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Meine Liebe, my dearest love.
How are you? Well I hope. It seems like vast oceans of time since I last held you in my arms. Every day without your presence is tortuous, I dream of you and wake to my bed empty. I would rather stay sleeping, where I can press your body close and pretend that you are here, but duty always calls.
It’s very cold here, you would like it. I could keep you warm and there are plenty of people for you to fix always. You fixed me in ways I never thought possible, then broke me all over again into shattered pieces. I know you did not mean to do so and I forgive you for the pain it caused me. I will not forgive you however for breaking your own heart. It is mine, your heart, whatever you say to deny it.
When will you come to me? I know you think Riley is a good man. But I am a good man too. You drag it out of my soul, every finger you lay on my darkness bleaches it with finely balanced purity. I’ve never known anything like it and I want to tell you how much it hurts, to descend back into violence after feeling so much light.
I love you more than he could possibly contemplate, Riley just doesn’t have it in him maus, you must understand this. I would give you everything, just say you will leave and it is yours.
Have you told your husband yet? Told him about those nights we spent together in his bed? How I tasted your flesh and drank you in? My delicious poison, you flow through my veins and I cherish it, even though the taste is now so bitter without you here at my side.
Your talents are wasted where you are, but you know this, I have told you many times. I promise I can give you the life he is not prepared to, I will keep you safe from anything and anyone that tries to drag us apart. Just hand me the dagger and I will wield it on your behalf liebe. Blood does not bother me, especially if I am spilling it for you.
I will be here waiting for you. My weary feet will land in London again in a few months. I hope that you will meet me? Just so I can see your face, I don’t care if it is only for five minutes. Five minutes would be enough to help me get through the next few months alone.
Ich liebe dich maus.
K