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"𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗶𝘀𝗵 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗮 𝗱𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗺?"

A question got asked for Ken. He doesn't really like anticipating in any interviews they got invited in, But today is a whole different story.

Pablo were about to answer Ken's question when Ken suddenly blurted out a word.

"This one scene from my day, way back 2 years ago." Ken started. The interviewer got excited, its because Ken will finally utter a word on a interview. And ofcourse everyones guessing its gonna be a juicy one.

"I met this person whose always with me, that person always make me happy, it is 4 years already since we met." the other members is listening carefully on what will Ken say.

"Two years ago, was the worst year for me. This person actually didn't tend to hurt me. But turns out it actually did. Im sorry for our fans, but i got in a romantic relationship with this person before i joined and became a trainee." Ken's not minding if their leader, Pablo will get angry.

"I know this rule. (no one is allowed to date especially when you are an idol.) This person is actually a trainee that time, i was beside that person, supporting. And i thought that person is still a trainee so i suppose its alright." Ken started to get emotional. He isn't supposed to feel and show how affected he is but when he remember how world was so cruel to him, he tend to get so weak.

"I supported that person. I always attended their practice, do things like: pack its lunch, dinner, and even snack. I am that person's number one fan. But after all of those things, i know that the day will come. Kung saan masasaktan ako." He paused. A tear is trying to escape from his eyes because of how emotionally this scenario is. Somehow he is trying so hard to not let that one single tear to fall.

"Kasi nga kailangan na niyang mag focus sa pagiging trainee niya, but then this person called me; ang sinabi nya saakin ay mag kita raw kami sa may gilid ng moa dahil mag bo-bond daw kami at ifu-fullfil niya ang mga oras na wala siya. And to also celebrate, kasi napili s'ya to be one of the future idols." He continued. Unintentionally letting his tear drop.

"Pero at the end of the day, sa may seaside that person confronted me. Nag explain siya, inexplain niya lahat-lahat. And i was hurt. Feel ko tuloy sirang sira ako that time. Nafeel ko kasi na i did everything, anything tapos mag e-end lang? Mahal na mahal ko siya. And that person is actually the reason kung bakit pinili ko maging idol." Ken leave all of those words with an open heart. feel niya gumaan ang damdamin niya dahil nakapag–open up na siya about sa bagay na 'to.

Sobrang bigat sa damdamin niya ang mga nangyari and he keep on wishing na sana, sana nga panaginip na lang ang lahat. "And i guess that is the something that i wanted to be just a dream." Ken said before lowering his head hiding the tears who already escaped his burning eyes.

The people inside the room know how the atmosphere went to warm heartfull air to awkward air. And they also know na hindi lang si Ken ang naka yuko. "Josh? okay ka lang ba?" Jusstin whispered to Josh who is sitting beside him with his head also lowered, his eyes meeting with the stone floor while tears started to flow.

"Im sorry..."

"Hindi ko intensyon yon. Sana nga, sana nga panaginip na lang ang mga nangyari na 'yon, para hindi kita nasaktan. Oo masakit din para sakin yun, pero alam naman natin na mas nasaktan ka. Kasi diba, wala namang nag loko, walang napagod, pero kailangan natin siyang tapusin. Im so sorry, alam ko naman na alam mo kung gaano ako ka sincere dun diba? Ken you know how much i love you. I love you alot just like yesterday, but my love for you right now hits different. Ken langga, mahal na mahal kita, and i will always love you."

Ken knew. Alam niyang kanina ay nasa studio lang s'ya. Ngunit bakit nandito siya sa lugar na ikinamumuhi n'ya? Bakit nakatayo siya sa tabing dagat kung saan iniwan siyang sira ang puso at luhaan? At bakit ba nasa harap niya ang taong mas minahal niya kaysa sa sarili niya?

At nakakapag taka dahil nag paliwanag pa ito sa kan'ya. At mas lalong nakakapag taka dahil isinigaw nito kung gaano siya kamahal. Ngunit dapat siyang mabahala. Kasi isa lamang itong panaginip na pilit niyang kinalilimutan.

𝐀𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐦
𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐩 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐰: 𝟖:𝟑𝟎

𝐓𝐢𝐦𝐞
𝟗:𝟏𝟐

Ken woke up with puffy eyes probably crying his heart out while dreaming. "Oh fuck, im late!" As Ken get ready he curse himself for wasting his precious time dreaming with those nonsense.

'𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐯𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐚 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞!'

𝐽𝑜𝑠ℎ 𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑔𝑎 ♡

: 𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒏𝒂 𝒈𝒂𝒂𝒂? 𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒌𝒂 𝒏𝒂 𝒑𝒐𝒐𝒐.
: 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒆𝒏𝒏, 𝒘𝒂𝒌𝒆 𝒖𝒑!!!

"Oh shit. it was just this bad dream who keeps on bugging me for the 10th time!" He let out his frustration and got in his car and started to drove away.

'𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐯𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐭 𝐚 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞!'

𝑒𝑠𝑏𝑖

: 𝒌𝒆𝒏 𝒏𝒂𝒔𝒂𝒂𝒏 𝒌𝒂 𝒏𝒂? 𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒑𝒊𝒕 𝒏𝒂 𝒄𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆. 𝒎𝒂𝒚 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒗𝒊𝒆𝒘 𝒕𝒂𝒚𝒐.

: 𝒉𝒖𝒊 𝒌𝒆𝒏 𝒔𝒂𝒏 𝒌𝒂 𝒏𝒂?

: 𝑯𝒐𝒚 𝒇𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒑 𝒋𝒉𝒐𝒏 𝒔𝒖𝒔𝒐𝒏! 𝒅𝒊 𝒌𝒂 𝒗𝒊𝒑 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒂 𝒎𝒂𝒈𝒑𝒂𝒌𝒂 𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒏𝒈 𝒅𝒂𝒍𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒈 𝒐𝒓𝒂𝒔!

It was a 24 minutes of him driving and a 5 minutes stop from starbucks to get himself a coffee. He didn't even ate anything for breakfast. "Im really sorry." inunahan na niya, bago pa man siya sermonan ng mga ka member niya ay nilapitan na s'ya agad ni Josh.

"Ga are you okay? you look pale, and yung eyes mo what happened? did you cry?" josh asked in worriedness. "I-im fine." I said trying to convince him, he then shrugged it off.

"Tara na, lets get you dressed. may interview tayo ngayon." Ginabayan ni Josh si Ken hanggang sa pag palit nito ng damit. Not for so long ay natapos na rin sila. Hindi na sila umupo at nag chitchat pa dahil malapit na ang call time kaya't nag tungo na sila sa labas para makasakay sa service van nila.

They have a schedule for an interview at a studio. somehow their manager said yes to an interview after for not so long.

"Ken sit next to me." Pablo said, aparting the couple away from each other.

"Good afternoon boys, Im faye." The interviewer introduced herself. The boys also greeted her, and after having a little chat with eachother the show started.

"Okay, malapit lapit na rin tayong matapos sa mga questions! at ang gagaling niyo mga boys mag answer ha! okay this next question is for ken!" Faye excitedly smiled and continued her quest.

"𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗶𝘀𝗵 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗮 𝗱𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗺?"