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In some peoples' eyes,
They wish for a love made of Vitamin C.
This love they reach for works as the sun does,
Lighting the pathway to ordinary life as brightly as possible,
And of course,
Everyone in the world absolutely must know all about it.
I have come to learn that perhaps,
That is not what I seek.
While those distant from me seek others to shine with,
I am in search of a person
That will keep me safe
From what lies in the dark.
I require something ever-growing,
A waterfall that gets bigger and spills out everywhere the longer it flows.
Something that is only a short thought in the beginning,
But becomes not-so-small when I come to realize
Just how often I think about it each day.
It could be like a shadow,
I would follow it without noticing that I am the one doing the chasing.
I say I choose to live as a hunter
Yet I disregard everything and allow myself to become the hunted,
I am the prey. I have the obedience they desire.
It is a murky swamp and can feel not quite right,
But the chase makes it feel that much more alive.
And there is no greater feeling
Than opening the door to my home,
Seeing just who I've been waiting for.
They are there to ease away my anxieties,
Happy to treat my burns and soothe my aches.
When I find that I will know that I've caught something.
A shadow. Or an illness, maybe.
It'd be like feeling sick and drunk and dizzy,
Difficult to not feel weak in the knees when presented with everything,
And it'd feel greatly inescapable.