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Things settled. Everything was quiet. Rey knew it was just like holding your breath before you jump into deep unknown water. The battle was near.
Everyone at Resistance base at D´Qar was getting ready for surprise attack on the First order. Rey wasn´t. It bothered her that even though Ben provided them with every single detailed information he could, he was still locked up in a very remote cell. She knew general Organa wanted to talk to her, but Rey felt she couldn´t confront the woman without asking her why she treated her only child this way. Rational part of her brain reminded her it was because he was a murderer and traitor and didn´t deserve anything better. That particular other part of her wanted to beg general Organa to release him. Rey secretly hated her (and hated herself for that too) because she did not let her see him since they arrived. General was truly grateful for Rey bringing back her son and told her so openly, but that was it. Rey felt like she gave up on turning Ben back to the Light, she was just content with him being under her control so he couldn´t cause any more damage.
Plus, Rey´s conscience had a bad habit of reminding itself too. Nobody knew she abandoned her training to find Ben and stay with him. Everyone, including Finn and Poe, thought she sought out Ben to avenge Han Solo. Only the two of them knew it wasn´t true. Everyone also generously decided to ignore the words he addressed to her just before they put him in a cell. I love you. Rey knew he meant it, that it came from his heart. But she couldn´t do anything about him being in prison, awaiting his future fate, not being able to help them in this decisive fight.