.
I pressed my finger down, deleting Scentmarkr from my phone and went to call the number on the tv.