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I spot her having dinner alone at her favorite restaurant, I knew she would be here. I walk slowly and confident to her table and I sit in front of her.
"I want to talk to you…" I say with confidence as I look up into her eyes.
"I told you a million times, there is nothing to talk about…" I am not surprised he is here, I lower my oversized hoodie carefully as I keep eating, completely ignoring him. He is been doing this for weeks now, following me everywhere I go.
I stare at her, I feel sad and frustrated, I don’t want to leave. "So that is how it is going to be? After all the years we spend together, after all I’ve done for you. You won’t even hear me out?…"
"I have been hearing you out enough, don't you think?" I take a sip from my water and look at him, I analyze his puffy face, he looks like he is been crying a lot. I try to ignore it and I slowly keep eating.
My eyes start to tear up but I don’t want to give her the satisfaction of seeing me sad, I try to clear my throat and speak again. "You won’t forgive me? I am doing everything I can to undo the damage I did, I won’t ever do anything like that again. Please give me one more chance." I beg her, fixing my cream beanie that is buried on my head almost covering my eyes.
"A chance for what?" I laugh ironically.
"A chance for me to fix things, my mistake… I know I hurt you. You’re the love of my life, I don’t want to lose you. I want you back." I say my voice filled with pain.
"There is nothing to fix…" I take a bite of my food, feeling nauseous, I completely lost my appetite thanks to this conversation. There is a huge lump on my throat at this point.
"So what I did to you is irreparable, am I getting that right?" My heart starts to feel heavy, I knew I fucked up big time.
I sigh. "You think it was a small mistake? Is that so...?"
"No, I don’t think it was a small mistake, I know I did something very hurtful. Do you want me to beg you? I will do whatever it takes to prove my love to you, please just give me the chance to be by your side again." Tears start to fall down my cheeks.
"Stop…" I whisper as I close my eyes. "We are in public, stop this right now…" I warn him as I look around the restaurant. No one is looking at us, the place is almost empty but I am trying to distract myself from his tears running down his cheeks as he sniffs, his head is leaning on the table.
I feel embarrassed and guilty, I feel ashamed but I can’t believe my eyes are seeing her sitting there being so cold and distant… my throat starts to choke by a sob… "I am sorry…"
I sigh. "I am leaving now…" I get up struggling a little with what I am hiding under my oversized hoodie. I pay my bill at the front desk and I walk out the restaurant leaving him on the table alone.
I watch her walking towards the exit and I feel devastated. Before she leaves for good, I try once more to plead her. "No… wait. I can’t believe you’re walking out on me." My voice cracks as I see her leave, I feel defeated.
I walk out ignoring that he is walking right behind me, I can feel his heavy breathing almost on my neck. I grab a taxi immediately and I hop in, leaving him behind as the drives takes out.
Once she gets into her taxi, I walk to my own car, crying hysterically and in a terrible mood as I drive home. I can’t believe I lost the love of my life.