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It had been a few months since Scott and Ramona had broken up, 8 to be exact. The whole ex thing destroyed Scott and it was just too much to handle. He ended up moving back in with Wallace after the breakup. It may sound weird, but the whole time Scott was with Ramona, he kept missing Wallace. Not for any real reason, it was just more comforting. Scott had missed everything about Wallace's place. Being served breakfast, talking before bed, but, most of all, feeling safe. Scott always felt like he was hiding something while he was with Ramona. He didn't think he was though. That was until he got back to Wallace.
"Hey, dude. Are you doing alright? You've been just sitting there for like 5 minutes," Wallace asked. Right. He had off work.
"Yeah! Sorry! I was just thinking."
"You sure it's not another E kinda situation?"
"Yes, Wallace. You've asked me AT LEAST 20 times since the breakup happened. I'm seriously okay. Don't worry!"
Scott was not in fact okay. Just last week, he had a relapse. That hadn't happened since Envy. But, it wasn't because of Ramona. Scott didn't know what caused it, it just happened one day. He didn't want to explain it to Wallace when there was no good reason. Scott just wanted someone to tell him that it would be okay. He wanted to feel loved. By Wallace.
"I'm gonna go to the bathroom real quick, I'll be back in a minute."
Scott walked to the bathroom and locked the door. He grabbed the blade that he'd been storing under the sink for months, maybe even years. Scott lifted up the sleeve of the sweater that Wallace had let him borrow and instead of doing anything, he just broke down. He didn't know why or when it happened, but he liked Wallace. More than he liked Ramona, more than he liked Envy, more than he liked Kim. Scott liked Wallace more than anyone else. He didn't know how though. I mean, sure, he's called Wallace pretty and thought about kissing him. But, that doesn't make a dude gay, right? Those were totally normal thoughts. Scott decided to just leave it for now. He'd figure something out.
"I'm back!" Scott said as he walked out of the bathroom. He was really hoping that Wallace didn't realize how long it took him. Scott sat down on the shared bed and started thinking. "Wallace, I don't think I'm actually okay."
"Yeah, I could tell. Everyone could. You're really bad at hiding things, dude."
"It's not even the breakup. I don't know what it is. There's just a lot going on in my head. There's not really anything that could help." Scott knew that was a lie. He wanted to tell his roomate that, but didn't want to ruin anything.
Wallace just nodded and looked at Scott for a bit. "Well, you should probably get out of the house. It's been days and it might help. I can always come with you."
Scott nodded and put his beloved jacket on. It had been through a lot, considered he'd had it since he was in school, but he refused to give it up. "Man, I'm really sorry I make you do all this."
"Don't be, I was the one that offered. Besides, it's kinda nice having company."
Scott just smiled a bit and grabbed Wallace's hand. He'd been doing that a lot since the breakup, but Wallace didn't really mind. If something helped Scott, it was okay. "So,where to?"
"We can just walk around if that's okay with you." Wallace knew doing a lot would make things harder on Scott, so he just wanted to keep it easy for now.
Both of them just walked around town for a bit, occasionally stopping to look at the store windows. It was nice like this. Scott still wanted more though. He wanted Wallace to be his boyfriend, not just act like completely platonic best friends. "Can we sit down for a second, Wallace? I'm getting tired."
"Sure, we can just go home if you want."
"No, it's fine. We can stay out longer." Is Scott mostly saying this to hang out with Wallace longer? Yes. But it was also helping, so it was okay. They sat down and Scott leaned on Wallace for support. He wanted Wallace to get the hint. That probably wouldn't happen any time soon though. So, he decided it was just best to go back to their apartment. "Actually, can we go home?"
"Yeah, sure." With that, they started walking back to their shared apartment. Wallace was kinda confused why Scott was acting all affectionate all of a sudden. It wasn't really an issue, just a bit odd. Really odd actually. The breakup with Envy didn't make him do this and he barely even saw Scott and Ramona hold hands. Who knows? It could just be Scott trying to get more comfortable around him. They've known each other since university, so that would be kinda weird though. When they finally get back to the apartment, Scott sits down on the shared futon after turning on his Sonic game.
"Wallace, did you miss me while I was living with Ramona?"
"Yeah, kinda. Other Scott was here for a month or two, so I had some company then. But, it was really boring otherwise."
"What ever happened to Other Scott?"
"We broke up in that month or two, I didn't really like him that much"
Scott just nodded and went back to his game, not really paying attention. He didn't really know Wallace's type, he just knew he wasn't it and would never be. It was kind of terrifying for some reason. Scott knew something bad would happen when Wallace eventually found out. He wasn't trying to hide it that much, he wanted Wallace to see, he wanted Wallace to care as much as he cared. "Wallace, why do you allow me to do all this?"
"All of what?"
"Like, stay at your house and sit around doing nothing."
"Yeah, it's okay, dude. I need to watch you, so you don't get bad again anyway.
Scott smiled at this. It was really nice just being taken care of. They sat in silence for a bit before Scott said something. "Wallace...I wish you were a girl"
"What do you mean? I'm not a girl and I can't be. You know this, Scott. Stop acting ridiculous."
"Yeah, sorry, I don't know why I said that. Just ignore me." Scott did know why he said that. He wouldn't dare to tell Wallace though. What was wrong with him? Why'd he do that? How could he be that stupid?