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He had sat in his room hiding himself after that day, damning his physiology for what he had done but even cursed at Clara for thinking of doing such a stupid thing as quitting her birth control just because they had never done it and expected that never would. Deep down he did want to and to be a father again but only when he was ready – which as he thought about it, was never. It pained him because she would be gone in a blink of an eye like everyone else.
The Doctor sighed as he stood up and opened the door seeing Clara standing there her hand raised almost knocking on the door. They looked to each other as if they were about to speak at the same time. His fingers rubbed against the door wondering if she was going to start the conversation as usual but it wasn't the case this time. “Are you alright?”
“You didn't want to have sex with me did you?” She slicked back her hair over her ear as she waited for his reply.
He gently shook his head, “No.” He looked as her face saddened to which he gently lifted her chin up so he could look into her beautiful round eyes, “It was because I didn't want to hurt you.”
“It was rough yes but you didn't.” She sighed, “What about kids you don't want to have kids with me?”
He looked away and sighed, “I don't know if we can.”
Clara scoffed, “So much for 'superior physiology' if you can't even get me pregnant. You probably just spouted that phrase off because you wanted a reason to fuck me and then carry on like nothing happened. I'm so stupid.”
He looked back to her with a furrowed brow, “My care for you extends beyond all of that!”
She raised a finger up pointing, “And then there's that phrase 'my care for you' if you can't even say it why even have me here?” She pursed her lips in anger shaking her head walking off, “I'm not going back on the pill if you want to fake it with me again!”
The Doctor closed his eyes lowering his head in defeat and closed the door to his room.
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Clara woke up to the TARDIS materializing in bedroom she had him take her back home and never heard a word from him for two weeks. She quickly got up putting on her robe staring at the doors furiously waiting for the Doctor to come out. She huffed as it didn't open slowly getting angrier till she opened the door on her own.
“Doctor it's,” she leaned back out to look at her clock on the nightstand, “two! Two in the morning!” She looked back in seeing that the Doctor was no where to be found.
His voice echoed around the console room, “You never understood me.”
She walked around trying to pinpoint where he was, “Because you're so alien and it's also two in the morning!”
“Yes, I am sorry but this couldn't wait.”
She shrugged, “So?”
“I carried you to bed and stayed with you, when I could have just left you on the floor in a senseless mess watching over you like a mindless animal that had claimed his trophy.”
She stopped in her tracks, “Wait, you really were set off by me?”
He appeared behind her suddenly in his maroon velvet suit,“Yes.” He chuckled shaking his head, “It's silly that a human can set me off so.”
She glared at him, “Doctor..”
“Sorry, really I don't mean it like that. Well I do but I never wanted that to be our first time.” He clasped his hands rubbing them nervously. “I wanted to do it right, food and flowers whatever you humans do.”
She bit her lip, “So I messed up?”
He gently shook his head, “No, you can go back on the pill or not that's up to you.”
She nodded then pointed out of the TARDIS to her bed, “Can I go back to sleep? I do have to be a teacher tomorrow.”
He smiled softly, “Would you like me to lay with you?”
She smiled back walking to him taking one of his hands into her own gently tugging him outside to her room. She took off her robe and got into bed with the Doctor following suit pulling her to him like they had before.
Clara smirked as the light from the TARDIS was in her face, “Doctor you forgot to close the door.”
He snapped his fingers causing the door to close, “Sorry.” He smirked as he felt her hand slowly snake itself lower on his stomach and gently picked it up and kissed the back of it, “Didn't you say you had to be a teacher tomorrow?”
“Doesn't mean I could lose a little sleep.”
“Sadly, my dear, not tonight.” His other hand gently rubbed her hair as his fingers gently graced her temple causing her to gently fall asleep.
Clara eyes fluttered awake looking to the TARDIS still in its same spot and the Doctor still under her surprisingly asleep himself. She smiled as she sat up leaning over giving him a soft kiss on his cheek causing him to stir.
“I wasn't asleep.”
Clara giggled, “Good morning.”
“It is morning though the quality of it is still to be seen.”
She gently patted his arm, “You know what I mean.” She got up going into the shower. When she came out after dressing and making sure as usual her hair and make up were perfect she noticed the Doctor was gone from the bedroom and the smell of pancakes and coffee coming from the kitchen.
The Doctor smiled coffee cup in hand with a plate of pancakes and a cup of coffee set out for her, “Honestly does it take you that long to put on clothing?”
She smirked, “And my hair and makeup. You did this for me?”
“Yes.” He nodded proudly then looked to her, ”You did your hair?”
She shook her head smiling as she ate breakfast with a few cups of coffee as the Doctor looked on. She looked at the time as she finished realizing if she didn't leave soon she would be late, “I need to go. Will you be here when I get back?”
He nodded, “Yes.”
She smiled standing up going over to him once again planting a kiss on his cheek before she left her flat. He grinned finishing the cup before going back to his TARDIS and setting off.
“I'm home! Doctor?” She closed the door seeing the Doctor peering out from the living room holding his hand out smiling to her.
“Come on.”
She smiled putting her bag down and taking his hand, “It's not Wednesday.”
“I know, oh do you have any marking to do?”
Clara widened her eyes a bit in surprise, “No actually why?”
“You'll see.” He grinned and pulled her to the TARDIS that was now in the living room. He rushed over to the console pulling the lever down for a moment before lifting it back up. He waved her towards the door, “Go on look.”
She opened the door and peered out, “It's my bedroom at night.”
“Step out.”
She looked around noticing the silhouettes of plants strewn around as she stepped out, “Doctor why are there plants -” she gasped as she bumped into the nearby flower that softly lit up causing a chain reaction as the rest lit up softly illuminating the room.
He stepped out behind her, “Their glow lasts around an hour before you need to touch them again. They'll last around a week.” He leaned against the mattress of the bed as the rose like petals he had put out took on a soft glow as well. “D-do you like it?”
Clara nodded smiling softly, “Yes but usually there is dinner first before going into the bedroom.”
He frowned, “Right sorry, I forgot you eat more than once a week.”
She giggled, “I'll get takeaway then we can enjoy this.”