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2023-07-17
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Unsent Messages Declaring My Love for You

Summary:

Dealing with regret, and grief, sometimes he wishes he said more. But now that the love of his life is gone, who'll receive his messages?

Written through Shu's POV.

Notes:

STORY IS NOT BASED OFF THE REAL PEOPLE THEMSELVES!! It's merely something I concocted while looking at angsty aus :)

Very short, just a little drop of angst, hehe.

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Did I ever regret not being honest with you?
Yes.

Did I ever regret that night, where we argued, and I said we were over?
Yes.

And did I ever feel any pain, when I realized that I could never take back any of those words I said on that day, anymore?
Absolutely.

Only the echoes of you remain in our apartment. The dust and debris of where you once lived. Filling the place with your resonating laughter.

Until today, does my heart still ache at the thought of you, alone and sorrowful. That day was the day I last saw the spark in your eyes before they left. Your beautiful, lilac eyes.

Why were we even fighting in the first place? Was it because we were both stressed? Was it because you came home later than usual? Is it because we had a misunderstanding? It was so fast paced, that no thought, hell, not a word that came out of my mouth was thoroughly thought out before I said it. I left you in a broken state. I'm sorry. Please come back to me.

I want to feel your warmth in my arms again. I can't close my eyes, and not think of you holding me. Touching me, kissing me, hugging me.

The news got around quickly. You were found in the kitchen, lifeless, in a ransacked apartment in the middle of the night. The neighbors said they heard loud bangs. I will never know what happened to you. What were you thinking? Did I ever cross your mind in that moment? What pain did you feel? Did you ever regret being with me? Or did you not care at all?

I never even got to properly say goodbye to you. Why is the world so cruel yet so loving? To introduce you to me, to make me know of your existence, just to snatch you away? To snatch MY whole world away?

"I'm sorry."
"I didn't mean anything that I said."
"Please let me explain."
"You are the light of my life. I can't lose you like this."
"Please don't go."

I wish I just made up my mind and told you what I felt.

All these unsent messages, declaring my love for you.

And even if I sent them now, I know no one would be on the other side to read them.

I miss you, Luca. I love you, to Saturn and back. The sun of my universe.