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As children, Jungwon follows Jay around with stars in his eyes. Every growing step the older boy takes on his own, Jungwon is following. As if a seamless fit, he trudges through the one-size too big footsteps with a big smile and a happy heart.

As pre-teens, Jay follows the younger boy around with clouds in his eyes. The fallen stars in the boy's eyes leave a dark sky in their wake, not nearly as lively as they used to be. Life changes fast, and situations unfold before people who aren't ready for them. Jungwon happens to be one of them.

In their early teens, they follow each other around with fog in their eyes. Years spent waiting for the skies to clear up as you try to become, well, you. For Jay, he already knows which path he wants to go down, he just has to make it through the mist. For Jungwon, it's walking down every path possible and getting tangled into the depths of the woods. Lucky for him, Jay stumbles upon him after being seperated and leads him through.

In their late teens, they follow each other around with sunshine in their eyes. Jay's path proved to be the right one, and now they can hold hands without getting rained on. No thunder rumbling, no lightning threatening to strike when they're seen together. Just sunshine.

Although the weather is always changing.

It doesn't matter that most days are sunny, because there's a lingering darkness left in Jungwon's eyes and an alarmingly black cloud growing in Jay's. Maybe something happened in the fog when they got seperated, Jungwon doesn't know.

He doesn't know why Jay acts so dark sometimes, why his eyes will go from warm to cold in the matter of seconds. How, sometimes, he'll hold Jungwon down and do whatever he pleases. It's... hot, however it feels more sinister than dominant so much so that Jungwon is afraid to even make a peep.

He's currently lying on their bed, chest pressed against the mattress. The side of his face is smushed into the pillow. His hands are constricted behind his back, somehow tied tightly with his own underwear. His hips are forced up in the air, and Jay is behind him. He thrusts into him hard and groans at the way Jungwon tightens around him, stopping to bend over and whisper in his ear.

"What's the matter, baby?" He asks, not letting up with the deep thrusts. Jungwon feels tears come out involuntarily. His own cock is pathetically hard again, leaking onto the sheets under him. He tries to thrust down on something, to get his hips closer to the bed, but Jay pulls him back with a strength that makes him dizzy. "Why are you crying?"

Jungwon can't find any words, just whines and lets his tears fall. Jay tsks when he doesn't answer. He brings his hand to a halt in the air as a quick warning, before striking down onto his ass. He screams and thrashes around at the impact, crying pathetically again.

"N-Not again!" He wails, already feeling the skin burn from before. He's relentless, and Jungwon doesn't understand how he can keep going for so long. Tears stream down his face. "I thought I was being good...”

"How? You came without my permission again." Jay points out. He kisses down his neck and stops at his shoulder, then reaches around to wrap a hand around his cock. He hums. Jungwon feels embarrassed, body hot and pink. "Would you look at that? You're still hard." He laughs. "You just can't get enough, can you? Fucking whore."

"Stop-" He whines and shakes his head in protest. Jay's hand clamps down and he thrusts deeply inside again, making the pleasure painful. "Please... No!"

"Make it up to me then. Tell me you love me." Jay suddenly demands, ignoring the pleas as if they were never even spoken. Jungwon stupidly sobs. He doesn't know why his cock twitches in Jay's hold, why his body reacts just like he wants to.

"I-I love y-you." He says between cries, face probably puffy and hideous. He tries to hide it into the pillow, but Jay pulls him back with a strong hand pushing his cheeks together.

"None of that. Show me your pretty face." He says. Jungwon cries some more. "I know you can do better than that. Say it again."

"Hng- Hyung, please- I don't- I don't like it anymore." He makes a brave attempt, but Jay scoffs like it's unbelievable and squeezes his cock. It's wet, probably from his past orgasm, but his tip feels like it's leaking constantly.

Jay gives him something, a treat, swiftly gathering some of the wetness at the head before dragging his hand up and down. Jungwon moans at the stimulation. He's always thought that Jay is amazing with his hands, and it's no different now. It's a matter of minutes, seconds, before he makes him writhe. Maybe it has something to do with how strong his grip is, how he isn't scared to be rough. Either way, it has his head is spinning.

"Hah. You don't like it?" Jay taunts. "You've come twice already and you're still this turned on." He punctuates it by tightly dragging his hand up and down his cock, drawing a pained noise from the boy. "I think you're just greedy. You're so fucking desperate that you're leaking. Look at you... Such a mess."

Jungwon's response is predictable. Jay laughs lowly and wipes away some of his tears. He kisses him, earning a hum into his mouth. He feels Jungwon's cock twitch in his hand from it, and it makes him smile as he pulls away.

"See? Even kissing gets you all worked up." He's so cocky. Jungwon wants to scowl at him, wants to protest saying it's his constant stimulation that's making him like this.

"I shouldn't have let you date before me." Jay sighs, reflecting on his past mistakes. "I could see it back then already, when you had your first kiss with Sunoo. You were so out of it. So needy already. When I saw you secretly making out with Sunghoon behind the track field. The way you had to hide your boner from me and sneak into the bathroom. Pfft. Then you started dating Jake... Fucker took your virginity from me. You have no idea how much it hurt to sit there and listen to you talk about him like that. Not only that, but you chose Heeseung as your rebound when it ended? Fucking shame."

"I'm sorry." Jungwon cries out of humiliation, feeling all the guilt in the world. He shouldn't have slept with Jake, not Heeseung either. He shouldn't have kissed Sunoo, Sunghoon. "You're the only one. I love you, hyung. Please-"

"At least say my name." He practically growls, hand stilling again and squeezing at the base. "Aren't they all 'hyung'? Are you thinking about one of them, huh?"

"No! It's only you!" Jungwon tries to convince him with a sob, but his head is so fuzzy and his heart hurts. Everything burns. It feels like the forest is on fire, and Jungwon can't get out. He can't find Jay anymore, this version won't help him. "Please... believe me."

"Hm, I don't know." Jay says, stopping his movement. He runs a delicate hand down Jungwon's spine, tracing it from his neck down to his tailbone, watching how he twitches and shivers. He grabs hold of the underwear tied around his wrists, pulls at it a little.

Jungwon whines and wiggles his hips. He pushes back against him once more, squeezes around his cock and sinks down as far as he can go. He'll show him how good he is. He doesn't want anybody else. If he has to prove it, he'll do whatever it takes.

Jay nearly laughs at the desperate action. He stays still, entertaining it for a while. The slide of his cock is easy as Jungwon moves back and forth, but the poor boy is just so gentle. His body is shaking and he's trying his best. That, Jay can see. Unfortunately, it just doesn't do the job.

He almost pities him.

The previous pink blooms into red under his intense gaze, hand striking down unapologetically. Jungwon mewls, stopping his movements and full on sobbing.

"Hyung." He cries, tears flowing like a waterfall. He can't stop himself anymore. Something snapped, the damm broke lose and now everything is pouring out. "I- I thought- I'm sorry- I didn't mean to- I would t-take it back if I cou- AH!"

Jay smacks down harder than before, then does the same thing to the other side. Jungwon screams at the pain, bawling his eyes out. He shakes his head. He can't do it, can't take it. He feels a handprint burn into the skin of his ass, probably flaming red. What he can't comprehend is why his cock is still hard, leaking desperately at the tip.

His face gets grabbed suddenly, and he's forced to strain his neck in order to look into those stormy eyes. Jay looks like he's about to eat him alive. He moves the hand into his hair and pulls. Hard. Then watches as the tears flow out as if it's some kind of dispenser.

"I told you to say my name, did I not?" Jay reminds him and Jungwon flushes. He can't think straight. He didn't mean to.

"Jay." He corrects. "Jay, please... I'm sorry- I'm- I thought I was- I can't-"

His hair gets pulled harder, and more tears escape. He feels hopeless, like there's nothing he can do. Jay suddenly pulls him up so they're pressed together by the chest and back, Jungwon's constricted hands stuck between them. His legs feel wobbly, thighs shaking as he's forced to stand on his knees. Jay laughs into the junction of his neck and shoulder.

"You can't even speak." He scoffs, then sucks a mark into the side of his neck. One of his hands wraps around Jungwon's hip, squeezing harshly at his hipbone. He whines in protest, shying away from the touch.

"Ow! That hurts!" He complains, but Jay just slaps his thigh and makes a hum of disapproval into his shoulder. He hooks his chin over and looks down at Jungwon's rigid cock. He laughs knowingly when he sees it jerk as he buries himself inside, and once more when he smacks down on his other thigh.

"You seem to like when it hurts." He says smugly, eyes monitoring Jungwon's cock. The boy shakes his head, blinking away the tears that resurfaced from the slapping.

"No... It just hurts." He tries, but Jay just 'mm's and runs his hands from his thighs all the way up to his torso, stopping to pinch and pull at his nipples. He cries out, rutting his hips back against Jay's cock. "Ah!"

"Like this? Does this hurt, Jungwon?" Jay's going to push him until he breaks. He enjoys it, tearing him apart until he's a sobbing disaster. He keeps playing with his nipples, too rough but somehow not enough at the same time.

Jungwon's hands itch to stop Jay's, but they're stuck between their bodies. All he can do is place them against his lower stomach and claw onto him, but he doesn't even flinch.

"I asked, does this hurt, Jungwon?" He tries again, this time pinching and pulling harder. Jungwon gasps, breath staggard when he sucks it in. Jay tugs harder. "Answer me."

"Y-Yes!" Jungwon replies, sobbing yet again. "Please don't... press there! Ah!"

He cries out, body slumping forward. Jay doesn't let him fall though, keeping him right where he's supposed to be. He doesn't let up, playing with the buds until they're swollen and cherry tinted. The entire time, Jungwon leaks desperately, precum dribbling down the length of his standing cock.

Jay suddenly lets him go and pushes him so he falls forward on the bed. His cock slips out in the process, and Jungwon barely has any time to register what's happening before blood flows back to his hands and he's being flipped onto his back then pulled down by the legs.

Jay kneels between where he's spread apart and fixes the pillow under his head, then fetches another one to prop his hips up with. He lifts Jungwon as he pleases, and the boy only lets himself be toyed with, laying back to watch his boyfriend's face in silence.

He reaches over to the nightstand, and Jungwon follows intently with his eyes. Lube drips over Jay’s fingers, then he settles back. He doesn't return the eye contact, just leans forward and plunges three fingers into Jungwon at once. It's met with a loud gasp, hands coming to grasp at his shoulders.

Jay rakes his eyes over him, mesmerized. How his eyebrows draw together in distress, a soft wash of pink brushing the bridge of his nose. It makes him look so delicate, so soft and lovely. His face is stunning, but so is his body. Angular shoulders, prominent collarbones, the way his waist curves in, so small compared to his shoulders. His chest is blotchy from perspiration, red blooming up like bouquets of roses. His nipples remain hard and pointy, a sight that makes Jay’s head swirl.

His eyes flutter shut when Jay presses up with intent. Just as expected, pretty lips fall open and equally pretty sounds escape them. He bites down on his lip and tries to hide some, but the way he get glowered at makes him release it again.

The fingers push in deep, spreading and tightening over and over again. Jay is aggressive when he presses into the spot that makes Jungwon breathless. He picks up the pace, hand moving like a machine inside of him. Jungwon's legs start to shake, and he's back to weeping.

"W-Wait! Hold on-" He rushes to say, hand shooting out to Jay's arm. A familiar expression washes over his face, eyes wide as he looks up. It only spurs Jay on more. He presses, thrusts, jabs, and the grip on his arm tightens. More tears run down Jungwon's cheeks when he roughly fucks his fingers into the spot. He watches the rapid rise and fall of the boy's chest, how he throws his head back with a gasp. "No! I-I'm going to-"

Jungwon feels it build up inside, blooming up without a single touch to his cock. He isn't supposed to come. Not without being granted to. The way he's being stared at tells him that Jay is thinking just that. Yet he doesn't stop. In fact, he eyes him down as if he's challenging him. Do it if you dare.

They look into each other's eyes, filthy sounds and urgent breaths filling their ears. Jungwon grabs his arm harder and has to do the same thing with the other one. He cries out, Jay's fingers working some sort of sorcery inside. His moans get louder by the thrust, and that's when Jay's voice finally joins in.

"Remember, not until I say so." He warns, never letting up the constant attack of his fingers. Jungwon squirms, cock so sensitive it trembles and leaks on his stomach. He shakes his head, tries to shove Jay away, but he only ends up with them deeper inside. He sobs at the hard press of fingertips against his prostate, and squeezes his eyes shut so tears run down his cheeks.

"I ca-an't t-take it p-please-" He cries, moving his body hopelessly. He tries to hold back, to not come, but it only drives him even crazier. He can't stop wriggling around. ”A-Ah! Jay! Please-"

Jay grabs his cock, jerking it once before letting it drop. It makes a wet smacking noise against Jungwon's stomach. He flinches, and cries out when Jay repeats the motion.

"You've been so bad all night, coming whenever you like. Are you that greedy that you can't possibly hold on for two seconds?” He provokes, reducing the pace of his fingers. At the same time, he squeezes Jungwon's cock and strokes up and down. The tight, slow drag, makes him shake. "Or do you want to be punished? Is that it?"

"N-No! Why would I- Just- I'm sorry, please- No more. I can't-" He blinks through tears. The fingers have slowed down significally, but he’s still pressing and prodding to keep Jungwon squirming.

He suddenly removes them altogether, leaving Jungwon clenching around nothing. He gets pulled down by the legs again. They spread apart to make room for Jay to line up perfectly. His cock slides in almost too easily, plunging in in one swift motion. Jungwon immedietly whines, hands coming up to grab his biceps.

"Don't you dare come before I do." He replies, thrusting inside again. He plasters himself on top of Jungwon so their abdomens touch, a sensitive cock trapped between them. He holds himself up by the forearms, and dips down to kiss Jungwon, who makes a noise of dismay when they pull away. He gasps loudly when Jay fucks in deep and goes completely still, doing that on repeat and punching the air out of him each time. "Do you understand?"

Jungwon gets a bad feeling in his chest, a nervous bubbling inside of him. He's already close, and can't focus on anything but that.

No reply follows.

As a result, Jay's hard thrust knocks the air out of him again. "Answer me when I'm speaking to you." He grits out, menacing voice returning. "You're being impolite."

"I'm sorry." Jungwon sobs.

"You said you'd be on your best behavior tonight." Jay continues, punctuating his words with a harsh thrust. ”I hate it when you lie to me." Again. "You fucking know that, brat."

Jungwon's lips waver, and he turns his head away.

"Not only did you lie, but you disobeyed me. Twice." Jay doesn't stop, even when Jungwon starts to tremble and cry. If anything, that only makes him keep talking. "Is that good behavior?"

"N-No..." Jungwon forces the words out.

"Look at me when you talk." Jay says.

He turns his head slowly, facing him with remorse. He can barely see, eyes full of tears. "No." He sniffles. "It's not good..."

"That's right." Jay confirms. "Apologize."

"I- I'm-" He gets cut off by the sudden moan that escapes him when Jay starts moving fast, sliding in and out roughly. He digs his nails into Jay's arms, eyes searching for purchase in his. They're dark, coated with sin.

"You're what?" Jay insists. His voice is steady, but there's a trace of perspiration in his tone. It sounds breathy. He's probably worn out, hasn't even had an orgasm even though he's been so merciless.

His eyes are dead set on Jungwon under him, and he watches with interest as the boy shakes his head rapidly. All thoughts have left his brain. The only thing he can do is continue holding onto Jay's arms, hands probably burning into him with how the room suddenly turns hot.

"I'm... I don't know." Jungwon lulls his head from side to side, mind completely in a haze. It feels like he isn't even attached to his own body.

"Be a good boy for once and tell me." Jay says, he slides his hand under Jungwon's head and grabs his hair. He pulls him back so he's forced to crane his neck, then hovers his lips over the reddening skin. "Tell me, Jungwon," He repeats, voice hoarse, "before I bite."

"Ngh- what-" He's confused, the breath against his neck making him feel sensitive all over. It's as if he's become so delicate he'll break if he moves. Everything feels heightened, and when Jay bites down on his neck, he soars. Tears prick from his eyes as he screams. "AH! Jay- Jay- Please- No-"

Jay clamps down harder, and Jungwon's cock throbs. He pulls off to run his tongue over the mark, but doesn't stop there. He keeps sucking on the unmarked skin surrounding the bite, so hard it'll probably bruise him for a week.

"I fucking love when you scream." He groans straight into Jungwon's ear, thrusting in desperately. His movements are becoming sloppy. Skin smacks against skin while a strong hand grips Jungwon's hip. A burning handprint marks itself into him, and he thrashes around under the grip, moving back against Jay in agony.

His cock reaches so overwhelmingly deep, hugged tightly by Jungwon's inner walls when he tenses around him. Every push and pull makes him tremor. It's almost paralyzing how good it feels, voice numb in his throat. He can merely sob and shake his head endlessly. It's only a matter of lips attaching to his neck again, sucking, kissing and biting, until he does the forbidden.

He fucking comes.

A loud scream escapes him, cock spurting out untouched. He feels everything explode into colors until it all becomes black, blanking out for a second. When he gets his vision back, he hears Jay groan and push into him as deep as possible, face buried into his neck. Warm liquid gushes into him and he whimpers, cock continously throbbing as he gets filled up.

That's when reality sets in.

He panics, shakes his head like he can't believe it and sobs sadly, fearing the punishment that awaits. He can't look at Jay when he lifts his head, and faces away from him as tears fall onto the pillow.

It's silent for a few seconds, before his stern voice takes over the room.

"Jungwon." He pauses, staring at the boy with displeasure. "Are you not going to look at me?"

It's intimidating, but laced with something bittersweet. Jungwon turns his head reluctantly, shaking from fright. His tears get wiped away, a soft graze of thumbs across his cheeks. He swallows.

"What do you say?" Jay's voice is soft this time, but Jungwon knows this isn't his sweet side.

"I-I'm sorry." He tries, and Jay only hums.

Hands swipe across his stomach suddenly, spreading his cum over his skin. They run across his torso, a rapid heartbeat banging against them as he passes his chest. He can't stop shaking, body reacting to the slightest touch. It only gets worse when Jay pinches his nipples. Hard. He screams and thrashes around, hands shooting out to stop it. "N-No!"

"No?" Jay's voice is harsh now, and he clamps down even harder. Tears spring out of Jungwon's eyes before he can even blink, and he grabs Jay's wrists in panic, trying to push him off. That only seems to make him angrier, because he twists his nipples and tugs, pulls, pinches. Jungwon can't take it.

"I-I'm sorry, please! I d-" He hiccups between tears, "didn't- m-mean to!"

"That's not what I wanted you to say." Jay continues. Another tug. Jungwon feels his consciousness start to fade. His chest heaves like he's having an anxiety attack, and that's when Jay stops. Instead, he looks at him and grabs his neck suddenly, forcing him to look into his eyes. "What do you say, Jungwon?"

Jungwon gasps at the press against his bitten neck. He holds his breath. "I don't- I don't know."

Jay sighs, frustrated. "I let you come, didn't I?"

No, you didn't.

That's why you're-

"What would a good boy say?" He asks further.

"T-Thank you." Jungwon finally realises, gasping. He feels stupid. "Thank you, Jay. T-Thank you for- for letting me come."

There's a silent pause, hand steadily pressing down and making him even dizzier. The edges of his vision go dark before Jay lets go. He instantly inhales, a desperate attempt for oxygen to fill his lungs back up. His eyes return to normal as he blinks, blood rushing back to his brain.

"Finally." Jay says, tired.

He grabs Jungwon's legs as he pulls out. The pillow disappears under him in a swoop and as he lands on the sheets, he gets pulled down. The fabric ripples under him, bunching up under his hips. Jay lifts him up, and he feels impossibly heavy, no energy to carry the weight of his own body. Jay has the strength though, and he easily gets thrown across his lap, ass up in the air.

His arms get pulled back and tied together again. When he's tightly constricted, a warm hand cradles the sensitive skin of his ass, rubbing back and forth. His whole body reacts to the touch, breaking out in shivers.

"You've been nothing but bad tonight. I'm very disappointed in you, Jungwon." Jay dotes, hand circling each cheek. It's gentle, like the calm before a storm. "Three times without my permission... How selfish." Jungwon feels a burning stare sizzle into the back of his neck. "What happens when you misbehave?"

"I... I get punished." His voice trembles.

"That's right." Jay confirms. His hand goes still. "How many?"

"I don't- I don't know."

"Give me a number."

"I..." Jungwon shakes his head. "I don't know."

"Alright. That's your own choice." Jay settles, shrugging. The warmth of his hand leaves, a long and silent pause filling the room. Jungwon's heartbeat increases with every second that passes, trying to brace himself for what's about to come.

Nothing prepares him for the burning sting of the first spank. He screams, tries to wiggle away from Jay's lap, but he can't. Another follows and it stings. He cries out, head slumping heavily against the bed.

"No..." He denies, tears wetting the sheets below him. "It hurts, Jay... Please."

"Be good, you get praised. Misbehave, you get punished. You know this."

"B-But I-"

"Quiet." Jay commands. "You sure have a lot of nerve tonight, constantly demanding me to stop. Tell me then, why do you keep moaning? Why do I keep making you come? You like the pain. You like being punished. Isn't that right, brat?"

"N-No!" Jungwon opposes. "That's not true!"

"I don't believe you." Jay says, drawing his hand back. The impact when he smacks down again makes a loud noise. A pained wail follows. It's like music to his ears. He makes a noise of contentment, eyes twinkling when he looks at how red the supple skin has become. He can't help but spank him again, just lightly enough to watch it jiggle.

"Mm. Fuck." He says, slapping him again and grabbing a handful of his ass. He does that on repeat, eyes hungry as he watches him squirm and flail around on his lap. No matter how much Jungwon tries to deny it, his body gives him away. His cock is hardening against Jay's thigh. He smirks. "Yeah, you fucking love it too."

"I don't." Jungwon doesn't let up. He shouldn't like this. It hurts, yet heat keeps spreading inside of him. His cock slides wetly against Jay's firm thigh when he gets spanked on repeat. It hurts so much the burning skin prickles with coldness.

"Did I tell you to speak?" Jay asks, and starts spanking him harder. Slap after slap until Jungwon is shaking and the tears resurface. He gasps, head falling flat against the bed.

Jay can't help himself, is determined to bruise him so hard he won't be able to sit properly after this. His cries only add fuel to the fire. It’s a sound that he loves. He absolutely loves how the poor boy tries to get away even though he clearly enjoys it, fully hard yet again. Every time Jay's hand connects, he ruts down desperately, and those cries sound more pleasurable than painful.

Jungwon bites down on the sheets, resulting in the pretty noises coming out muffled. Jay grabs the back of his head and lifts him up by the hair.

"I said don't speak, not 'don't hide your moans'." He asserts. "Is it that hard? Just don't talk back to me."

He's heavy-handed when he strikes down again, but gentle when he rubs over it afterwards. Jungwon feels like he's losing his mind, making unintelligable noises at every crash of skin. He wants it to stop, feels like he's going purple under Jay's ruthless palms.

When he opens his mouth to beg, he shuts himself up before the words can leave. He seals his lips with a heart-wrenching cry. His eyes follow, falling shut and making a fresh wave of tears escape. The power increases with every slap to the point where Jay's hand is probably as red and burning as him. He whimpers, keeping his mouth shut even though he wants it to end.

Jay watches Jungwon struggle to keep quiet, his whimpers growing desperate and his squirming frantic. After a few minutes of putting him to the test, Jay grants him mercy for following orders, grabbing his face to look at him. He’s so pretty when he cries, face shiny with tears. He sniffles, and Jay leans down to kiss him, salty tears coating each of their lips.

"Good boy. You listened to me." He praises, and watches how a blush spreads across Jungwon's cheeks.

Jay unties his hands and gently lays him back down. He fixes the pillow for him, caressing his face and wiping away the wetness. He can't stop it from flowing and makes grabby hands for Jay. His eyes seem to be begging for something. Jay understands, and nods.

"You can speak."

"Please hug me." Jungwon instantly pleads and how in the world can Jay deny that? He locks him in a warm embrace, hand cradling the back of his head. There's a sniffle against his ear. "I'm sorry for... for being bad."

A careful hand runs down Jay's back and it makes his heart swell. He draws back to look at his pretty boy, who’s eyes are glazed over and lips in a pout. Jay kisses them. At the same time, he wraps a hand around his oversensitive cock. He yelps against Jay's persistent lips, who doesn't let the kiss break, chasing him and pressing his tongue into his mouth. Jungwon can only accept it, open his mouth and let Jay invade him in every way possible.

"I'll give you a final chance to make up for your behavior." Jay pulls away to say, leaving the other gasping. He looks at him in confusion, mind still stuck on being kissed. Jay runs his thumb under the head of his cock, making his body ache as he tries to shy away. "Seriously this time. Do not come until I give you permission."

"Mngh..." Jungwon complains. He can't stand anything anymore. Every touch is heightened by a million, body fragile and right on the edge of breaking.

"Can you do that? Can you prove to me that you're good?" Jay wraps his hand around and upstrokes, using his thumb to rub against the slit. Wetness dribbles out as he squeezes and he spreads it over the head with his thumb.

"I- I don't know. Eungh-" Jungwon wants to prove it, wants to show him how good he can be, but he hesitates. The way Jay is talking to him feels like he still has hours ahead of him. That, even if he says yes, Jay isn't going to let him come until he can't hold it any longer. That way, another punishment is justified.

"Hm? Aren't you a good boy?" Jay provokes, knowing it jabs Jungwon hard. He does want to be good. So bad. That’s why he can't say yes.

"I am." He fusses, mewling when Jay keeps stroking him. "I promise."

"How can I believe you?"

Jungwon cries out, frustrated. He grabs Jay's arm and looks at him with a pout. Jay laughs.

"Am I supposed to pity you?" He squeezes tight. "Final chance, Jungwon. Yes or no?"

"Y-Yes."

Jay chuckles again, satisifed. "That's it."

He lays down next to him and drapes his arm over his shoulders, then starts up a nice pace with his hand. When Jungwon whines and pushes his thighs together, Jay watches intently, starting to salivate at the view. Those plush thighs, handprints stamped into them...

It's hypnotic how he goes quiet, whimpering weakly as Jay works his hand up and down slowly. His head knocks against his arm, slack hands wrapping around it and holding on. He sounds so delirious, and looks like it too by the way he moves his legs helplessly.

Everything about him is fucking arousing. Jay has been hot and bothered since he felt him rut against his leg whilst getting spanked. He gulps, and leans into his ear.

"Tell me what to do, Jungwon."

"Mmh...?" He questions, lost. "What?"

"Should I keep going like this?" He shows an example with his tight grip. "Or should I fuck you again?"

"I... Ngh. I don't know." He can't make a clear choice, head spinning. Neither option is good, but he knows which one Jay wants, and that's going to happen no matter what he picks. "You decide... I can't- I can't think. Just... Do whatever you want."

"Get up." Jay demands and removes his hand entirely. He gets up on his knees. Jungwon tries to follow him but he just slumps forward, body dragging tiredly along the bed. Jay doesn't help him, just stands still and watches in silence. When it takes too long, he sighs. He grabs a pillow and chucks it down on the bed, then throws Jungwon down to lie on top of it, ass lifted into the air.

Oh.

Jay really did some work on him because it is bruised to hell. He leans down to place an apologetic kiss on each cheek, and Jungwon cries out.

"P-Please, no... It hurts. It hurts."

Jay kisses up his lower back instead, then his neck, while he slots his cock carefully between the bruised cheeks. He draws back to get a better view and grabs his waist while rocking back and forth. He can't contain himself any longer and reaches over to grab the lube, spreading it across his cock then wastes no time to push inside.

Jungwon moans. Jay fills him up so good.

His own cock ruts against the pillow under him. He tries to lift his hips to avoid it, but he's just so exhausted that he falls back down, making the head of his cock rub against the pillow.

It's dangerous, because he's already close after a few thrusts. Jay knows how to fuck him from every angle at this point, pushing against his prostate with no effort. It feels like sparks light up inside of him, even though he's playing nice by not thrusting all the way inside yet.

When he does, his hips smack against Jungwon's ass. It makes him scream. It hurts, but it's good. Jungwon is sick. He fucking likes it, even though his body is screaming for help. It feels so good that he can't help but grind his hips down, sliding against the surface below, then back towards Jay, needing more of the ache.

Jay grabs his hips and fucks into him fast, groaning. "You feel so fucking good."

"I-I think I'm close, Jay." Jungwon lets him know, arms shaking when he tries to hold himself up. His back tenses as gentle fingers runs down the length of it, feeling like the tips are loaded with electricity. He shivers when Jay circles them on his hips.

"Already?" He asks, using his fingers to spread the current all over his backside. Jungwon tenses and trembles. "That's bad. You haven't even asked me for permission."

"I..." He tenses, too lost in the way Jay's fingers run over his back. "P-Please, can I-" A shiver runs down his spine, "can I come?"

"I'm not close yet. No." Jay replies, grabbing onto his hips again. He pushes inside at an angle that makes Jungwon practically howl, mouth salivating and cock leaking. His chest heaves, breathing uneven. Jay leans over him and wraps a hand around his neck. He puts his lips to his ear, grip tightening. "I'll be very disappointed if you come."

Jungwon makes a noise of defeat. Jay kisses the skin under his ear and thrusts in deep, starting to nibble on the side of his neck. He uses his hand to push his jaw away, making him turn his head to increase the expanse of skin to suck on. His cock jumps in interest when the fingers on his neck tighten, pressing against the bite from earlier.

"S-Stop! Don’t!” He panics, feeling like he won't last much longer. There’s a hard suck on his skin and fingers digging into the bitten area, and he feels it building up. "A-Ah! J-Jay... Can I? Can I please?"

"No. I told you, you can't. Not yet." Jay says harshly, hips starting to piston in and out of him. Jungwon cries out. It's intense, a constant push against the sensitive bundle of nerves. Jay draws away after leaving a deep purple hickey behind, then tightens his hand around his neck. It’s strong, cutting off his breath for a good five seconds. With a groan, Jay lets him go, then pushes him down by his upper back instead. His nipples brush against the bed and his cock reacts instantly.

"I can't hold it, Jay- I- I can't. It's- It's coming out."

Jay doesn't answer, just keeps pressing him down and fucking into him harder. He smacks his hips down vigorously, bruising the skin further. Jungwon screams. He tries to hold back, to get the friction away from his cock, his nipples, everywhere. When he pushes his hips up, it only makes it easier for Jay to slide in deeper. He shakes his head and sobs. He can't take it.

A sudden wave of blinding pleasure overtakes his body. It's so strong it makes him shake then go completely limp under Jay, crying as his cock spurts out his release. The slide under him becomes wet and it's so much. Too much.

He gets louder when Jay punishes him by fucking into him ruthlessly. It's so overwhelming he almost passes out. He gasps for air, tries to claw on the sheets, to grab onto something. Jay spanks him as he fucks into him again and it makes him fight for breath. His hips get pulled up, and the thrusts get impossibly stronger. He gasps, claws away at the sheets, moans.

Jay's fingers are digging into his sides, and he can't quiet down, screaming with every slap of skin. He feels like he's seriously about to split in half, but when he tries to move away he just gets spanked and dragged back. It doesn't take long until Jay starts breathing heavily, thrusts becoming sloppy until he curses and he buries himself inside. With a deep groan, he comes, filling Jungwon to the brim.

He has to catch his breath for a good minute, having worked up a sweat. Meanwhile, Jungwon gasps for air. His heart is beating out of his chest, banging against the mattress. His mind can't keep up he’s so dizzy. It feels like no time passes for him before Jay pulls out and he’s falling back down, too weak to stay up.

Jay immedietly flips him around onto his back. The pillow is sticky under him. He grimaces in discomfort, but he can't do anything about it. As he lays there breathless, looking up at the ceiling and seeing everything spin, he feels two fingers prod at his entrance. His hand shoots out and his head rushes as he lifts it in panic. He blinks the dark away until Jay comes into view and opens his mouth to protest, but he gets glared at, making him quiet down like a meek mouse.

Jay furrows his brows in disapproval and slaps his thigh. He nudges his legs apart slightly and Jungwon feels like he has to comply. The fingers slide into him with no resistance even as he clenches together. Jay makes a satisfied noise, eyes stuck on where his fingers are entering Jungwon's hole. Cum drips out, leaking onto the sheets and coating his fingers.

"I swear you do this on purpose." Jay sounds annoyed. Jungwon almost cries at the unfairness he feels. That's not true.

He stays quiet.

"Keep your hands above your head, brat, or else I'm shoving my cock in you again."

Jungwon nods at the threat, fighting back the tears. He puts his hands up, making sure to hold them on the headboard like glue.

"Wow. Good boy." Jay tells him, but it's purely sarcastic. Jungwon's lips quiver, and he really can't contain the sadness. He closes his eyes.

Jay presses his fingers against his prostate hard and Jungwon makes an almost unintelligeble noise at the feeling that crashes into him. He thrashes around helplessly, thighs clenching around Jay's arm. He looks at him, a warning, so Jungwon whines and tries to relax. That's the moment Jay presses again, fingers anchoring inside of him.

"Ah! Ah! AH! No... Please-" He tries to beg for him to stop, but his words feel like nonsense when he speaks. It doesn't feel like he makes any sense at all, mind going blank. His head feels numb, heart racing like it's going to explode. All he can do is let the tears free when he can't find what words to say.

"You had your chance, Jungwon." Jay reminds him. He's completely composed, not a trace of uncertainty in his voice. "You promised me you were good, but you lied to me and went against my orders again. This is your punishment."

Jungwon blinks through watery eyes, trying to focus on him. Jay keeps his fingers on that same spot, either rubbing or tapping, prodding around until he shakes.

When he closes his eyes and sobs, bright sparkles fill the screen behind closed eyelids. He feels like he's about to start floating away, back arching off the bed when Jay returns his magic hands on his cock. He sobs, hands gripping onto the headboard desperately.

"You're still hard..." Jay observes, gripping him tight. "Haven't you had enough yet? Aren't you being too greedy? Are you insatiable or what?”

Jungwon squirms, trying to get him away.

"Stop moving." He gets told off, and his thigh gets another harsh slap. He whimpers, skin starting to feel numb and hot.

"J-Jay- I really can't do this... Please..." He sheds more tears, can't stop them. He can barely function, doesn't know what to do. He tries to use his eyes to beg for forgiveness, looking up at Jay, pleading, begging.

"You should have thought of that before disobeying me." Jay reprimands him, sliding in another finger as he matches his movements with the stroke of his hand on his cock.

"I'm... Ngh." Jungwon gives up, mind becoming vacant. Apologizing isn't going to get him out of this.

"I repeat. One last chance."

Jay's fingers fuck into him fast, not letting him have another moment to breathe by stimulating him both inside and outside. He lets go of his cock and stills his fingers, looking at Jungwon's face, then he goes back to what he was doing. It lures a drawn out whine from him. Jay keeps pumping his cock and letting go like that for several minutes on end until it becomes an angry crimson. It's torturous.

Jungwon can't handle it anymore.

"Can I come- Please can I come? It hurts- It hurts, Jay- Please, please, please-" He rambles, neck wet from how many tears have streamed down his face.

"Hm. Should I really let you?" Jay questions, squeezing his cock and rubbing his thumb over the head. He spreads the wetness leaking out around and keeps teasing him until his whole body convulses. "Do you think you deserve it?"

"I-I don't know..." Jungwon cries. "Just... please. I can't- It feels too... I don't know. I can't- I just- Please."

"Do you love me?"

"Y-Yes. I love you. I love you so much, Jay. I love you."

"Go ahead then, baby." Jay says, stroking him and pushing up against his prostate. "Come for me."

It takes an embarrassing one, two, three flicks of his impossibly tight fist to make him scream and spill onto himself again. His cock spurts out whatever he has left, painfully throbbing in Jay's hand. His hands turn pale from how hard he holds onto the headboard, muscles tensing up until he nearly cramps up.

His ears start ringing, muting out all the noises he makes while his vision fully blanks out for a few seconds. A whine leaves his lips, but it only tunes in after a few seconds. His body shudders as Jay strokes him through his orgasm. His head feels heavy when he tries to set it straight and he has to blink rapidly to even see Jay's silhoutte. When it comes into view, he's smiling at him.

"That's the good boy I know." Jay praises him finally, and Jungwon keens. He tries leaning up for a kiss, but his head feels like it's weighed down by a thousand anchors. Jay seems to notice his struggle, and laughs before leaning down to kiss him.

Jungwon makes a 'hng' sound into it and kisses back desperately. He wants to cling onto him and never let go, to hear him say praises and I love you's forever.

He waits patiently until Jay pulls back.

"How could ever be mad at you?"

Jungwon blinks, confused. Jay sighs and strokes the side of his face. "You're such a good boy, Jungwon." He gives him a peck on the cheek. "Even though you disobey me sometimes."

"T-Thank you." He feels his head rush again, and slumps his head onto Jay, who tries to catch him without moving the hand that's still inside of him. He feels safe now, recognises that tone. "Are... Are we done now?"

"Baby." Jay only says. It doesn't answer his question and he immedietly whines, shaking his head.

"No more. Please. I-I can't take it. I'm going to pass out." Jungwon rambles, head heavy even when leaning against him. He blinks, tears probably coating Jay's arm in a layer of wet.

"Shh. Baby, relax." Jay tries, peeling him off and settling him back against the pillow again. He tries to look into his eyes, and taps his thigh lightly. "I'm going to pull them out, okay?"

"Mmngh. Yes please." Jungwon says. He winces when the fingers leave him. He can feel himself clenching around nothing, cold air hitting his hole. Jay makes a noise as he watches the scene, how his cum leaks out even though Jungwon tries to stop it. He whines, embarrassed, and tries to pull Jay closer. "Don't do anything else there. Please."

"I'm not going to." Jay says, he sits down next to him, pulling him closer by the shoulders. Jungwon melts into it, immedietly rubbing his head against him. "But..."

Jungwon tenses, drawing away reluctantly and looking at his face with teary eyes. He probably looks like a mess, feels like one, at least. "What?"

Jay looks down at his lap, and Jungwon follows. He's hard again, heavy against his stomach. It makes him gulp, and he looks back up. Jay reaches a hand out, touching the sticky mess on his torso. He stops at a nipple, circling around it, but moving on before Jungwon can complain. He grasps his chin with his thumb and middle finger, and puts his index finger into his mouth.

Jungwon hums around it, getting a taste of himself. He usually doesn't like it, but for Jay... He'll do everything. The way his eyes darken as he observes him, Jungwon swirls his tongue around and sucks harder.

"What do I do, Jungwon?" Jay sighs longingly, looking into those pretty eyes and at those pretty lips. "When you're so eager to please me, even though your limits have been broken? How do I stop when you're so willing to keep going, just for me?"

Jungwon can't answer, mouth busy. Their eyes do all the talking, staring deeply until Jay pulls his finger out and replaces it with his lips. Jungwon moans into the kiss and tries to keep up with Jay's eagerness, lips trying to follow the ones leading.

He can feel Jay's desperation, how turned on he is, how much he wants Jungwon. It makes him stir, crossing his legs and putting a hand on the side of Jay's face. He tries to give him what he wants, makes sounds into his mouth and touches him how he knows he likes.

Jay grabs his other hand and guides it to his cock, letting Jungwon take the hint and wrap his fingers around on his own accord. Jay pulls away from his lips just for a second.

"I love you." He tells him, and Jungwon makes a noise of approval, pressing his lips back onto his to show him how much it's reciprocated. He jerks his hand in tandem, doing the best he can. Heavy breaths land hotly against Jungwon's mouth.

He loves it, being able to pleasure Jay. Loves the way he gets so worked up, so into it. It makes him feel desired. It makes his heart bloom, and it's moments like these that everything feels worth it. Jay's the only one who's ever stuck by him, has wanted him by his side since they were little. Maybe that's why he would do anything to keep him right there. That's his worst fear, Jay abandoning him. He’d be lost forever, too scared to walk down any path without him.

"Baby." Jay pulls away to say, out of breath. Jungwon blinks up at him, dazed, eyelashes feeling heavy as he does. He nods nevertheless, lips swollen, eyes hazy and face flushed. Jay takes in the picture, an overwhelming surge of emotions welling up in his chest. He's so fucking precious.

"What is it?" Jungwon asks when Jay's been quiet for a beat, having forgotten to speak.

"I want your mouth on me. Can you?" He asks. Jungwon doesn't understand why he does. Usually, even when he says he's too worn out, Jay will just huff before holding him down and shoving it inside until he gags anyway. Perhaps it's a test, to see if he's learned his lesson. That he should just say yes whenever he asks so he won't have to flip the switch and force him into it. He gulps, and gives him a small nod.

"Yes." He says. It isn't necessarily a lie. He wants to, it's just... His body is aching, Jay's traces having been burned into him for hours and he's still going. But there's no time to think further, because as soon as the word leaves his mouth, Jay backs up and uses his hands to tug on Jungwon's legs. He slides down the bed with a surprised noise that goes unnoticed as Jay drags the pillow away and throws it across the room, then moves to straddle his upper body, legs on either side of his torso.

A hand tilts his chin up, making him look into opaque eyes. They look blank, his expression unreadable yet again. The only thing Jungwon can make out through the void is the way they're glossed over with desire.

"Open." Jay commands, and the response is automatic. With his cock in one hand, he slaps it down a few times onto Jungwon's waiting tongue. He caresses his face softly, then with more power, drawing a whine out.

He can't help but stare. Those eyes framed by wet eyelashes, thicker and darker than usual. How his irises sparkle when he looks up patiently. Jay really has him by the pinky, knows the poor soul would do anything he asked.

"So pretty. So perfect." He gives him compliments before thrusting it inside of his mouth. It's met with a surprised noise and he can feel how he instantly tries to adjust, to be good. It makes Jay's stomach tighten, body overtaken by lust.

Jungwon wraps his lips around the length, tries to accommodate his throat and mouth, but Jay's holding him by the chin and he's thrusting in and out carelessly. He gags on a deep thrust, and his direct response is to blink up guiltily.

"Don't worry. You're doing good, baby, so good."

Jungwon moans around his cock as a reply, and Jay's hips stutter at the action. He makes a noise, thrusting deeper inside and staying still while Jungwon tries his best to not choke. He puts his hands on Jay's thighs, holding on for dear life as he lets him fuck his mouth. Tears well up in his eyes from the effort, and as he blinks, they fall down his cheeks in a fast motion. Jay pulls out and he gasps and sputters. He puts a hand over his mouth as he coughs, then feels a few fingers swipe the tears off his face. Jay dips down to kiss him quickly, and it makes Jungwon dizzy because he can barely keep up at the switches.

Jay draws back and strokes his hair. It sends shivers all over his body, needily leaning into the touch. He doesn't know why it feels so good, but it has his body tingling all the way to the tips of his fingers, toes and even back up to his scalp. He shudders when Jay takes note of the reaction and runs both hands through on either side, until he moves to cup his face and look into his eyes.

"How are you so perfect?"

It's more of a statement than a question. Jungwon can't answer, just takes it as praise and blinks up prettily until Jay forces his mouth open with his hands and plunges back inside.

A hand returns to his scalp, running through it and sending a bolt of pleasure through Jungwon's body. He whines and sucks harder, hands planted onto Jay's thighs for leverage. He can still barely lift his head up, and his arms feel like jelly, but Jay is helping him. He guides him with the strong grip in his hair, using Jungwon as he pleases. He can only try to open his mouth wide enough and try to not gag when the head of Jay’s cock hits the back of his throat.

He stills, keeping Jungwon as close as possible, feeling the rapid breaths of his nose against his pelvis. It's wet and tight around him, and he can physically feel the effort of his throat adapting around the length. He pulls out. Again, Jungwon gasps and coughs, spit dripping down the sides of his mouth and connecting to Jay's cock.

Jay grabs his chin. "Why are you suddenly being so good, huh?"

"I-" He clears his throat when his voice sounds ragged. "I want to make you come too."

"Yeah? You want to make it up to me?"

Jungwon nods, and wraps his hand around his cock. It looks comically large from Jay's angle when he starts pumping it up and down in front of his face. He's a dream to look at though, eyes sparkly, lips deep pink when he places a kiss along the shaft. He maintains eye contact as he licks along the base of it, and sucks the head into his mouth with a moan.

"Fuck..." Jay curses, running his hand through Jungwon's hair softly. He's really good with his mouth, knows how to use his tongue, knows how to hollow his cheeks and expand his throat to take Jay entirely. It’s something he does easily, not even gagging when he sinks down all the way and back up. Jay lets him do it as he pleases. He looks so eager to please him, bobbing his head like he can’t get enough. It’s too good to pass up on, so Jay just lets him take control.

He suddenly pulls off to take a breath, then wraps his hand around the shaft and kisses down the side earnestly.

His eyes are so pretty when he blinks up. They're a little red from all the crying, but they still sparkle so beautifully. He takes it back into his mouth and keeps looking up, whining around it when Jay grips his hair firmly and starts moving with him. They work together in silent harmony, and it feels fucking amazing. Jay moans, keeping him still when it's all the way inside. He pulls him back, making him gasp, spit flowing out of his mouth.

"You're still so eager for it." Jay says, amused. "You really are insatiable, aren't you?"

Jungwon's cheeks turn fuschia, embarrassment washing over him. Jay just smirks, grabs his face and runs his thumb over his bottom lip.

"I don't understand why you keep denying it.” He leans in closer, smiling. ”I never said it was a bad thing." He states, an evil chuckle leaving his lips when Jungwon's face floods with embarrassment. "I love that about you." He makes him open back up, sliding the head of his cock along his tongue. "I love that you get so worked up. Shit, I do too." He says, watching the rosy-cheeked boy with admiration. "I want you all the time..." He pushes inside, maintaining eye contact. "It drives me crazy."

Jungwon feels himself relax at the stream of compliments. It's as if Jay found him in the burning forest and is slowly carrying him to safety.

He sucks harder. Jay hisses.

"Yeah, that's it."

He does his best, placing his hands firmly on Jay's thighs and taking him deep. His jaw burns from the effort, but he loves it. It's addicting, the slide of his heavy cock against his tongue. He moans happily and takes more of him into his mouth. It's like a craving that won't disappear no matter how much he has of it. He wants Jay all the time too, so much that it drives him mad.

"You're going to make me lose it one of these days." Jay moans, hips stuttering when Jungwon sucks on the head and twirls his tongue around, then sinks down again. God, he's a dream come true. He looks up, eyes fluttering closed when Jay grabs the sides of his face and starts fucking his mouth. ”Shit...”

Jungwon opens as wide as he can, letting Jay use him as he pleases. He gags around his cock when it reaches too deep, but has no time to recover before it punches the back of his throat again. Jay is completely lost in the pleasure, chasing his release.

"I'm close." He lets Jungwon know, who puts all of his remaining energy into being the best. Involuntary tears slip out from the corners of his eyes, mind going fuzzy and mouth feeling sore. Still, he craves it, and closes his lips around Jay's cock with an insatiated moan.

One of Jay's hands leave the side of his face, instead wrapping around his cock as he pulls out. He starts stroking himself rapidly, tip bouncing against Jungwon's waiting tongue. His mouth feels empty, so he looks up at Jay and wraps his lips around the head. He uses his tongue to lap over the slit in circles, then suctions around the tip. Jay swears, desperately jerking off. The sight of Jungwon's pretty eyes and swollen lips makes his core tighten.

"Oh, fuck- I'm gonna come." Jay rushes. Jungwon moans hungrily around him, sending vibrations down his cock. He goes silent for a second, only starting to moan as he shoots into Jungwon's mouth.

"Mmngh!" The boy makes a muffled noise as his mouth gets flooded with cum. Some lands in the back of his throat and he swallows it, but keeps the rest on his tongue to show off. He opens his mouth and some trickles down, dripping down his reddened lips.

"God... You're fucking unreal." Jay exhales, heart swelling inside his chest.

Jungwon hums happily and wraps his lips back around his cock, licking around the tip and swirling the cum around. Jay whimpers when he sucks, oversensitivity striking him. It makes him tug Jungwon's head off, who pulls off with a pop.

"That's enough for you." He scolds, but he feels lightheaded with desire. He watches Jungwon's throat bob, then a clean tongue darts out to lick his lips. Jay groans and moves off him, leaning down for a kiss. The taste blends between their tongues.

Jay nearly collapses on top of him after the kiss, completely worn out. He lays down and buries his face into his neck. His hair tickles Jungwon, who simply reaches into the strands and gently pulls him off so they're face to face. Jay looks deeply at him. His eyes are warmer now, twinkling with love, the black cloud dissipating.

Sometimes, Jungwon questions why he acts so rough with him, but when he looks into those loving eyes, he knows he's safe. Jay would never hurt him. He wouldn't.

"I love you."

"I love you too." Jay leans his forehead against his. He groans when he rolls off him and grimaces at the damp sheets, cold against his heated skin. He looks at Jungwon. "Let's go clean up."

"I'm one second away from passing out." He says, brain drifting away as if his head has been surrounded by smoke for too long.

"I'll take care of you." Jay chuckles, grabbing his hand and kissing it. "You're going to be sore tomorrow if we don't get you all cleaned up. Come on."

He simply groans, but lets Jay pull his heavy body up. It already is sore he wants to complain, but finds his eyes slowly shutting as the safety of Jay's arms envelop him.

The next time his heavy eyelids blink open, the bright light of tomorrow's rising sun warmly greets him.