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- That is one repressed boi.
- Obi-Wan, and by extension the entire Jedi Order, sure do have some issues about intimacy and attachment. So y’all getting together is going to be some form of an uphill battle for him.
- The main way I think he would deal with a crush would be to bury that shit DEEP DOWN.
- *John mulaney voice* I’ll keep all my emotions right here, and then one day, I’ll die.
- If it were a very small, not serious crush, he could laugh it off and just ride it out.
- But love, love is a different story.
- As shown by the recent Padawan book (that all the homophobes are currently having a fit over on twitter – bi and aro rights y’all), Obi-Wan has some complicated, or at the very least unexplored, feelings to do with romance. Young Obi-Wan explicitly states that he doesn't know how he feels about sexual or romantic attraction, so when he comes across you, his mind becomes a battleground.
- Every time he hears your laugh at some stupid little pun he made during training.
- Every time he sees that beautiful smile of yours when you’ve finally mastered that new force power you’ve been working on for weeks and you’re so damn proud of yourself (and so is he).
- Every time you get that glint of determination in your eye when you have a plan to get him, Anakin and Ahsoka out of whatever bullshit they’ve got themselves into this time.
- He just can’t take it.
- He knows he shouldn’t feel this way. He knows attachment is forbidden.
- But when sparks go off across his entire body when you lay a comforting hand on his arm after a particularly rough mission that you both only just survived, he starts to wonder whether attachment is really all that bad a thing.
- But even when he is busy tearing himself apart, he is so deeply, painfully, overwhelmingly in love with you.
- I honestly don’t believe he loves by half. He may have little crushes where he thinks that someone is attractive or respects them for what they do and how powerful they are. But when he is in love, he is all in.
- He may be believing he has betrayed each member of the Jedi Order personally through his actions, but he will still be absolutely besotted with you ever time you pass him in the hall.
- His mind is always on you; he wonders where you are, what you are doing, if you are in danger, if you are perhaps thinking of him too…
- This gets particularly terrifying when he is right in the middle of an important Jedi Council meeting to decide the Republic’s next move in the war against the Separatists and he has to use all his acting skills available to try and fool Master Yoda into thinking he is paying attention and totally not replaying the sparring match you two had earlier which ended with your lightsaber against his throat and you straddling his hips… (something you can read about more here 😉).
- “Master Kenobi, any thoughts, have you?”, “Err, y-yes… um, yes, I agree with what you just said Master Yoda”, “I did not say anything”, “um......”.
- He will try and spend as much time as possible with you and around you. Your presence is both calming for him, and also electrifying. He fears the burn of temptation, but damn if that burn don’t feel so good.
- He can usually has a good excuse to pass off being so close to you all the time. “dear, could you come and take a look at these battle plans, I need your wonderfully trained eye on this one”.
- SPEAKING OF, PET NAMES!! This man is the king of pet names, in or out of a relationship. Dear, Love, DARLING… oh my god I love him <3
- He will use any possible term of endearment to show you just how much he loves you without actually saying it. And also to flirt with you ;)
- “well done, darling, that was excellent”. He is the king of praise and is so fucking proud of you. He loves being teamed up with you on missions so he can see you in your element, slashing down battle droids like they were made of paper.
- “Anakin stop whining, you will get your chance to pilot. At least with them flying we might come back in one piece for once, right love?”
- Speaking of Anakin… that boy sees EVERYTHING. Chaotic dumbass he may be, but oblivious he is not (unlike his own master who is completely oblivious of your own feelings for himself). Whenever Obi-Wan wanders into the training room five minutes late with a goofy grin on his face, he instantly knows it was due to getting caught up chatting with you.
- “So, Master… late again I see...” *winks* “Anakin… just don’t.”
- Sometimes Obi-Wan swears he believes in soulmates because your connection in the Force is so strong. Your existence in the Force melds so well with his own; they complement and calm each other and bring out the best in each other and your abilities together. Just being in your presence calms his nerves; even after his most terrible of days out on some war ravaged planet, trying to defend any remaining shred of good that the Separatists hadn’t blown to pieces, simply laying his head in your lap, your hand running gently through his hair and feeling your aura in the Force could clear his mind of every trouble and leave him in momentary peace.
- Obi-Wan would hold all his feelings in his heart, loving you afar and fearful of making a move…
- Until a disastrous mission of the Clone Wars. Your group had been betrayed by an imposter in the army, many clones were killed and you and Obi-Wan barely made it back alive. You both stood alone in an empty briefing room, emotions high and caked in dirt, blood coursing through your veins. You lock eyes, silent and watching each other like hawks. Suddenly, you are both running at each other, throwing your bodies together, lips locked in a passionate kiss. It was messy, lips and tongues and teeth everywhere, hands hungrily gripping onto anything they could reach.
- It was DESPERATE.
- The culmination of years – decades – of pining finally released in a flurry of overflowing passion and lust and love.
- Eventually, you two broke away panting, your eyes spilling over with waves of pent-up desire. Obi-Wan reached up to cup your cheek, that goofy, dreamy smile returning.
- “well, my darling, now I’ve had a taste, I’m never letting you go again.”