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moving in with simon and john, or johnny , as simon always called him, was something he didn’t regret. ever since day one, he had felt as welcomed as he could be. simon was distant while john was very social towards their new roommate. and john always reassured him that simon would open up with time. but even so, he always did feel like somewhat of a third wheel. but sooner or later, john was right. as the days and weeks went on, simon would slowly but surely get a bit less intimidating.
but it all really changed one day with something that he apparently wasn’t supposed to see.
he always assumed simon and john were very close, so he wasn’t fully surprised when he found his two roommates kissing. but he was still surprised to see it nevertheless, and ended up quickly leaving soon after. he felt a bit awkward just standing there and seeing his two roommates kissing in the middle of the kitchen, so he left. the reasonable thing to do right?
that’s what he thought would be correct, but it seems simon thought differently.
because the same day at night, after john had fallen asleep early, simon approached. he was in his room just sitting on his bed with his back against the headboard. on his phone with headphones on when he saw that his door opened in the corner of his eye. so of course he looked up out of curiosity and saw simon walking in. that usual stoic yet stern expression on simon’s face.
simon stood a couple steps away from his bed wth his arms crossed over the chest. and when simon said nothing, he took that as a silent message to take off his headphones and pause his music.
“is there something you need?” he asked with a raised eyebrow.
“back in the kitchen early this morning. do support what you saw? yes or no .” simon replied, both men making direct eye contact. simon stared deep and intensely into the other man’s eyes. they both knew what the other was thinking. but simon’s straight forward manner had him hesitating a tad. this was the most simon has ever said to him after all, and it had caught him a bit off guard.
“..if you mean that i support your guy’s relationship, than yes, i do.” he explained, a bit hesitant of the situation, but confident of his words nevertheless. his expression showed no sign of dishonesty as he held eye contact with the other man. “i’m no were near being a homophobic, so that’ll never have to be a worry.”
and his words seemed to please simon as he ended up walking out of the room a couple seconds later. once simon had left and closed the door behind him, he was once left in his lonesome. he only gave this whole situation one more thought before he shrugged it off and went to what he was doing.
simon and john’s relationship was none of his business after all. his only role in this is that he made it clear that he wasn’t at all homophobic. and he hoped he accomplished that tonight.
and he gave himself a pat on the back because he assumed his words had been a success. the next morning, both men were way more open about their relationship. and they both even seemed more comfortable around him.
it was definitely a successful win in the long run, because as weeks and months went by of all three men getting to know one another, they all got quite close. despite the couple of times he still felt like a third wheel. but putting that aside, he would’ve never guessed he’d ever get this close to another person. but here he was this close to two people at the same time.
it always made him smile and his heart so happy when he got to spend so much with john and simon. but soon the day came were john and simon would have to go back on deployment. he had said goodbye to them that very early morning at the front door. he shared many hugs with john that morning, and even got a side hug from simon on the way out.
he’d miss his roommates dearly, especially with how close they got over those months of living together. but he’d gave to accept it, having to wait for their arrival back. whenever that may be.. and hope that they both came back in two whole pieces.
as the days went on since then, adjusting to not having his roommates around was harder than he thought it would be. he didn’t realize how much he would’ve missed those two men till they actually left for deployment.
and this whole adjustment brought on some confusing thoughts in his mind. soon after all this sadness of missing his roommates he started to question things. he wondered if they missed him as much as he did them. but then he’d excuse the thought because how could they miss him as much as he did them when they had each other?
he wished he had someone like that. and he did think about it for a second, but with the wrong people. he imagined it with his two roommates, and he immediately shook that thought away. he wasn’t supposed to be thinking like that about his roommates. even more so when they were dating! but it seems that after that, his mind just couldn’t let it go.
after that, he couldn’t stop imagining a loving life with the other two men. he yearned to have such sweet and loving moments with them. it was all he wanted in those moments. yet as much as he wanted that life, he knew he’d never be able to have it. they already had each other. they were each other’s missing pieces. and what was he? he was one of those left over pieces that you never use in a lego set.
he was already a third wheel before and now, so how could it ever change if they all hypothetically got together? it wouldn’t. they’d still click while he didn’t.
those thoughts had left his life gloomy for a while til he finally decided to move on. sitting in that mindset was unhealthy, and he wanted to fix that for himself. he also wanted to fix it before the two men got back so they didn’t assume he ever had those feelings.
so he had self improvement, and got a better mindset. even if those thoughts still lingered. he even met a guy before the two men got back. he had welcomed the two men home with open arms and a warm smile. he got them all settled in, helping them transition back into the domestic life. he even introduced them to the guy he’s been seeing. his boyfriend. seemingly so happy together. and simon and john seemed happy for him too.
unbeknownst to the fact that simon and john had planned to taking him out to dinner that very night. to hopefully make a move. to hopefully swoon him and steal his heart. but now it only seemed hopeless.