Chapter 1: The beginning of hell that is living
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This sucked it really fucking sucked lea was up once again at 3 in the morning for what seems to be no reason at all, shes tired and really needs sleep, so why wont her body just let her? It's like the world has something against her just living. Why was she like this? Why couldn't she ask for help? Her siblings are right there.
So why does it feel like she has to do everything by herself. Why cant she rely on her brothers, oh that right she can, but she choose not too why must she make this so hard why is wanting help so hard why does it feel like if she asks for help the whole world would explode, why does she feel like she cant ask for help- she loves her brothers why does she choice to suffer, does she want this? does she want herself to burn out? Shes hungry, really hungry she doesn't know when she last ate but it was a few weeks ago the emptiness has started to soothe her, she feels comfort in being empty but its not good is it, the way she can see her elbows sticking out- the way her face is sinking in she feels sick looking at herself..
suddenly she hears a knock "Lea.." Donnie calls through the door "..ane" he says in a soft voice, he only calls her that when he's upset which scares her "yes, otōto?" she says to the younger boy outside her door "are you gonna eat today..?" he asks gently trying not to scare her into hiding her feelings from him, she hesitates which upsets Donnie "ane you have to eat.. you'll get sick.." he says through the door sadly which causes Lea to curl up on her bed further in on herself "im gonna eat later, ok otōto?" she says through the door softly and she can hear Donnie sigh "ok.." he says softly as she hears footsteps walking away from her door.
little did Donnie know, lea wasn't gonna keep that promise.
Chapter 2: why cant you be normal..
Summary:
sigh, this has hurt/no comfort in it but their comfort in the next one
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A few weeks past, Lea is still not eating though she keeps promising her brothers she will.. she never does and she starts looking even sicker. Donnie walks into her room "ane.." Lea looks up from her spot on the bed to see all her brothers looking at her weak frame "Lea.." Mikey says with a wobbly lip that crushes her heart "mike..?" Raph looks pissed and walks over to the bed grabbing her- she tries to pull away but her malnourished figure cant overpower Raph
He drags her to the kitchen "raph let me go!" she yells and kicks before eventually giving up and he sits her at the make shift dining table he goes to the fridge and pulls out some leftover pizza and heating two slices for her, she tries to run but Donnie and Mikey hold her down at the table "Lea.." Donnie whispers "please.." he begs and she cant deny her little brother.
She settles down in the chair "ok otōto.." she whispers and Raph sets the pizza Infront of her "eat Lea." he demends, she sighs and starts to stomach the pizza and gets sick half way through the first slice she gags and Mikey rubs her back gently "its ok sis you don't have to finish if you cant" he says gently and she stops eating, Raph looks anger but he accepts that she physically finish.
"Lea is that as much as you can eat" Raph asks and she nods, he sighs "ok you can go.. but if you don't come out of your room again tomorrow I'm dragging you again" she nods again and Donnie leads her back to her room.
Chapter 3: Im sorry
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As Lea was lead back to her room she started to feel more sick as if she was gonna throw up any minute, Donnie looks concerned "Lea..?" he says gently and Lea looks up with him with teary eyes "I cant keep it down.." Donnie's lip wobbles "you cant throw it up, you need the food Lea.." small tears roll down her eyes as she tries to keep it down for her brothers. Donnie lets out small tears as well "Lea.. please.." she swallows hard and nods "lets get you to bed ok..?" he says gently, she nods again not trusting herself to talk he lets out a small sigh with a gentle sigh.
donnie leads her to her room eyes slightly wet- he feels so worthless that he cant even help his older sister eat- his sister that basically raised them, he cant even help her and he feels weak, so helpless and he cant do anything about it but make sure she keeps food down.
since that day raph has gone in their everyday and forced her to eat, someday are worse then others where she cant even keep food down and ends up throwing up but over day shes able to get down a slice of pizza or something lighter which is good- its progress, tiny progress yet still progress and she seems to be putting on weight which is wonderful considering how skinny she was before- shes gained a full 5 pounds which makes her brothers very happy. they haven't told Casey or April yet and don't plan to untill Lea says it ok.