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some nights are like this and you don’t know how to fix them
sometimes you cry in your bed quiet quiet quiet stay quiet no one can know
softly lightly silent tears bite your arm so they stay that way
don’t bruise your arm but it happens anyways you can’t stop it
don’t make yourself bleed but you can’t help it
don’t leave a mark no one can know they'll know if you leave a mark so you can’t
cry quiet quiet quiet make yourself bleed bruise yourself hide it later because who cares
who would see your hurt and want to help who would see your hurt and care
but stay quiet quiet quiet don’t bother anyone don’t force them to care
they don’t need to know they don’t need to care
nights like tonight hurt you know you need help but who would be willing to give it
you know no one cares you know you can’t get help you probably don’t deserve it anyways
so cry quiet quiet quiet don’t make them feel like they need to help
but even when you cry quiet quiet quiet someone notices
it’s impossible and yet he’s there with you you’re bothering him yet he stays
he notices your tears your face is against his chest how could he not notice
he notices your blood your arm is around him how could he not notice
you refuse to bother him you cry quiet quiet quiet but he notices
he
he cares
he knows what nights like tonight are like he wants to help you
you don’t believe it he doesn’t want to help it’s impossible
no one cares about you he certainly shouldn’t be an exception
but he cares he cares he wants to help he holds you close and you cry more
it’s impossible he can’t care about someone like you but
but he doesn’t care about someone like you
he cares about you
and you cry quiet quiet quiet face in his chest hands in his hair
leaving tearstains on his shirt bloodstains in his hair yet he stays
he tells you he can get new shirts he can wash his hair he can cut his hair
but he can’t get a new wife
and you cry harder still quiet quiet quiet you can’t be his wife this isn’t right
no one loves you enough to care about your hurt why did he marry you
this can’t be right and yet it is you know he’s right you can’t comprehend it yet he’s right
how is this right how can he love you how how how why why why
how is anyone here with you why is anyone here with you
he’s willing to kiss away your tears to suffer through your crying your bleeding
why is he there why has he not left by now he knows who you are and he’s still there
he must have a reason for that but what is it why is he still there
he knows who you are and he’s still there
he knows who you are
he’s still there because he knows who you are
you can’t understand how but he knows who you are underneath
and he
he loves
he loves you for it
this can’t be right yet it is
he can’t be here yet he is
he’s right here right here always be here this is right
this is right
cry quiet quiet quiet because this is right this is true this is good
he knows you
he loves you
he cares
stop being quiet quiet quiet
trust me
he truly knows you truly loves you truly cares
he doesn’t want you to be quiet quiet quiet
just cry
cry
and it’ll be okay
it'll all be okay
you’ll be okay
you're okay
i promise
and so does he