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Apartment 1310
Alone. In your own bed, your own room, your own apartment. In your hand your phone with his picture on the screen. It hurt so much that he didn’t understand and trust you. Why didn’t he get that you already had chosen him over any other man. That you weren’t with him out of default, but because he was the only man you ever wanted and loved. Wasn’t leaving your country, your job and family to live as his hidden girlfriend proof enough of your devotion to your relationship? And didn’t your friends prove themselves as friends by helping you out with jobs and opportunities to explain your presence in Seoul without involving him? Anyways, what hurt the most was to be separated from him. These were the last weeks you were supposed to live together before he would start his military service. You should spend every possible minute with him. Instead, here you were staring at his picture on your phone. The one you took at your trip to Busan when you met his parents for the first time. Those were the good times. There was no way you could let all that go over your first disagreement. At least, you should find a way to understand each other, find a way to save this beautiful love between the two of you. With a sigh you stood up.
Apartment 1306
Alone. On his bed. Your shared bed. In what he considered your shared apartment, but in the end it was his own if he wanted it or not. And the more he was thinking about it, his phone in his hand looking at the picture he took of you in his old room in Busan, the more his heart was aching. He was dreading the months ahead when he had to serve in the military not able to see you, hold you, touch you, smell you, taste you. He was dreading getting back to being lonely as he was before you brightened his life. Nobody made him feel as complete and content as you did. The mere thought of losing you was driving him crazy. On the other hand he understood that trusting you was necessary if he wanted to keep you. And then, there was this little voice in him saying that trusting you was fair, but trusting them another question. In the end, it all came back to trusting or not trusting you. And to the question if he really wanted to waste the last days you had together with arguing and being apart. Absolutely no way. Talk to you, figure things out. Trust you. With a sigh Jimin got up.
Floor 13
When you opened your door wearing his hoodie and your grey sweatpants you heard another door open and the silhouette of the most handsome man you ever saw appeared in grey sweatpants and a dark hoodie just like the one you were wearing. When you both stepped out of your apartments a short moment of awkwardness occurred until you couldn’t help to giggle.
“See, that’s what you call connection, isn’t it.”
He nodded with a chuckle. Then, you both took a deep breath and started to talk.
“I couldn’t ....”
You laughed and tried again.
“I think I ....”
Again you stopped, because you both were talking at the same time. You laughed and slowly the bad feeling in your stomach disappeared. Instead, the urge to embrace and feel each other got unbearable and you stepped closer until you could smell his cologne and almost touched. Looking into your eyes Jimin opened his arms and you snuggled against his chest.
“I love you”
He whispered in your ears. You looked up at him and pecked his plump, pink lips.
“I love you, too.”
He bent down to kiss you and pressed you tighter against his body while starting to walk backwards towards the door of apartment 1310. As soon as his back touched the door Jimin reached around with one hand and typed in his code. A soft click let you know that the door was open and Jimin started to walk again without ever leaving your lips unkissed. You passed the doorstep and heard it fall close behind you and while you were still wondering what Jimin was up to, you suddenly felt him spin you around and lay you down on what you recognised to be the couch. You were breathless by now, your whole body in flame and yearning for his touch. Your panties were drenched and you were permanently clenching around nothing. The heavy breathing of your boyfriend told you what the hardness between his legs poking your tummy confirmed. His tongue was still exploring your mouth and playing with yours while his hands, now finally free, were roaming around your body and eventually slipping under the sweater you were wearing. You let out a shaky moan the moment his fingers brushed your erect nipples. Feverishly, Jimin pulled the sweater over your head and exposed your bare chest. With a growl like a hungry beast he attacked first your neck, then your collarbone and finally your left boob with his full lips. You felt a jolt of pleasure rush through your body, your hips started moving upwards to get more friction to your needy core. But before Jimin continued to leave a trail of hickeys on his way to your centre, he removed his own clothes. Then, he tore down your panties along with your sweatpants, spread your legs and lay down to continue his work of marking you as his. Jimin took his time not caring about how needy and desperate you were to get to feel him on or better in your most sensitive parts. He placed his lips on the little mount just above the spot where your lips parted to reveal the pink abyss which was filled with your wetness. You felt him suck and lick and a loud moan escaped your throat. When he was done Jimin contemplated his art and whispered with a satisfied smile,
“Mine”
Before you could answer anything he lowered his head and drove his tongue through your pussy. You arched your back screaming out his name as his finger joined his tongue on your eager core.
“Jimin, fuuuuck”
A shiver ran through your body increasing while he kept lapping your juices from your burning centre until your first orgasm erupted like a volcano and you coated your lover’s mouth and fingers with your essence. He tongue fucked you through your high and then pulled you up and turned you around making you kneel. Your arms were holding onto the couch table while Jimin got on his knees behind you. He drove his hardness through your labia and with his other hand reached around to flick your swollen nob. In no time, he had you quivering again and as he felt your imminent second orgasm with a rolling of his graceful hips your man pushed the head of his cock inside of your waiting entrance. As soon as he started thrusting in and out there was no holding back for you. Loud moans and screams escaped your mouth and let everyone in the neighbourhood know how good he made you feel. The second wave of climax washed over you and you fell onto your forearms exhausted and overwhelmed, but Jimin wasn’t done. After a few breath to recover, you turned around with the thought of making him cum, but instead he locked your lips with his and picked you up. He sat you down on the kitchen counter and spread your legs wide open. Then two of his fingers plunged deep inside your creamy love cave. He curled them up and roughly drove in and out of you making you scream out his name alongside a bunch of expletives. Another knot built up in your lower regions before exploding, making you squirt all over your lover, who let out a deep growl of appreciation. Stepping closer between your legs he ravaged your mouth with a deep, hungry kiss, picked you up and lay you down on the table. Here, you felt everything at once. His tongue twirling around yours, his fingers twitching your nipples and his more than ready dick breaching your walls again. You bucked up your hips to meet his thrusts until you felt your last climax and how your inner muscles clenched around your man’s girth, finally sending him over the edge. With two last thrusts he filled you with his cream and for a short moment, his kiss and touch got soft and slow giving you time to breath. Then he announced,
“I hope you’re o.k. because I’m not done, yet.”
And with that, Jimin picked you up again without pulling out carried you through the apartment. This time he made a few more steps and when he finally put you down, you found yourself sitting on the counter top in the bathroom. You watched your boyfriend turn on the water and adjust the temperature before he held out his hand to you. He turned you around and in the mirror you now could contemplate your fucked out state and the trail of hickeys Jimin left on your body.
“Jimin, love, it’s ...”
But he didn’t let you finish your sentence. Instead, he slowly slipped inside your dripping cunt and gave you a few lazy thrusts with his reawakening length. The squelching noises were so hot, and when he reached around your waist to stroke your clit again, it didn’t take you long to cum again. As your legs gave in still shaking, Jimin praised you,
“You’re so good for me and now exactly where I need you. Open up for me, babe. “
You did as he told you and he eagerly slipped his glowing red head into your mouth making you taste your mixed juices on the smooth skin of his cock. Immediately picking up a rough speed, Jimin fucked your mouth pushing deeper every thrust until your eyes were watering. You concentrated on breathing and not gagging, wanting to give him as much pleasure as possible. Not long, and you felt him grab the back of your head and push as deep as possible. His dick was swelling to the max. You braced yourself and started massaging his balls with one hand while holding onto his perfect Jibooty with the other. One more little push, and you felt warm creamy liquid run down your throat.
When he helped you get up, your legs were still wobbly and you barely could stand. Jimin pulled you tightly against himself and together you stepped under the running shower. You washed each other, lovingly shampooing your hair and bodies and washing up all parts. After gently rubbing each other dry, you decided to go cuddle in bed and rest for a while. With your head on his chest you immediately fell asleep to the soft regular beat of his heart. Jimin wrapped his arms around you and caressed your hair softly. He knew that you still needed to solve the initial issue, but he was also more convinced than ever that he would do anything to keep you. When you lazily opened your eyes, they were met with the most beautiful smile on earth. You stretched your head a bit and he bent down to give you a sweet kiss.
“Hey, love. How are you feeling?”
He asked, but before you could answer, a rumbling in your stomach gave away your actual state. Jimin chuckled until his own stomach made a very similar noise. Both of you laughed. Then you agreed on ordering your favourite takeaway food and got dressed in comfy clothes to eat. After the meal you sat down and finally faced what brought you apart for almost a whole night. You sighed.
“Look, Jimin, I love you more than my own life. There’s nothing that can change this. And the boys, just like your members, they know that. They know that there’s no point in trying to break us apart, even if they wanted to.”
Jimin sighed. The torment of his heart was readable in his eyes.
“I know that, too. At least, that’s what you always let me feel and I believe in it, because that’s exactly how I feel about you. The thing is, having to leave you is driving me crazy. I don’t know how I’m supposed to be without you anymore. And the thought that they will get to be near you while I can’t is making me sick.”
“Jimin, darling, love of my life, you can’t imagine how it tears my heart apart to just think about you leaving. It does anytime you go away. And this time, you’ll be away longer than ever, and we’ll have even less opportunities to talk or text. On the other hand you’ll have a few free days when you’re done with your basic training and we’ll make it until them. Our love is strong enough. I trust that you’ll keep loving me as I keep loving you. “
Jimin nodded eagerly and leaned over to kiss you. After breaking the kiss you went on.
“But I’m alone here in a country which isn’t mine. I don’t know many people, because as soon as we met, you were all I needed. I gave up on other contacts, apart from work related ones, and my only friends are those guys from Stray Kids whom I know for a few years now and without them I wouldn’t even be here. I’m afraid of being alone. I don’t know what to do if I miss you so badly that I go crazy. Who should I ask for comfort, when not being able to hear your voice, see your smile or feel your arms around my body breaks my heart? Who can I ask for advice for life, especially Korean ways of life? Who’s there for me, when I get homesick or overwhelmed by stress at work or my insecurities? Who shall I share nice moments or holidays with when you’re not here? And finally, how am I supposed to be strong for you if I have no one to rely on in my weak moments? You going means living without the most important being in this world. Living without the person who makes my mornings brighter, who is my safe place, my support, my best friend and my love.”
The words were pouring out of your mouth like a heavy autumn rain while Jimin listened to you intently. He was holding your left hand and looked at you with loving but sad eyes.
“ You will have Jungkook with you. You will have comrades who, without any doubt, will love you. I like your parents very much, but they are in Busan and I’m in Seoul. We all have our work, they have your brother, too. And we don’t know each other that well, yet. And I don’t want to be a burden for them. I’d rather want to support them. But to do so, I need my friends. I need them to listen to my pain of not having you with me, to listen to my crazy joy over each text from you, to count the days until your first day off with me. And I need them to have moments of thinking about something else, doing something for me to relax and regain energy. I need a Felix or a Bang Chan hug to endure that I can’t have a Jimin kiss, you see.”
That made Jimin chuckle. And he immediately leaned in to kiss you softly, again.
“We are friends. We never wanted to be more than friends. I mean, they’re in a situation like you BangTan boys were in 2018. Next level of busy and on demand. They really have no time for relationships. And as much as we almost blindly understand each other, the attraction isn’t the same. When I hug them, it’s never to go on and end up fucking. It’s more like you hugging your brother. Wholesome, healing, nice. Not sexy. Like, the love for your family, the love for your members and the love you have for me is different, my love for them isn’t the same as my love for you. But if I should avoid them when your not here, that leaves me lonely with no love at all to hold onto.”
Jimin’s beautiful face got sad and concerned.
“I don’t want you to be lonely, heartbroken, in pain. I don’t want you to feel lost or left out. I want you to be happy and confident and safe. But I ... “
He closed his eyes and gulped.
“Imagining someone else holding you when it should be me just hurts. Not because I don’t trust you, but because I feel that it’s my place to be your comfort and support and company and safety and make you laugh and feel happy. Anyways. I get you. I won’t be here.”
He stretched his neck and sat up more straight.
“I understand you. I understand that I can’t ask of you to go through all this on your own while I have Kook with me and possibly even Jin Hyung. But, ugh, this is hard for me, o.k. I mean, you see them for work, right. Isn’t that enough?”
“Yes, I do see them at work and we surely will have schedule together. But you know that’s not the same ... How about this: I promise you that you will always be my top priority. I promise that I’ll tell you everything we do. No secrets, only full truth. And if you don’t like anything we’re planning to do or you want to do it with me, I’ll respect that. On top, I especially reserve all the time up to your enlistment date for you and you only?”
“You mean, you’ll stay at home or maybe accompany me to my schedules so that we don’t miss a single second of the last weeks and anytime I get some time to contact you?”
“I do have 2 or 3 meetings I really can’t cancel, but I think that, if I tell the boss that I need to work on some paperwork at home, he would be o.k. with that. And I’ll make sure to only work when you’re busy, too. And as soon as you start your training, if you have the time to message or call, I swear I let go of anything I’m doing and be there 100% only for you.”
“Anytime? 100%? Only me?”
You nodded with a huge smile seeing the relief on his face.
“Of course. Even if I’m in the middle of translating the president of SK meeting his US homologue or King Charles or the Pope. I’ll leave them on hold and be there 100% for you. And everyone in the company knows that already. To be honest, it made them laugh pretty much in the last meeting.”
Your boyfriend laughed out so loud at the thought of your colleagues being taken aback by you stating that from now on your soldier man would be more important than the President, Kings or the Pope. This time, the sweet kiss he gave you quickly got heated and escalated in clothes flying around, more hickeys on your body, but quite a few on his, too. You made it over to your bed where he made love to you in such an intense way that you needed a long, long time to come down from the bliss you felt and back into reality.
Jimin liked the idea of spending the last days entirely together and having you with him wherever he went very much, and you were more than happy to spend all the remaining time with your boyfriend. After you texted Chan and Felix and the others in the group chat you had together to explain that you needed your Jimin time before he had to go, they totally understood. Too well for your liking even according to the spicy comments you got. Chan helped you to clear certain meetings at work and have more free-time. This convinced Jimin a bit more that he could trust them. Like the fact, that they really held onto the boundaries and didn’t contact you unless you asked them something or he had a schedule where you couldn’t follow him. You lived your best days together in Japan, when everyone was thinking that Jimin was there with Jungkook. The later was in Japan for business, though, and not to hang out with his friend. You did meet him and have dinner together which was really fun, but most times Jimin showed you his favourite places in Tokyo.
When you got back from Japan, you felt the dread of the nearing enlistment date get stronger for you, but even more for your boyfriend. He worked a crazy amount of hours to get everything he planned for Army ready in time. He tried to connect to everyone he felt close to a last time and he got more and more clingy towards you. When December 10th came, his family arrived in Seoul. You moved over to your apartment again to give them private time with their son and brother. This night, your first one alone in your bed, would be heartbreaking you knew it. But you weren’t prepared for how much it hurt. Silent tears were streaming down your cheeks while you tried to sleep. 18 months like this, without him seemed an unbearable thought. Trying to get yourself together, you attempted to think about how fast time passed by the last few months since you moved to Korea, almost a year ago. You remembered your arrival as if it was yesterday. And just when the first fond little smile shone through your tears, you heard your front door click open and clap shut softly. Footsteps came nearer your bedroom door and then the door to your room opened. You looked up at the ethereal figure now standing next to your bed.
“Jimin “
You didn’t know why you were whispering and quickly whiped the tears from your face hoping that he didn’t see them in the dark. Jimin giggled softly and answered whispering, too,
“I couldn’t sleep. We can’t waste a precious night.”
“But your parents...”
“They don’t have to know.”
He was grinning so brightly that you saw his teeth shine through the darkness of your room. Lifting up your blanket you let your man slip in next to you and covered you both. Just inhaling his scent was so soothing. You cuddled into his embrace and both of you finally fell asleep.
The next day was a busy one of getting things ready, accompanying Tae and RM to their enlistment, getting him to his stylist for his haircut, which he reluctantly endured. It was no surprise to you that he looked beyond hot with his buzzcut, but Jimin was quiet. He needed a moment to process that the short haired man in the mirror was going to be the Jimin he would see for 18 months now. After a lot of reassuring kisses, Jimin finally got up with a sigh and you both left thanking the stylist and bidding your farewell for the time being. Heading to the last meetings, you ran across some of the younger Hybe artists who all came up to express their well-wishes to Jimin. They side-eyed you, but greeted you friendly without asking questions. In the evening, you had dinner with the Parks and the Jeons. It was your first time meeting Jungkook’s parents, but they were just as sweet as Jimin’s and both together really felt like being a big family. Still, the next day was spreading its shades on the atmosphere of the evening, and when you parted everyone was sighing. The last night, the last kisses, last touches, last time making each other feel heaven. It felt unreal. When Jimin was in the bathroom, you shed a few tears again and as he came back you whisper-cried together and fell asleep clinging to each other desperately. In the morning, when Jimin dressed up for the ceremony in his apartment, you bowled your eyes out to get the worst sadness out of your system for now and be able to be strong for him and his family during the ceremony. Then, you got dressed yourself and went over to Jimin’s place. Greeting his parents, you noticed that his mom must have been crying, too. You both smiled at each other in silent understanding. Sitting in the car that came to pick him up, you already felt the distance. Jimin’s thoughts were already at what would happen and how it would be and if he would meet all expectations. Somehow, this was a relief to you. The pain you felt and the loneliness was enough for two. You didn’t worry at all that he would not only meet, but surpass all the expectations put on him. As you told him this, Jimin smiled.
“Thank you, babe. Thank you for going through all this with me.”
“I’ll go through hell with you, Jimin. And this is only a temporary thing. A test for our relationship. And I’m ready to take it on and pass the test.”
You felt him take your hand and squeeze it But as much as you longed to kiss him, you knew this wasn’t possible here, in the presence of his parents. So, you just smiled at him and held his hand even tighter. You arrived at the ceremony site and now everything went rather quickly. You were like in a fog, calming down your emotions and holding in your tears was eating up all your energy and concentration, so that later, when people asked you about the whole procedure, you hardly could answer anything. And then, when the final goodbye came, you first gave Jungkook a tight hug and asked him to keep an eye on Jimin which made the young man giggle. But he still promised it. Then Jimin came to you and opened his arms to you with a huge sigh.
“I guess it’s time now.”
He said, reluctantly letting go of you after a hug much too short.
“I love you and I’ll wait for your texts or calls.”
He nodded and took a hairstreak out of your face contemplating you as if he wanted to burn your face into his memory. But suddenly, he seemed to be looking at something behind you and just as you wanted to ask, he spoke again.
“I have a surprise for you.”
He turned you around and as you looked over at the parking space, you saw all 8 of your friends coming up towards the barrier separating the barracks from the outside. You looked at Jimin with question marks in your teary eyes. He smiled.
“I told them to come here so you don’t have to be alone. I know my parents are still strangers to you and when I talked to them about it, they assured me that they would take care of you, but they really thought that you’d be better with your close friends. So, I called Bang Chan and talked to him about everything and I know I can trust you and them. I’m glad that I can leave you with them now. “
“Oh my god, thank you so much, Jimin. I love you. You’re really the sweetest, most caring man ever.”
You were overwhelmed. A soft sobb left your throat and you fell onto Jimin’s chest one last time, but you quickly gulped down your tears and braced yourself to straighten your back and stand decently. Laying his arm around you, Jimin lead you towards the exit. There, he gave you a last hug and went to join Jungkook and the other young men, who were enlisting with them, without looking back. You knew that it was for the best. So, instead of making it harder, you went to take your leave from the Jeons and Parks for the moment. They insisted on you joining them later for dinner, before they would go home to Busan. You agreed thanking them for their kindness, and as they went to the cars, Stray Kids approached. Felix came first taking you into his embrace and they all closed around you giving you shelter and privacy to cry for a little while until you felt, that you could move on after a last glimpse at the site. With Felix at your left, Chan at your right and all your friends behind you, you slowly went towards their car to go home feeling grateful for their presence. Jimin on his side was relieved to see, how they protected and comforted you in the corner of his eye struggling hard, not to turn around. It eased his heart and comforted him to know, that you weren’t alone. Now, he could concentrate on the new life ahead of him knowing that, until he would be able to reach out to you, they would be there, whenever you needed them. But when he would come back, you still would love him like always.